logical disorder

how the fuck does my brain turn someone saying “I can’t hang out tomorrow I’m busy” into “no one loves you and you gotta be dead bc what’s the point in living” in .3 seconds

  • <p> <b>Me, pretending to be an extremely nice person:</b> u know i can be such an abusive asshole sometimes, just to make sure you understand<p/><b>The person:</b> oh don't you overestimate ur bad sides, you are the sweetest person i have ever met!<p/><b>The person, after i lied/insulted/manipulated/hit 'em:</b> the hell you are doing, u abusive piece of ๐Ÿ’ฉ<p/><b>Me, remaining completely silent:</b> ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ˜˜<p/></p>

Someone who wanted to remain anonymous contacted me about @babyfairy today claiming to be an ex-friend. Apparently, despite justifying hatred towards zamii070 because “she likes lolicon”, she has referred to herself as “the queen of lolicon”. She also expressed a fetish (unclear if sexual or not) for gore. I know someone who received gore in their inbox after a nasty interaction with babyfairy, so that makes a lot of sense.

One of the biggest thing her ex-friend complained about was her total lack of empathy or caring. She keeps a tight circle of friends that she cycles through when she gets bored. If you’re in her circle, she will make sure to compliment your looks and act sickeningly sweet towards you. If you dare to disagree with her, suddenly you’re ugly or racist.

As anyone who has interacted with her knows, she uses the race card to manipulate people heavily. She will twist the circumstance in any way possible so that you are an ugly racist that she is justified in acting hostile towards. This is part of why so many people follow her. She gives people this illusion that she’s a legitimate warrior for social justice. She appears to fight racism actively by attacking racists head on.

Regardless of diagnosis, she’s a classic narcissist focused heavily on her own appearance and the appearance of others. She uses appearance as a sort of currency with her friends and a weapon against her enemies. She likes to keep all eyes on her, constantly referring back to her own appearance to fish for compliments. If you look at her blog at any given time, you’ll see plenty of evidence of this. It’s very obvious.

She uses her manipulation to pit her own friends against each other if one of them is perceived as crossing her. She has specifically manipulated two people to break up with each other because she didn’t like one of them. She’s playing chess with the people she claims to love.

This is all I’ve got for now. Due to the person giving the info remaining anonymous, it will be easy for her to shake this off. Don’t let her do it. If you’re one of her followers, look for the signs of abuse and manipulation. I assure you that you will not come up empty handed.

Here’s the bizarre thing about a lot of autoimmune disorders:

It’s like, you have a weak immune system which makes you vulnerable to viruses and stuff. Also, your immune system gets confused and attacks the wrong things in your body, like it doesn’t recognize these are normal helpful things and attacks - (mine likes to randomly attack my liver for no reason). So how do they treat this? By suppressing your immune system further, with immunosuppressant drugs.

The logic is, yes, your immune system attacks things in your body that it shouldn’t. So let’s make your immune system so weak that it can’t attack anything. Congratulations, you’re going to be fine…oops, unless your weakened immune system allows you to get sick with any of these thousand other things, whatever, we did it, we fixed you!


Offended people

It’s surprising how offended people get when you question something they believe in.

I’m the type of person that QUESTIONS EVERYTHING. And needs answers for EVERYTHING. I’m hungry for answers. This is necessary for me to grasp something. I analyze things on a non superficial level.

And people genuinely think you’re trying to undermine them when you ask deep questions about their philosophies and ideals.

People genuinely feel attacked when you ask for sources of their claims or when you ask for examples of whatever it is they are saying. Why? I don’t understand.

I’m not trying to prove you wrong. Im not trying to take away your faith, ideals or philosophy, I’m just trying to understand you and your thoughts more.

Why? Because I RESPECT you and what you do.
If I’m asking a lot of questions is because I find you or your ideal intriguing. I want to have the same level of clarity that you do. I want to discover and genuinely understand. I want to be able to lay down and think about it at night and question how your ideal would turn out to be in certain circumstances.

I’m curious but while I’m curious, I’m also scientific. I will question you with established studies, statistics or common known facts. Im not being condescending or refuting your claims. I’m trying to see the world through a different lens. Step out of my shoes and go into yours. I want to do that, I want to do it with respect and love. I’m not trying to argue or be problematic.

For example:

If your Christian and you say you have free will, I might ask you whether free will exists if God already has a plan for you.

If you are pro choice and you believe in death sentence, I might question your morale on life and even get into eugenics.

I enjoy long complex conversation that is dominated with reason over emotions. I want facts, I want to know why you think this way, where you get your info, and analyze the way you make decisions and learn to execute plans.

That is the way I am. I’m tired of people trying to make me think I’m mean or insensitive just because I question people. Im tired of people blaming my autism for my lack of filter or my being politically incorrect because I ask certain things. I’m tired of people thinking I’m intimidating because I’m quiet and like to observe and enjoy speaking strictly to ask.Im tired of people saying I’m rude, a birch, a know it all or nasty person when I’m genuinely not. I tend to even apologize and emphasize that I’m not trying to question their intellect in a very nice tone. I’m passive and calm. I’m just tired of people saying they don’t like being around because just because I take things too literal.

Why should I be filtered or censored? Why can’t I ask people questions? Why can’t I? Why do people get angry or feel attacked? This is my way to try to be social and communicate/understand this unstable/unpredictable world. Why are people always so mad at me because of this?

“the thing i like the most about ks is how expressive sangwoo is. maybe because i love to analyze characters and people in general, but sangwoo says definitely a lot through his bodylanguage and expressions. i even make profiles for the characters. (for bum this is way more difficult, but in relation to his disorder very logical and it follows a pattern.)”

- Anonymous   

Summing up every despicable thing a person in power does to psychopathy/sociopathy (which are the same thing and the term sociopathy is in fact outdated) really only results in a gross misunderstanding of human psychology and prevents people from accepting the reality that completely neurotypical people are capable of massive injustices. Stop blaming every bad thing that happens on neurodivergent people. Of course I’m not defending psychopaths but calling every person who commits huge injustices one is a cop out plain and simple. Plus, while the comment usually targets psychopaths, the real stigma then gets attached to any neurodivergent person who is stereotyped as amoral or as having difficulty understandimg morals, particularly those with autism and borerline personality disorder. The logic goes, “these people committing these acts aren’t normal therefore the only people to fear are ‘abnormal’ people”.

What’s more, it allows neurotypical people to continue committing these acts as they are accepted as neurotypical up until that point, so everyone around them has their guard down. We can only prevent these injustices by acknowledging that anyone is capable of them and acknowledging the ways they get away with it in the system we have set up.


heaven is falling