live blogging season three

I just watched episode 10 aND IM. SO. DONE. WITH THIS SHOW
omg Will has a genuine physical deadly medical condition and Hannibal and that slimeball of a doctor fucking withheld that from him?!??? Like?? Just to see what would happen??
NO. FUCK THAT. Hannibal I was darkly amused with you before but that is just too far. you will have hell to pay.

Not to mention georgia because that whole thing was depressing but that whole scene with her and will in his bedroom was so touching and will is such a good person that doesn’t deserve any of this and should get the fuck away from hannibal he is withholding important information from you and making you worse he is not a good physiatrist or person and you should take everyone and run as far away from him as possible oh my fucking god

this is it. this is the episode that broke me

Hello everyone

It is with a heavy heart and a saddened soul that I must take my leave from this blog. It has lived through three seasons of RWBY, but it will not live for the fourth.

I’m sure some of you have seen my post on my personal blog, but I will state my reasoning here.

I’ve come to learn that fandoms are not a place for me to really be in. When I become too invested in something, I find myself taking personal offense when it is insulted or negatively criticized. It is something I have realized that I’ve been dealing with since I was a child, and I have found that I cannot seem to take it out of my life. Even when I think I’ve dealt with it, it always rears it’s ugly head.

It goes like this:

  1. Someone posts their opinion on said thing that is negative. Whether or not it is valid is irrelevant.
    1. I see the post and immediately find myself wanting to argue/discredit their opinion
    2. Realizing that everyone is entitled to their opinion, I instantly feel defeated
    3. Also not engaging in an argument because I never feel like I know enough to engage in discourse.
  2. My brain begins to argue with itself in a mock argument with said person
    1. Mock argument continues back and forth despite my attempts to think of other things
    2. The longer it goes the shittier I feel

I have found that when I take an outside-looking-in field of view to things I love, I can still enjoy them, talk about them, etc. but these feelings of internal discourse do not happen. But that means not really being a part of the fandom of anything at all.

So, in order to preserve my on mental health, I feel that I must end my time on this blog. I feel that deleting it will help me let go and move forward, but by no means would I not want to interact with you all who wish to continue to see me.

If you’d like to continue interactions with me, please follow my personal: @boushi–adams

I’m going to let this post circulate a bit on queue for everyone to see. I have one thing I want to try and make for the RWBY fandom before I delete this blog, but if I feel I cannot finish it or decide against it, then I’m going to delete it then. So please, if you wish to follow me, follow my personal and do it as soon as possible. But, of course, if you do not wish to, you never have to.

It’s been one hell of a ride the past 3-ish years, but it’s time. I need to keep moving forward, and this is how it has to be.

—UPDATE Feb 22 2016

I will be working on a special project that I want to release before this blog is deleted. It will be posted on my personal blog, and then reblogged here. So once that is complete, I would say this blog would be deleted within a week afterwards.