I've just started getting into block b and I was wondering if you could help me get to know them/their personalities☺️ so far I know Zico, taeil, p.o and ukwon, i still need to YouTube them tho I feel like I'm gonna be in deep rip lol
Hi, hello and enjoy, cause it’s about to get crazy in here
Ah, it’s been a while since I’ve gone through the Block B fever them so excuse if I mess up on some points, I’m rolling on 2013 knowledge ^^’
ZICO - Woo Jiho
Since he’s one of the ones you know, I don’t think I will write much and most of it you will probably know.
A talented lyricist and rapper who is inspired by other successful artists such as G-Dragon
He is the blunt and straight to the point
leader who works really hard to achieve success
Loves each one of his members, but is the closest with Kyung
He actually went to school with Kyung and they were best friends back then
He is fun and does not care about his image that much. He wants to be known as a funny guy who just happens to be dead serious about music
He can point out a mistake and pick a fight if something goes wrong
He does not put on a fake act to seem friendly around people he dislikes, but he wouldn’t be an ass about it either, pretty mature if you ask me
For the honesty hour thing: So, how did you fall in love with Sakuya, and want attracts you to his character? Im interested in this!
Lol girl did I ever tell you that I love you?
It took me awhile to answer this because I needed to collect my thoughts about it. AHAHA TAKE A SEAT EVERYONE. Okay gosh where to begin….. THIS IS LIKE THE INTERVIEW I WAS WAITING FOR. HA.
Well, as some people know I wasn’t extremely fond of Sakuya when I first started Servamp about….7-8 months ago? I didn’t hate him or anything, just didn’t really care for him at first. (but that kinda goes for quite a bit of characters really, but everyone grows on me at some point. ^^)
I think what really got to me was after learning about his past and how it affected his motives, relationships and current situation in the series.
So many aspects about his characters just make so much sense but I feel like are just kinda looked over……. probably cause his backstory was kinda glazed over real quick, in my opinion at least. (Like why dammit? I have so many questions still, this series can’t do this to me.) It just really kills me inside, especially the more I thought about it and the more I think about his character.
I’m gonna kinda express some of my new random thoughts on his past , cause this intrigues me oddly: (Kinda theory time right now whoooo) AND ALL IS WHAT GIVE ME SO MANY FEELINGS MY GOSH.
Just thinking about the extent of the abuse he must’ve suffered is something that really boggles my mind…… We know it went on for years, those 6 years before his “death” and then probably a few more before that obviously, when his sister was still alive. Who’s knows how long she had to endure it though? She was much older, Sakuya was about 9 at the time, and she appeared to be High School (or maybe Middle School can’t really tell with the uniform.)
She was also the one covered in bandages after all, and we couldn’t see any visible scars or injuries on Sakuya. So she obviously took all the beatings so he wouldn’t have too most likely but after when she died I’m sure things got worse for poor little Sakuya.
But this is my other biggest thing about the abuse he went through…
How come he never tried running away?
We all know his parents threatened to do the same thing to him as they did to his older sister, but could he really not just try and leave before anything happened? Maybe not until he got a bit older.. but still….
Was his parents that controlling? I doubt his parents even cared enough to hunt him down if he did run away…. So why didn’t he try? Did they really keep him that locked in? Its so hard for me to imagine him being and feeling that hopeless, did he have zero fight inside him?
It’s hard to imagine him not fighting back in the slightest. But he could have been a very different person back when he was human too, of course. Maybe more meek and submissive… again who knows. (To be honest, I am extremely curious about to what most of the vampires characters were like before they were vampires and who and what they did before as well.
But anyway, do you think Sakuya put up with it…
Because it was ALSO a loyalty thing??!? I’m making no jokes here. Hear me out, even if he hated his parents(I’m sure he did obviously, even though he never explicitly said he did, because we had Tsubaki tell his story, and not Sakuya.)
Do you think he never tried running away or whatever, because he just felt like he just couldn’t? Like he was betraying something? Maybe not his parents, just because “They are my parents…. whether I like it or not. I have to listen to them…”
But maybe because of his sisters death? Like he felt like he had to endure it like she did for him?? I mean…. he was told:
“You don’t want your sister’s death to be a waste, right?”
YOU GUYS GET WHAT I AM SAYING HERE RIGHT? History can repeat itself….
(This boy is gonna kill me with his conflicted ass)
We know they killed his sister so they could get insurance money(ughh so sickening) but did they really try to kill Sakuya for more money? They would only be two people at that point…… so that’s why a part of me is like, “there’s gotta be a greater reason.” The best conclusion I came up with was “They killed him because maybe he tried to TELL someone.”
Think about it. Sakuya hates lies, he had to lie his whole life basically. He takes it very serious and to heart. WE KNOW THIS.
We know he only kept it a secret because he was threatened and didn’t want his sister’s death to be in vain…. But maybe he eventually cracked under all the pressure… And maybe tried speaking about it or was planning too and then… That was also the day he died…… Damn…. I just stabbed myself in the heart.
So yes, his past is a big factor on why I found him so interesting initially when I was new to this fandom/series, I was really hoping we would see his past elaborated a bit or learn more and see what he does and how on earth Mahiru was gonna “save him.”
I could go on and on about these two as well. Not in a shippy way…. but friendship or romantic, considering his past it makes sense to why he’s attached to Mahiru. Again in another post where I “defended his character” I guess you could say, I talked about how Sakuya’s “screwed up friendship methods” and how he really dug himself into a hole. -__- But I was saying its almost hard to blame him for going about the way he did. BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES SENSE SADLY.
Sakuya is a real lonely and distant kinda guy. After he sister died I’m sure he didn’t have much light in his life then. No one to talk too, no one who understood. No one who loved him. I’m sure growing up during those 6 years he was probably afraid to get close to anyone. What was school like for him then…. did he really have no friends at all for 6 years? It’s crazy to think about right? His childhood was anything but normal….
But then he received a “second chance” after Tsubaki found him and I’m sure Mahiru’s kind-hearted nature really drew him in, it’s not wrong for him to really want a friend, yeah he did go the complete wrong way about it, but unfortunately lies and deceit is all he knew how to do. He found some light in his life, and he was willing to do anything to hold on to that for as long as he could. Also HE KILLS ME because he regretted lying to Mahiru so much and did all the awful things he did/said, BECAUSE HE WAS HOPING MAHIRU WOULD HATE HIM and have his Servamp KILL HIM because he felt that was the only way to apologize for everything. and BOIII did that really kill me. AND THEN MAHIRU FORGAVE HIM STILL and now look at where he is with his conflicted loyalty….
YOU SEE WHERE I AM COMING FROM AVI!?!? AHHHH.
-inhales- ALSO ONE THING I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST BECAUSE THIS REALLY BOTHERS ME. Before ANYONE says “Mahiru is too forgiving about the whole fake memories thing and shouldn’t have forgiven Sakuya or be his friend.” Cause I HAVE heard someone say this and it makes me angry.
BECAUSE then you are ALSO SAYING:
Mahiru shouldn’t have forgiven and accepted Kuro for his past and all his sins and regrets, that he never shared with him. Also for attacking Mahiru that one time, lets not forget.
Mahiru shouldn’t be friends or ever trust Lawless because he’s killed so many eves and killed all of Tsubaki’s subclass and who knows what else he’s done?
Mahiru shouldn’t be finding a way to stop Tsubaki without killing him, because he’s not worth it.
Mahiru shouldn’t be trying to save Tsurugi either because he’s also done bad things.
AND SO ON.
SO SCREW EVERYONE WHO SAYS THAT. Cause you’re basically saying NO CHARACTER deserves happiness. -exhales- Sorry I just feel very strongly about that and I forgot to mention this in my defense post awhile ago. I feel better now~
So about Sakuya’s damn conflicted loyalty between Tsubaki and Mahiru. How are things gonna go from here?.WHICH ROUTE MY GUY? I WANT TO KNOW.
Tbh he’s kinda similar to Tsurugi in a sense (a certain someone kinda opened my eyes about that) that the whole “afraid to start something new because this is all that I’ve ever known and honestly I don’t know how to feel anymore?” kinda sense.
Although Tsurugi is debatablely the saddest character in servamp right now (backstory and current situation and all ARE WAYYY more painful.)
What? Just cause Sakuya is my fave didn’t mean I’m completely biased about him. He sad. But not the SADDEST. I just thought I would mention this cause the parallels kinda fascinate me.
I WANT SAKUYA TO TAKE SOME ACTION. HE’S FREE NOW RIGHT??? What’s he gonna do now??? What’s he planning to do!?!? STILL WAITING HERE.
. Ughh its probably gonna be awhile until we get anything about Sakuya again. Which is fine. Cause its not his arc right now.
WE GOT BIGGER PROBLEMS IN THE MANGA. MUCH MORE PRESSING THINGS INDEED.
But still I’m extremely curious… To what he might do in the future…. I mean Sakuya and even Lilac are still running around freely unlike the other melancholy members at the moment? So will he somehow be involved with that later??? Will he find Tsubaki??? WHERE ARE YOU MY BOY?
I HOPE THAT MEANS STRIKE PLANS TO INCLUDE HIM AGAIN SOON. I’ll take it as foreshadowing *sobs* Strike obviously hasn’t forgotten about him….so JUST waiting and watching now.
Waiting and watching….
Sorry, that got so angsty above I wanted this post to be positive too.. So here are good/fun things I like about him:
Even though he character design absolutely baffles me(yes I mean the hair) I gotta say I really love it~ His hair is really something original that’s for sure. HA. His design also helped immediately catch my attention to him also I may have a bit of a “stripes bias” ahaha I own A LOT of stripe shirts myself lol always have and always will.
He owns a lot of pink accessories and wears pink a lot too! LET. BOYS. WEAR. PINK. YES. YOU. GO. MY. BOY. He rocks it fight me.
He’s cool and I’m kinda curious on what his subclass ability is. If there is even one for him. Weapons seem to be his specialty. (F.E knives, chainsaw(which I am still trying to figure out how magically pulled out in AN ELEVATOR!?! And can make a sword outta blood apparently.
But I don’t really trust the animes canon….) Also his little black strap things have a function??? THEY ARE ALIVE. WHAT
Look how happy Mahiru makes him. His smile is precious. He loves his friend so much I cry. I want them to be together and be friends again.
All the Tsubaki and Sakuya shenanigans make me laugh. One minute he’s crying to Mahiru “please don’t kill him” and the next you’re trying to put the guy into a fox trap. What even boi.
HE PRETTY STRONG and has great potential to be truly terrifying and useful. UNLEASH THAT POTENTIAL YOU GREEN EMO CHILD.
Another random thought I had was what would have things been like if Mahiru did choose to tell Sakuya about Kuro in the beginning like he originally planned? Might’ve still gone down the same way. But who knows?
(I could keep going tbh)
But for now I’m just gonna sweat about the BIGGER MATTERS THAT ARE CURRENTLY HAPPENING IN THE MANGA RIGHT NOW. HA….
◇ requested by anon; Vampire!junhoe pleaseeeeeee 💘💘💘
◇ the gif has nothing to do w this story but its really hard to find junhoe gifs that are even slightly serious OTL life is hard lol anyway i find it weird but whenever i write for junhoe i end up writi g something completely different to my other works - for example, my other vamp fics are so different from this one!! But i hope u guys enjoy anyway bc i quite like it
Humans like to think that they’re alone in the world. Alone in the universe, too. Maybe it scares them to think about more powerful, unique creatures. Maybe they’re secretly aware, somewhere in their subconscious, that they’re weak, fragile, unprotected. That makes humans dangerous, because they try too hard to prove others wrong.
Humans are lucky that the other side of things — the ‘weird’ side — is so merciful. How grateful they should be that the things that go bump in the night decide to stay hidden in the shadows, the alleyways, through secret doorways and portals. Humans can easily be overthrown, but sending the world into chaos isn’t something anyone is particularly fond of doing, and that results in fear of being discovered.
If a person tries hard enough, maybe they’ll be able to see through to the other side: a girl with purple hair and eyebrows in the flower shop was making roses grow with a flick of her wrist — a barista, with bright green eyes, from the corner of your eye, looks as if he has another set of arms.
It’s all about perception, and fortunately for otherworldly Beings, that has never been the strong point for humans.
Our story starts at a shop that mortal eyes can only see at the witching hour on a Wednesday in March when the weather is just right and the wind is travelling at a certain speed — your shop.
Generation of Miracles (- Kuroko + Kagami) reacting to meeting Hanamiya and being reluctant at introducing their s/o 'cause he's a jerk, but Hanamiya starts to act all nice toward them 'cause they think they're cute. And in the end the s/o comments "I don't see why you speak so badly of that guy, he seems nice!". (Poor guys, lol!)
Long time no see! How has everyone been :)?
Kise - Kise’s eyes roll impossibly back as he watches you laugh at something Hanamiya says. He was hoping the meeting would just be a quick hello and goodbye, but no, apparently Hanamiya was hilarious. Really, really damn hilarious. Kise glares at his newly declared rival while he induces you in another laughing fit.
After a short 5 minutes, Kise’s at his limit. He interrupts Hanamiya’s next sentence with an obnoxious fake laugh. “Okay, well, we’d love to stay but we’ve got a date to go on, right ____-cchi?”
Kise’s annoyance grows even deeper upon seeing you and Hanamiya share an amused look at his weird behaviour. You quickly wave bye to Hanamiya as your boyfriend pulls you away. He gives you a wink in return and your face flushes. You turn to Kise and talk him directly for the first time in a while.
“I know you talk pretty badly about him, but I actually think tha-,”
“Don’t even start”.
Akashi - If Akashi had it his way, he’d protect his sweet girlfriend from ever having to meet Hanamiya. This was virtually impossible in his current situation, where Rakuzan and Kirisaki Daichi were about to have their first match against each other. Akashi stepped away from you for just a moment, leaving a perfect opening for Kirisaki’s captain to slither in.
“I don’t think I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting Rakuzan’s lovely manager,” he introduced himself in a overly sweet tone. His acting worked, and you found yourself fairly flustered at his words. Hanamiya kept up his facade very well, convincing you that he was perfectly nice, despite what you’ve heard about him.
The conversation was cut short when Akashi appeared behind you, grabbing your hand gently and leading you away, but not without a polite smile towards Hanamiya. You give Hanamiya an apologetic look, who responds with a playful smile and a wink.
“Good luck to you and your team!” you call out.
“Thanks cutie, we’ll talk more after the game!” he responds.
Akashi stops in his tracks. He takes a deep breath for composure and clenches his fist tightly.
“I promise you, luck can’t save him now…”
Murasakibara - Hanamiya didn’t have the physical advantage over Murasakibara, but having no shame in blatantly hitting on his girlfriend right in front of him, he had other advantages. His ability to put on a fake charm, for one. The two of you were hitting it off fairly well, until Murasakibara cuts in and scares Hanamiya off.
“Atsushi, that wasn’t very nice,” you begin.
“I’m not the one who isn’t nice,” he says defensively. “And you shouldn’t like mean people, because if they hurt you, I’d have to crush them”.
Aomine - Aomine was too lazy to intervene on you and Hanamiya’s conversation, which was getting flirtier by the moment. Hanamiya was getting dangerously close to you, and usually, this would be Aomine’s cue to jump in, as his blood began to boil with anger, but instead he turned away from the sight of Hanamiya moving in, and came up with a new plan.
He decided he would annoy you instead. As expected, you eventually came running up behind him.
“Why’d you just leave like that?” you ask.
He shrugged. “I don’t know, ask your new boyfriend maybe?”
You roll your eyes, reaching to hold his hand, which he swiftly dodges. “I don’t think your new boyfriend would like that very much,” he says. You continue to follow him like a puppy, begging for attention, and Aomine sees his plan worked nicely.
Kagami - You wave bye to Hanamiya as he jogs back over to his side of the court. You walk back over to your boyfriend, who made sure to keep an eye on the two of you, mostly him, as you talked.
The way Kagami talked about him, you thought he would be completely awful, but you couldn’t help but find him nice. You approach Kagami, ready to tell him about your new friend.
“And he said he really loves playing basketball with you. Isn’t he nice? I like him!” you gush.
Kagami is completely baffled by this. “Y-you what? What do you mean like him?! That’s a joke right? No way you’re serious, haven’t I told you what he’s done?!”
Unintentionally, you set Kagami off on a never ending rant about Hanamiya, where he made sure to recount the every detail of his evil schemes.
Midorima - Midorima shifts awkwardly as he stands there, listening to you and Hanamiya’s conversation. Unlucky for him, you two just happened to run into Hanamiya on the street. He feels out of place, like he’s the third wheel between the three of you. Hanamiya feeds off your laughter, which you’re clearly happy to give. At every slight break in the conversation, Midorima tries speaking up, but gets strategically cut off by Hanamiya every time.
Soon enough, Midorima reaches his limit, and takes it upon himself to put an end to the conversation. “____, we have some place to be. We’re going now,” he says firmly. He begins walking away on his own, trusting that you’ll follow. And you do, but not before Hanamiya slips his number in your handbag for your to find later.
Just as you were about to comment on how nice Hanamiya was, Midorima speaks up.
“His sign is ranked first today. That’s the only reason he was able to convince you that he was a nice person” Midorima scoffs.
“Aww, Shin-chan, you’re not jealous are you?” you tease.
He doesn’t dignify your question with a verbal response, which gives you the answer anyway.
i know there’s a ton of these out there and this is SO LONG im sorry i dont know how to shut up lol, i want to update my fics but im in the home stretch of getting through this week of classes before i go on break ;;;; so uh, have this post of some kind of general hc’s and some thoughts on how saeran feels about each of the members of the rfa + some vanderwood
spoilers of course, also mentions of smoking and vague notions at abuse and stuff, also this is just super long and ridiculous and im sorry aha
Naturally calm and collected, he isn’t easily frightened
In fact, the only time he’d truly be scared is if he feels like the lives of his friends and the lives of any other innocent person are at stake
Even so, he makes a good leader because he can still think and act rationally even during the worst situations
During events like a chase, he’d definitely stay around the end of the group so he could try and fight off whatever was chasing them
He’d also be the one who’d make “nice saves”, knocking things over to block the pursuer’s way, shutting the door behind them at just the right time, barricading that door soon afterwards
Very aware of his surroundings, so he actually wouldn’t be easy to surprise or jump-attack
Not particularly comforting with words, but his presence tends to be reassuring to others
Would fight off any attacker no matter how dangerous they were or how un-armed Shownu would be
Even if they were attacking someone else, ESPECIALLY if they were attacking someone else
Selfless, but to a fault. His selflessness may potentially lead to his downfall
He’d be a considerate and noble leader if needed, but he’d just care so much about his group he’d forget to take care of himself
He’ll put on a tough exterior and remain serious for the most part, but if threatened or scared he’d be extremely nervous
Even to the point of tears
If someone were to go missing or if they were to die, he would definitely cry
Probably wouldn’t even need a weapon, his strength would serve him well
Might be a little squeamish (not as much as Minhyuk or Jooheon), but his scream would be pretty high pitched
Willingly volunteer to be a lookout in case their group would need to take a detour, rest etc.
Proceeds with caution for the most part but will react extremely quickly if provoked
Would sacrifice himself or take any brutal attack no matter how fatal as long as it would keep another person safe
The type of person who’d call/text his mother “goodbye mom, I love you”
He’d be the type of character to walk into places without much caution and say “Hello?” if he sensed something
Would also turn around at the worse times
Has the loudest reactions, even if the movie’s antagonist wasn’t there he’d scream so badly it would be enough to lead them to him
Automatically assume he and the group were dealing with a supernatural, paranormal force (even if it isn’t)
Extremely vunerable if he was alone or in a small group, but he’d be able to survive well in large numbers
Would try and incorporate video game knowledge into any situation
“I played a bunch of those horror RPG simulators, I’m preeeeetty sure we shouldn’t do that. But there’s this thing I did when I played Left 4 Dead and…”
Comes extremely close to dying at least 7 times in the entire movie
Would use a flashlight basically all the time but flash it around so obnoxiously
Tries to lighten the mood especially if someone gets scared, he’ll try extra hard to comfort them too
If he would die, his death would most likely be the most graphic, prolonged, and ultimately heart wrenching for both the viewers and the characters in the movie itself
No absense of his motherly nature, he’d make sure to keep track of everyone
Keeps track of everything that happens, makes little mental notes to himself if he notices anything
Would probably piece together things he’s noticed to figure out some sort of vital plot point or some sort of knowledge key to their survival
Might be the character who’d die before he could tell them though
He’s actually really handy and makes use of literally everything
Anything is a weapon to him. He could grab the nearest object and it would be like a death sentence to whoever he was going to fight with
Would totally yell and threaten the movie’s antagonist
Makes sure everyone’s in good shape, will tend to anyones wounds if they’re injured
Scavenge for food and supplies wherever he can
Takes a long time for him to trust others, but the doubt may actually come in handy (that stranger that tagged along with their group for a “better chance of survival”? turns out they were in kahoots with the murderer and kihyun knew well enough not to trust him)
Insists that getting rest is vital to his survival
Yes, he’d take naps at any given opportunity
But it doesn’t mean he’s unaware of his surroundings and what occurs in them
He’s very swift and witty, even if he may seem to have a sluggish and lazy nature
A follower who doesn’t contribute too much, because people usually don’t take him seriously
But if he made a suggestion or figured out something that turned out to be useful or correct, the group wouldn’t hear the end of it
Gets exhausted pretty easily (if they were being chased Shownu would probably take his spot in the back of the group, and he’d constantly have to push Hyungwon forward to help him out)
Would probably make jokes about how he’d let himself get killed so he could have an eternal sleep
Probably makes jokes in general, about how they should “vote on who gets sacrificed”, “who goes to check first”
Has delayed reactions and might not even react much at things that would be “jumpscares”, but he’d bolt outta there real quick
Typically in doubt for the vast majority of the movie, even if he doesn’t admit it. He probably won’t think there would be any grave consequences, certainly no death, until it actually happens
The most cautious and jittery person in the group
He’s easily caught off guard regardless
Will scream even at the slightest touches
Suggest to call the police at any given opportunity
Would probably be the one calling for help regardless, whether the plea is directed towards authorities, other characters, or really anyone who could hear him
Gets really emotional and will probably be that type of person who will confess literally all his wrongdoings, “Listen Kihyun, I’m the one who trashed your apron. Hyungwon, I was the one who ate the take-out food you saved in the fridge. PLEASE PLEASE DON’T KILL ME I’M SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME”
The first to crack under pressure, but his hasty reactions/actions might just save a life
Either never wants to leave the setting (eg. if the movie took place in a house), or he’d want to get out of there immediately but definitely doesn’t want to be left alone
Raps when he’s scared, even if it’s super quiet he’ll probably be muttering a verse or two under his breath
Will either be the person to think “there’s obviously a logical, scientific explanation to everything!” or “we’re dealing with the paranormal here, and frankly I think we’re just about fucked”. There’s no in-between
Would totally try and record videos on his phone thinking it would make good Youtube content (if they survived lol)
Slightly outcasted, might be the “loner” who doesn’t fit in at first yet the others would still care for him lots
Would probably survive, potentially be the last survivor
His quick thinking would probably save them most of the time
Pieces together what they need to know, like how to defeat the antagonist
Tries to be sneaky but will probably fail
Like, he’ll try a sneak attack on the movie antagonist in the dark but he’ll walk into something or stub his toe and blow his cover because he’ll yell “Ah, fuck!”
Or he’d be trying to escape really really quietly, but he steps on a creaky floorboard and it’s game over
If the movie was something paranormal or so, like perhaps Ouija board related, he was probably the one who suggested playing it in the first place
Do you think that people who are insecure will naturally become monogamous and people who aren't will become polyamorous?
I’m not sure how to interpret this, tbh. I think “insecurity” is a vague enough concept that I don’t know what would count as a person who lacks insecurity.
Is it insecure to be worried about your partner leaving you if they literally just told you they would? Or is this just “having preferences over whether your partner dates you”? Do they need to be irrational (and how is “irrational” to be defined)? And are we only counting people with irrational fears about relationships or about anything? Is a person who feels scared when they stand on a glass roof insecure?
So I’ll instead try to define a specific value - how regularly and intensely one experiences fears about one’s relationship(s) - and call people who have more of this (holding the behaviour of their partner(s) constant) “more insecure”. This gives us “insecurity” as a personality trait. How much fear one feels can obviously go up and down depending on what one’s partner does, but people who will respond with more fear than others in identical situations can be thought of as more insecure for this purpose.
So, does being more insecure cause you to be more monogamous. It probably does for a lot of people! And, for others, the reverse might be true!
“Wait, what?” you may ask. “How can that be?” Well, I’ll give the example of my own case:
I have been a pretty insecure person (in the general, not relationship-specific sense) for a very long time, which is not too surprising given my backstory. However, until I first started dating (two years ago), I didn’t know what it would be like to be in a relationship.
I had a major advantage out the gate in understanding how to build good relationships, due to reading a lot and knowing people with good relationships that I could model. Nonetheless, I had no idea what being in a relationship felt like. Turns out it felt extremely tenuous.
I had a whole suite of insecurities; most of which were related to the newness of relationships. I felt as unlovable as back when no one would date me and was terrified that, if I let any opportunity pass me by, I’d never find a girlfriend again. I continued to have the suspicion that everyone secretly hated me that I’d held since primary school, which made it hard to trust that any given person would stick around, and made me want to distribute my risk. I was afraid that the rules around what others considered “cheating” were obscure and unknowable. And also, like, my own jealousy was a thing.
Given the particular cluster of insecurities, polyamory was the obvious choice. Three soul-crushing anxieties pushing me one way beat the one pushing me the other. For over a year, being polyamorous was clearly the best way I could satisfice my preferences. But, over time, most of my insecurities faded, leaving behind almost nothing besides the jealousy. So now I’m way less insecure and have a way stronger natural leaning toward monogamy. Funny how that works.
(Note that I continue to date polyamorously, because the switching costs to becoming monogamous would not be worth it. This is just to say that the type of person I am is better suited to monogamy than polyamory now. My actually love life is poly.)
Why did my anti-mono insecurities go away while my anti-poly insecurity didn’t? Honestly, I really don’t know. To some extent, the jealousy did go away, as it’s now something like 30%-50% as bad as it used to be. On the other hand, everything else is less than 5% as bad as it originally was, so that’s a pretty big gap. It’s also a pretty annoying order in which to self-improve, given that my life continues to be poly. But I do have some guesses about why it happened in that particular order:
Experience: Most of my insecurities were about things that were gradually proven by my own experiences to not be that important. After a year of it happening very consistently, I stopped being completely shocked that I attracted romantic interest from other girls. I found that the people around me probably didn’t hate me, because they had too much ADHD to play a con this long. (It didn’t hurt that I could see other people having fears of being hated and notice that theirs were irrational.)
Somewhat more surprising to me was that I picked up a model of cheating. Or, more accurately, several models, such that I could predict how several different types of jealous people might feel about things. It was actually somewhat like learning to read faces, which I originally thought would be impossible. Then I started picking up the cues of a raised eyebrow here and an upraised mouth-corner there, until eventually I could do it. Similarly, navigating relationships with different types of people, and listening to the thoughts of people I wasn’t dating, helped me get a new sense, so the problem no longer seemed scary.
Meanwhile, this didn’t really happen with jealousy. The lessons experience taught were that yes, my partner sometimes starts dating someone cooler than me and then dumps me; and yes, my metamours sometimes interfere in my relationships in ways that sabotage them; and yes, my poly friends tend to (on average) have less secure primary relationships than my mono friends. None of these were universal, obviously, but common enough to sting.
I’d certainly rather I was weighing risks like these with system 2 than with system 1, but if my system 1 was exposure therapied out of most of its problems, that isn’t going to work for a problem where system 1 is sometimes correct.
Environment: A while back, a Tumblr post went around where someone talked about why the casual suicidality of Tumblr culture was unhealthy. That suicidality must always be taken Extremely Seriously because it is a Real Adult Problem that you need to Seek Help for. Almost everyone who responded said that this was actually very valuable to their mental health and that they wouldn’t be able to express their feelings in a different environment.
This is basically what I’m like with my insecurities. Being in a social environment where people were like “lol, of course we’re all afraid that everyone in the world hates us” helped me work through that.
Meanwhile, I’ve mostly been surrounded by people who think jealousy must always be taken Extremely Seriously because it is a Real Adult Problem that you need to Seek Help for, who of course make me not want to admit to such Serious Defects. Plus, of course, the people who think monogamy is evil and that violating monogamous people’s boundaries is always justified, who doubly make me never want to talk about jealousy in public.
The combined chilling effect probably leads to me working through my problems less well than if I could talk about them, which may contribute to why my fear that everyone hates me faded at a much faster rate than my jealousy has.
Self-Deception: Probably related to environment is the fact that, while I could admit most of my problems to myself, I was convinced I didn’t experience jealousy. After all: jealous people are Bad; I am not Bad; therefore, I am not jealous. This lasted me through quite intense levels of doublethink and reams of excuses that are embarrassingly invented in retrospect.
This, of course, also meant I wasn’t working on the problem directly, because I couldn’t admit to myself that I had it. Thus, I may also be behind on subduing jealousy just because I’ve been consciously working on it for a much shorter period of time.
Regression To The Mean: As far as I’m aware, most people tend not to be incredibly scrupulous and convinced that they’re inherently unlovable and universally hated. However, they do tend to experience jealousy. They do at high enough rates that the default dating system is built around an assumption of jealousy.
This means that, of my listed insecurities, the ones that were obstructions to monogamy were uncommon. Thus, just due to the random ways people change, there’d probably be a higher chance of them going away than of jealousy going away. One might expect jealousy to be more firmly fixed in place just because it’s very common. (This is also my handwaviest and least endorsed guess.)
In the end, it was probably several of these, plus maybe other things I haven’t yet thought of. Whatever the case, I can at least say that I’m better off now than where I started. On basically every metric, I’m a more self-assured and less insecure person.
While I’d rather have vanquished my insecurities in a different order, I am still immensely grateful that they’re going away at all. If I had but gained some more trust, but had still been just as jealous, Dayenu.
Honestly, I’m just shocked anyone put up with my insanely insecure ass long enough for this much improvement to take place. The fact that anyone could stand me this long, when I can’t stand myself, is the best evidence I have that I might actually be pretty or something.
(Though I still have the insecurity that I’m bad for the people around me, even if not the one that everyone else realises this and hates me. This is part of why I’m way more reluctant to date new people, now that I no longer have the automatic urge to accept every opportunity I get. However, if you want to try anyway, I’d be immensely flattered.)
Anyway, sorry to give you a long story about my personal life. The point was that insecurities can pull you in any of several directions, so you can’t be sure that one set of people is more or less insecure than another without finding out why they’re doing what they’re doing.
Request : Heyy please can I get a scenario with Rosé from Blackpink. Female reader. Mostly angst + really heated argument + fluffy ending. Thank you! The longer the better for my Blackpink soul
Member : Rosé from Blackpink
A/N : Hello :) I hope you’ll like this even if it turned out not too well. I tried to keep it long as you wanted but I had a rough time writing this lol.. also this wasn’t very.. a kind of heated argument? I’m sorry if you dislike it :( You can always ask for scenarios with any member from any group listed in my biography. ( I DO NOT DO SMUT. )
“I’m home, love,” you called out as you came home from work. You heard no one answer, no loving greeting from Rosé as always. She always immediately ran towards you when she was home. It was sweet, she was acting like a puppy. She was off from practice today so she must’ve been home, but as you asked no one answered. “Honey?” you asked again, putting your bag away, looking around after closing the door. You looked through every room until you found her in your bedroom sitting on the bed, staring out of the window. “What’s off? Are you okay?” you quickly got to your girlfriend and sat down next to her, hugging her tightly. “Hmh. How was work,” she asked without any emotion. She seemed rather mad than sad, you just didn’t know why yet. “It was okay like everyday. Now tell me what’s wrong,” you looked at her beautiful face. “Nothing,” she answered, still not looking at you. “I’m not stupid, Chaeyoungie.. I know you’re hiding something. Please tell me what’s off..” you said. “You lied to me,” she replied. “I lied to.. what? I never lied to you!” you defended yourself. “Where were you saturday night?” finally she looked at you. She stared deeply into your eyes, looking hurt and mad. “I was at work, I promise,” you said. “Oh yeah. Work. So, were you alone?” she continued asking, still staring into your eyes. “Of course not, other people from the office were around. Chaeyoungie! Why are you like this.. I did nothing wrong!” you pouted. Pouting always helped but not today, she didn’t accept your cute acting. “Oh you did not? How can you still lie to me in this situation?” she asked, getting a bit louder. Now you knew, you were dead. She was going to freak out sooner or later. No matter how hard you thought, you didn’t know what you did wrong. “So you weren’t with Jisoo that night, do you want to tell me that?” her hands formed to fists and she bit her lip. “I wasn’t with her that night,” you answered. You were getting serious, you didn’t know what your girlfriend was talking about and why she was so mad. “Oh hmh. Tell me the truth or it’s over!” she shouted at you. “What? But Chaeyong, I’m telling you the truth! I don’t know what’s going on, please, don’t end us..” you looked into her eyes while yours were filling up with tears. “You and Jisoo kissed!” she screamed at me. “We never kissed!” you screamed back while some tears were falling down your cheeks. “Jisoo told me you were with her this saturday night. She even sent me a picture,” she sounded hurt, so hurt she didn’t even shout, she just sighed while showing me the chat. “She is the one who is lying! Why don’t you trust me? We’re a couple for two years by now and you don’t trust me? You rather trust Jisoo with a rumor that we kissed?!” you took her phone and scrolled through the chat and looked at the picture. “Damn this looks real but we did not kiss and I swear to god I was working off my ass saturday night!” you shouted at her phone and handed it back. The picture looked real, yet it probably was good photoshop. You don’t remember getting this drunk to kiss her nor being even close to her lips. “You kissed for so long! There is not only this picture, here! Take a look and remember this!” she showed me more pictures. “I never kissed her! Do you think I’d cheat on you? Yes? I, with a little dumb rumor made up by your friend and you, who actually kissed Lisa once!” you stood up, getting mad now, remembering that issue. It was such a mess, you two were on a party thrown by Jennie and of course the squad came. The squad included Jisoo, Lisa, Jennie, Rosé and you. Nayeon, Momo, all their friends came as well. You were gone for a bit and Rosé drank a little bit too much. You just were a bit tipsy but she must’ve drank alot and as you returned you caught her kissing your two’s best friend, Lisa. She was pretty drunk as well so she didn’t realize. The anger in you was real, everyone was even cheering for them, it was like they replaced you with Lisa. So instead of saying anything you just left home and avoided everyone for a while, you also ignored Chaeyoung for a bit.
Now you were here, never kissed anyone except your Rosé in your relationship. You understood, she was more worried than she should be as normal since she wasn’t there very often because of her career, yet she always found time for you. “That was an accident! Y/N! That’s the past, that happened a year ago just forget it!” she started crying too. “Ohh! Forgetting it? Would you forget it if I kissed any of our friends?” I asked. She didn’t say anything anymore. “Whatever. Stop lying to me, I don’t want to see you anymore, get out of my eyesight,” she threw a pillow at you. “Why are we even arguing? I hate when we argue, it’s so stupid. But good to know that you trust Jisoo more than me. And Fine, I’m leaving,” you caught the pillow and threw it back, leaving the room. You sat down in the kitchen and stared out of the little window. It was late already and you had a rough day. And now.. you argued with the love of your life. You didn’t argue very often but when you did you always felt down. She wasn’t there very often already, it was a shame that you two had arguments. After a long time has passed you slowly heard someone enter the kitchen. Of course it was Chaeyoung and she was sobbing loudly. “Y/N..” she whispered. You wiped some of your tears away and turned around. Rosé showed you more pictures where you kissed Jisoo’s cheek. “It’s just her cheek. Why do you overreact like this?” you asked. “I’m just.. so super jealous. I love you so much Y/N. I have issues sharing you. I barely see you.. it feels bad when you’re with others who are close to you. I worry alot more, too, because Jisoo likes you..” she stroked her right arm and looked at you. You sighed a bit. “I’m jealous, too, at times. Chaeyoung, I love you. I don’t want to argue with you, I just want to love you, be happy with you. Work is rough for us two already.. we should spend our freetime together happily,” you stood up and cuddled her. She cuddled back and still sobbed. “My love. I’m sorry for shouting at you.. I always feel so guilty while arguing with you.. Please forgive me, I just was so angry/ mad/ frustrated/ jealous, whatever..” she looked away. You made her look into your eyes and kissed her. “Everything’s forgiven.. Just don’t forget that I won’t ever cheat on you. I love you, and only you.. remember that,” you said while looking into her beautiful eyes. She nodded. “I’ll always love and cherish you..” she smiled and pecked your lips. You smiled as well. “Me too..”
Always strangely attracted to/intrigued by their nature because it is so exuberant, confident, and opposite mine. Everything they say makes me laugh, but sometimes their aggression is overwhelming. For the most part they are reasonable people who understand the world around them and they try desperately to make an impact on the lives of others. They are often very silly and sarcastic but deep down have big hearts and are very caring. They take things lightly which is comforting.
They are cute, quiet, humble, and I always feel calmed by their presence. They are very down to earth people that are so appreciative of the little things in life which warms me heart. They are always polite and shell out compliments, but sometimes they feel a little fake. It amazes me how organized and put together they are. What also amazes me is how they can be so content with routine!!! Overall adorable people that are like teddy bears, lil softies. It's nice to be around them, for they are not afraid of emotions.
I , love , Geminis , so , much. So smart, whimsical, and creative, so much going through their brains—they are absolutely the most interesting people. I love their upbeat nature and unpredictability; they make me feel alive, for they are so full of energy. They are always the most fun people to talk to or just be around in general (most of the time). They do have some crazy mood swings and tend to seem almost bipolar, but they just have lots and lots of thoughts zooming through their brains and I want to hear all of them.
Hmmmm, not quite sure how I feel about Cancers. They are very emotional, but it is hard for them to control their emotions (unlike Taurus), which makes them hard to deal with sometimes because I'm never sure what to say to calm them. They are soothing when they aren't stressed out, but it seems as though they are constantly worried. They do have big hearts and are very loving—always there for you when you need them—but they have a tendency to overthink things and twist reality to their liking. Most Cancers I meet are very eccentric and adventurous and are fun to be around when they have no worries in the world (though they probably do deep down). Kindred spirits.
Another "hmmmm". I love how I can say anything to a Leo as long as I grin while I say it. They have amazing senses of humor and are very witty oftentimes. Very creative, but they hold a deep insecurity inside them and try their best to hide it. They seem very confident, but I know that this is because they are pushing those insecurities down when they should open up and accept themselves. They are the definition of the phrase, "fake it 'til you make it." Leo's have a drive like no other to be the best at what they do and it is very inspiring. Their presence is always warm and comforting, but intimidating at the same time. I always want to please Leos.
Oh, Virgos. Some of the Virgos I've met have some very deep psychological issues, but some are so interesting. There is always a nervous tension to a Virgo; I can tell they are trying to keep up some appearance they desire to have. They are very caring people, but not always loyal. Most Virgos I know seem to live in their head; aware of reality but have a strong disdain for it. They are dreamy and strange—unique in a plain way. They are quite introverted and don't seem to show their true self often (I assume it is because they are afraid of criticism). Overall interesting people who are hard to figure out.
I LOVE LIBRAS OBVIOUSLY? Because I understand exactly where they are coming from all they time. Libras are always searching for understanding, and who could understand a Libra better than another Libra? They are always adorable, shy, humble, lil cuties that just want peace and love for everyone. So dreamy and unreal. Libras are very intuitive, and have the ability to see every side to a situation which makes them great at socializing: they always know what to say. Also, they are so selfless and strive for happiness for all. Love, love, love. Almost left out how amazing their sense of humor is, they just love to laugh and every little thing will cause them to. Such light people.
I like how each Scorpio is different from the last. They all have an introverted, darker side to them, but they are truly silly people who love to have fun. They search for a deeper meaning in everything, and love solving mysteries. Their friendship is always an adventure because they have so many strange thoughts that are always interesting. I find that Scorpios either are very straightforward or hide in the shadows. Overall strange people who feel the need to always be right (being a fixed sign), and they don't have very much trust in the world, but they are fighters that can get through any tough situation and come out stronger.
Mixed feelings about Sagittarians, for they are very detached from the world of emotions and can hurt people without knowing. They are fun to adventure with, but the extreme restlessness they carry with them can cause sometimes cause me to feel anxious, like I'm boring or something, although I know it's just the way they are. Their sense of humor doesn't really resonate with mine, but they still make me laugh constantly because they themselves are so entertaining. Their independence and high energy can sometimes be intimidating, but in the end they are softies like the rest of us under the surface. Always trying to better themselves and learn about the world.
Misunderstood, depressed people most of the time. They carry an insecure air about them, and I can almost feel their need to look cool and professional. Softies under the surface, very silly, and laugh at just about anything. They can go from laughing to serious in the blink of an eye. Desperate and determined to make it to the top of the world. Will go through hell to get to heaven. They try very hard.
Ahhhhh, Aquarius. Elusive, quiet, and insanely smart. They come off as all-knowing, but in truth, they are just so otherworldly that they come off as geniuses because nobody ever seems to know what they mean. Their words are very vague but have infinite meaning. Eccentric by nature, every Aquarius is unique in their own way. They are all very different from each other, but the one thing that every Aquarius seems to have in common is how different they are from everybody else. They love to have peaceful surroundings and are extremely kind people. They rarely want to cause any harm and are very open-minded. Overall great people.
Pisces are a mystery to me. I honestly don't understand anything about them as people. This aspect of mystery is intriguing to me, causing me to want to figure them out. They are very delicate creatures and seem lost in their dreams. So kind and caring, and almost always truthful. Their emotions go up and down all the time and I get a sense of insecurity from every Pisces I meet. Overall beautiful people.
based off a request: Could you write a newt x reader where the reader is a Metamorphmagus and wears a wig to hide her bright coloured hair, but newt finds out xx
a/n: soooo idk what wizard teens/young people do on a daily basis but uh, this is just a regular imagine :D idk i hope you like dis :)
being different was hard for a young wizard. not only were they different because they were a wizard or witch. being an animagus or metamorphmagus was much more to deal with. it was a thing rarely the specials could hide on a daily basis. and to hide it from their friends in embarrassment was heart wrenching.
when you know you’re hiding something - from someone who cares about you - for some anxiety-ish reason, is a horrible feeling.
y/n had known newt scamander for a long while now, about a year or so - it was hard keeping up with him because of his constant travels around the world, but they managed with letters. newt had promised y/n to take her with him to travel sometime later, he only needed to finish something he had started. newt never told her what he was doing while travelling, but it wasn’t actually that big of a concern to her.
y/n hadn’t even mentioned anything about any metamorphmagus, nor herself being one to newt. she wanted to tell him, but was so afraid to. he would not like her anymore, he would be ashamed of having a friend like y/n. would he want to capture her and use her? metamorphmags were very rare and sometimes even used for experiments. but newt would never do such a thing to y/n, would he?
the girl wore a wig every time she were to meet newt. that was the only way she could hide her colourful hair from her friend. those few times when a piglet’s nose or a duck’s beak appeared in the place of y/n’s own nose, she turned away or pretended to be coughing. of course, those situations left newt feeling very puzzled and in a dilemma of what to do - help her or wait.
anywho, newt was coming back from his travelling today and meeting y/n, of course. they settled to spend some time at y/n’s countryside which nobody except for herself had used for decades. her grandparents left the house and the greens territory as legacy for y/n. so, as her parents got killed when the girl was very young, she was the one to use it. y/n lived off selling garden gnomes and wizardly greens, and she liked it. that’s how she met newt - in a huge market of wizardly greens. he needed some for his beasts and y/n gladly sold him some. their first meeting - that’s another story.
so now, newt was regularly going to y/n’s gardens to get his greens and sometimes he even helped her sell them (well, he tried to). and on this day, y/n and newt would spend a day together in her garden full of beautiful and some useful plants. newt’s beasts (some of them) could come outside of the case and enjoy some sunlight. y/n had seen most of them already, and she was very impressed by what wonderful creatures newt had saved and gathered. perhaps he would bring new ones with him today? hmm, that’d be nice.
y/n was sitting at the garden table with her own bowtruckle chilling (:D lol wot) around her hand. newt had gave her one of his bowtruckles for her birthday and it was the best gift she had ever got. her fake brown hair was still shining in the warm sunlight, y/n did everything to make it look natural and regular, like other people’s hair. newt should be with her any minute now.
just as y/n thought about him being here, the chair across the table from her swung back and newt appeared in it. his appearance caused the teapot to shake horribly and almost spill the tea if newt himself hadn’t prevented it from doing so. his hair was going in every direction, messy, he had his blue coat on and of course, his case. y/n was a little puzzled at this sudden appearance so she just sat there, looking at newt for a few seconds.
newt’s warm brown eyes kept flickering between y/n and the teapot he was moving back onto the table. when y/n had regained conscience and connection to reality, newt’s face broke out into a warm smile. “hello.” he said.
“good day, sir.” y/n replied, smiling back. “splendid to see you after a long time.”
“you too.” newt said.
“so, tell me, mister,” y/n said, leaning on the table with her hand under her chin, looking at newt, “where were you and what did you find?” she smiled at him, and he responded with the same gesture. then newt’s head bent down and he brought his case on the table between him and his friend. he hesitantly looked y/n in the eyes and looked down at his case again, opening the locks of it afterwards.
y/n heard muffled talking and beast-y sounds coming from newt’s direction, she waited. then, a few moments later, newt closed his case with something in his hand. he brought the creature between him and y/n and the girl gasped. it was as blue as her natural hair. it looked like a snake, but with the skin of a dragon and the head of an eagle or a phoenix. it was so beautiful.
she reached her hand out to pet it, but newt moved the creature away from her. she looked up at him in question and it was newt’s time to gasp. “y/n…” he whispered. the girl scrunched her nose up in confusion and newt gasped again.
oh, no. did it show? oh, no, no, not now… y/n reached her hand up to touch her nose, but instead she felt a small nose that felt like a cat’s nose in her petite hands. she put her hands over her face to hide herself. newt noticed that and sighed, moving his hand to get y/n’s hands away to reveal her face.
“you’re a m-metamorphmagus.” newt said quietly. y/n’s face was uncovered fully by then, she was avoiding newt’s gaze on her. now he knows. and he also knows i have been keeping this from him. why did this show? some sort of sudden emotion change, must be.
y/n slowly nodded. “but what about your hair?” newt wondered. y/n rolled her eyes playfully and whisked her wand around her head. the brown hair she had slowly disappeared in a way that fire dies down (in quick motion) and in its place stood her blue hair. newt gasped once again, his eyes full of wonder, and then he smiled slightly.
“w-why didn’t you tell me?” he asked, leaning back a little. y/n sighed.
“i was afraid…” she spoke after a few moments of silence, “you’d react differently. i’m in a rare species’ group and some people like to use me for their own good. like somebody used my parents.”
“why do you think i’d do that?” newt asked with a serious tone in his voice. “i don’t know.” y/n said and shot newt a small, apologetic smile. “i trust you, don’t worry, newt.”
“i k-know.” newt replied. “yeah, quite dangerous times we live in now. but i trust you, too.”
“thank you.” y/n said.
“your nose is regular again.” newt stated.
“oh.” y/n touched her finger to her nose and found her actual nose, not a cat’s nose. “thank god.”
“y/n,” newt said, “you’re not ashamed of this.” y/n hung her head low. “are you?”
“it’s not a normal thing. it’s easily noticeable in public places, and it’s not the most… prettiest thing between people.”
“but that’s wonderful!” newt said. “you’re a metamorphmagus, do you know how many people wish to be like you?”
“can you guess how much i wish to be like you and other people?” y/n spoke in a saddened tone, her hair changing to a deeper tone of blue. “i’ve been wanting to be normal since i knew i was a metamorphmagus. and that would be my whole life.”
“s-sorry.” newt said with his head low. “i didn’t want to upset you.”
“i know you didn’t. but it’s okay, thank you, newt.” y/n said and shook her head to free her mind from negative thoughts. anyways, what is that creature in your hand?” she asked. newt’s head turned to her again and he brought the small beast towards her again.
“that’s an occamy.” newt said. “very good at self-defence from their birth, so petting is not recommended.”
“and what does an occamy do?”
“they can shrink to any size possible, they fit anywhere.”
“that sounds fascinating.” y/n smiled and newt grinned a little.
“the occamy matches your hair.” he stated.
“oh, thank you.” y/n giggled.
the two young wizards were silent for the while that they used to admire the small beast in newt’s hands.
“you know what i think, miss y/l/n?”
“yes, mister scamander?”
“i think you could be one of the most fascinating creatures i have ever come across.” newt said with a small smile.
“thank you.” y/n said. “that’s one of the nicest things i’ve heard someone say to me.”
Admin K: This usually is a bit earlier of a time than when I’d usually post but because I finally finished a scenario!! (After like how long??) I just wanted to post immediately for all of you because I really do miss making scenarios. Hoping that summer school ends soon so I can post more for you all! I know, I’m the worse for always making you guys wait :( but this time I actually have something lol…ok I’m going to stop blabbing now.
pairing: vernon x reader
word count: 913
“Babe.” Vernon would call in a smooth, calm voice. You’d turn around to him and would be surprised by a soft kiss on the lips by him. His hands would hold onto your waist and he’d smile while surprising you with a kiss. You’d smile back and kiss him too.
Ah, the Roosevelts. They’re like a less hot, slightly less fucked up version of the Kennedys, which really speaks to exactly how fucked up the Kennedys were (and probably are). Theodore Roosevelt, God of Teddy Bears, has kind of become this emblem of manliness, what with the fact that Cracked writes about five articles on him a day and also there was this one time where he punched a bear while riding a moose or something. I don’t know. His descendant, Franklin Delano Roosevelt, has become known for that scene in Pearl Harbor where he magically stops needing a wheelchair because he’s Angelina Jolie’s dad or something. (I don’t know.) And Eleanor—oh, Eleanor. Wasn’t she, like, our first gay first lady or something?
I’m going to focus a little more on the latter two in this entry, and let me tell you. A) Eleanor’s sexuality is definitely not something you should bring up with your conservative great-grandma and B) for our often-infantalized “first??? disabled president”, FDR got a lot of ass. Like, a lot a lot.
Yuta Scenario : [1st] Couldn't let You go like this.
Okay, so this is my first Scenario that I’ve ever made, I do love reading it but (trust me) I can’t write something like scenario very well LOL, Requested by my sister, and
I’m going to split it into some chapters. My ‘big sis’ @nctuhohahyes help me by correcting and review my story. without you I can’t post this Scenario Mia! Big thanks! <3
Your boyfriend Yuta was staring at the night sky hopelessly; the awkward moment between you couldn’t be denied. The mini park in front of your apartment was pretty windy today…and neither you neither him wanted to break this silence… This was the first time you and Yuta finally met after the huge scandal he had as a member of the famous boy-group NCT 127 and the leader of a SM rookie girl-group who debuted not too long ago…They were caught at private party at the beach…and it was hard denying it.
Actually you were the leader of the new SM girl-group and unfortunately your 3-year relationship with your lovely Senior-Yuta was exposed not even a year after you debuted. SM didn’t know about your relationship and they tried to deny it, but pictures paparazzi took of you were more than a solid proof you were at least in a some-relationship. Yuta never say anything to his manager and you were afraid of revealing it to anyone too. Even if your group members supported you always from the start, just like all NCT members supported Yuta. You felt bad towards many people, many your fans called you a betrayer but well you knew you they were a right… Because dating someone form a world-wide group would bring so you so much hate…
“Did you eat your lunch?” “Yeah…” “My manager ask me to…” “Me too..”
Yuta finally tried to break silence, but all you could do was acting stupid and answer him with just a simple sentences pretending you were fine, but dying deep inside.
“You know I always love you, right?” Yuta asked you suddenly. “I do. And you trust me if I say you that too, right?” you answered and questioned him the same thing “I know, I know…” Yuta approached you, holding your hands.
Suddenly, the coldness of spring night was gone.
“Tell me now, what should I tell my manage?” You asked, facing him with teary eyes. “Tell them we didn’t dating? Maybe we should tell them we didn’t have any relationship…to avoid all this hate?” he said. “I can’t lie to my fans Yuta. You know that…” you started feeling uncomfortable with the way Yuta was talking to you.
As soon as you finished your sentence, he released your hands, bringing again all the coldness from before, the way he didn’t look into your eyes, hurt you inside… “Then look at me and tell me if you just want to break up with me, if…” You try to cup his face, but he already slapped your hands.
It felt like the sky fell down onto you, you almost could hear your heart breaking into pieces, although if it was a joke, you couldn’t accept it.. He never hit you that hard on purpose.
“Stop joking, honey…” You started laughing bitterly, hitting Yuta’s chest lightly with your small hands. “Y/N I’m serious right now…” Yuta stood up, as his voice raised, so high it panicked you. “Hey, what’s wrong?” You held your tears back, you knew you couldn’t cry in front of him right now, it would only make you look pathetic.
“We promised each other to surpass all those obstacles during our time together, right? No matter how hard it would be…we would always stay strong…together!” You were trying really hard to make your point without shaking.
“Y/N!! It’s not the right time to keep your promises!!” Yuta started yelling.
“You know I really dislike this situation, right? Can you calm down a little bit?” You stood up and faced Yuta, your voice started shaking, your body trembling…You tried holding his hand but he back away.
“You didn’t get the point!!” Yuta was yelling at you once again; you could swear your members heard his voice from the 10th floor.
“Then what?!! You and I should break up, so I don’t get a lot of hate? Or we should break up because you are worried about your solo album won’t be a huge hit after all this scandal?!”
“Y/N!!! I never want to yell at you like this, but can you please just do what I’m telling you to do?!!!” “Oh really? You hate yelling at me now?!!! You’re the one who yelled at me first, and you know what, you don’t even have any right to order me what to do or what not to do! ” “No girl, yes I have… but…” “Nope, I’m so done with you, tell your manager we are not dating anymore, oh if you want you can tell SM that you and I were just a bit drunk at the party and we had gone a bit overboard… But there was no serious relationship from the start. You tell them that, I don’t care about what you want anymore. Just leave me in peace then.”
Your heart was breaking slowly, you felt deeply hurt, but you had to shut him off because you couldn’t stand anymore his coldness and cockiness. When you turn around to make your way towards the dorm, Yuta grabbed your hand tightly… he couldn’t let you go like this.
“What is it now? Please stop acting like you are feeling sorry…I understand, your fame and you career is much before me…I don’t blame you, but next time when you would get yourself a girl…just don’t promise her a serious relationship. You are such a jerk…”
Your voice was trembling; small tears were falling down on your cheek. You had to make your point and tell him how much he hurt you…you never expected him acting like he didn’t care about you anymore…after all these year together…
"I don’t even want to talk with you anymore!! Gosh Y/N!! Just go! Just let’s go on our own way!! ” He pushed you away really hard, releasing your hand…
You looked back at him, finally realizing how different was from the Yuta you had known; the way he hit you twice today and his angry gaze making you feel miserable…you never imagined him be that scary. With no words left, you run to the building behind you, hurrying to your apartment….
I love virgin Luke so I decided to do Y/N and Luke’s first time, but it’s slightly different anyway, I hope you like it :) idk sorry it probably sucks lol bye
I had been sat sulking in my room all day, even resulting to convincing my mum I was sick today so I wouldn’t have to go in. I couldn’t face people, especially not after yesterday’s events. I guess it was my fault, I was stupid enough to trust someone like him. He told me he wouldn’t tell anyone, but here I was now hiding away from a bunch of abusive teens now that they knew my secret. I never got embarrassed easily, I never allowed myself to feel so trapped, but something like this was not easy to just ignore.
A couple of nights ago at this party, which I didn’t even want to attend, I found myself talking to the school’s popular and biggest asshole; Luke Hemmings. At first I thought he was going to try and get into my pants, but as the night went on - we got talking. It resulted in me spilling a few secrets to him, he was damn convincing.
The look in his eyes were soft and comforting and the way his face looked so peaceful, it was completely easy to fall under his spell. Soothingly, he had told me my secret was safe with him, but clearly it wasn’t. Now the whole school knows I’m still a virgin and I’m possibly the biggest loser out there right now.
I had been receiving glances all day at school yesterday and sly comments whispered to other individuals as I would walk by, making me feel completely paranoid. At first I thought nothing of it, it wasn’t until I had walked passed Luke and his clique of douchebags, when they began to shout stuff at me. They were vulgar boys and in all honesty, I hated myself more than Luke for telling him in the first place. I can’t believe I actually thought perhaps he thought of me differently to the other girls. He definitely could have fooled anyone with the blissful way he looked to me so sweetly.
It was now six in the evening and my parents still weren’t home from work. It was usual to be honest, they didn’t really care about me anyway. Both of them were too caught up in their fancy lawyer jobs to be concerned about my well being. Perhaps that was the reason I turned to Luke for comfort in the first place.
The sound of my doorbell interrupted my train of thoughts, I guess that my parents were probably home early. I jump off of the sofa, brushing down my sweat pants as I make my way to the door, swinging it open to reveal a lanky blond boy stood in the rain.
I shake my head and dryly chuckle, “So now your funny jokes have been brought to my front door?” I scoff, “Thanks, but I’m not interested.”
I attempt to slam the door shut in his face, hoping it would hit him as I did so, but Luke caught it with his black VANS shoe and due to my lack of working out, managed to push the door open.
“Can I come in?” Luke quietly asks and I give him a glare, wondering if he’s being serious right now.
“No,” I say, trying to shut the door again but his hand reaches out and stops me.
“Please,” Luke looks me in the eye and then back to the ground, almost as if he wanted me to feel sorry for him. I groan and reluctantly allow him to step inside, feeling quite interested in where this dumbass speech will go. I took a moment before responding and let him into the empty house. We walked into my living room and sat on the sofa opposite each other in silence. I wasn’t sure what he was doing at my house or how he even found out where I lived but I didn’t ask, maybe one of his stupid friends sent him here to mess with me a little more. The thought of that made me regret letting him in, but I wasn’t planning on talking until he did.
“You weren’t in school today,” Luke pointed out the obvious. I roll my eyes in response, not even feeling the need to allow words to answer that. I did not quite understand why he felt the need to come here in the first place, he made it very clear yesterday where we stand.
“Look, I’m sorry,” Luke began and I suddenly wanted to find out where this was going and also wanted to find out how he’d lie his way out of how it wasn’t his fault, “I didn’t mean for you to get this upset, I just told Ashton. How was I supposed to know he would go and tell the whole school?”
“Oh I don’t know,” I fake laugh, “Maybe because it’s fucking Ashton.” I leaned forward in my seat and grit my teeth whilst talking.
Another silence fell upon us as we just said opposite each other, but not looking up, focusing on the ground. Maybe I was dumb for telling him in the first place though, I couldn’t help that he seemed so sweet.
“Right well, if that’s all then Luke, you should go-”
“No actually, there was one other thing,” Luke quickly interrupted me, I just wanted him gone so I could get back to feeling like shit and him being here only made me feel worse anyway.
“I’m not interested,” I groan, throwing my head back.
“Can I tell you something?” Luke looks up at me and I look to him, finally making eye contact after what seemed like such a long time he had been sat here.
I shrug in response, not really understand what he wanted to say. “You’re a virgin-”
“Oh my fucking god,” I erupt, standing up from the sofa and staring at Luke in shock as I darkly chuckle, “You don’t need to remind me, I think I know from the amount of facebook messages I’m fucking getting, you prick.”
I look to Luke, but he just sits there seemingly turning a deep shade of red. He almost tries to speak something, but he can’t bare to. I roll my eyes impatiently at him, really wishing this would be over.
“Well, I’ve never erm…you know,” Luke gulps, running his hand through his damp quiff.
I gulped as I stared at his red face, as his face was full of embarrassment. I couldn’t believe if I’d even heard him right, one of the most popular guys in school was still a virgin and he had just admitted that to me. Luke definitely would not have been on my list of virgins in school, the amount of girls he has chasing him and cheerleaders screaming for him when he plays a football match. “Ha,” I scoff, “I find that hard to believe.”
“Believe what you want, but it’s true,” Luke snaps back, slouching in his chair.
“Why would you even tell me this?” I ask.
Luke shrugs, standing from his seat and walking over to where I’m stood, “I just feel bad for what I did, you know?”
I avoid his gaze and look to the ceiling now that Luke was stood an uncomfortable distance from me. He looked amazing, like always. He was the only guy who could pull of a lip ring and the whole all dressed in black look, but still look adorable.
“Can I make a suggestion?” Luke offers and I nod, “Well, we’re both virgins, so why don’t we just change that?”
I almost choke on purely nothing when he suggests such a thing. I look to his face and notice he’s dead serious, which scares me. I’m about to object when I wonder if I really wanted to turn him down. He was right, I definitely wanted to change the whole virgin thing, maybe this was a good idea.
“You mean, like, now?” I gulp. Luke nods, biting on his lip and licking over his lip ring as he presses himself against me. I decide no words are going to come out, so make the gesture of crashing my lips to his. He tasted like cigarettes and honey mixed together and it felt great. I hadn’t kissed many guys, but the ones I had kissed, definitely did not live up to Luke’s mouth.
I could feel the cold metal of his lip ring grazing against my lips as he slips his tongue slowly into my mouth. It was a new found feeling and it was exactly how I expected kissing Luke Hemmings would go.
Luke’s fingers fiddle their way into my hair, bringing me closer towards him. It felt weird making out in the middle of my lounge, so I begin to guide Luke upstairs to my room without breaking from the kiss.
We tumbled into my room almost like we were drunk and Luke slowly threw me onto the bed and climbed on top of me. It soon turned into a heated make out session and for a while I think both of us didn’t want to go passed this stage because it was awkward and embarrassing and neither of us knew what to do.
Luke had definitely made out with a load of girls though, I could tell just from how amazing his kiss felt, sending a rush through my body. Luke’s hands found their way to my tank top, slipping underneath and roaming around my sides, whilst continuing to massage our tongues together. His touch felt amazing, but I wanted more. I moaned into the kiss to hint to Luke to go further, he responded by pulling away from the kiss and lifting my top over my head, tossing it in the corner of my room. It all felt weird, but exciting and I couldn’t believe I was actually doing this. I helped Luke shrug his leather jacket off and depserately tug off his black t shirt. I couldn’t help but stare at his toned body, I guess football training really did pay off for him. Luke looked and me and smiled before travelling down my sweat pants, slowly peeling them off of my legs. Luke looked to me for assurance again.
“It’s okay,” I slowly tell him.
“It’s just, I only know what I’m doing from the stuff I’ve seen online,” Luke blushes and it was odd seeing him shy when he was such a smooth character at school.
“Please don’t make my first time into a porn movie,” I nervously chuckle.
“Oh shit, we should make one of those one time,” Luke groans and it’s then that I notice the evident bulge in his pants, feeling for him in those tight jeans.
“I think we should actually get this over with first,” I shake my head and laugh.
Luke nods quickly, leaning down and pressing light feathered kisses on my stomach, making me giggle from how ticklish I am.
“That’s adorable,” Luke smirks, kissing me in the same spot above my belly button to make me squirm again.
Luke stops and begins to unbuckle his pants and I sit up instantly to help him, feeling a new burst of excitement and nervousness. He wriggles out of his jeans and my glare is held to the outline of his hard on inside of his calvin klein underwear. I surprise myself as I reach for the waistband of his boxers, slowly pulling them down. I look to Luke, who’s biting on his lip hard enough to make it bleed and he gives me a question look. I just smile at him, pushing him back on the bed as I pull of his underwear.
I watched as his dick slapped against his stomach and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. Luke let out a chuckle, or perhaps a groan, as he watched me. He slowly places his hand over mine and guided me to his hard on, showing me what to do. I wrapped my small hands around his large dick, getting used to the new texture.
“I apologise in advance if this goes wrong,” I tell him as he takes his hand away after helping me pump him a few times. “It’s okay Y/N,” Luke struggles out a laugh, his breath hitching, “It’s a blowjob, there’s no good or bad way, it always feels great.”
I realise Luke has probably gone this far before from the way he speaks, but perhaps I could be wrong but I decide asking would kill the moment. I slowly wrap my lips around his cock, swirling my tongue around the tip like I had seen in videos online. I hear Luke muffle curses from his lips, which causes my center to ache.
I use my hand to pump the rest which I could not fit in my mouth as I bob my head up and down. I feel better when I hear Luke moaning, his fingers wrapping in my hair as he pulls me closer. I pull back, backing a pop sound with my lips, before wrapping my mouth back around him. Luke seems to enjoy that as he curses and twitches in my mouth, releasing his cum. It shocks me at first, not giving me a chance to decide whether to swollow it and I end up with his cum over my chin.
I look to Luke and we both chuckle as I wipe my chin. Luke sits back up and quickly unclasps my bra, placing kisses to my breasts and it felt odd but amazing. Luke lays me down and hooks his fingers into the waistline of my panties, pulling them down my legs. I kick them off and toss them over to where the pile of clothes is laying on the floor.
“Shit, I don’t know what to do,” Luke bites on his lip as he looks to me with concern. I chuckle at his same reaction to mine, so I copy his actions and guide his index finger to my clit and press down on it.
“Fuck, this is even better than it looks on porn,” Luke gasps, rubbing his finger in a circular motion around my clit. I wiggle from the contact, his touch feeling far better than my own. Luke slips a finger into me, making me moan out. I had never done this to myself, so it felt strange when Luke done it, but after a couple of pumps, it felt amazing. Luke pulls his finger out, beginning to make his way to my thighs with his lips, but I quickly pull him back up.
“No,” I say, “As if I’m going to let you eat me out with that lip ring.”
“What?” Luke chuckles, “You won’t even feel it,”
“Hell. No.” I repeat.
“Well fine, are you ready to do this?” Luke asks me. Suddenly I feel nervous by the thought of it, after hearing my friend’s stories about the pain - I wasn’t sure if Luke would be too rough. I had heard stories and experiences about awful first times and I didn’t wan this to be the case.
“Promise to be gentle?” I seriously ask to Luke and he looks almost offended as he furrows his eyebrows, leaning forward and pressing a quick kiss to my lips.
“I promise,” He says, hopping off of the bed and going through his jean pockets searching for something. He returns on the bed with a condom, fixing it onto himself.
“Did you know this was going to happen or something?” I raise an eyebrow as I glare to Luke, who turns red.
“No,” Luke smiles, “I just like to keep it in there for the right time, which is right now.”
Before he does it, he looks to me. “Y/N, are you sure you want to?” Luke asks me with concern, “I just- I don’t want this to hurt you a lot,”
“It’s fine, just do it,” I cover my fear as Luke, unsure, nods and lines his tip up with me. I bite on my lip as I wait for him to enter me.
Luke lines himself up at my entrance and begins to slowly move in. At first it’s an uncomfortable feeling, but I manage to hold in my gasps. I bite on the inside of my lip as I try to focus on something in the room, so instead I choose to concentrate on Luke’s soft face as he watches every move he makes and I wonder what he’s thinking about.
As Luke got deeper I found myself holding my breath and squinting my eyes shut from the pain. Luke looks to me concerned and goes to pull away, although i stop him and tell him it’s fine. Hesitantly he continues, despite his nerves of not wanting to hurt me.
The feeling doesn’t go away, but it’s bearable and Luke notices my face relax and I feel less stiff from the actions. He looks to me for permission and I nod as he pulls out and thrusts back in. I was enjoying it to a point, but really did want it to just be over and done with. Luke began to pick up the speed of his thrusts and with each, it became more bearable. I was definitely not going to come, but I knew from the look on Luke’s face he was trying so hard to hold it in.
“Fuck,” Luke moans, “This is fucking great.”
“It’s definitely something new,” I agree.
Finally Luke releases into me and it feels great. He slowly pulls out and flops beside me on the bed, both of us catching out breath and panting. I pull the sheets back and we both crawl under them, hugging the sheet to our chests. There was an awkward distance between us as neither of us had any idea what to say.
Finally Luke speaks, “Will your parents me home soon?”
“Probably,” I say.
“Shall I leave?” Luke asks, turning to face me and I do the same.
“I don’t know,” I smile, “Probably.”
“Are we going to do this again?”
I chuckle, rolling over and laying my head on his chest, “Probably.”
LOK’s first season is giving me so many Korrasami feels...
Rewatching “Aftermath” and seeing Korra and Asami’s first date… yes, yes this is how relationships are done
It just amazes me how when the fandom started out everyone was sure Asami was going to be evil, or that she and Korra were going to be enemies the entire series, or even that they’d become the new Aang and Zuko, and how very slowly the rise began with this gorgeous female freindship that was put SO FAR AHEAD of any romance and how even long before Korra and Asami were really even besties there was an unspoken mutual agreement between them that they were going to be civil together and not blame one another for Mako’s BS, not backstab eachother or treat eachother badly, because that isn’t who they are
I remember when the Terrible Triangle began how there was this tiny number of people who were just “lol Korra and Asami should dump Mako and be together” and it was a joke for pretty much the last half of season one and a good part of season two and then around the end of season two very slowly people stopped joking and started getting serious, and by the end of season three fans were starting to get upset and bitter- myself included- because Korra and Asami had grown into a relationship that is truly, honestly, beautifully done built not on attraction or UST but on mutual trust and respect and very sincere LOVE for eachother and most of the non-Makorra shippers were sitting on the sidelines brewing and muttering to eachother “If Korra was a boy Korrasami would be endgame I’m so mad because Nick won’t do the thing”, I remember a small pile of male!Asami fanart going around that was really really fem-male and Asami was still beautifull and sweet and loved pink etc and people were always like “If only Asami was like this they could be canon and then we could have a male love interest who isn’t ~super masculine~ end up with the ~tough chick~ and we’d have role reversals and more gender-queer Asami and why”
And the longer season four went on the more the Korrasami fans went from “lol just ditch Mako and do the thing” to “This is an excellent portrayal of a female/female relationship with TWO BISEXUAL FEMALES and Nick isn’t going to do it and I’m so upset” and then the night they went canon I was on Tumblr before I saw the episode, because I got home late and blah, and I was like “Lol yeah right that’s a really good manip though” and then… I started reading… and I was like “?? NO?? DID THEY?” and I screamed so much and was just so happy and remember that at this point gay marriage still wasn’t legally recognized in all or even most states, this happened BEFORE the revolution that ultimately brought Super Family Oriented shows like Once Upon A Time and Little Kid Shows like Ever After High to have girl/girl TRUE LOVE’S KISS kisses, BEFORE it became the thing to do to have a token gay couple even in ~family freindly~ shows and BEFORE it was even SORT OF acceptable for kid-targeted shows to even hint at a same sex couple, Korrasami took the plunge back before it was even LEGAL in most states to marry who you love and I will always, always, ALWAYS remember that they took a risk so much bigger than the shows are taking right now- not to discredit those shows, but I am ALWAYS going to have such huge respect to Korrasami for doing it before it was “ok”
I am always going to have so much respect and so much joy that Korrasami, above any other female/female ship I’ve seen so far, happened because it was one of those like Apple White and Darling Charming that the entire fan base thought would never happen and then it DID but what makes it so different is that it had four seasons of building up to being a REALLY healthy relationship, a really great FREINDSHIP and it WASN’T two girls who have never been shown to be romantically swayed towards boys/had a romantic arc with boys who just met and “Oh hey I’m in love with you cool let’s date”, it was two girls who were both assumed straight frm go because they had a serious boyfreind, two girls who started out with the CLASSIC enemy/frenemy set up, who respected eachother enough as people not to see MAKO’S betrayal as an attack on EACHOTHER, who had hesitations in the beginning but who didn’t hold it against one another and who were mature enough to understand that Mako screwed them over and that Asami’s father was doing a bad thing and that just because they were both INVOLVED with those things it didn’t mean either was to BLAME, Asami had the perfect set up to be an antagonist, Korra sent her father to jail and then took Mako? In another story, Asami would have become Azula 2.0, but she didn’t, she and Korra not only TOLERATED eachother, they came to care about eachother so much, they evolved to the point that they were the first person on the other’s mind and when Korra was in crisis and not mentally healthy enough to write to even Mako and Bolin, she still wrote to Asami, Asami- the girl Korra once turned her nose up at for being “prissy” and dating Mako- had become Korra’s one and only safe space when she was suffering more than she’s ever suffered before, and when everything was over and the smoke cleared she had the perfect chance to go back to Mako and continue that dysfunctional relationship again and she didn’t, she decided to give Asami a gift the way Asami had given her the gift of support all these years and they went on to be together where they could support eachother
I think Korra’s face when Asami first “betrayed” her father perfectly explains how I feel about this relationship, it has so many things that no relationships on TV- no matter what sexuality they are- have and they did it with the a female/female ship wich classicly get the WORST storylines because they’re either tokens or sexual objects, Tumblr jokes alot about gay porn/male-male porn and for good reason, there’s alot of it in the big Tumblr fandoms, but mainstream lesbian and female/female relationships have ALWAYS been sexualized more than any other relationship and Korrasami is just so sweet and innocent and based on love and respect and just… God bless Korrasami ok?
The Avatar series has always blown people away with everything from animation to music to stories to charectorization to social progression and I will never understand why the Avatar universe isn’t the model for what ALL media should be
He sleeps on his back but ends up moving around a lot.
Because of that, he messes his bed up, and he finds it very annoying and has worked very dilligently to get rid of the supposed nasty habit.
He also likes getting up in the morning to start his chores, but his mom and sister forbid him from going anywhere near the kitchen.
Oh yeah, and Midorima has a crazy bedhead, too.
★ - sad headcanon
He’s very silent and more antisocial than ever.
Whenever he’s asked what is wrong, he turns away abruptly and glares at the floor while clicking his tongue. He sounds annoyed, but he just does’t want to talk about it.
I feel like Midorima would be the type of person who thinks it’s better to keep emotions (especially sadness) to himself because he feels like he bothers people. Besides, it bothers him when people do it, so why should he?
There was probably a time where he felt sad enough to completely disregard his lucky item because he felt like Lady Luck was giving him an eternal punishment for whatever burden he thinks he must take the bulk of.
He’s also looking down a lot and is pretty absent-minded when he’s sad.
When Takao asked him what was wrong, Midorima just closed his eyes, let out an irritated-sounding sigh, and muttered, “It’s none of your business.”
After that, he only goes straight home from school and basketball practice.
Takao was very worried about him when he left his lucky item behind.
I made myself very sad with these Midorima headcanons, too D’:
☆ - happy headcanon
He’s very willing to let other people handle his lucky item without too much hesitation.
He also seems to be a lot easier to talk to and is much less serious in general. In fact…
DID YOU SEE THAT?? MIDORIMA SMILED. HE ACTUALLY SMILED.
THAT SOUNDED LIKE A LAUGH TOO. DID HE JUST… LAUGH??
And that was the story of how his teammates saw his smile (which is very seldom, as we all already know) and—for the first time ever—hear him laugh. Unbelievable, I know.
It happened after everyone was making fun of him in the locker room, and Takao cracked a joke that he overheard from Izuki when he ran into him the other day. No one else found it funny, but Midorima started laughing his ass off.
Takao tried cracking more jokes like that, but it was just that one joke that managed to make Midorima laugh. Don’t worry, Takao. Shin-chan actually appreciates your effort, lol.
☠ - angry/violent headcanon
He remains silent, but you can feel him burning with rage.
As someone who typically dismisses and ignores every little annoyance, this was not something to be dismissed or ignored.
He would probably confront the person who angered him with a glare that could almost, almost be considered on par with Akashi’s.
While Midorima would never even think or resorting to violence, he has other means much more scarier that physical harm.
✿ - Sex headcanon
Well, his S/O will probably have to take the lead on this one.
But, in the bedroom, I would have to say they would both be equally dominant.
Uhh… it’s pretty hard to get him to do it in the first place, and his relationship with his S/O has to reach that point of great trust since he considers this a very intimate moment.
■ - Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon
He keeps it very neat and tidy.
His family—which is hinted in Q.212 and one of the drama CDs—is well-known (I think in that drama CD, Takao commented on how he had a lot of money to throw around and spend on his lucky item?), very traditional and conservative, so their home is probably styled accordingly, too.
♡ - romantic headcanon
He’s awkward, but he’s also very sure and confident in himself.
His first approaches towards his S/O (if they don’t make the first move, that is) is pretty awkward, and it takes him a very long time to even consider the fact that he could have a crush significant enough for him to feel obligated to act on it.
However, in a relationship, he can be very thoughtful albeit his tsundere personality.
He always makes sure to help his S/O with homework and not-so-discreetly leaves their lucky item for them in their locker every morning. He denies this, though, lol.
Primary date spots for him include the library, a really nice restaurant closeby, and the mall.
When he’s at the mall with his S/O, she always bargains with him. Shopping for what she needs and then his lucky items.
♥ - family headcanon
Midorima’s family right now consists of his father, mother, and his little sister.
I like to think that, in the future, once he settles down a bit, he wouldn’t really want kids? Like, he honesstly thinks they are annoying.
He can’t stand them.
But maybe—just maybe—overtime, he might maybe just have one child.
If that ever happens, he would probably be the type of dad that would fix his kids up all nice and neat and remind them to put their lucky items in their backpack for the first day of school.
I also like to think that he liked to hang out with his little sister, who I’m guessing is probably in her final years of middle school.
There was this one time when Takao came over and totally hit on his little sister.
Midorima did not hesitate to kick him out of the house and yelled at him to “never step foot in here again!”
☮ - friendship headcanon
Midorima acts like friends are annoying, but he’s actually very fond of his team and the kind-of-sort-of friendship think he has going with the rest of the Generation of Miracles.
He acts like he could care very little for his former teammates, but in actuality, he’s always the first to say that they will play again.
Oh, and he is very fond of Takao, who is basically his sidekick and BFFL, even if he doesn’t admit it. Everyone else knows it, too.
♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon
According to the Characters Bible, he likes playing chess/shogi and listening to classical music.
But I think he probably spends a lot of time shopping for his lucky item, which he enjoys, and maybe hanging out with his little sister. Who knows?
☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon
Likes: his lucky item, (Takao!) studying, red bean soup.
Dislikes: when Takao coms to annoy him on the weekends, cats, natto.
▼ - childhood headcanon
Childhood? What childhood? You mean Midorima wasn’t like that the whole time? What?
He was that one kid who was so much more mature than all the others and took things way too seriously. Even jokes, which he never seemed to get.
I think he probably made a girl cry this one time because he didn’t want to play with her or something. Up to this day, he still doesn’t quite understand what he did wrong.
Maybe he got interested in Oha-Asa after reading about the signs somewhere in early elementary school, or perhaps it was also influence by family (because his sister is also interested in that stuff, too). Perhaps his mom was heavily influenced by the fact that he was born on a lucky day that she just began carrying around lucky items and tuning in to Oha-Asa every morning…
Midorima made it a habit to listen to it, too.
∇ - old age/aging headcanon
Midorima will probably be like 100 something and he will still get up every day for his lucky item like honestly.
All the neighborhood kids think he’s weird but Midorima thinks they are just as weird too.
He’ll probably live a good long age and outlast all the GoM, to be honest.
♒ - cooking/food headcanon
HE IS SO BAD AT COOKING OMG.
HIS SISTER AND HIS MOM PROBABLY TOLD HIM HOW MUCH OF A SAFETY HAZARD IT IS AND BANNED HIM FROM EVER DOING CHORES NEAR THE KITCHEN.
HIS COOKING IS HONESTLY THAT LETHAL.
AND IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, I BET HE TRIED GETTING COOKING ADVICE FROM MOMOI BECAUSE HE THOUGHT—because she was a girl and all—THAT SHE WOULD PROBABLY KNOW THIS STUFF BUT NO. BIG MISTAKE, MIDORIMA.
Lol, now, he has probably asked the GoM for help since Takao was needlessly teasing him about it again. Kuroko suggested that he go to Kagami because he was really good at it.
Midorima refused. He went to Akashi instead, but the way that he explained cooking was… strange. It did help a little, though.
☼ - appearance headcanon
He likes to keep himself very neat and tucks in all his shirts.
His closet mostly consists of sweater vests, polos, button-ups, and clothes like that. He enjoys looking professional 24/7
This is totally a secret but he changes up his glasses every day according to whatever Oha-Asa says is most compatible with his sign that day. Like one day, he’ll wear glasses with a Taurus sign on it or something. I think Midorima would totally do that.
ൠ - random headcanon
Midorima’s favorite holiday is probably Halloween, and he takes it way too seriously with all his superstitions and etc.
I really thought about these random headcanons randomly, so I’m thinking Midorima’s S/O is way out of his league and is a little opposite of him, often acting as a mediator and a translator for him when people misunderstand what he’s trying to say.
As cheesy as it sounds, Yoshi was my best friend and will be missed every day. I heard this news from the vet earlier today and I’m a mess right now. I’m full of so many emotions and thoughts that I know might seem silly and wrong but those that love their pets like family members might understand and I just have to let them out, so here goes.