long distant relationship

Long distance is not easy.

It is not easy to watch someone through a screen instead of your eyes tracing the curves of their face while they’re standing in front of you.

It’s not easy to have a bad day and not be able to see one of the only people that can make it better. For something exciting to happen and not be able to celebrate about it that night.

To not be able to have brunch on Sunday morning, or make dinner plans for when you get off work, or snuggle up together on the couch for one of the nights a tv show comes on that you both love.

Sometimes you miss them so much and it’s like you can’t get relief from it. Sure, you plan times to see each other but some nights are bad and you need them right now and you need to touch them or you’ll die and your heart has never felt so lonely.

Long distance is not easy but one day it will be worth it. One day you’ll live in a cute apartment together where you can wake up next to each other and fuck each other to sleep and a see you later means see you tonight when we get off and it’s time for dinner. Long distance is a choice. It’s a commitment to say, “I love you more than all of the distance between us.”

—  you will always be worth it

When you meet your person, trust me you’ll know. It’s not like anything else you’ve ever experienced. This person will make you feel every possible emotion there is to feel and nothing makes sense without them. When you look at them you will see the most exquisite piece of art you have ever seen. You will look at them and know that their hand is the hand that you want to hold through all of life endeavors and trust me it’s not always rainbows and butterflies. Sometimes you get mad and say things you don’t mean but at the end of the day that person is still the one you want to curl up next to and fall asleep. And when you close your eye’s and imagine your future, that person is right by your side.

death isn’t the only way to lose someone you love. i lost my closest friends when i graduated high school. i lost my friends when they moved away to foreign countries. i lost my friends to misunderstanding and conflicts. i lost the boys i once loved to prettier girls. i lost faith in love with broken relationships and broken hearts. i lost my innocence to the cigarettes i smoked under peer pressure. i lost myself last summer to stupid drunken mistakes. i lost so much in the past year yet you’ve only asked me if i am okay when i lost someone to death .death isn’t the only way to lose someone you love.
—   death isn’t the only way to lose someone/nikitaguptaa

I’m lucky I got to exist at the same time as you.

come back.

she never said those words out loud but they continuously lingered in the air between them. the air that was intoxicated with the lies he told her and the pain she felt. the air that stood in between of them like a wall, blinding both of them. she never had to courage to say the words out loud, not even after four glass of wine that made her nostalgic of him, his breath, how he smelled and how deeply he was loved.  she wanted him to understand the unsaid words with every blog post she wrote and every song lyric she sang but they all just went unnoticed. unnoticed only by him. she wished he could come back to her but with time she realised, some wishes never come true. some wishes, no matter how much you wish for them, simply never come true..

don’t tell her its okay. she knows it is okay to cry when she wants. tell her to call you every time she needs someone to hear her out. tell her to talk to you about everything that is bothering her before she goes to sleep every night. tell her how one day there will come a time when everything makes her smile. tell her that even though right now she feels lonely, you’re going to give her the warmest hug when you meet her and everything will seem okay even if its momentarily. tell her the funniest joke and maybe she will smile but please don’t tell her its okay because she knows it’s okay to have a hurting heart.
—  //nikitagupta