lola and the girl next door

Me: *joins a new fandom*

Me: *watches all episodes/reads all books*

Me: *cries at the end*

Me: *tries to stay positive* Its okay. I don’t need my heart anyway.

Me: And my face is clean now. Tears really do the trick……

Gift ideas for bibliophiles!

Books are gifts you can open again and again. So here is a selection for all fiction readers based on themes/main characters:

Books with a physically impaired main characterSix of Crows and Crooked Kingdom by L Bardugo, The beginning of Everything by R Schneider

Books with a kickass heroineWar of the Fae series by E Casey, Graceling series by K Cashore, The Italian Saga by GB Amman

Books with a great POC main character: The Absolutely True Diary of a Part Time Indian by S Alexie, Island Beneath the Sea by I Allende, The Unfinished Song series by T Maya, The Obeahman’s dagger by N Daniels, The Lunar Chronicles by S Meyer, Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom  by L Bardugo

Books about loss: I’ll Give you the Sun by J Nelson, The Sky is Everywhere by J Nelson, Sex-O-S by GB Amman

LGBTQ romance: Carry On by R Rowell, Simon & the Homo Sapiens Agenda by B Albertalli,  I’ll Give you the Sun by J Nelson

Addictive series: War of the Fae series by E Casey, Graceling series by K Cashore,  Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom by L Bardugo, The Italian Saga by GB Amman

Books that teach you something: The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint Exupery, The Italian Saga by GB Amman, Shantaram by GD Roberts

Books for the bibliophile to be: the Harry Potter series by JK Rowling

 YA Page turners that are NOT romance: Neverwhere by N Gaiman, The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint Exupery, The Ocean at the end of the Lane by N Gaiman, An Italian Adventure by GB Amman,

Books about fictional not-so-fictional politics that will make you think: The President Factor by P Obermeyer, 1984 by G Orwell, The Hunger Games series by S Collins

Can’t put it down uplifting YA romance: Lola & the Boy next Door by S. Perkins, Forget Nico by GB Amman, I’ll Give you the Sun by J Nelson, Eleanor & Park by R Rowell,

Can’t put it down traditional “cheesy” romance: Rhyn trilogy by L Ford

Romance where the main heroine is not a girly girlLola & the Boy next Door by S. Perkins, Forget Nico by GB Amman, Eleanor & Park by R Rowell, War of the Fae series by E Casey, Graceling series by K Cashore, The Lunar Chronicles by S Meyer

Witty books that blew my mind: Timequake by K Vonnegut, Rant by C Palahniuk, Breakfast of Champions by K Vonnegut

Sweet coming out booksI’ll Give you the Sun by J Nelson, Carry On by R Rowell, Simon & the Homo Sapiens Agenda by B Albertalli,

Books with main characters that perceive themselves as overweightEleanor & Park by R Rowell, Sex-O-S by GB Amman

Books where the main character suffers of eating disordersSex-O-S by GB Amman

Books with a main character struggling with mental illness: Love like Crazy by M Squires,  Sex-O-S by GB Amman

Books taking place in South of US: The Line by JD Horn, Paper Towns by J Green, Sookie Stackhouse series by C Harris

Books taking place in the CaribbeanIsland Beneath the Sea by I Allende, The Obeahman’s dagger by N Daniels

Books that challenge Catholic religion: His Dark Materials (Golden Compass Trilogy) by P Pullman, The Italian Saga by GB Amman, 

Books that take place in India: Shantaram by GD Roberts

Books that take place in Europe: Anna & the French Kiss by S. Perkins, The Italian Saga by GB Amman, 

Insightful booksShantaram by GD Roberts, The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint Exupery, The Italian Saga by GB Amman, 

Books you can’t put down with pre-teen characters: Ocean at the End of the Lane by N Gaiman,  An Italian Adventure by GB Amman, The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint Exupery

Books with blow-your-mind crazy plots: Rant by C Palahniuk, Breakfast of Champions by K Vonnegut

YA Romance where the male interests are exceptionally smart: A Thousand Pieces of You by C Gray

Books where a main character was abused: Love like Crazy by M Squires, Sex-O-S by GB Amman

Books were the male lead is sensitive and smart: The Absolutely True Diary of a Part Time Indian by S Alexie, I’ll Give you the Sun by J Nelson, The Little Prince by Antoine De Saint Exupery, the Harry Potter series by JK Rowling

Books where one or more main characters are overcoming trauma: Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom by L Bardugo, The beginning of Everything by R Schneider, Sex-O-S by GB Amman

Books dealing with the first time: Sex-O-S by GB Amman

Books with a main character dealing with autism: Born on a Blue Day by Daniet Tammet, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon, Memoirs of an Imaginary Friend by Matthew Dicks (actually narrated from the point of view of the imaginary friend ^_^)

*Please reblog adding your own recommendations* 


-Books with trans main characters

-Books with lesbian main characters

-Books with bi main characters

-Books with asexual main characters

Coming from yours truly soon: books about addiction, abusive relationships, controlling boyfriends (not in a good light), books about women in science, books about immigrating in the US.

Who am I to give you recommendations?

I am part unicorn and part ninja. A college professor of molecular biology with a wicked sense of humor. Weaver of dreams, author of novels, fierce advocate of respect and diversity. My name is…

Originally posted by 74flawsasofyesterday

Little idea inspired by Brendon’s story about falling off his skateboard. Full credit to whoever this photo was posted by orginally <3 <3 dedicated to the amazing @lacyandbeebourie becayse I love her <3

I’m sorry it’s so long XD

Word count - 5781

A Couple Puffs Then We’re Done

I padded through the college into my lecture, I was about 20 minutes early so I wasn’t expecting anyone to be there yet. I winced at the stinging sensation on my leg under my jeans, why I had thought skinny jeans were a good idea after bailing off my board yesterday was beyond me, but it was me after all. To my surprise the lecture room wasn’t a ghostland and as luck would have it there were even some of my friends, I glanced over at Brendon, Ryan and Spencer sitting a little away from my friends, no doubt Ryan had followed Sophia here. Brendon smiled at me, we didn’t talk huge amounts but we had worked together on projects a few times, nevertheless he was still super hot, tattoos covering his left forearm and always wearing a tshirt with skinny jeans, almost black hair lazily flicked to one side with his hand. He was in a band and played a ton of instruments AND sang which just made him hotter quite honestly. I walked through to my friends and threw myself into a chair, groaning out when I scraped the raw skin on my leg.

“AH fuck!” I yelped slightly, my hands flying to my right thigh.

“Jesus what happened to you?” Sophia asked, turning her head to face me.

“I had a total wipe out on my board yesterday.” I laughed at my own stupidity, it was even doing a trick, literally doing an ollie down a step.

“Isn’t that in the sea?” Lola asked in typical airhead fashion.

“Skateboard Lo.” I sighed, giggling.

“What happened?” Sophia asked, laughing with me.

“I tried to ollie down a step and just failed miserable, I fell straight on my ass and it fucking hurt.” I laughed, never the one to hold back when explaining things.

“You’re an idiot.” She teased, giggling along with me, I heard the boys chatting behind us.

“You know I did pretty much the exact same thing last summer.” Brendon’s smooth voice rang out, I snapped my head around, he was grinning slightly.

“Really? I didn’t even know you board.” I turned to face him, that distinctive half smile, that I wish I didn’t love so much, was plastered all over his face.

“Yeah! I was skating across the road and tried to ollie up the sidewalk and just went flying forward, scraped my whole side up, I think I got a picture somewhere.” He shook his head as he told the story, his smile beaming at me, god he was too hot, one hand slipping up to run through his impossibly dark hair. “What board do you have anyway?”

“I got a Diamond Supply custom.” I grinned, picturing my gorgeous skateboard sitting in my dorm room.

“Nice! Mines an Alien Workshop. It’s beat up as fuck I need a new one. How did you get your hands on a custom aren’t they way expensive?”

“I got it for my 18th from my dad. It’s getting pretty beat up already.”

“I’ve literally never seen a Diamond Supply custom in person.”

“Oh my God, mine is gorgeous! I…” I hesitated for a split second, rethinking my plan to fuck with a guy with so much of a reputation. “I mean, I can show you mine, you can fuck about with it tomorrow or something.”

“Seriously? Awesome, it’s a date!” He chimed, grinning the biggest smile ever at me, the girls giggled a little. “Although… please expect me to be bugging you about this like tomorrow, because I really like those boards.” We sat and nattered a little more about skating and different boards before our professor came in and we had to be quiet. The rest of the class I kept feeling Brendon’s eyes on me, turning occasionally to see his head snap away, turning to face the front again, his focus on his notebook was adorable, lip pulled between his teeth and brows scrunching up occasionally. I wasn’t paying attention much. As we finished I shoved my books back in my bag, standing and trailing after the girls, we were about to head to get some food when a voice disturbed us.

“Hey Y/N!” Brendon yelled, running up to me, the girls were giggling already, I turned to face him, returning the smile he shot at me.

“What’s up?” I asked.

“Well… umm seeing as we don’t have many of the same classes and might not see each other til’ next week, I was gonna ask if umm… well… could I have your number?” He stuttered slightly, grinning nonetheless, I heard whispering from behind me but opted to ignore it.

“Yeah sure, pass your phone.” He did so without hesitation, thrusting his phone into my hands. “It's… umm it’s locked.”

“Oh shit yeah…” He leaned in. “8274” He whispered, I raised an eyebrow, tapping in the digits, his phone unlocked.

“You didn’t have to tell me. You literally could have done it yourself.”

“eh… I don’t mind you knowing my password. Don’t tell anyone though. Private stuff.” He said, his tone teasing and did he just wink at me? I tapped my number into his phone and called myself so I knew his too, he took his phone back triumphantly, grinning. “Thanks… I’ll text you later, maybe we can plan something.” He grinned, pulling me into a quick hug before sauntering away.

“Someone’s popular.” Sophia giggled along with Lola, both of them staring.

“Oh shut up.”

It was late afternoon when my phone buzzed for the first time, the name Brendon popping up on screen.

Brendon: Hi…

I smiled at the awkward as hell message, typing one back, hesitating before I pressed send, the following conversation was actually pretty cute… I think.

Me: Hey, couldn’t wait to speak to me again? ;)

It took precisely 30 seconds for it to buzz again.

Brendon: I was actually here to ask for nudes, why else would I want your number? :D

I laughed at his response, typing my own one out.

Me: Creeeeeep. That line work for you before? :P

Brendon: Oh don’t flatter yourself. I meant of your board ;) *nervous laughter*

Me: Suuuuuure.

Brendon: That a no?

Me: Shut up!

Brendon: Gotta run, band practise. Talk later?

Me: I’m free all night :)

Brendon: OK… text you later :*

I looked back to my laptop when the phone buzzed again.

Brendon: By the way, add me on Snapchat :* patdBrendon x

Did he send me a kiss? I added him anyway, he didn’t accept right away but I knew he was with the band so I didn’t sweat it. I kept working on my music theory stuff, a notebook to the side of me as I jotted things down. I spent a good couple of hours working before I was disturbed by the girls coming busting in the room, all dressed up and ready to go out, there was a party but I really wasn’t sure if I wanted to go.

“Hey studious Sally, coming out?” Sophia asked, giggling as she tugged at her dress, she looked pretty but so typically girly.

“I should work really. Plus it’s not really my scene.” I tried to talk her into leaving me alone, but it failed.

“Oh come on, Ryan and Spencer will be there.” Lola squealed, the both had a thing with those two.

“And that benefits me how?” I asked, turning back to my notebook and finishing off my sentence.

“Because Brendon will be with them.” Sophia teased me, I shook my head. “Oh come on! It’s just one night to have some fun!” I knew she would keep going on if I didn’t agree so I gave in.

“OK fine! Give me half hour to yet ready.” They giggled excitedly, hopping around like 5 year olds. “And don’t even try to get me to wear a dress.” They left me be finally, leaving to go do whatever other useless pre party rituals they wanted. I stood in front of my mirror, my hair had been plaited all day so I opted for the easy option of taking it out, leaving it wavy around my shoulders, I put some smokey eyeshadow on and mascara and my favourite dark red lipstick, satisfied with my head I decided to go look through my wardrobe. I opted for black, ripped skinny jeans and a cropped tank top, throwing on my beat up old converse and my sweater over the top, it was a nice sweater so I was sure I could get away with it. I actually felt like I looked pretty cute so decided to show off a little, opening Snapchat on my phone, I lifted the phone up a little to show the whole outfit, smiling into the camera, writing “Being forced to go out XD” under it. I posted it on my story and within a few minutes I got a text from Brendon again.

Brendon: What party are you being forced to go to? ;)

Me: I don’t even know who’s party is it… I got nagged into it.

Brendon: Well as luck would have it I’m also being forced to go to a party :P

Me: Might not even be the same one…

Brendon: I hope it is ;)

I decided to leave it at that, I didn’t want to make myself seen desperate or needy, play it cool Y/N, play it cool. Funnily enough I got another message from him, this time on Snapchat, he was wearing a dark shirt and snapback, a smile plastered across his face. “Nice outfit though…” it read. I smirked slightly at the snap, did he just say I looked good? I started to get an all too familiar feeling of anxiety that I was reading this whole situation wrong, I mean he had a reputation as a bit of a womaniser and I was starting to worry I was just his next quest. I tried to swallow down my nervous feelings and finish getting ready, skipping the jacket because I knew how warm it was tonight. The girls came bursting back through the door, both eyeing me.

“Ok not gonna lie, you might not be wearing a dress but you look hot!” Lola giggled, looking me up and down.

“Agreed, and your makeup is smoking.” Sophie added on the end, they both had their purses and were ready to go.

“Jesus do I have girlfriends or pervy guy friends here?!” I grabbed my back, slinging it over my shoulder. “Can we get this damn party over with?” With that I was dragged away, lead to some frat house on campus, jesus this would be annoying.

The party was a typical college party, tonnes of drunk jocks trying to get into the sorority girls pants, it was times like this when I regretted being such a quiet person in college, at least if I spoke to more people I wouldn’t be such a loner at parties. Some drooling jock came stumbling over to me, leaning his arm on the wall above me, he stunk of beer and cologne, not a good combination.

“You’re that skater girl, into all the metal music and weird shit right?” He slurred out, his breath was disgusting and made me feel pretty nauseous actually.

“Umm yeah I guess.” I sighed, taking a sip of my drink, he was wearing the college football team jersey, why you would wear it to a party I don’t know.

“It’s pretty hot, all that emo shit.” He slurred again, wow this was probably the most offensive pick up I’d ever experienced.

“Oh really, well the dumb jock look isn’t, so go find some other girl to hit on.” I snapped slightly, slipping out from under his arm and heading away, to my surprise, Brendon was standing in front of me, head tilted to the side with a broad smile, he looked so good tonight, his jeans fitted him in the best way and his dark tshirt sitting under a black leather jacket, I noticed the absence of the snapback though.

“Lose your hat?” I asked, folding my arms over my chest.

“Eh, it didn’t go with the jacket.” He shrugged, eyes moving to the jock that had been speaking to me 30 seconds ago. “You look about as happy to be here as me.”

“Just got told that ‘all the emo shit’ is pretty hot by some drooling chimp.” I giggled slightly, Brendon gently pulled me to the side to someone could get past me, the small contact felt nice. “So all in all a pretty good night.” He scoffed with laughter.

“Ah damn, I knew jocks were your type.” He leant on a table next to us, flicking his hair from his face effortlessly.

“Oh please, there’s only about 20 brain cells on that whole team and 10 of them are in the captain.” I sassed, putting the empty cup in my hand down.

“Ouch, I felt that burn from here, you want another drink?” He smiled sweetly, his eyes seeming to cost up and down me.

“Nah its cool, I wasn’t planning to stay much longer anyway.” I shook my head, returning the smile he gave me, with that Lola and Sophia come over, hanging off of Spencer and Ryan’s arms respectively. Music began blaring and I couldn’t hear myself think, I heard Lola shouting at Brendon and I to come and dance, as much as I tried to avoid it even Brendon was trying to convince me.

“Ah come on… just a few songs?” He pouted at me, smiling brightly when I relented and allowed myself to be lead onto the dancefloor. We all danced together, singing along to the music, it was fun for about 20 minutes then the novelty of dancing with the guy I liked had worn off. Brendon pulled me close as them music played and I felt my heart beginning to race, pounding in my chest as his lips leant close to my ear.

“Wanna blow this place? I’m bored outta my mind!” He yelled over the music, I nodded, letting him lead me out the party. “Don’t you need to let your friends know where you’re going?”

“Nah, they’re too busy with Spencer and Ryan, I’ll text them.” I shook my head, Brendon and I walked aimlessly for a while before he spoke.

“Wanna go pick up our boards? I got some weed at mine we could have a smoke and skate?” He smiled, I wasn’t sure what to say.

“Smoke weed on campus?” I heard the shock in my own voice, cringing a little.

“Calm down goody two shoes, my place is off campus, we could pick up your board then walk to mine, then maybe we could go for a skate?” He smiled sweetly, the idea sounded amazing, it wasn’t so late and the sun was going to set soon, it was warm and breezy so I wouldn’t get too hot.

“You know… that sounds like an awesome idea.” I smiled, we walked to mine, Brendon spent about ten minutes in my room just gushing over my skateboard before I finally managed to drag him out to go to his place. He walked and I used my board, even though I let him have a few turns on it, we headed over to his place, he let me in and lead me to his bedroom.

“Want me to roll a few blunts before we go? So we don’t have to keep coming back or rolling while we’re out?” He sat down, pulling out a small box with all of his stuff in.

“It’s ok, I’ll only have a little. Don’t wanna steal all your weed.” I tried to argue but he shook his head.

“Don’t be silly, I’ll roll and few and you can smoke as much as you want.” He did as he said, rolling a few blunts and putting them in a small silver tin, throwing that in the pocket of his leather jacket, he lead me outside, grabbing his own board as we left, he grabbed keys and his wallet. “It sucks that that you know how to skate.” He grinned at me, I tilted my head to the side, confused by the comment.

“What… why?” I was totally puzzled by it.

“Because… teaching you how to skate would have been a really good way to get close to you.” He flashed a cheesy grin, both of us cracking up into giggles, after he giggled be pulled his bottom lip in between his teeth, eyes flitting up and down over me again.

“Well looks like you’ll have to be more inventive then.” I challenged, still wasn’t sure about this but I was all up for having fun tonight.

“Well aren’t you lucky I like a challenge.”

As we were skating around near his place we took the odd video of each other, I posted a few of Brendon skating on snapchat as well as a few selfies, he took a few videos of us both smoking and skating, playing some music off of my phone. Time completely flew by, the sun was setting fast and we were both pretty stoned skating around, laughing and joking on his snapchat and my own. I stopped and slid my sweater off, feeling the heat bubbling on my skin from skating, throwing it on the grass I was left in my cropped tank top, strappy and sitting just above my naval. I felt Brendon’s eyes on me, flitting up and down my body slowly, it was actually kind of hot feeling like he might actually be attracted to me. His jacket was already on the ground, he stopped, running a hand casually through his hair, flopping on the ground to light a blunt. I sat next to him, glad to be taking a breather for a minute, flopping back on the grass, smoking a little before he headed up to skate some more, smiling at me as he messed around. While he was skating again I looked at his Snapchat, he had taken several videos and pictures and posted them, one was of us both boarding, one picture of us sitting smoking a joint. I looked at the next video and it was me skating with the words “she’s perfect” and a heart sticker on it, I felt myself blush a little, the next picture was us on the grass with “beats a party anyday” written on it. The last few pictures and videos on his story were what got me. One was a picture of me, sweater off midway through an ollie, it was a pretty good picture actually but it was the caption that got me. “Lucky to be with her tonight” and more hearts followed, the final video was us skating and laughing. “A night well spent.” I was blushing so hard by the end of the story, he came skating over, plopping back down next to me on the grass. I took out my phone, holding it out in front of us and pressing a kiss to his cheek, snapping the picture, captioning it “He’s adorable” I plastered the end of it with hearts.

“So tell me more about yourself Urie.” I teased as we lay in the grass, taking an pull of the blunt he had given me.

“There’s not much to know.” He smiled, looking up at the sky.

“Liar… there’s tonnes to know, you just don’t trust anyone enough to tell them.” I smiled and got one back, his eyebrows arched slightly at me.

“Wow… beautiful and intelligent, have I fallen on my feet here?” He flashed another gorgeous smile and I giggled, feeling myself flushing pink, he took a pull on his own joint.

“Oh stop teasing and open up will ya?” I laughed, even though I actually wanted him to, he knew tonnes about me.

“Well, what do ya want to know?”

“Anything you want to tell me.”

“Well… I’m from Vegas, a small town called Summerville, I used to be Mormon, I’m an Aries, I love music more than anything, I play drums, piano, guitar, bass and I sing and mix music for the band too.” He smiled, touching my cheek, I felt my head lean into his touch. “How’s that?”

“Umm good…” I smiled, trying to think of things to keep the conversation going. “So… how did you find moving to college?”

“You know it was pretty easy, I moved out when I was 17 so it wasn’t really any different for me.” I stared at him in shock, I had no idea about any of this.

“What do you mean you moved out at 17?” I asked, interested but trying not to pry.

“Well, when I told my parents I didn’t believe in god, things got pretty sucky for a while, a lot of arguments, so I moved out.”

“But how did you afford that?”

“I worked in a smoothie shop while I was in high school, I only had like 2 lessons a day and would be out by half 10 so I used to work like 8 hours.”

“You must have been exhausted most of the time.”

“Well yeah, but it was worth it, I got into college AND I the band is doing great.” He smiled sweetly, both of us were probably just high and talking shit but it was nice anyway.


“Yeah, we have a meeting with Pete Wentz next month!” He gushed, turning to face me. We continued to talk, getting to know small things about each other that maybe we wouldn’t have known if it wasn’t for tonight, how his favourite colour is red and he loves Frank Sinatra, and his hopes and dreams for the band. It felt surreal, yet it was such an intimate conversation, laying and smoking on the grass, I told him about my family and how I wish they’d support my interests a little more, he asked me endless questions about my interests and told me all about his family and his life. All of a sudden I felt like I could tell him anything, like he was the most trustworthy person in my life. “You… you don’t have to keep telling me stuff just because I asked.” I smiled, I felt his hand touch mine, holding it gently, his smile equally as sweet as he looked at me.

“I’m telling you because I want to. Not because you made me.” He gently stroked my fingers, shifting a little closer to me, he blew the last draw of his blunt out, throwing it away, we went silent, looking at each other, before I could say another word he kissed me, slow and gentle, fingers lacing in with mine, hand pulling me in by the waist. His lips began to move against mine in slow, methodical movements, tongue brushing my lip gently, I eagerly parted my lips allowing his tongue to move against my own. His hand tangled into my hair, pulling my body close, I whimpered against him, he was such a good kisser, it was making my mind turn to mush, I found myself gripping onto his arms and moaning like a 15 having their first kiss. He pulled back, gasping slightly, his eyes fiery and black, breathing heavy as his arms held me clothes.

“My place?” He mumbled, biting his lip as he pressed another kiss to my lips.

“Yes…” I whimpered, feeling him act quickly, he stood and yanked me up, grabbing our stuff before we both skated home, he kept hold of my hand and somehow we managed not to fall off our boards, getting in we both threw them down near the door, he kicked his shoes off and I followed suit, following him up to his room.

Once in his room he moved over to his dresser, taking his shirt off and throwing it on his computer chair, he turned back to me.

“C’mere gorgeous.” He purred, pulling me against him, his lips pressing softly against my own, his hands sliding onto my waist, touching the skin left bare by my cropped top, his fingers curled on the hem pulling it up over my head, throwing it to the ground. “God you’re so sexy.” He practically moaned out, biting his lip at me, handing gliding over my stomach and back, fingertips stroking my skin, I heard myself moan out softly, allowing my own nervous hands to move onto his chest. He closed his eyes as my hands stroked his skin, his lips crashed down on mine, gripping me tightly against his body, the burning skin of his chest pressing against my own flushed pink flesh. He began to guide me over to the bed, working at the button on my jeans.

“They’ll be home soon.” I whispered, Brendon smirked, biting his lip.

“I know… good I got a lock right.” He winked, sauntering over to his bedroom door and pressing the lock in. “Now… lie down.” He teased, his voice low and husky, hands winding around my waist as he lowered me onto his bed, lips moving onto my neck, pressing light kisses all over the sensitive skin, I felt his teeth grazing my flesh, I whimpered as my back arched towards him. He unzipped my jeans, yanking them down my legs and tossing them to the side, unhooking my bra too, his lips moved down to my chest, kissing all over my breasts, tongue swirling against the skin, I whimpered, gripping onto his shoulder blades desperately.

“Brendon…” I gasped, writhing, his hand slid into my panties as his lips worked my flesh, biting down again, his fingers circling on my clit, he groaned as I unbuckled his belt and unzipped his jeans, they were left undone. He withdrew his hand from my panties, much to my annoyance, he kicked his jeans off, leaving him in his boxers on top of me, hand back in my panties, touching my clit again, sending shudders of pleasure through me, I felt him hard against my leg, grinding into me slightly.

“Fuck Y/N…” He growled slightly, his breathing rapid and desperate.

“Come on…” I panted desperately, I needed more and he knew it, he groaned and nodded at me, pulling my panties down tossing them somewhere, he wriggled out of his boxers, I felt his bare skin against me, the heat coming from both of us was unbearable, I pressed my hips up towards him, desperate for more contact.

“Someone’s impatient.” He said biting his lip at me, the way he looked at me was driving me crazy, his lip pulled sexily between his teeth, hips grinding down against me, I whimpered again, his hand slipped in between us, he rubbed his cock against me. “So wet.” He growled out, his hips rocking slowly.

“Please Bren…” I whimpered, gripping onto him, he chuckled low in his throat, my hips rocked against his, he groaned out again. “Come on… I need you.” I whimpered, hearing my own voice breathy and desperate.

“Fuck this.” He growled, his hips snapped sharply against me, pushing into me hard, I gasped out, his hips began to snap against me, jolting me up on the bed, his hand gripping the sheets hard, pulling them next to my head. I heard myself moaning and whimpering on the bed under him as his body moved above me, face screwed up in pleasure, his own panting and moaning turning me on even more, I knew how much he was enjoying this, it made it better for me. He growled slightly, leaning up almost upright as his hips slammed into me, the low rumbling sound coming from in his chest driving me insane, I felt him hitting that perfect spot over and over again. It played in the back of my mind that the reason he was so good at this was because of his reputation and how much he’d done it before, but the though was quickly stamped out by the mind numbing pleasure he was giving me. He just grunted and groaned above me, throwing his head back in pleasure, his sexy, tattooed arm coming up to my neck, hand wrapping gently around my throat, holding it in his fingers, squeezing ever so slightly when I moaned out. He looked at me with a new intensity, his eyes burning, like he couldn’t get enough of me, it made me feel so sexy, like no one had made him feel like this before.

My brain began to fog over as an unfamiliar tightening in my stomach began to build up, I had literally only been able to cum before if it was me doing it, so the fact that Brendon had almost nailed it first time drove me crazy. His hand remained around my throat, the other gripping the sheets next to me, I hadn’t really tried rougher sex but it was so hot I couldn’t care less if it was new to me. He released my throat, instead opting to grip onto my wrists, pinning them up above my head as his mouth moved to my neck, biting down harder than before, I felt the slight suction on the skin, knowing he’d leave a dark red mark there.

“Fuck Brendon.” I gasped out, the pain was amazing, along with the pleasure of his hips slamming into me over and over, his pace was relentless, it was like it didn’t faze him at all. He smirked down, letting out another impossibly sexy moan, using only one hand to pin my wrists, the other now gripping tightly onto my hip.

“Ugh Y/N… you feel so fucking tight.” He growled out, low and husky, the tone sent shivers down my spine, I felt the slight sting of his fingers, gripping my hip possessively, I could already tell he wasn’t the type for sharing, the way his body loomed over mine, hands gripping me. His dark hair began to cling to his sweaty forehead, his head thrown back, mouth falling open as he grunted with each thrust, the bed beginning to slam against the wall loudly.

“I… I’m c-close.” I gasped, feeling the knot in my stomach tightening more, like I was about to snap, my mind growing hazy, all I could think of was his name and his body and the way he made me feel, nothing else mattered at that moment. He seemed to gain a second wind hearing me say that, his hips slamming into me with new found ferocity, growling and groaning over the top of me, released my wrists which instantly flew up to his back, gripping it tightly, I felt my nails raking down his flesh which only seemed to drive him even more crazy. He hooked my leg under his arm, allowing him deeper, his free hand tangled in my air, gripping a fistful and pulling it lightly, forcing my back to arch against him, he used to opportunity to attack my neck again, biting and sucking all over. “B-bren, I… can’t hold on much longer.” I whimpered desperately, the stings and aches of pain he was giving me drove me insane, a perfect contrast to how amazing I felt every else.

“Me too baby… I wanna feel you cum on my cock.” He snarled, pulling my hair again sharply, I felt his thrusts growing sloppier and harder, he leant down close to my ear, biting just underneath it. “Cum for me.” He groaned, I came undone at his words, cumming hard around him, feeling myself tightening around him, gripping his back tight, he kept his tight grip on my body, his head bowed into the crook of my neck.

“Brendon!” I yelled out, loud and desperate, I was so glad they hadn’t come back yet, my body felt like it was fluttering, shaking and weak, suddenly he gave one last burst of hard thrusts before slowing.

“Oh fuck Y/N.” He tensed right up above me, throwing his head back, mouth open as he throbbed, hitting his peak just after me, groaned out, his own breath shaky and staggered in my ear.

He flopped down next to me, breathing heavily, sweat coating his skin as he leant back.

“Wow…” He panted slightly, taking a swig of the drink next to his bed. “That was amazing.”

“I know…” I gasped out, suddenly feeling that anxiety about it coming back. “Just so you know, I’m really not the type to do this.” I mumbled, he laughed in a low breathy tone.

“Stop thinking I’m judging you for any of this.” He smiled, pulling me a little closer to him, his million dollar smile beaming at me.

“I just… I don’t want to give you the wrong idea about me.” I sighed, allowing myself to be pulled closer to the dark haired boy.

“Well you know… I was kinda hoping that this could happen more often?” He smiled, he brushed my hair out of my face, sweat causing it to stick slightly, I raised an eyebrow, panicking that all my worries had just been confirmed. “No! I don’t just mean that, I mean tonight, me and you.”

“Me and you?” I asked, tilting my head to the side as he lay next to me slightly breathless.

“You know, getting stoned and skating just the two of us, having lunch together all the time, holding hands, cuddling and watching movies. You know, all that stuff that makes single people cringe.” He smiled sincerely, cuddling up to me.

“But… why… I’m hardly your usual type.” I tried to hide the concern in my voice, he kissed my forehead gently, pulling me close to him on the bed.

“Listen… if you think you’re not damn perfect then you’re stupid. You skate, you’re beautiful, intelligent, witty, you love music and you smoke, and you’re happy to just chill. I’ve liked you for ages but tonight I finally got the chance to really speak to you and get to know you, and you’re every bit as amazing as I thought, more even.” I blushed bright red, feeling him pull the covers over us, nuzzling his face into my hair.

“I really like you Bren… I’m just scared.” I mumbled into his chest, us snuggling up together in bed felt great.

“I know… but I swear, I won’t hurt you, I’m not an idiot. I wouldn’t fuck up something so amazing. I really like you too.” He smiled, we heard Ryan and Sophia giggling downstairs, they’d just come in, Brendon chuckled. “We should probably try to get to sleep before they start making noise.”

“Ok…” I mumbled again, nuzzling into his chest. “Night Brendon.”

“Night babe.”

I really hope you like it guys <3

Challenge Your Shelf Day 150: Summer Reads

Some gorgeous books on my TBR pile for June and my reading nook with its fantastic view over the rooftops of Oxford.

Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins

The Sport of Kings by C.E. Morgan

Vinegar Girl by Anne Tyler

The Watch Maker of Filigree Street by Natasha Pulley

The Tobacconist by Robert Seethaler

Do Not Say We Have Nothing by Madeleine Thien

Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi



Every Part of You

Chapter 2

*warnings: detailed descriptions of abuse and mention of drug usage*

She hadn’t moved. Not for at least ten minutes and the taxi driver had begun to grow impatient, obnoxiously urging her to get out of the car. Lola inhaled sharply and held it in her lungs, her eyes falling to her lap as she quietly pulled out the stolen wad of Niall’s money and carefully counted out exactly what she owed to the taxi driver. Handing it over to him, she stuffed the rest back down into her bag and her stare slid over to peer out of the car window. Lola’s stomach was already in twisting knots as her gaze focused on the old, rundown row house that she called home. If that was what anyone could call it.

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Once upon a time, there was a girl who talked to the moon. And she was mysterious and she was perfect, in that way that girls who talk to moons are. In the house next door, there lived a boy. And the boy watched the girl grow more and more perfect, more and more beautiful with each passing year. He watched her watch the moon. And he began to wonder if the moon would help him unravel the mystery of the beautiful girl. So the boy looked into the sky. But he couldn’t concentrate on the moon. He was too distracted by the stars. And it didn’t matter how many songs or poems had already been written about them, because whenever he thought about the girl, the stars shone brighter. As if she were the one keeping them illuminated. 

One day, the boy had to move away. He couldn’t bring the girl with him, so he brought the stars. When he’d look out his window at night, he would start with one. One star. And the boy would make a wish on it, and the wish would be her name.

At the sound of her name, a second star would appear. And then he’d wish her name again, and the stars would double into four. And four became eight, and eight became sixteen, and so on, in the greatest mathematical equation the universe had ever seen. And by the time an hour had passed, the sky would be filled with so many stars that it would wake the neighbors. People wondered who’d turned on the floodlights.

The boy did. By thinking about the girl.” 

― Stephanie PerkinsLola and the Boy Next Door


Request-  high school scenario with taehyung and a bit of fluff?? please <3 

Here you are sweet pea, I hope this didn’t suck to much. Thank you so much for requesting! 

Enjoy x 

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This gif, I know its big! But god bless who ever made this, it is art xx 

Prom season was upon you. It was a scary time for most people, but not you, Most people wanted to have the coolest dress and the best hair, you just wanted to have a good night with your friends. Every girl in your school was wondering who Kim Taehyung was going to ask to the prom. He was your bestfriend, the bestfriend you fell in love with him the moment he said hi. But you didn’t have the balls to tell him. 

You loved being his friend though. He was a great friend to you, as you were to him. Lately jealous was being a bitch. Taehyung was a natural flirt, he flirted with everyone.. but you. It was a little annoying to see him go after all sorts of girls. You didn’t understand how he could be so touchy and sweet with you, yet he didn’t feel the same? 

He was constantly cling to you, many people thought you were dating, but sadly that was not true. Taehyung never actual dated anyone before he may have kissed girls but he never dated anyone. When it came to you having a boyfriend Taehyung would always scare them away. You never ever questioned his actions, just thought he was looking out for you. 

Prom, you didn’t care if you didn’t get asked, you were going anyway. The only thing was who was Kim Taehyung bringing to the prom, but who ever it may be you were still going to be jealous as fuck. Why couldn’t he see you as more than just a friend. 

“Y/N!!” You turn your head to seeing your friend Lola bursting throw the classroom doors and running towards you. The whole class just looked at her. Lola stopped in front of you and looked around the class to see all the eyes on her. 

“Do you all not have better things to do?” She give the girls giggling in the back a dirty look before turning her attention back to you. 

“Whats up?” You ask her. She takes a deep breath and sits down next to you, Taehyung leaning in to her what she had to say. 

“Okay, so you know Chanyeol from bio?” You and Taehyung both nod your heads to let her know you knew who she was talking about. “Well, I overheard him talking to his friends and hes planning on asking you to prom later today. Apperently hes liked you for ages, but was shy to approach you because he thought you might be dating Taehyung.” You were in a bit of shock, you thought you’d be going to prom by yourself. 

“What? really? I’ve never really talked to him all that much though, like a few times in bio but that’s it.” You state. Lola rolls her eyes. 

“Look you need a date to prom ‘cause I’ve got one and Taehyung I’m sure as a girl lined up, or girls. And you can’t go by yourself. Who are you bringing anyway Taehyung?” You look at Taehyung, dreading the answer that will come out of his lips. 

“Eh, I dunno.” That’s it, nothing else. Why couldn’t he just ask you, Chanyeol was nice, but he was not Taehyung. 

You were expecting Chanyeol to have asked you by the end of the day but he didn’t and prom was tomorrow, so you guessed he wasn’t going to. You walked home as usual, ate dinner with your family and went to your room. You were finishing off your homework when you heard music coming from outside. 

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard, 

And they’re like, 

its better than yours, 

Damn right its better then yours, 

I can teach you, 

But I have to charge. 

You walk over to your window and open it, to see taehyung holding a dozen red roses and twerking and rapping along to Kelis Milkshake. You giggle and make your way down stairs to him. You open your front down, hes down on one knee. 

“You may ask why I chose this song, but I chose it because your milkshake brings me to your yard, get it.” Taehyung starts to chuckle and you can’t help the cackle that escapes from your body. 

“Oh my god, Tae.” You push his shoulder. “What are you doing?” He takes your hand in his and kisses your knuckles before making eye contact with you again. 

“Will you go to prom with me? I wanted to ask you a while ago but got scared and didn’t know how to prompose. But I think I aced it! I want to take the most beautiful girl in school as my date to the prom, would I be so lucky?” Taehyung looks up at you with hopeful eyes. 

“I dunno, can we get chicken wings on the way home?” You ask making Taehyung smile brightly. He reaches to the side and pulls out a bag of chicken wings. “Of course I’ll go to prom with you.” You bend down and give Taehyung a kiss on the cheek. 

“Wait are you saying yes to me, or the chicken?” He asks following you inside. You giggle. 


This sucked, but I hope you all liked it. If someone asked me to prom like that I’d marry then lol. Eh I put prom because I know most people wouldn’t know that in Ireland we say Debs. I thought everyone would understand it more this way, and there would be no confusion. 

-Admin Abe x

Apr. 9, 2017 | 5:50 PM PDT

April Study Challenge
Day 9: Book bucket list

As any bibliophile or English major, I have an ever-growing reading list, which I never get to finish.  Here’s my reading list thus far.  Must-reads are marked with an asterisk (*).

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Taglist Update

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Just a few of the books I’ve read and plan on reading in the near future. Also some great reccomendations! -dp

BOOKS ABOVE: (from left to right, top to bottom)
The Name of This Book is Secret - Pseudonmyous Bosch
This is What Happy Looks Like - Jennifer E. Smith
The Statistical Probability of Love At First Sight - Jennifer E. Smith
Isla and the Happily Ever After - Stephanie Perkins
Lola and the Boy Next Door - Stephanie Perkins
The Summer I Turned Pretty - Jenny Han
It’s Not Summer Without You - Jenny Han
We’ll Always Have Summer - Jenny Han
The Mysterious Benedict Society - Trenton Lee Stewart
The Prisoners Dilemma - Trenton Lee Stewart
The Perilous Journey - Trenton Lee Stewart
Mr. Benedict’s Book of Perplexing Puzzles, Elusive Enigmas, and Curious Conundrums - Trenton Lee Stewart
Paper Towns - John Green
All the Bright Places - Jennifer Niven
The Beginning of Everything - Robyn Schneider
A Thousand Pieces of You - Claudia Gray
Girl Online - Zoe Sugg
Crossed - Ally Condie
Glass Sword - Victoria Aveyard
City of Bones - Cassandra Clare
City of Ashes - Cassandra Clare
City of Glass - Cassandra Clare
City of Fallen Angels - Cassandra Clare
City of Lost Souls - Cassandra Clare
Lady Midnight - Cassandra Clare
The Heir - Kiera Cass
Theodosia and the Serpent of Chaos - Robin LaFevers
Son - Lois Lowry
Hollow City - Ransom Riggs
The Castle in the Pyrenes - Jostein Gaarder
The Darkest Minds - Alexandra Bracken
The Sky is Everywhere - Jandy Nelson
Legend - Marie Lu
Endgame: The Calling - James Frey & Nils Johnson-Shelton

Once upon a time, there was a girl who talked to the moon. And she was mysterious and she was perfect, in that way that girls who talk to moons are. In the house next door, there lived a boy. And the boy watched the girl grow more and more perfect, more and more beautiful with each passing year. He watched her watch the moon. And he began to wonder if the moon would help him unravel the mystery of the beautiful girl. So the boy looked into the sky. But he couldn’t concentrate on the moon. He was too distracted by the stars. And it didn’t matter how many songs or poems had already been written about them, because whenever he thought about the girl, the stars shone brighter. As if she were the one keeping them illuminated.
One day, the boy had to move away. He couldn’t bring the girl with him, so he brought the stars. When he’d look out his window at night, he would start with one. One star. And the boy would make a wish on it, and the wish would be her name.
At the sound of her name, a second star would appear. And then he’d wish her name again, and the stars would double into four. And four became eight, and eight became sixteen, and so on, in the greatest mathematical equation the universe had ever seen. And by the time an hour had passed, the sky would be filled with so many stars that it would wake the neighbors. People wondered who’d turned on the floodlights.
The boy did. By thinking about the girl.
—  Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins

favorite fictional girls: Anna Oliphant [Anna and the French Kiss]

“It’s my nickname.”
     “Elephant?” He shakes his head. “Sorry, I don’t see it.”
     “Anna Oliphant. ‘Banana Elephant.’ My friend collects those for me, and I collect toy bridges and sandwiches for her. Her name is Bridgette Saunderwick,” I add.
     St. Clair sets down the glass elephant and wanders to my desk. “So can anyone call you Elephant?”
     “Banana Elephant. And no. Definitely not.”

Isla and the Happily Ever After // LISTEN

If you were my girl,” he whispers,I’d take creepy pictures of your trash when I knew you weren’t looking.”
If you were my girl,” I whisper back,“ I"d put the creepy pictures in a foreign museum so you wouldn’t know that I take creepy pictures.”

  Stephanie Perkins,

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