first of all i would like to apologise for going missing for months! i had a pretty stressful mid-year exam and my holiday had been packed. forgive me! i am a complete mess of a studyblr 😨 i am very sorry that i don’t upload anything useful and to anyone that still follows me yall seriously deserve all my hugs!!
anyways, i’m studying outside on my balcony today, so i decided why not upload something! reviewing my mid-year papers before the next term starts. insert sigh.
hope everyone has a great day and here’s a quote i’d like to share:
“Nothing is miserable unless you think it so; and on the other hand, nothing brings happiness unless you are content with it.” –Boethius
hey bb it's me kimwoobinseyebrows hi. okay so i 1.) meant to mention to u the dots dvd was released in february and 2.) did u see the caps of the goowon bed scene? showed up last week 3.) have u seen anything else? im kinda behind on finding dots stuff slash it hasn't floated past my nose yet lol. anyway <3
CAN I JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE A BLESSING TO MY LIFE!
I’ve honestly been so busy I haven’t even had a chance to check for DotS updates, so my heart is literally pounding at this news!!!
I’ll probably end up going on a hunt to find someone who had uploaded the deleted scenes, so i’ll let you know if I do come across anything~ (admittedly i’m pretty terrible at finding things though, so you’ll probs come across something before me lol)
idk why but i gave up hope on deleted scenes, so i’m honestly dying rn
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Run Away With Your Footsteps Part 2 (Bucky Barnes x reader)
Request: After the events of The Winter Soldier, the reader (an avenger) goes out to find Bucky for Steve. When she finds him, he has his own apartment and trying to live a normal life. He begs her not to tell the captain. She stays to watch over him and they kind of fall in love. Later, Steve finally finds them looking angry because she went MIA
Author’s note: Finally, I have uploaded the second part of this. Phew. I am so sorry for not uploading this sooner. The reason why is that I have a lot of requests to do and wanted to finish some of them first. Another reason is that I got writer’s block and didn’t want to force my brain to think of an idea for this part because it may not turn out good or something lol hahaha. But here you guys go, part 2 of Run Away With Your Footsteps. I hope you all like it!
When Steve and Sam returned to their apartment that night, they found the place quiet and dark. Both of them figured out that maybe (Y/N) went to bed early. Sam went to his room while Steve entered the kitchen to grab a glass of water. As usual, they didn’t find Bucky. Steve was losing hope but Sam has able to bring the hope back with his reassuring words.
Steve glanced at the counter and saw a paper on it. It was folded close. He picked it up and saw his and Sam’s name written on it. Curious, he opened it and began reading:
Guys, by the time you are reading this, I am gone. But for a good reason, so don’t freak out.
I found him, Steve. I found Bucky.
Earlier today, I was heading to the local market to buy milk because somebody has forgotten to leave a little bit for me (I’m talking to you, Sam). After buying the milk and fruits, I headed back. But an asshat pushed me to an alley and attempted to rob me. Of course I had to defend myself and kick his ass. The thief was about to shoot me when a guy had pushed him off me.
Turns out, my savior was Bucky.
I told him that you are looking for him. He walked away from me when I said that. Rude. Anyway, I tried to persuade him a couple of times to come with me and wait for you and Sam in the apartment but he didn’t want to. I won’t tell you the reason because he should be the one to tell you.
I didn’t want him to be all alone, Steve. So I gave him one condition. And that is to stay with him and watch over him. I’m so sorry, Steve. I know you’re gonna be pretty pissed when you read this but I know that you will understand why I did this, I know you will.
Don’t worry, guys. I’m safe. Bucky’s safe. We’ll be alright.
Till we meet again,
“Hey Steve, (Y/N) is not in her room.” Sam said as he jogged to the kitchen.
Steve sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. “I know.” he said and handed Sam the paper.
(Y/N) has been staying with Bucky for half a month now. It was awkward at first because she honestly didn’t think this through. She stayed out of his way during the early days but still kept an eye on him. That was until one night, she was about to drift off to sleep when she heard whimpering and mumbles of words coming from Bucky’s room. Curiosity got the best of her so she headed to his room.
There she found him lying on his bed, tossing and turning with his face scrunched up in pain. She wondered what was happening so she went to take a seat on his bed, cautiously. He was mumbling words in foreign language, sweating and breathing heavily, and shaking his head. When she realized he was having a nightmare, she decided to wake him up.
But when her hand made contact with his bare arm, his eyes flew open and he pounced on her. (Y/N) let out a shriek as he pushed her back and wrap his metal hand on her neck. She felt her heartbeat intensify as she tried to snap him out of his thoughts. When Bucky regained his senses, he realized what he had done and immediately released her and scoot back to the head-board of his bed. (Y/N) had sat up and caught her breath. She met his eyes and she saw how afraid he was. She tried reaching out for him but he only scooted away, shaking his head, weakly telling her to not come closer. She obeyed him and did her best to calm him down.
When he calmed down, (Y/N) asked what he had dreamed of. At first, he was silent. She waited patiently for an answer. Then, he told her. In the middle of his story, (Y/N) could’ve sworn she heard his voice crack slightly. He didn’t finish telling her the story. He just hung his head low and let it rest on his knees. (Y/N) felt sorry for the guy and scooted closer to him, hesitantly. She reached out slowly to place a hand on his arm. He visibly tensed up at this but didn’t do anything.
“Those are just nightmares, Bucky. They aren’t real. I won’t let them hurt you. I’ll kick their asses first before they even try to get to you.” She told him that night. This, of course, earned her a snort of amusement from him onto which she smiled at.
Ever since that night, a friendship slowly bloomed over them. (Y/N) would teach him how to adjust to the modern times and would tell him stories about her life and what she does for a living. He didn’t open up to her, at first. Only let her do the talking (to which she didn’t mind). But as they spend a lot of time together, he soon started opening up to her about what he remembers. One time, (Y/N) had brought him to a nearby amusement park and spent the day there with him. He was skeptical about the whole idea, she knew that. But she reassured him that no one is going to recognize them here. The day turns out to be the best day of his life ever since the 1940s. But he wouldn’t fully admit this to her.
As they gotten closer, romantic feelings bloomed inside them. They didn’t know how they started feeling that way for each other, but they knew that it suddenly hit them. Bucky was wondering if it started when he woke up one morning and found (Y/N) dancing and singing in the kitchen while making pancakes. She was listening to a song in her phone. He found himself leaning against the door-frame of his room and watch with a small genuine smile on his face as she swayed and sing along the song.
As for (Y/N), she wondered if she started seeing him in a different light when he took care of her when she had her period. Boy, he had no idea what to do that time. He was fuzzing everywhere and slightly panicking when she was moaning in pain as she clutched her stomach, curling into a ball. He went out to buy some stuff for her that she needed. And even added a few products to make her feel better. He bought her her favorite drink, favorite snack, favorite candy, etc. When he got back, he found her asleep on the sofa bed lying straight with her feet up on the outside back of the furniture. She had her right hand on her stomach and her face was slightly grimacing. Bucky woke her up gently and showed her what he had bought her. (Y/N) gave him a smile and thanked him for all that. He saw her face change expression as she slowly sat up, groaning slightly in pain. Out of nowhere, Bucky offered to massage her hips to suppress the pain. She was surprised at this and declined his offer but he didn’t listen to her. He sat on the empty space behind her and pull her to him, letting her back rest on his chest. He placed his hands on each of her sides and began massaging the spot. As he did so, she felt her cheeks burning up while her heartbeat intensifying.
One of them finally cracked and admitted what they felt for the other. And it was (Y/N) who had first confessed. It happened accidentally. They were both in the kitchen trying to bake cookies. Bucky volunteered to help her. In the middle of their baking, Bucky had attempted to make a pun about the cookie dough he was mixing. (Y/N) found his joke really corny and couldn’t help but let out a snort and accidentally told him, “You’re glad you’re adorable. Or otherwise I would’ve whacked you on the head, already."
When she realized what she just did, her eyes grew wide and her mouth fall open. She looked at Bucky whose eyes were wide, too. And had a small tingle of pink on his cheeks. Her cheeks immediately flushed red and tried to take it back, which turned to a full rambling of words that didn’t make any sense anymore.
Her rambling was cut off by him placing his mouth on hers, shutting her up. Her eyes grew wide at this and stood frozen on her spot. Bucky placed his hands on her waist and walked her back until her lower back hit the sink. (Y/N) slowly melted onto the kiss and kissed him back, standing up on her toes to wrap her arms around his neck. When they pulled back, Bucky leaned his forehead against hers and let out a breathless chuckle, saying, "You’re adorable, too."
Since that day, there was now a bright glint in his eyes every time she would look at him. She would constantly tease him about it, onto which he countered back with a smooth line and giving her that smirk of his that always seems to get her every time.
The two of them were on the couch one afternoon, watching a random TV show when a knock on the door echoed in the room.
"It’s probably the pizza guy. Go get our pizza while I get the money from my wallet.” (Y/N) told Bucky as she stood up and head to her room.
When she exited her room, her eyes grew wide as she froze on her spot. Standing by the door were Steve Rogers and Sam Wilson looking at them with their jaws clenched.
“Steve….” she whispered as Bucky came to stand next to her. “Sam….”
Steve and Sam entered the room and stood before them. Steve looked at both of them before settling his eyes on (Y/N).
“Steve, look, I know you’re angry but—"
"Save it, (Y/N).” Steve said, coldly. She closed her mouth at this and glanced on the floor. “You suddenly disappeared with no traces. Sam and I were worried sick. You could’ve gotten hurt!” he said, raising his voice slightly.
(Y/N) tensed up at this and looked up at him with an apologetic look on her face. “I know that, Steve. But I had no other choice. It was either let him go and disappear again, or come with him to make sure that he is alright and not alone.” she explained.
“You could’ve done a better job in persuading him to come back with you in our apartment and wait for Sam and I to return!"
"Bucky didn’t want to see you yet. He wasn’t ready, man! I couldn’t just force him to do something that he doesn’t like. He has the right to make decisions for himself. I think he had enough of being forced to do something.” (Y/N) argued, glaring at Steve. “I’ve wanted to try and contact you that he’s here with me and that he’s alright and recovering but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to put pressure on the poor guy. He’s been through a lot and I can’t do that to him.”
Steve didn’t say anything. His face slowly softened when (Y/N) shook her head and sniffled. “I thought you’d understand. I guess I was wrong.” she said before leaving the room.
(Y/N) watched the busy streets of the city from the rooftop. She hugged her knees and sniffed. The events that had happened earlier danced around her mind. She wondered if she had over-reacted or not. She exhaled deeply and rested her head on her knees.
She felt someone place a gentle tap on her shoulder. She looked back and saw Bucky standing there. She sniffed and stood up. “Oh hey Buck,” she said, clearing her throat. “What are you doing here?” she asked.
“I wanted to make sure you were okay.” He told her, giving her hand a gentle reassuring squeeze.
She gave him a small grateful smile. “Thank you, Bucky. And yes, I am okay.” she told him, honestly. “Just slightly overwhelmed about what had happened earlier."
Bucky nodded. "I know that.” he said.
“How’s Steve and Sam?” She asked.
“Steve’s pretty down after what happened. Sam comforted him, telling him to give you space for a while to take it all in. He even slightly scolded him for getting angry at you."
(Y/N) groaned and placed her head on his neck. "I feel so guilty. Maybe I shouldn’t have yelled at him.”
Bucky rubbed her back comfortingly, and dropped a kiss on top of her head. "Shh, it’s okay. Steve knows that. And he feels guilty, too. So you two are kind of in the same boat.” he murmured. “Why don’t we go back down there and talk?"
(Y/N) nodded and followed him downstairs. When she entered the room, Steve and Sam looked up and stood up. Steve had an apologetic look on his face as he looked at her.
"Listen, (Y/N). I’m sorry. Buck told me everything and you have every right to be angry at me because I’m a complete jerk and—"
His apology was cut off when (Y/N) walked up to him and engulfed him in a hug. Steve returned the hug and buried his face onto her hair. "It’s alright. I forgive you, you big dork.” she said, chuckling.
Steve chuckled at this and they pulled back. Sam and Steve decided to stay for a while. The four of them talked about what happened in DC, etc. (Y/N) would hold Bucky’s hand under the table and give it a squeeze to let him know that she’s there and there’s nothing to be nervous about. Sam and (Y/N) decided to leave Bucky and Steve alone for them to talk.
Some time during the late afternoon, Sam and Steve decided to head back to their apartment. (Y/N) bid them goodbyes and they were about to exit the room when Bucky had told them to wait.
The three of them looked at Bucky with confused looks. Bucky looked at the two guys before settling his eyes on (Y/N). “We’re coming with you.” he said, clearly.
(Y/N) and Sam’s eyes grew wide as they glanced at Steve who had a small smile on his face. She stepped forward, looking confused and surprised. “Bucky?” she asked.
“I think it’s about time for me to grab the opportunity to be actually one of the good guys.” Bucky said, looking over to Steve whose smile grew big. He looked back to her and took a step forward, grabbing her hands.
He looked onto her eyes and gave her a soft smile. “I’m ready now.” he murmured. “Just as long as you are with me.”
(Y/N)’s eyes grew wide before a grin appeared on her face. She chuckled and stood up on her toes to engulf him in a hug, onto which he happily returned.
Steve watched them with awe and gratefulness. Bucky finally found home.