Not gonna lie, school has been rough. This month is probably one of the busiest in my IB curriculum, and I keep having doubts about whether I am good enough. I’ve got IB1 finals in less than a month, two SAT subject tests, all 6 IA’s and a ToK presentation due before that. Teachers assign bucketloads of homework every day and we have a test about something or the other every couple days. I am outright failing Math HL, have already written three separate Physics IA’s with different experiments and hated the outcome of all, and to top it all off, my English IOC’s and Spanish Orals are both happening simultaneously over the course of the next week. MY EE coordinator keeps reminding me to show her progress of my research, and ToK literally tires out my brain (though I love it). I’m a huge advocator for getting enough sleep, but lately, I’ve been sleeping maybe 3-4 hours a day, and the exhaustion shrouds me like a blanket. I’ve forgotten what it feels like to not be stressing about the upcoming deadlines and exams, to have conversations with friends that don’t revolve around school and university. I’m jealous of the people who can cope with the pressure while making it look effortless, and somehow still make time to pursue their passions. I don’t even find enough time to finish my daily todo lists.
To all of you out there who are going through a similar situation at school, stay strong. There is a whole community of students out there who are going through the same thing, and I promise you, no matter how poised someone else looks, they are freaking out inside the same way you are. Just do your best, try to get enough sleep and look after your physical and mental health, give it your all and hopefully, it will all be worth it in the end.