this is a shout out to all of my jealous rpers because i know i can’t be the only one. yeah i know you’re out there, suffering silently because you don’t want anyone to think bad of you because of how you feel. there’s a stigma around jealousy in the rp community—which is understandable. it can lead to all sorts of problems, toxic partnerships, drama, anon hate, etc. but i think for a lot of us, we know better. we know that our jealousy is our own problem and we should deal with it on our own instead of making it our rp partners’ problem. but then we don’t really have much of an outlet for our feelings, which we should. because when you break it down, feeling jealous boils down to feeling insecure. and i know we ALL feel that sometimes.
so, to al of my jealous rpers, i see you. i feel you. i know how much it sucks. it sucks when you see one of your favorite partners drift away when they become more invested in another rper. it sucks when an rper you really like and admire constantly overlooks you for their own favored partners. it sucks to feel guilty for feeling bitter towards others for this. i know you don’t like feeling this way. and if you could choose to not feel it, you’d stop. but you can’t help how you feel. and i want to tell you it’s okay to feel jealous. it doesn’t make you a bad rp partner or a bad person. it’s okay to feel however you feel. anyone who tells you otherwise doesn’t know how emotions work.
however, what you DO with your feelings is another matter. it’s not okay to be rude to rpers you’re jealous of, it’s not okay guilt trip or blame your partners, it’s not okay to try to alienate them, it’s not okay to gaslight them or otherwise manipulate them. but a lot of you already know that, and you don’t do any of that because you know it’s wrong. kudos to you for taking the high road. but still, you can’t help feeling jealous sometimes.
my advice? count your blessings. you may be feeling overlooked by some rpers, but you have others who do appreciate you and are thrilled to rp with you whenever. don’t take them for granted. love them back. understand that the rpers that you may feel are ignoring you probably don’t mean to, and are just busy or excited about particular plots/rpers, like we all get. also if you have confidantes, talk to them. unloading on an attentive ear is a great way to deal with your feelings. personally, i wouldn’t recommend doing this with the rpers you’re jealous of/for. it can make things awkward and uncomfortable and you may end up pushing them away even more. don’t make this their problem. it is yours to deal with, not theirs.
i hope this brings comfort to anyone who’s been struggling with jealousy and/or insecurity. just remember you’re not alone and your feelings are valid. love y’all xoxo
In celebration of me living on my own for almost exactly a year now, here’s a list.
If you’re a mentally 12 yo person who suddenly finds themselves in a flat of their own and has no idea how to adult, hi! Me too. Here’s a list of things I’ve realised are essential p much from the start:
some sort of paper towel. Toilet paper, napkins, anything. You can do a lot of cleaning with just paper towels.
Toast. Toast is my best friend. You don’t need any of the other foods, as long as you have some toast.
(A toaster. Not as important as the toast itself, but makes all the difference in enjoying it. Also makes you feel like you’re an adult for some reason?? I mean, you’ve got a toaster. V adult.)
At least one pot/pan.
RUBBISH BAGS. OTHER PLASTIC BAGS. KEEP H&M BAGS FROM YOUR LATEST SHOPPING IF YOU CAN’T FIND ANYTHING ELSE BUT YOU’RE GONNA NEED PLASTIC BAGS.
(unless you’re vegan) Milk. You wouldn’t believe how many things you need milk for, and how fast it’s all gone. (Maybe this one’s just me though. I love milk)
(again, if you’re non-vegan) EGGS! YOU CAN MAKE SO MUCH OUT OF EGGS. YOU CAN MAKE SCRAMBLED EGG, HARDBOILED EGG, PANCAKES, COOKIES, CAKE, YOUR OWN BREAD okay, maybe that’s for later. But have eggs. They also almost never go bad if you keep them cold enough
Coffee. Even if you don’t like coffee (wtf) you’re gonna want coffee. You’re an adult now. You’re gonna have people visit you, and, presuming you’re not the most social person in the world, you’ll want to be able to do something other than talk. Making coffee is a great excuse to move around, and won’t even seem rude! Also you’ll need coffee because seriously, how else do people survive
I have realised that this has almost solely been about food up to this point. And food is important, but you know what’s even more important? Sleep.
BUY A BED. A REAL BED. NO, NOT JUST A MATTRESS. Honestly, you’re gonna want a bed. You’re not gonna want to buy one, but do it. It’s worth it. And when you’ve purchased one, ASSEMBLE IT. OR MAKE YOUR FRIENDS ASSEMBLE IT. DON’T SIT ON THE CARTONS FOR THREE WEEKS.
Something to organise your clothes in. Doesn’t have to be a huge wardrobe, maybe just a clothes rag and some boxes/a shelf. NOT the boxes from your move. That’s gonna turn into the biggest mess real soon, believe me this one took me way too long
More than one mug.
Plates. Also more than one. Because IF you ever decide to show off your phenomenal cooking abilities, it’s a real bummer to find out you’ve got nothing to present your perfectly reheated chicken nuggets on.
At least one big mixing bowl. You don’t even know how many things you’re gonna want to mix. But you’re a free person now, so, as long as you’ve got a bowl, you can do about anything! But don’t eat an entire bowl of raw cookie dough. Just don’t. Seriously.
Sponges. You’re gonna need so many sponges. Also soap. Also more sponges.
Scented candles. Because scented candles are great.
I’m by no means an expert, but I have survived on my own for almost a year now, so basically I just wanna pet myself on the shoulder for that thanks me @ me u survived
I’m so self conscious of my own creativity, I fear I’ll never become what I aspire because I was too anxious on trying it out and being judged. I understand this moment is when I need to take my stories outside of my head onto paper, but I criticize them as not good enough before I even start.
I can write a bunch of meaningless sentences that have continuously satisfied my teachers all of my educational life. I do it for a good grade, to be closer to the opportunity where I can take the reins on what I want to write. And now I’m here, still as afraid when I hid my drawings or refused to speak my poetry out loud.
I’m not the same anxious child as I was, but I still doubt myself. Hopefully one day I can work hard on my ideas just as much as I work for a good education.
To all of my followers who have gotten tattoos or just anyone that has tattoos and can answer some questions:
What should I expect when I go in to get mine on Friday? What should I know beforehand? Is there any advice or little tips you can give me? What does the first few initial minutes of getting the tattoo feel like?
i don’t know what to do
i don’t need any fingers to count the times we’ve fought
i can forever say “i love you”,
but i still get in return the feeling of distraught
i blame the miles keeping us from each other,
but should i blame my selfish heart?
shall i let you go to love another?
will it, too, make our friendship fall apart?
the last thing i want is to lose you for good,
but maybe you should leave to save yourself from pain
if im a burden on your soul maybe you should,
but if you thrive from this love, we have much to gain
to me, this whole love thing is fairly new
and i just dont know what to do
Imagine Takeda having a nightmare about Jax attacking him because Jax believes that he got Jacqui pregnant, even though they haven’t even kiss yet. Then he wakes up panicking and Kenshi can hear him from the next room over and starts communicating with him telepathically:
Kenshi:You had a terrible nightmare about Jackson Briggs, son?
Takeda: I thought telepathy only works when we read minds, or used to control objects?!
Kenshi: We can can read dreams too. Take a deep breath and go back to sleep.
Kenshi:One more thing: Let your nightmare be a reminder of the importance of using protection. Goodnight, son.
Another 2 questions (sorry new to this) what type of journal should I get and what kind of glue? Should I get a moleskin? Should I use normal glue? Advice needed! Lol
No worries! Always happy to answer questions!
I have never used a moleskin, though I am sure they are popular for a reason. The type of journal may depend on what media will you be using. I like a spiral bound notebook with mixed media paper because spiral bound is easier to use as it grows in size and mix media paper can handle any media. I use elmer’s glue while I journal. I haven’t found the need to use anything else.
Sorry for two images, I’m having trouble thinking of which to upload :P So if you guys have any suggestions which to use for dA, Transparent or not, lemme know o3o. ((I wanted to show you guys these first before I opted them on dA, since you all knew about the sketch first ^-^ ))
Remember, this was an experiment, so I have no idea what I just did, I used about 35 layers and it took me a few hours e>e aaaand it’s past midnight .w.” Though, this was sort of me trying to guess how digipainting works?
1. the upperclassmen don’t give a shit about you, they’re not going to haze you, so don’t worry
2. you’re not going to lose all your friends and you will definitely make new friends even if it takes a while
3. no one is going to pressure you into doing drugs