What does a person do if Loki seems to have vanished for more than a year, won't talk to you, won't come to you in dreams, and you're getting horrible voices in your head telling you how unwanted you are, leave my space, I don't love you anymore, and so forth. I'm at my wit's end and in a deep depression because of this. I feel like he's rejected me and never coming back.
I’m an advocate for the idea that a religious practice is only healthy if it benefits and fulfills the practitioner. As soon as it’s doing more harm than good, it’s time for that practice to change, or to end.
Personally, I don’t think those negative voices you’re hearing are Loki, just your own fears. If he really didn’t care about you, he wouldn’t hang around to torment you. And real, unconditional love doesn’t end.
But it doesn’t matter whether they’re Loki or not. It sounds like the situation is significantly hurting your mental health, and therefore, you need to get out of it, at least for now. Any deity who does love and care about you would understand that.
Take a break. Take time to grieve. And when you’re ready, move on to a spiritual path that’s more fulfilling, whether that’s a practice that doesn’t require direct communication from Loki to be a positive force in you life or a practice that doesn’t involve Loki at all. Maybe you’ll hear from Loki again once your mental state has improved, and maybe you won’t. The important thing is that you get to a healthy place. Loki, more than anyone, understands the need to cut away the stuff that’s holding us back.
Best wishes, nonny. Let us know if there’s any way we can help.
- Mod E