long time no posting these

marshingmymellow  asked:

dude, i would sell my soul to read a kara/diana fic by you. i would give you my first born child for this. like obviously there is no pressure and you should do what you want but listen, but if you're asking for a show of hands, consider mine raised like diana by the amazons (was that a terrible joke? yes it was. hopefully you'll still write the fic)

don’t worry, bro. no need for souls or firstborns, but terrible jokes are welcome!

i mean, if we’re being completely honest, the most pressure comes from myself, because i’ve already got a pretty hefty outline worked out and i think i’m at, hm, somewhere around 14k words right now? i just can’t let it go, man. i’m hooked.

(i’m actually a bit nervous, bc this fic could easily turn out to be 50k words 😅)

!!!! I need help getting back to work.!!!!

💖😭💖

Guys, things here at home are difficult.

The Social Security (INSS here in Brazil) does not help me, they just keep toying with me even when I’m always presenting reports from all my doctors saying that I have no more conditions to work outside my home. I’m in treatment, I take all my medications right, but I still have panic attacks, anxiety attacks; There are days I can not even go to my yard, can you imagine taking the bus, a train and the subway to work ?

People, besides all that I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia: I have visual and auditory hallucinations; I do and I say things that I do not remember afterwards and that’s scary. I can not trust my own mind, always afraid to do or say something that will harm someone or myself … I live in a state of constant fear and alertness, my mind does not rest right nor my body because of the tension. I’m always tired physically and mentally since I need to police myself so I do not mess up.

I can not cook (I forget things on the stove and I’ve almost caused a fire at home once), I can not have anything sharp near me (when the crises are strong I end up self mutilating. .. I have several scars… or I end up cutting my hair) and I was already hospitalized for a month in the psychiatric ward of a hospital after a second suicide attempt (I cut my wrists and took sleeping pills).

Even with all this difficulty I do not want to give up on life. I thought a lot about trying to kill myself again, but that’s not the solution. So what can I do to continue? What can give me a reason to live and means to support me while the INSS does not help me? The answer was only one: work from home.

Work from home with things I know how to do, and for that I need the right tools. And that’s where you come in.

I will work with everything I can do at home, on the computer and with internet: I will work with drawing, graphic design, review of online / offline games, translations, video creation … anything .. .all things! But for this I need a powerful computer, a good tablet and other materials (in addition to money to pay the internet).

That’s why I will need your help, because the total value of all the things I need is  $1.420,90 USD
Yes, it’s a lot of money, but it’s also an investment and the only lifesaver I see right now.

Any value that you (yes … you reading this post) can send will help me A LOT! It does not matter if it’s $ 0.50 cents, 1 dollar or 5 dollars … ANY VALUE will help me get closer to my goals, closer to no longer needing to depend on donations to survive. That is all I can do: the means for me to be able to work on my own and in accordance with my limitations.

If you can’t or don’t want to help I understand. I’ll just ask you to share this post so that it reaches as many people as possible and that some of them can help me.

That’s it, folks. Some of you already know me for years and know of my struggles (many of you helped me a few times in the past too and for that I will be forever grateful) so I’d love to finally say to all of you: This is the last time I’m asking for donations. Now I’ll work and get my own money and maybe I will be the one helping people soon.

Thank you so much for your attention and I’m sorry for all the trouble.
God bless you.

Tatiana Breves

How to help:

Paypal: nieryka@hotmail.com (if doesn’t work as friends / family choose the option services <3)

For Brazilians: Conta Poupança na Caixa (pode depositar em qualquer lotérica):

Agência: 2871
Operação: 013
Conta: 23680-6

Em nome deTatiana Cristiane Kolisnyk Breves
CPF: 285.297.978-09

Note: I do not have a cell phone but if you want to get in touch with me it can be through facebook or email.

bad times with adhd:

  • cant read
  • can read, but cant comprehend what ur reading
  • boredom more like Time To Suffer
  • rsd
  • u wanna watch a video thats any amount of time??? thats too long, even if the video is like 10 seconds
  • becoming too aware of how things feel or how u do certain things or just regular bodily functions like breathing or blinking
  • staying up until 4 AM or later for no reason aside from adhd said so
  • that sinking feeling when u realized uve spaced out for most of a conversation and u feel too bad abt doing it to ask the person to repeat what they said 
  • overstimulation
  • meltdowns
  • when u have the motivation to get shit done, but executive dysfunction is like “lmfao nope”
  • trying to get certain stuff done and ur managing ok, but u still get distracted on occasion and u scold urself every time u do but u cant stop urself from doing it
  • the antsy anxiousness that comes with being confined to doing smth for too long
  • “i hope i remember this” u didnt remember it
  • outbursts which cause u to snap at ppl and then u feel bad but u couldnt help it
  • no volume control so ur constantly told to stop yelling but u cant make ur voice quieter 
  • *someone explains instructions and its a rather simple thing* “ok got it” u dont got it
  • getting irrationally irritated over the smallest shit but u cant help it everything is just So Frustrating 
  • “u know what i think im having a good day” and then mood swing that makes u either Super Sad or Super Mad for no reason
  • having what ur gonna say right in ur head but somehow u still space out in the middle of talking and forget what u wanted to say
  • forgetting why u were upset but still feeling upset
  • the sinking feeling of remembering why u were upset and now ur even more upset
  • when rsd is being extremely irrational and u know its bullshit but u dont have the energy to fight it so u just sit there in sadness
  • when rsd makes u self conscious abt stimming in public
  • having absolutely no time perception at all. what even is time ive never heard of that in my life
  • needing to get smth done and u manage to focus, but ur focusing on the wrong thing
  • overanalyzing past stuff thats happened and realizing other shit u couldve said that wouldve helped the situation and damn why didnt u think of that when u were in the situation
  • this is long i should stop now

okok theres one part of elements i really liked but keep forgetting to talk about so ill post it b4 i forget again

but HEYO finn and pb’s platonic relationship is. really very important to me holy shit, AT’s been pushing the ‘moving on’ from his crush thing for a couple of seasons now and i still go hell yeah every time its reinforced

LSP tries to break the fire elemental curse on finn by telling him to go to his happy place but his brain automatically goes to all this past romantic stuff with PB at first, its real bad because its still wrapped in flames but Then

finn crushes it, puts out the fire (or rage and anger/pain as the element represents here)

and he goes back to his real happy place, back to pajama wars (still a super fav ep!!) where all they did was hang out like best friends w no hint of romance whatsoever

it felt like a real throwback to Dont Look where finn’s “true perception” of PB wasn’t an infatuated crush but just one of his bros

my boy’s moved on and is learning and enjoying his friendships and im proud of him

A few adaptation highlights I liked

In manga we just get a view of his back

now turns to bakugou staring at a wall

this still scene

Originally posted by mobpsycho100

being animated in full = a+

and of course

Originally posted by xenoversez

All Might’s wicked nonsense flip we needed XD