I really don’t know where this came from but I just got this idea watching old family pictures and I made this manip in like..one hour so I know it’s pretty shit but bechloe feelings are still bechloe feelings right?
Sonny is lying on Rafael’s chest, hand idly caressing Rafael’s belly, slowly squeezing here and there, fingers kneading, the rhythm of his touches almost hypnotic. Rafael has long given up on feeling self-conscious when Sonny is poking him, pinching his love handles, pressing against his stomach when he’s full.
Rafael had almost fallen asleep before Sonny’s voice got his attention.
“You say that like it’s a good thing, Sonny.”
Sonny kisses Rafael’s chest.
“It is a good thing. A great thing.”
Rafael reaches for Sonny’s hair, soft and messy and wild. He almost wants to take a comb through it, to make Sonny look like himself again. Like the ever-eager detective, not a hair out of place.
Rafael gets these feelings whenever Sonny looks so different. So comfortable. So at home. This isn’t Sonny’s home.
Rafael settles for running his fingers through Sonny’s hair, smoothing down what he can.
“I’m glad you think so. Because I’m only going to get softer the older I get.”
Sonny looks up, his hand still on Rafael’s belly.
Sonny looks surprised.
Rafael hadn’t meant to say that.
The older I get? What the hell? Why was he saying that to Sonny, of all people? Why would Sonny care about Rafael’s old and saggy body in 5, in 10, in 15 years? This has nothing to do with Sonny. He and Sonny, they’re nothing. This is a fling, a g-
“You planning on keeping me around, counselor?”
Sonny is grinning.
Sonny is grinning like he wants that.
Sonny kisses him. It feels different.
“Good. ‘Cause I wasn’t going anywhere.”
Rafael’s heart is pounding.
Sonny keeps grinning as he kisses his way down, as he places small kisses all over Rafael’s belly.
“Now, soft is great, but let’s see about getting you hard.”
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I think this was just the right amount of fluff. Except it also had some unexpected angst D:
sometimes i feel bad and guilty about spending so much money on merchandise - especially when other people say that it’s a waste - but then again… is buying tons of makeup a better investment? or what about the newest brand clothes? or in-app purchases for some mobile games you won’t even remember a few years from now? at the end of the day, we buy a lot of things simply because they make us happy, right? buying merchandise makes me happy. all my posters and wall scrolls and figures and key chains are a nice decoration for my home, and seeing them cheers me up and makes me feel comfortable. how could that be a waste…
If I told you I loved you, would you believe me?
I don’t mean the love where we hold hands, cuddle and do cute things. I mean the love where you were everything to me, but you didn’t know it. You were the one I was scared to lose, and ultimately enough, what I was scared of became a reality. I loved you for every imperfection you have that I adore. I loved you for brightening my world and making me feel things I thought were only in fairytales.
If I told you I loved you, would you believe me? Because I don’t know if I would. I don’t know if I loved you… Loved is past tense, which means it’s over with. But, I believe you can never stop loving someone, the love might die down, but it doesn’t completely die. It settles down in a dark place inside you and quietens down until it wants to burn a fire in your soul and make its self known again. I loved you, and I continue to love you.
One of the most liberating feelings in the world is realizing you don’t owe anyone shit
You don’t have to be friends with someone who treats you like crap even if you’ve known them your whole life. You don’t even owe them an explanation either. You get to choose who gets to be in your life. It’s a privilege, not a birth given right.
If someone is hurting you or just flat out annoying, you don’t have to give them the time of day. Please cut the shitty people out of your life and surround yourself with awesome ones who make you happy. You deserve nothing but happiness and anyone who brings you down doesn’t deserve to be in it.
So, I was watching Kiznaiver and there was this guy. I don’t know why but he reminds me of Tsukiyama from Tokyo Ghoul. Something between Shuu in TG and TG:re manga. And he is Tsuguhito btw. The power of Tsu lol