This is really more of an incohesive thought dump more than anything else (mostly bc it’s late and I’m tired and‘ll probs go to sleep right after.
Answering these together since its kinda the same topic. Short answer: I don’t know. Once again I need to reaffirm that my attachment to her isn’t quite based in the realm of rationale and logic, but there definitely are things I can think of.
She’s strong. She has a ton of physical strength and she’s a badass–but she’s also so much more than that. She’s an incredibly human character; hurt by her past, haunted by what might be the future, and she tries and tries to defy fate with all the strength she can muster even if its useless sometimes. In that regard she very much fits into the overall theme of the story about never stopping to struggle-very much like Eren.
She’s may be cold and cool on the outside, but truthfully she’s still so emotional inside, in some ways she’s a strong and grown woman, but in some ways still a young and frail child. And I love, love, LOVE emotional characters. I love it when more “distant” characters open up and let their emotions flow through, especially people like Mikasa, who I find to be so relatable, so easy to put yourself into their shoes, so easy to feel with. I love emotional characters, and I love having an emotional connection with them–I think that’s the best way to explain my excessive, un-defyable love for especially Eren and Mikasa.
Dear Merlin, I am telling you now, because I’m afraid that it might be too late one day if I don’t: This was the most fun I’ve ever had. You’re next to me in my life. You’re the best person in the world, and I wouldn’t change a thing. Please remember me, even when I’m not there anymore one day to pick on you, and laugh at you, and call you names. You said I made you feel special. Well, you are special. And I would spend centuries with you if I could. I fear that the universe would rip in half if we went further apart than this, but I don’t think we have a choice. It’s not fair, but none of it ever was. Whatever the future holds, though, I don’t want you to change. I want you to always be you. Let’s make it the best life we can. Love, Arthur.
I’ve wanted to talk for So Long about the portrayal of anxiety in YOI but I’ve been having so much trouble putting together what I want to say in the most effective manner. I kept trying to come at this in a more analytical fashion, but considering that this is such a personally important topic to me, I’m going to try a more emotional approach. Something I don’t normally do.
So really, to start off, I wanna say that I’m so damn thankful for the way Yuuri is written. Really, seriously. I don’t think I’ve ever had the ability to relate more to character; Yuuri is close to a mirror of my own experiences with anxiety and it’s so fantastic to have a model of development and growth for me and people like me. I found the portrayal to be frighteningly accurate, from types of thoughts, behaviors, mannerisms…
I think the episode that stood out to me the most in terms of Yuuri’s anxiety was ep7, aka Yuuri’s on-screen panic attack episode.
The first thing I noticed was this:
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve found myself in that exact position. I bounce my legs when I panic, just like Yuuri is doing here. Head in his hands, breathing heavily, bouncing and jostling limbs. This isn’t the Mary-Sue cutesy portrayal of anxiety–this is a real anxiety disorder. It’s not pretty. It’s not easy. It can’t be fixed with a single word or a touch or a person. Quite frankly, it’s ugly and you lose control of your body.