literally-the-first-thing-i-thought-of

holy shit, guys. i started this blog about two months ago, and i never thought there’d be so many of you?? i’ve been wanting to do this for a while, but here, i finally got to it. first of all, i’d like to THANK EVERYONE WHO’S FOLLOWING ME like literally why are you following my trashbag. honestly, i’ve met so many wonderful people here. cookies for all of you. and since i’m an awkward turtle, on with the actual thing. there’s no particular order, and remember i love absolutely all of you, even people i didn’t mention. ( because my memory is crappy rip )

( bolded are people i’ve talked with ooc and/or my absolute favesfavesfaves, and italicized are the ones i ( mostly ) haven’t interacted with but who i’m stalking anyway. )

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So the first one was from January, soon after Z tweeted “Get out your feelings and move on with your life” after all of the Season 19 craziness, while the last two were from a few days ago. We can interpret these tweets quite a bit, but we’ll probably never actually know what/who they were about. That being said…they sound pretty similar to me.

dontbesuchasourwollf asked:

sterek + 12 for the writing thing?

things you said when you thought i was asleep

It’s been a couple months of this and Derek’s really not sure what’s even happening.

What he does know is that he and Stiles ran into each other, literally, on the streets of Chicago a couple months ago. That had quickly led to dinner to catch-up which had somehow led to sex which had now been going on for awhile.

Derek’s not sure how this all snuck up on him, but he’s blaming it on the cold.

It was the first thing they both agreed on completely, but yet neither was eager to leave.

Stiles had ended up in the city after attending undergrad at Northwestern. Derek had spent the intervening years since they’d last seen each other traveling and at one point, he’d visited Chicago. He’d left, but it had always stayed in his mind as a smaller New York. A way to feel connected to his past without it drowning him.

None of that explains what’s going on now though.

He gets the sex for the most part. It’s great, it’s easy, it’s fun. That all makes sense.

They haven’t ever talked about it though so it’s impossible for Derek to know what Stiles is thinking.

What Derek doesn’t understand is a newer development, of the past couple weeks in fact. Or well, that’s what he thinks, but he can’t actually be sure.

Because Stiles has been talking to him while he sleeps or while he thinks Derek is asleep.

Derek’s not sure if this has been going on for awhile and Stiles grew more complacent in making sure Derek was actually asleep or if it’s a new thing.

It doesn’t really matter. What matters is what Stiles is saying and how he’s saying it.

It’s been three nights in a row of it now.

Derek’s dutifully ignoring the fact that he should probably figure out what it means that they’ve spent more nights together this past week than apart, but right now, he’s contentedly post-sex and on the edges of sleep so he can’t be bothered.

Except that when Stiles starts talking, he can’t let himself fall asleep no matter how exhausted he is from work or sex or any combination of everything.

He feels Stiles rub his hand gently over his back as he murmurs softly, “I can’t believe it’s been years since I’ve met you. Well, met you in a more official sense. Fuck, you were such an ass.”

Derek has to resist the urge to smile when Stiles’ voice sounds so incredibly fond.

This is the first night where’s he’s talked about Derek directly. He’s talked a lot about the supernatural occurrences of Beacon Hills, his dad, Scott, everyone, but never about Derek directly.

Derek’s learned a lot these past couple nights about Stiles’ view on things and about some stories he hadn’t heard before.

“You were always such a problem for us, but in the best way. You were the only person who was on the same page with me always.”

Stiles’ hand stills on Derek’s back as he takes a deep breath.

“I know this is the chicken-shit way of saying all of this, but I wanted to say thank you. Thanks for saving me, thanks for letting me save you. And thank you for never looking at my differently even after,” Stiles voice cracks.

It takes all of Derek’s willpower not to move, to say something, but he knows deep in his bones that Stiles needs to say this, so Derek forces himself to be patient.

“Even after everything. I was always the same to you, and I needed that,” Stiles finishes and his hand resumes it’s steady stroking.

After a moment, Derek turns to Stiles and meets his gaze.

There’s a hint of surprise in Stiles’ eye’s, but not enough that he really thought Derek was asleep, it’s surprise over the fact that Derek’s acknowledging that he wasn’t.

“I never will you know,” Derek says gently.

“Hm?” Stiles inches closer .

“Think of you differently. Not for anything you’ve done at least.”

“In what ways will you then?” Stiles keeps his gaze locked on Derek’s, but Derek can see his nerves reflected back at him.

This is the turning point they needed, and just like everything else, it snuck up on Derek before he even knew he needed it.  

He leans in to kiss Stiles, but before he does, he stops to answer his question.

“In all the ways that matter.”

On my nineteenth birthday you gave me an orchid.
You said they’re meant to live forever,
You said you’ll love me ‘til it dies.

On my twenty-first birthday you were living half a world away.
I promise I watered the orchid every day,
But it wilted and died anyway.

I’d wish you a Merry Christmas but we don’t speak anymore -
I know you didn’t mean it literally,
But it’s funny how these things work out.

My father tells me it’s my mother’s fault I cannot love.
I still water the orchid sometimes - I gave it plant food.
I’m sorry I couldn’t keep it alive, I swear to God I tried.

—  This Was Never About Flowers.

granpappy-winchester asked:

TELL ME YOUR TOP FIVE HANNIGRAM MOMENTS OF THE WHOL SHOW. ^^!!

I have a bad habit of getting asks like these and then giving WAY MORE THAN WAS EVER ASKED OF ME but I’m gonna be chill about this and just give you FIVE OKAY LET’S DO THIS:

1. MURDER HUSBANDS LITERALLY SLAYING DRAGONS TOGETHER AND THEN SNUGGLING IN 3X13!!!

They go from being ferocious, vicious killers to literally snuggling each other in an instant. Will is the lamb who can also be a lion, Hannibal is the lion who can also be a lamb, and they balance each other out perfectly in this moment. And the fact that they can use their hands to both brutalize others and then touch each other with such reverence makes me feel things I have no names for.

2. THE END OF 2X08 AKA THE FIRST TIME I LITERALLY THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING TO KISS

Which also happened to be the time that Hannibal stopped Will from killing a Hannibal-stand-in and literally could not have been more in love with him than in that moment. This scene is worth an entire meta all its own, but I find myself utterly fascinated by it every single time because Hannibal stops Will from killing, he is genuinely concerned for his wellbeing, and Will really seems more interested in the simple act of violence itself than in wanting to kill someone because it would feel like killing Hannibal.

And then Hannibal grabs him by the neck and literally how did they not kiss during this scene tell me hOW

3. THAT TIME THEY ATE ORTOLANS TOGETHER IN 2X11 AND IT WAS SO EROTIC I WANTED TO DIE

“Bones and all?” COULD THEY POSSIBLY GET MORE SUGGESTIVE WITH THIS I MEAN REALLY and then they talk about killing and Hannibal talks about Will’s radiance and again I have never seen someone so grossly in love in my life.

4. THEIR REUNION IN 3X06 IT WAS SO TENDER AND BITTERSWEET

Possibly some of my favorite dialogue between them in the entire series. “Where does the difference between the past and the future come from?” “Mine? Before you, and after you.” IT GETS ME EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

5. THEIR VERY FIRST SCENE TOGETHER!!!!!

Because go watch it and then go watch their last scene together in 3x13 and sob your eyes out my friend LOOK HOW FAR WE HAVE COME