Okay, so I told some of you about the transphobic jokes before I deleted the post, which I thought–? Might have been something I could talk to him, on a certain level, I guess I was thinking insensitive and uneducated people need their “jokes” called out to attention to realize there’s nothing funny about demeaning another individual’s sense of self.
That was one thing, (mind you I barely see this guy because it’s pretty casual so we don’t have a lot of time to talk?)
Okay, then I show him a poc nonbinary local model, and I’m like look how beautiful they are, and he barely looks, and declares
“black girls aren’t pretty”
THAT. ISN’T. OKAY. Or true for that matter what THE FUCK I’m getting mad as I type
There’s no excuse, for any of this, really, nope, (bare with me I’m sure everything I’m recounting is offensive as fuck)
so I’m like? You’re going to generalize a whole group of people like that? And he doesn’t respond SO MY CONFRONTATIONAL ASS IS LIKE
no, seriously, first of all? they’re non-binary!!! and second, who are you to decide what’s pretty? That specific individual may not be attractive to you, sure, not your cup of tea? But that doesn’t mean they’re not pretty? And also? There’s no fucking way you can say every fucking poc woman is not attractive?!
I can’t stand that generalization, where people will just be like, “oh I don’t think this ethnicity is attractive.” What the actual fuck? HOW DO YOU FEEL OKAY SAYING THAT
So I’m livid and it’s awkward and I swear I wanted to break up with him on the spot but his roommate is there and (also I’m trapped on military base because we took his car hahaha)
Then I’m trying to explain to him the book I’m reading and how it deals with racism and LGBT rights and what makes us think we have the right to demean others
And he’s like
“LGB— and STOP there because I don’t support trans” and I’m like oh my god oh my GOD
Then he’s like babe you’re quiet and I’m like
I just want to go home
Because I want him away from me
Like yesterday was proof that he is past that facade stage in early relationships and has moved onto
“I’m comfortable so now I’m going to be my full dickish self”
Like some kind of yuge evolution Pokémon into the trump master
AND TODAY LIKE A FUCKING SIGN BECAUSE IVE BEEN IGNORING HIM
(Because I am breaking up with him there’s no doubt about it I just have to do it when I don’t have my daughter- thank fuck she’s never been around him, I don’t want his hateful ideologies anywhere near her)
HE TEXTS ME
“Babe I haven’t been awake for even thirty minutes and I’ve already made a racist joke”
AFTER ME SPENDING THREE HOURS THE NIGHT BEFORE TRYING TO SPEAK SENSE INTO HIS INSENSITIVITIES AND TELLING HIM IT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE AS FUCK
SO I FINALLY GAVE IN AND TEXTED BACK
And he tried to explain himself
And then I didn’t respond
So he texted me AGAIN
babe are you just getting sensitive because of the problem with your boy/girl thing?
(HA HA HA OK THIS IS MISTER UNDERSTANDING OF WHERE I STAND, WHAT I TOLD HIM IS THAT I don’t conform to any gender norms, and I don’t know where I stand, still. And he pretended to understand which obviously not lololol)
And now I’m ignoring him until Tuesday night so I can dump his nasty ass
I DON’T SOUND INTELLIGENT AT ALL BECAUSE I AM ANGRY TYPING
I had the privledge of shooting with a local model who hails from Iceland or Greenland or similar maybe 2 years back. She was tall, gorgeous, and very sweet. The camera just kind of sang her song and the shots all came out perfect. Even the imperfect ones.