logical disorder

Bpd Logic // 1
  • Bpd: cut! You need to! If you don't cut it means you're weak and faked your illness all along! Also you deserve the pain and who cares anyways? Cutting helps and you already have so many scars, it doesn't matter anymore.
  • Me: *cuts*
  • Bpd: oh look what you've done!!!! You cut again, you're so weak! You let down your loved ones who support you. Again. How long do you think they'll keep up with your bullshit before leaving? And weren't you already ugly enough without all the scars? You're disgusting.

how the fuck does my brain turn someone saying “I can’t hang out tomorrow I’m busy” into “no one loves you and you gotta be dead bc what’s the point in living” in .3 seconds

  • <p> <b>Me, pretending to be an extremely nice person:</b> u know i can be such an abusive asshole sometimes, just to make sure you understand<p/><b>The person:</b> oh don't you overestimate ur bad sides, you are the sweetest person i have ever met!<p/><b>The person, after i lied/insulted/manipulated/hit 'em:</b> the hell you are doing, u abusive piece of ๐Ÿ’ฉ<p/><b>Me, remaining completely silent:</b> ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ˜˜<p/></p>
Offended people

It’s surprising how offended people get when you question something they believe in.

I’m the type of person that QUESTIONS EVERYTHING. And needs answers for EVERYTHING. I’m hungry for answers. This is necessary for me to grasp something. I analyze things on a non superficial level.

And people genuinely think you’re trying to undermine them when you ask deep questions about their philosophies and ideals.

People genuinely feel attacked when you ask for sources of their claims or when you ask for examples of whatever it is they are saying. Why? I don’t understand.

I’m not trying to prove you wrong. Im not trying to take away your faith, ideals or philosophy, I’m just trying to understand you and your thoughts more.

Why? Because I RESPECT you and what you do.
If I’m asking a lot of questions is because I find you or your ideal intriguing. I want to have the same level of clarity that you do. I want to discover and genuinely understand. I want to be able to lay down and think about it at night and question how your ideal would turn out to be in certain circumstances.

I’m curious but while I’m curious, I’m also scientific. I will question you with established studies, statistics or common known facts. Im not being condescending or refuting your claims. I’m trying to see the world through a different lens. Step out of my shoes and go into yours. I want to do that, I want to do it with respect and love. I’m not trying to argue or be problematic.

For example:

If your Christian and you say you have free will, I might ask you whether free will exists if God already has a plan for you.

If you are pro choice and you believe in death sentence, I might question your morale on life and even get into eugenics.

I enjoy long complex conversation that is dominated with reason over emotions. I want facts, I want to know why you think this way, where you get your info, and analyze the way you make decisions and learn to execute plans.

That is the way I am. I’m tired of people trying to make me think I’m mean or insensitive just because I question people. Im tired of people blaming my autism for my lack of filter or my being politically incorrect because I ask certain things. I’m tired of people thinking I’m intimidating because I’m quiet and like to observe and enjoy speaking strictly to ask.Im tired of people saying I’m rude, a birch, a know it all or nasty person when I’m genuinely not. I tend to even apologize and emphasize that I’m not trying to question their intellect in a very nice tone. I’m passive and calm. I’m just tired of people saying they don’t like being around because just because I take things too literal.

Why should I be filtered or censored? Why can’t I ask people questions? Why can’t I? Why do people get angry or feel attacked? This is my way to try to be social and communicate/understand this unstable/unpredictable world. Why are people always so mad at me because of this?

Someone who wanted to remain anonymous contacted me about @babyfairy today claiming to be an ex-friend. Apparently, despite justifying hatred towards zamii070 because “she likes lolicon”, she has referred to herself as “the queen of lolicon”. She also expressed a fetish (unclear if sexual or not) for gore. I know someone who received gore in their inbox after a nasty interaction with babyfairy, so that makes a lot of sense.

One of the biggest thing her ex-friend complained about was her total lack of empathy or caring. She keeps a tight circle of friends that she cycles through when she gets bored. If you’re in her circle, she will make sure to compliment your looks and act sickeningly sweet towards you. If you dare to disagree with her, suddenly you’re ugly or racist.

As anyone who has interacted with her knows, she uses the race card to manipulate people heavily. She will twist the circumstance in any way possible so that you are an ugly racist that she is justified in acting hostile towards. This is part of why so many people follow her. She gives people this illusion that she’s a legitimate warrior for social justice. She appears to fight racism actively by attacking racists head on.

Regardless of diagnosis, she’s a classic narcissist focused heavily on her own appearance and the appearance of others. She uses appearance as a sort of currency with her friends and a weapon against her enemies. She likes to keep all eyes on her, constantly referring back to her own appearance to fish for compliments. If you look at her blog at any given time, you’ll see plenty of evidence of this. It’s very obvious.

She uses her manipulation to pit her own friends against each other if one of them is perceived as crossing her. She has specifically manipulated two people to break up with each other because she didn’t like one of them. She’s playing chess with the people she claims to love.

This is all I’ve got for now. Due to the person giving the info remaining anonymous, it will be easy for her to shake this off. Don’t let her do it. If you’re one of her followers, look for the signs of abuse and manipulation. I assure you that you will not come up empty handed.



anonymous asked:

blueberry lemon and cotton candy!

Blueberry Lemon: favorite blogs?

Oh heck, there’s a lot. There’s @ihavenotyetfiguredoutanything, @tybalt-you-saucy-boi, @cisnowflake, @klubbhead, @nunyabizni, @sangurex (just because of the weird combination of 98% gorey scary stuff and 2% adorable animals), @gemgrumps, @peri-doting, @the-real-ted-cruz, @obsidianthunderwolf, @radically-logical, @obsidian-disorder, @itscoldinwonderland, @shoelacelord (cant tag am sad), @gtheheathen, @gaylibertariansc, @eveylein, @straightlittleangel, and probably tons more

Cotton Candy: Three places you want to go?

New York, for Essentially Ellington (I’m so jealous my friend matthew got to go grr)

Canada, to visit @straightlittleangel and any other friends I know there bc they be cool

And Florida for a heckton of reasons

people keep saying that i’m only thinking about myself, that i’m making everything about me

i’m aware of that.

but i really honestly don’t know how not to.