The Arrangement: Chapter 11
Author’s Note: SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG!! I’m going to start writing the next chapter tonight because you all deserve it haha
I hope you enjoy and feedback is always appreciated!
Fuming was an understatement. You were absolutely livid at this point.
You paced up and down the Command Shuttle, mumbling profanities under your breath as your marched.
Fortunately, the other two on board had known better than to bother you when you had stormed up the ramp.
You couldn’t believe what Kylo had just done. How dare he treat you like that? Certainly, as his apprentice you were not yet equals. But what right did that give him to lash out on you quite like this?
You were seething as you kept replaying it in your head. The memory of Kylo’s tight Force grip around your throat felt as real and as painful as you had experienced it .
The sound of Kylo’s voice snapped you from your thoughts. You hadn’t noticed him enter. You quickly dismissed him, continuing to pace.
“Princess.” His helmet was on now, and his voice sounded infinitely harsher as he addressed you.
“I have a name, you know,” you snarled as you turned to brush past him.
But before you could, Kylo managed to grab onto your arm. His grip was gentle– far more so than it had been around your throat a few hours ago.
“Don’t,” you warned him, snatching yourself out of his hold and shoving by him.
You furrowed your eyebrows slightly as you sensed him trailing behind you. You made a beeline towards the ramp, ignoring Hux’s expression of disbelief that you were willingly going out onto the ice planet’s surface at night.
“Y/N,” Kylo’s voice was cautionary as he followed you outside.
She must hate you after what you did, you fool.
“I don’t hate you, I just don’t want to be anywhere near you,” you mumbled angrily as you trudged through the snow.
“You can hear my thoughts.” It wasn’t a question. Kylo could feel your presence in his mind, even if you hadn’t realised it yourself.
You stopped. Your eyes narrowing as you folded your arms over. The sudden pause in movement was now making you feel the full extent of the freezing cold.
You grudgingly realised he was right. But how? “You must be projecting your thoughts.”
“Why would I do that?”
“You’re letting me into your mind, then.”
Kylo scoffed, “Do you really think I would grant you such access, Princess?”
You rolled your eyes, the tone of his voice reminding you of why you had stormed out here in the first place.
“You’re right. All you’re good for is trying to kill me,” you snarled.
“Kill–,” Kylo let out an exasperated sigh, “You think I was trying to kill you?”
“You think you weren’t?” You retorted, “If I hadn’t have pried your grip from me when I did then I would’ve stopped breathing!”
“I would never have… I didn’t mean to…,” Kylo stopped, rephrasing his next words, “I–I, um… Well, then I’m… I’m sorry.”
You raised an eyebrow. Kylo Ren saying sorry? This was certainly a first. You spun around to face him.
“Sorry for having the temper of a five year old or sorry you weren’t successful in choking me to death?”
He removed helmet to reveal a frown, “The first one– I mean… I’m sorry for hurting you. Truly.”
Something tugged within you that made you believe his apology was genuine. But that didn’t mean you had to let this go as easily. “…And are you sorry for lashing out like a child having a temper tantrum?”
“A child wouldn’t Force choke someone if they–” Kylo stopped as he took in your annoyed expression and nodded, “I shouldn’t have reacted in that way. I didn’t mean to harm you and I trust this goes without saying, but I… it will never happen again. You have my word.”
“Hmm,” you simply said in response, your arms still crossed defensively over your body.
A moment of silence passed between you before you cleared your throat, getting ready to walk back to the Command Shuttle.
“Where are you going?”
“Where do you think I’m going? I have nothing left to say to you.” You were surprised at how calm you sounded.
“Well I need to discuss something with you.”
“I’m sure it can wait until the morning.”
“Y/N, it’s important.”
“First you choke me for asking you too many questions, and now you’re all too eager to talk to me?” You genuinely felt confused by Kylo. Any glimpse into the man he truly was seemed to quickly shut itself off as soon as you got too close. He was still an absolute enigma.
Kylo pinched the bridge of his nose, willing himself to be patient with you. “I told you. It’s important.”
“Well I’m tired, and I’m cold. Whatever you have to say… it will have to wait until the morning.”
Typical. The spoilt Princess just has to get her way.
“I am not spoilt!” You snapped at him.
A brief look of surprise washed over Kylo before he let out a sigh, “This is exactly why I need to speak with you immediately.”
“Why? Because you think I’m used to getting my way?”
“That’s just it, Y/N. I didn’t say anything. I thought it.”
Your feet had started to move involuntarily now and you began walking further and further away from the Shuttle. Kylo easily kept up with your hurried pace.
“Look, if this is about me missing two days of training already, drop it. I have an injury, remember?” You asked pointedly as you gestured towards you throat.
Kylo ignored your remark, more focused on where you were leading the two of you as the Command Shuttle appeared more and more distant.
“It’s not about your training. Well, I suppose it is but…”
“But?” You waited for him to continue as you slowed down your pace, deciding you had probably walked far enough.
“But it involves something far bigger than that. Than both of us.”
“What are you holding?” You asked, pointing towards his hand. You sensed an unusual pull towards it.
“You feel it too, don’t you?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you huffed, “This planet is clearly playing mind tricks on us.”
“Or it’s trying to show us something.”
You groaned, “I think I’ve had enough of you being cryptic,” you mumbled as you noticed Kylo hide his hand in his robe.
Though he hid it well, Kylo was struggling to talk to you. How could he bring up the subject of his past again?
“I… I haven’t been entirely honest with you, Y/N.”
“Oh, you haven’t?” You said with mock surprise, “Here I was thinking that you and I shared everything.”
Perhaps it was your annoyed expression, or maybe the tone of your voice. But in that moment, Kylo hesitated to tell you the truth about his past. He couldn’t dance around the subject when you were clearly still angry with him.
“Is this conversation going somewhere? I don’t know about you, but standing in the middle of a frozen planet with no sun isn’t exactly my idea of fun.”
Kylo looked up at you, clearing his throat slightly, “What do you know about Force bonds?”
You seemed confused by this. What exactly was the point of this discussion? You began moving further forwards, unconsciously putting distance between you and Kylo.
You ran your hand absent mindedly across the front of your shirt as you responded, “Not much.”
Kylo waited for you to continue. You hesitated slightly before speaking again, “Um, well from what I’ve heard it’s a– a particularly powerful bond between two Force users…?”
Kylo seemed vaguely amused by your response, “Essentially, yes,” he said as he fiddled around with his robe pocket before producing what looked like a small stone, “And do you know what this is?”
You shook your head. The sight of it stirred something up within you. A strong pull towards it.
“It’s a Kyber crystal.”
Your eyes widened slightly in surprise, “I thought they had all been harvested from this planet?”
“Apparently not all of them,” Kylo said, handing it to you, “Take it.”
“W-why?” You suddenly felt nervous to touch the crystal. Afraid of what it might unlock within you if you did. Its power was radiating throughout the cave, and you could feel it reaching out to you.
“I want you to have it. It calls for you.”
You gave him a puzzled look, “How do you…” you trailed off as you realised your hand had involuntarily opened to take the crystal.
“I can feel it,” he said.
“You’re drawn to it too?”
“Not exactly,” Kylo started, “I can sense its pull to you.”
“Why are you saying it like that’s not normal?”
“Because it’s not,” he sighed, dropping the crystal into your hand.
You staggered back slightly as you made contact with it. The sheer intensity of its power taking you aback. You looked up at Kylo with a shocked expression.
“Did you feel that too when you touched it?”
He nodded, “But I shouldn’t have. This crystal calls out for you, not me.”
You finally understood what he was getting at, “We share a Force Bond?… But I thought that only occurred between Jedi Masters and their apprentices. You’re hardly a Jedi–” You stopped as you Kylo’s expression twist into a scowl.
“I don’t understand it either. But it’s like I can feel every thought and every emotion that courses through you… it’s why I was drawn to this crystal,” he studied your expression carefully.
“Is that why we can hear each other’s voices in our heads?” You asked.
He nodded, “The Supreme Leader can confirm it when we return. Whatever this bond is, I believe it will help your training, not harm it.”
You toyed with the crystal, still in your fingers. A thought suddenly sprung to your mind. “Stop it.”
“Stop lying to me.”
“I’m not lying to you!” Kylo’s voice raising slightly out of frustration.
“You only tell me half of what’s really going on, Kylo,” you sneered, “There’s more you’re not telling me… And don’t you dare try to deny it because you wouldn’t have snapped at me earlier if there wasn’t.”
Kylo knew you spoke the truth. It took everything in him not to confess his entire life story to you in that moment. But he was surprised it had taken you this long to get angry at him again. He knew you well enough to decide that withholding the truth was the best thing for you.
“I’ve told you everything you needed to hear. Until the Supreme Leader confirms it, for all we know, it could be this could be this planet toying with us.”
You huffed, “Then why did I hear your voice in my head when we were sparring in front of my family?”
Kylo frowned again. Damn her curiosity.
“I don’t know, Princess. I’m as in the dark about this… this bond, as you are.”
“I doubt that.”
Kylo narrowed his eyes, “I need you trust me.”
“Well I need you to be completely honest with me, but we both know that’s not going to happen,” you said as you shoved the crystal back into his grip before moving again.
“Now where are you going?” He groaned as you tried to get your bearings.
“Back to the Shuttle,” you snapped, “I would rather speak to the General. At least he tells me the truth.”
“Well you’re going the wrong way.”
You blinked a few times, trying to brush the snow from your eyes as you turned changed directions. You let out an involuntary shudder.
“You’re still going the wrong way… And you’re freezing.”
“Take my robe, you’ll be half frozen to death before we reach the Shuttle.”
“I said I’m fine.”
Kylo rolled his eyes before shrugging off his robes. You watched him from the corner of your eye as he gestured it towards you.
“Don’t be stubborn, Y/N. Take it.”
You shook your head at him.
Kylo mumbled something incoherently before wrapping his robe around you himself.
Despite your initial protest to his actions, you couldn’t help but let out an involuntary sigh of contentment at the feeling of the sudden warmth that engulfed you.
“I’m fine,” Kylo said, mimicking your voice as he turned around and began walking.
You ignored him and instead, trailed behind him towards where you could only assume the Shuttle was.
You dragged your feet through the snow, clutching Kylo’s robe tighter as a cold wind began to blow against your skin.
“I can’t wait to get off this planet,” you muttered. I’ll finally be able to put some distance between me and you, you wanted to add.
“You know, one day you’ll understand why I keep things from you, Princess,” you heard Kylo say quietly as he walked in front of you.
“Let me guess. It’s ‘for my own good’?” You asked mockingly.
“It’s for your protection.”
“You want me to trust you and yet you keep secrets from me for my own protection?” You scoffed, “You’re unbelievable.”
“The day that I am entirely honest with you will be the day I lose whatever trust you might have in me, Princess.”
“You don’t know that.”
“But I won’t risk it,” he countered, “I would rather have you angry at me for keeping things from you than to have you hate me all together.”
Kylo had seen the consequences of your anger. He couldn’t quite fathom what would happen if you found out about the past choices he had made.
“Well that’s ridiculous,” you remarked as you saw the outline of the Command Shuttle appear in the far distance.
“I’ve told you before that I care about you, Y/N,” Kylo said quietly, “The sooner you start believing it, the safer we’ll all be.”
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