If you’re into all things makeup then I can’t recommend this magazine enough!
From reading my creative makeup breakdowns to watching my makeup tutorials you’ll know I’m an avid fan of Kryolan UK products. My makeup kit originated in college back in 2003 and everything was supplied by Kryolan Professional Make-up, that’s where my love started.
On the walls in our makeup classroom hung posters of wild and wacky makeup looks by Kryolan artists. Everything they produced left me feeling inspired as a makeup artist, and the brand still has that effect on me now. Whether it’s the content created for this magazine, or, the astounding creations for their annual calendars, you will always be left in awe by the talents that represent Kryolan.
Back in my college days Kryolan were apart of Charles Fox and I used to visit their Covent Garden store (which is now their Kryolan Store) and I was like a child at Christmas. My eyes would light up and I would feel giddy with excitement as I perused the shelves desperate to play with every single item. I have always gravitated towards the SFX (Special FX) products more than the beauty ones. Something about seeing fake moustaches and foam latex noses lights a fire in my belly, and the inner artist in me instantly want to completely transform someones face! There’s no place like Kryolan at Halloween… Oh, except for my makeup room of course ;)
SO… Kryolan have released issue 4 of their M.U.I magazine and it’s brilliant, especially if you’re looking to further educate yourself on makeup or just learn more about the brand. Paul Merchant (Head of Make-Up and Make-Up Design at Kryolan UK) has created some inspiring looks within the magazine and has produced a step-by-step guide on how to achieve these looks. I’d recommend it for both aspiring MUAs and industry professionals alike, it’s packed full of tips and tricks.
I’d personally recommend reading the article about ‘Skin Tones and Skin Undertones!’ as it’s very informative, and important if you’re looking to get into makeup or brush up on your colour theory. Even if you’re just a makeup lover, when it comes to choosing the right foundation for you it’s essential you understand the undertone of your skin.
M.U.I magazine retails at just £5.95, and for the invaluable information it provides you with it’s a bargain!
This is not a sponsored post, I just felt it was well worth sharing with you all. You can purchase the magazine in-store or via their website ‘here’.
Peng, created his namesake brand in London in 2015. Peng is graduated
from London College of Fashion majored in MA Menswear Fashion Design
Technology, his works is defined as the One-sized Fashion, speaking for a
minority with special body sizes. In Peng’s design aesthetics, there is
no boundaries between beauty and ugliness, but to highlight personal
graduation works have been selected to present in London Collections
Men AW16 from LCF (London College of Fashion) Press Show. His collection is designed to empower the
fat people in the conventional sense to pursue beauty. Peng created
clothes which are suitable for both fat and skinny people by comparing
body shapes among different people. This concept is similar to the
standard size (one size), which is also applied on the target customers
of Peng’s collection, he called it One-sized fashion. If Social Equality
is an ideal state that is still far from us, then One-sized Fashion may
implement the concept of Equality in advance.
Jonah is college student who wants to be a Fashion Stylist.
He spent a summer at NCS, a UK-based, government sponsored initiative that helps young
adults like Jonah and teaches them life skills, such as how to
live independently, gain confidence and how to get a job.
Xiaomeng Yang London College of Fashion (LCF MA14 Graduate) - photography: Felix Cooper - styling: Anders Sølvsten Thomsen
Born in China, studied BA fashion design technology at Beijing Institute of Fashion Technology and MA menswear fashion design technology in London college of fashion. I drew inspiration from hands–the most flexible and complex part of human body. There are a variety of folding lines on the hands and they can be demonstrated by different types of gestures, just like dynamic wrinkles of the clothes which vary with the forms of different postures.
You may not know their names, but you’ve probably stumbled upon their work — from MatchesFashion’s buying director Natalie Kingham to Frances Corner, the head of the London College of Fashion. Their job titles run the gamut of gigs available in the fashion industry, but they all have one thing in common: These women are killing the game.
Everyone has ups and downs, but even that statement is not widely accepted in our community.
When I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 14 and I came and told my parents, their response was that the doctor was an idiot and didn’t know what he was talking about.
Of course I believed my parents and never bothered talking about it again, nor did I even try and explore it further.
Almost a decade later, I was bitter, miserable, unhappy, and just sad all the time. It was like there was never a light at the end of the tunnel for me.
In my mid twenties, it got worse. Life just got harder with the pressure of graduating, finding a job, finding a husband, settling down, having a family. My way of coping with negative situations only got worse, and I went through a few personal problems on top of that.
That is when the thoughts came into my head. Wanting to end my life. For years I kept feeling that way, but never found the courage to actually follow through with it.
The one time I did cut my wrist and ended up in hospital, was when I was aware of how bad things really got. That was also the day, my parents understood what I was going through and they just had no idea where to begin.
I was a 23 year old woman, who did not want to live anymore, and I was surrounded by people who had no idea of how to help me.
I spent the next 5 years in and out of hospital, different psychotherapists, different types of anti depressants, several more suicide attempts, and a nervous breakdown. I lost my job, most of my family and friends disliked me because I pushed them all away, and I was not capable of being in a relationship.
Do you know what I did? I went to the London College of Fashion and enrolled to do a hair and make up diploma.
In the midst of all of that, I wanted to do make up! The one thing I enjoyed since I was a young girl. So I decided to just follow that passion. The only passion. The only thing I felt I was good at. You all know the story of how hard it was to even convince my parents to not pursue a career in science, since I graduated with a Biology and Psychology degree, so you can imagine what sort of stress that also added to my endless list of issues. They simply had no respect for my career choice.
My job is hard, it is very stressful, you work under a lot of pressure. It is not just doing make up on people, but you are running a business. You also have to be patient and tolerant. Qualities I did not possess. I was so focused and driven to pursue my career in this, that I knew I had to figure out how I can learn to cope in negative situations, and not feel like jumping in front of a train at any given opportunity.
The first thing I did was go to my GP and talk. He suggested the right kind of anti depressant for me, and I started off with a low dosage. Most people get so scared of anti depressants, and if you do google it, there are tonnes of pros and cons to taking them. There are also so many different types of anti depressants. You just have to figure out which one works for you.
I am not a doctor, so I cannot describe what is does and how it works scientifically, but all I needed to know was that it numbed the pain, the bad thoughts, the constant negative feelings. Equally I did not feel anything positive either. You feel nothing. I needed to feel nothing. Isn’t feeling nothing better than feeling sad all the time?
Once the medication kicked in, I started seeing a psychotherapist. I know the waiting list to see a therapist is very long, but if you can afford it, just go online and find a local one. Most countries have a listing. The NHS site in the UK has a very descriptive list of therapists; their expertise and experience. You can pick and choose depending on what the nature of your problem is.
I tried several therapists until I found a lady who was just the right type of therapist for me. She taught me coping strategies. How to cope in a negative situation.
I find that with most therapists they get you to talk about your past too much. I understand that finding the source, the root of the problem is key to eliminating the symptoms, but not everyone can handle bringing up the repressed memories of one’s childhood. Everyone suffers from different types of problems.
My mum used to always say “What problems could you possibly have? We have done everything for you, you have a roof over your head, food, warmth, luxury, we buy you everything, why would you be sad?” Of course she was right. But I came from a generation where we didn’t talk about what happened in our childhood. We were wise enough at such a young age, not to burden our parents with things we knew they would never understand. More than that, we didn’t want to tell them things that would potentially hurt them. We tried to protect them by suffering ourselves. Imagine that responsibility being a child?And then what do you think happens 20 years later? We blame our parents for not having been there for us, for not having protected us, for not having saved us from that big black hole inside our head.
But it is not their fault. They never knew, and they were never exposed to the things we have been exposed to in the past two to three decades.
Once I was able to cope better with everyday things in life, I focused more on my career. I was motivated to build something that distracted me from all the bad things in my life. Some of my friends who have suffered from depression, all found something that made them appreciate life. For some it was having a baby, for some it was gym, and for some it was changing their career.
For me it was my career, IS my career. I put my life and soul into it, and worked hard to be where I am. I am still very critical of myself and still feel I have a very long way to go to perfect my skills, but it is enough to keep me going. Enough to make me feel content and happy.
I know I have a big social media presence, and I come across like the happiest person on earth, who has it all; that magical walk in closet, the million Zara items, that costly chia seed lifestyle, and those damn expensive Starbucks cappuccinos every week. But I want to inspire people, not show off to them. I want someone to see the benefits in the things I do. And also help someone, anyone, see the brighter side of life. Even if it’s through my famous chia seed dessert. I know the Starbucks is not inspirational in any way, but the coconut milk substitute is beneficial to your health! There you go! Anyway joke aside.
I want to make a difference. I have not had it easy, and nothing was given to me on a plate. I worked very hard, and suffered painfully, to be where I am today, and to be who I am today.
I hope people can see that through my social media posts.
When I got divorced, my parents thought I was going to try and harm myself again. They were like hawks in my house; constantly watching me, analysing me, and trying to talk to me. It really helped that they understood what I was going through. They understood that this could trigger my depression. As I now strongly believe that depression is a mental disease, and it never really goes away, it lingers, and just waits to attack. I did suffer a nervous breakdown. I did feel suicidal, and I was seeing a therapist again. But after only a few months, did I realise that I did not want to go down that path again. I did not want to take medication nor sit on a couch and talk about my ex husband. Instead I joined the gym, hired a personal trainer, saw a nutritionist, and focused on my inside. I just wanted to love myself. Figure out what I needed, and what would make all this go away. And it did go away. That cloud hanging over my head during the divorce went away. And it was all because I did that. I made it go away, by wanting to live. Wanting to be happy. Desperate to have another shot in life again. Believing that someone will love me, and that I will have a happily ever after.
We all deserve it. But how one achieves that is in no one’s hand but your own. You have full reign, full control of how you want your life to be.
Getting professional help is the first step. And once you understand what is going on in that head of yours, you should be able to explain this to your loved ones, because we all need the support of our family and friends.
When you are depressed you do feel alone and you shut yourself off, but even if it’s just the one person you can talk to, only one, it’s enough. It is better to have one person who you can trust, than a million negative people who are waiting to see you drown.
People love a gossip, and people are nosy, and you think they care, but all they want is entertainment. When you type my name into google, one of the most searched words associated with my company name is the word divorce. Do you know how many people still want to know what happened? Why I got divorced after only a four-month marriage? I never gave in. I have never shared my story on social media in the past 2 years. Firstly, it is no one’s business, secondly, it has nothing to do with my career, and thirdly it is not beneficial to anybody else.
All I want people to know is HOW I got through this, and HOW I overcame such a painful time. Because I know that divorce in our community, is another subject that is brushed under the carpet.
The stigma of divorce, depression, and all the other terms that are taboo in the asian community, need to be addressed. How else are we supposed to set an example to the younger generation if we are encouraging them not to face these big problems?
I received a message last night from a girl who was feeling suicidal, and after reading my article, she snapped out of it, and thanked me for motivating her to go seek the necessary help.
I was so heart broken reading that.
But then I was so happy I opened up about something so personal to me, because it made that difference to one person at least. And I can say that it was definitely the first time I have saved someone’s live!
Let us all save more!!!
I am grateful for all the comments, private messages, emails, and even text messages from previous clients, for sharing your stories, for supporting me sharing mine, and for wanting to help people who have also suffered or still suffer from this illness.
I was having a few bad days, which is ok, and I received a request from Women’s Planet to write an inspiring story for them. So I did. Timing, I tell you! Never did I imagine though, that I would get such a response. It really overwhelmed me and threw me off. I had never planned to ever talk about my depression, but reading all those private messages last night, made me realise that people were expecting me to share my story of how I overcame it. So I did. And I really hope this explains just a notion of who I am today!
I might not be able to make someone’s problems go away, but I can surely beautify them just for that one special day, and make them feel like they are worth everything. That is the power of my job, and I find it most rewarding. It is my way of giving back to the world, because we all deserve to feel and be happy.
I hope my blog was useful, and whether you yourself are suffering from depression, or know someone who does, then please take the necessary steps to seek/provide help.