long distant problem

I hate the feeling when you have to say goodbye to someone you want to spend every minute with.

10 things to appreciate in your LDR:

  1. You don’t always need to shave
  2. The texts you get from them make you smile at your phone like an idiot
  3. You still get butterflies just hearing their voice
  4. You get to have the cutest Skype dates
  6. You get to be a total romantic when writing letters and mailing them stuff
  7. You always get excited planning visits and talking about closing the distance someday
  8. Every visit is technically an adventure
  9. You really appreciate the little things that close distance couples overlook
  10. You know that if you survive the distance, you both can pretty much survive through anything
The difficulties of a long distance relationship.
—  I know it’s nothing a plane ticket or a car ride couldn’t fix, but God, you don’t understand it unless you’ve been in it, unless you’ve felt it. It’s that feeling that hits your chest when you two finally say good night after listening to each other’s voices for the past few hours, and you’ll wonder why every time you say good night it feels like a good bye. It’s how even though you two just had a wonderful conversation your eyes start to fill up with tears because it’s a bittersweet feeling, because once they hang up, you’re alone again. Not just physically, but mentally, emotionally. You’re alone. It’s how a good morning text stands in for a good morning kiss and how a “what are you doing?” replaces hand holding. It’s how you two can’t help but talk about how every moment will be spent when you’re finally together, how a kiss will be more than just a kiss, how a hug is something that will last hours instead of seconds. It’s how you know that once you get to touch their skin it will be like touching the moon, and each little freckle will be your star to wish on, only yours. It’s how you will discover new galaxies in their laugh, how each little scar will be more than that, it will be a story you want to read, so you’ll trace your fingers across them like braille. You think of all this, all day, every day, every moment, even when you two are lost in conversation, you’ll think of it. And that’s the thing that keeps you hanging on, that keeps you going. The promise that every time you see the moon, you’re one step closer to seeing them soon. So you’ll close your weary eyes and dream of them in your arms. Once you awake there will be a message, “Good morning…” and everything is right again.
It takes a lot of courage to love someone who is so far away from you. Not everyone is willing to try.

that feeling when your fp talks to someone else while taking to you and you want to disappear and not talk to him until he comes back but you know that won’t happen because you’re too attached to leave them alone for more than an hour

Something my therapist taught me

So I’m not sure if I have made this public knowledge yet or not, but I am in a relationship. This is truly the happiest I have ever been. I have found, who I believe to be, the love of my life. Despite my overwhelming happiness, I have been experiencing quite a bit of anxiety. Because of this new and thriving relationship, I have been thinking about things that I never would have considered in my past. I have been thinking about engagement, marriage, and even motherhood. It terrifies me to think that another human being can influence me this greatly and make me consider things that I thought I NEVER wanted. I fear that I am losing myself to my partner. I am losing my identity. I discussed this fear with my therapist. I told her that despite never wanting to have children, I have now entertained the idea of becoming a parent and it may be something that I could want in the future. I told her that I am horrified that my partner may be influencing me too heavily and I am losing my true identity. My therapist then explained to me the concept of self-evolution. She explained to me that I am not changing my identity, rather I am simply evolving. She reminded me that I may not like the same music, food, or even people that I did when I was younger, but that does not mean that my identity has changed. I have evolved. I am evolving into someone who isn’t afraid to love or be loved. After talking to my therapist, I am no longer anxious about the future of my relationship. Instead, I am excited.

Have you ever stayed up late with someone texting or chatting and known as the hours ticked by that you’d be ridiculously tired in the morning but it didnt matter because it was really fun and totally worth losing sleep over just to laugh with someone and enjoy their company maybe and then the next day you keep tiredly recalling how much fun it was while you’re falling asleep in class and that makes it not so bad that you’re tired anymore.
Struggle of a Long Distance Relationship • Part3

It’s so hard when I’m here and you’re there where we’re so far from each other. I’m here constantly missing you. All I can do is just reread our old text and looking at your picture wondering how it’ll feel like to finally be able to hold you. I admit I do feel jealous sometimes. I’m jealous that people who live close to you get to see you everyday, they get to hug you, they get to hear your voice and looking at you smiling or laughing. I wish I could do that but I only get to see you smile or laugh through a text. Looking at the flight ticket, wishing I could book a flight just to see you but knowing it’ll cost me a fortune and I do not have enough money

I want to be okay with the fact that you’re not here. I want to continue living my life everyday with a smile on my face because at least I have you, even if there are oceans between us. But the truth is I am not okay with this distance. I am not okay with being away from you. Everyday is a struggle and everyday it does not get easier. I love you, I love you so much and I will wait, I will wait as long as I have to, to be by your side…but being away from you, it’s slowly killing me. I’m tired, I’m tired of going to bed at night without you by my side.

Always in the wrong time zone
Many times in the wrong decade
How many times is it going to be an almost?
How many times will I have to be okay?

It’s 3 pm now and I want to go back to sleep.
I want to wake up when you wake up and I want to be just the right age when I do.

Love is supposed to make people say things like,
‘Age is just a number’
'Distance makes the heart grow fonder’
But numbers are powerful and distance is a lot harder.

So this time again, I will try to forget,
Maybe indulge in people I can touch,
Some day you may be one such person too.

If someone SERIOUSLY wants to be a part of your life, they will SERIOUSLY make an effort to be in it.