lol i'm sorry this song's been stuck in my head for weeks

utaiteism  asked:

LOl I'm back again. Please, can you tell us your favourite top 5 Infinite MV's (curious like always + needs a dose of your writting again lol).

I was a little busy this week, so I’m sorry my answers for this will be a little shorter ;;

5. Before the Dawn (BTD): So kinda similar to how I included “Beautiful Target”, I’m including ‘BTD’ for more nostalgic reasons than anything. It was the first comeback I got to see of their’s, and I can remember it being stuck in my head for the longest time after watching the MV! The whole MV played out like a drama/action movie (like a lot of their MVs actually lol), but that in combination with their dancing with the greenish filter scenes I thought gave the MV a much darker look and theme. And then we get to them fighting at the end, and somehow, Infinite have a way of making it look cool and intense and not corny at all? Like I still get a little anxious watching the ending scene with L and Woohyun looking out the screened in window with the orchestral music AHH gives me such feels~

4. Man In Love: One of the few non-dramatic MVs, it’s instead the perfect MV to go watch that makes you smile. I also love their styling in this MV!!! Perfection! Especially the black and white outfits they wear during the dancing scenes (Dongwoo’s outfits are my favorite actually). It’s just a cute MV, going through each of their days through class, teaching kids, KITTENS and perfect pastels and all pretty, shiny things. And again like all Infinite songs, the chorus is so catchy, along with their perfect dance moves that just leads to an wholesome happy song. I actually find myself going back to listen to this song quite a bit.

3. The Eye: ‘The Eye’ demonstrates how Infinite have now perfected the angsty, dramatic, 80’s-synth vibe that the majority of their songs and MV give off. The settings for the MV were gorgeous, with the dark wooden rooms and crystal chandeliers, to the scenes of them all sitting at the table and taking turns of trying to taunt L. The dance scenes are a good opposition, in a brightly lit, plain garage so that they play off each other well. And again, the DANCING IS AMAZING. I am NEVER disappointed with Infinite’s dances, and The Eye is no exception. Their styling is also on point for the MV as well. And the scene where Sungjong appears to L in the rain? Ugh what a beautifully filmed scene. 

2. Back: So, like I had previously said, ‘The Eye’ showcases how Infinite have perfected their sound, but to me it is ‘Back’ that first exemplified this perfection. It is everything Infinite has to offer, in a crisp and emotional package. Everything about this look was amazing. They all look sharp and manly with their all black outfits and short hair, smashing shit with fires and explosions but again, it doesn’t look cheesy! They make it work! What i love about the filming of this though is how the majority of the MV is pretty colorless, with the exceptions of the bright red and purple tones that are scattered during the more intense scenes, from the fire, the bad guys’ outfits, the writing on the wall during the dance scenes, all representing the evil they are trying to take out. It leads to some really gorgeous imagery. And, of course, the music is top notch, the dancing top notch, etc. 

1. Be Mine: WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS. I absolutely adore this song, this MV, this era. This is the beginning of them finding their groove, and they did a really nice job with it. The black and white scenes literally look like they could have been taken out of a MV from the 80’s, and with the slow-mo scenes of explosions and hair flying it serves as a theatrically intense, emotional juxtaposition to the dance scenes. It’s interesting to note that they show an older, 80’s looking movie on the TV a few times during the MV that similarly reenacts what’s going on in the MV. And speaking of the dance scenes, again, (or I guess for the first time, really), they play with having only one main color, blue in this case, that we see in their clothing. One of my favorite specific scenes is towards the end when they’re singing the chorus for the last time and they’re split in half, facing each other singing. I don’t know, it’s always just seemed like a good way of showing the tension that was building throughout the MV, and kinda releasing it as they’re all pleading, shouting the chorus.

I Won't Say That I'm Ok
Front Porch Step
I Won't Say That I'm Ok

Six days turns into six weeks since she’s been gone.

I don’t know if I can take it. (Y/N) has been gone for a while and I can’t say that I’m okay. She was my best friend and she’s gone. I was slowly falling in love with her, but I didn’t even realize. It’s been too long to be without her.

I haven’t properly eaten in 2 weeks, nor have I left my room or stopped crying. I can’t just put on this face that makes everything alright, because it’s not. I miss her arms around me and the way she made me laugh, I miss how she told me to find the good in everyone and make sure to smile because being happy is everything. She was such a hypocrite.

 There’s this pain in my stomach that hasn’t gone away. It’s almost like when we were kids and we weren’t allowed to see each other because someone accidentally walking in while I kissed her on the cheek.

“I dare you to kiss me.” She said with a devilish smile on her face.

“Won’t we get in trouble?” I suddenly started whispering because we might get caught.

“Who cares? Kiss me, I love you Luke.” I kissed her on her hot red cheek. Lucky for me, her mom walked into the room and we were caught red handed. We got in huge trouble and I was sent home. We talked through the windows since her parents didn't let her come out to play. My best friend got taken away from me and I was so sad I had to do something. I decided to go over and apologize.

I knocked on the door and the second it opened I started talking. “I’m sorry I kissed (Y/N)! Please let me play with her again, I miss her terribly and she’s my best friend.”

It isn’t that simple anymore. I can’t just ask for her back. What’s done is done. I feel so exposed without her here.

I decided I need something to eat or I would pass out. I shuffled my feet downstairs and made my way to the kitchen. There was a banana on the counter and I took it. A figure from the couch arose and started walking over. My eyes sting from being bloodshot. I haven’t gone to school in almost 2 weeks and everyone is starting to worry. I haven’t made any human contact in 2 weeks other than someone in my family going to check on me to see if I hadn’t died yet. Don’t get me wrong, my family cares about me a lot, but apparently they want to give me space because of what happened.

“Hey Luke, are you doing okay?” My mom said.

“No mom, I’m not okay and I refuse to say that I am. Nothing is okay right now. I feel like im stuck I can’t physically do anything. The pain won’t go away. You ave no idea what I’m going through right now. I’m not okay without her here. I miss her so fucking much. This isn’t some type of heartbreak mom, this is real, she’s actually gone and we can’t bring her back. I feel trapped.” I started bursting into years for the 50th time today. She ran over and started hugging me. It won’t make things better, but it sure as hell is comforting. Still, all I can think about her.

“Give me your hand.” She said and gestured for me to give her my hand. I did and she just took a good hard look at it.

“Is there something wrong with my hand?”

“No. I can tell all about you from your hand. I saw it on TV it’s like some weird horoscope shit, I don’t know. I can tell that you’re quite a liar. Don’t lie. Ever. You must remain a good person.”

“Wow, thanks.” I was unaware that I started giggling so much. Not very manly is it.

“Honey, things will get better. We often go through obstacles inlife where things aren’t in a good place. This sadness doesn’t last forever, I promise.” 

“You’re okay.” I rubbed (Y/N)’s back, trying to comfort her. She has been going through some rough things lately. I’m so happy that i’m here for her, because not a lot of people have someone like that.

“I’m sorry.” I gave her a hug and she tensed up at first and then slowly let it go. 

“I will always be here for you." 

“Thank you Mom.” I went upstairs and closed my door, instead of moping around in my room and being lifeless. I’m going to express how I feel through music. I am a musician, after all.

I sat at my desk with my guitar next to me and started strumming a few chords. Nothing is coming to my head. There are so many things clouding my mind, so many questions. Why did she leave? Did she even think of me? I don’t have a clue on how I’m going to be able to get over this.

Suddenly there were things that popped into my head and I jotted them down.

 

I won’t hold my tongue

I’m not okay without you here

I guess what’s done is done

I just feel so exposed without you near

And I won’t say that I’m okay

‘cause you taught me not to lie

so know that I’ll miss you everyday

More and more kept coming.

You always taught me to be good

and always do my best to be selfless

but I know that God is holding you

and I am so damn jealous

'cause I miss your arms around me

and the way you make me laugh

and now I’m stuck inside this prison

that says you’re never coming back.

I’m not okay.

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hi so i got a little inspiration for this after listening to the song for the first time in about 9 months lol anyway feedback maybe? sorry this sucks a lot its late and i am not good at writing