literally the happiest show on earth

i know y'all are probably tired of me being emo about this but i’m never gonna get over kyungsoo’s tummy and knowing that he loves it and doesn’t want to get rid of it and he’s proud of it literally makes me the happiest girlie on earth like seeing him admire it and the other members rub it affectionately like… loving and appreciating ksoo’s tummy is the concept of the century

Be Okay - Karamel One Shot.

Her world stopped 6 months ago. Then it started spinning again, at a much slower pace, so slow it ached her heart. It was so slow, sometimes it didn’t feel like it was moving, and she relived that day again and again. Every night, she hoped she would fall asleep immediately without dreaming of him: on the other hand, she craved his presence so much she would’ve given everything she had to see him in her dreams, to hold him, to touch him, to talk to him again.
It’s not like everyone else’s world stopped.

Like for Alex.
Alex proposed to Maggie on the same night Kara’s world stopped: she was obviously over the moon for her sister’s engagement, but how could she really celebrate Alex finding the love of her life if she had just lost hers?
Selfish- Kara knew that, so she kept quiet.
Kara has been okay for 6 months. Kara was okay. That’s how she replied to her dear ones, whenever they showed their concern over her. She never stepped into the alien bar again, unless Supergirl had to save someone there; she was doing great at CatCo, she still butted heads with Snapper but, everything was great. Most of the days. Some days.
But she was Supergirl, right? She doesn’t bend or break. She had to be okay. Supergirl saved the world, everyone loved Supergirl, everyone praised Supergirl for saving National City from the Daxamite invasion, but Kara couldn’t stand hearing that word.
But she had to be okay, because she was Supergirl, and as a superhero, she must’ve been strong and never break. Then why did everyone around Kara treated her like she was about to crumble?

She hid the tears in her eyes with a laugh, she muffled the horrendous feelings she felt with a smile. She had to be okay, because if she wasn’t, it would’ve affected everyone else. And Alex..she couldn’t ruin Alex’s mood, she was the happiest she’d ever been, Kara could easily see that, she loved her sister too much to make a bad move and ruin everything, so she calculated her actions: the time for smiles, for jokes, silly stories, it was pretty believable. Kara didn’t know how long that farce would’ve lasted but…she would’ve kept it up until she could.
“Do you like this dress, Maid of Honor?”
“I love it!”
“You said it for every dress you’ve tried on, c'mon..what’s your favorite?”
“Alex, I’m serious, I like them all! Which one do you prefer?”
“Kara, you’re nerve wracking. Pick one.”
“The blue one.” She sighed, she just wanted that wedding madness to be over.
“Great! It would’ve been a mess if you didn’t pick up a dress three days before the ceremony.”
“Ha-ha.”
Alex’s phone rang twice before she picked it up.
“J'onn, I’m paying for Kara’s dress, can we tal– uhm, what? Emer- are you sure? Okay, I’m on my way.”
“Is everything okay? Do they need us at work?”
“No, no, it’s a minor thing, I can handle it.” Alex handed her credit card to the brunette woman and gave the shopping bag to her sister, before running away.


The big day had arrived, the ceremony was very intimate, less than 20 people were in attendance, mostly colleagues of the two women. Maggie wore a suit, with a dark blue tie, her eyes lit up as soon as Alex entered the room, Kara could sense the love the two soon-to-be wives shared with just one look; Alex deserved all the love in the world and Maggie’s love was pretty close to that amount. During the vows, sobs could be heard all over the place; it wasn’t a easy road for them, Kara remembered how she stood by Alex’s side in what was probably the hardest period of her life, figuring herself out. Yet she got the happiest of the endings.
Kara couldn’t help but wonder if she’d ever find hers. She surely felt the happiest in the months she shared with him, she thought it was ridiculous how much a single person could have had such a great impact on her life, he changed everything, he turned her world upside down, he made her see things she had never seen before, he made her feel things she had never felt before, and she thought she wouldn’t ever feel such things..until he literally fell into her life. Kara had dreamed about finding that kind of love that makes you wanna laugh, cry, yell, jump, lie down, and she did find it. But she had lost it too.

Before she realized it, he was gone. But she had to be okay, she tried to suppress every thought of him, she could barely mention his name.
“It will get better.” She heard that sentence so many times, she almost believed it and repeated it to herself to get through the hardest days: that day was one of the hardest, undoubtedly.
Kara threw herself over the food, avoiding long conversations, trying to ignore the sappy songs the band was playing. Alex used to hate that music, yet, look at her, she was smiling so big, with tears of joy filling her eyes, swinging with her lover in her arms. Love could really change people, being in love, giving love, taking love, ripping love.. that was her case.
Kara’s love arrived so suddenly and unexpectedly, and it was ripped away in the same way. What she felt for him was so profound, she laughed at the idea of feeling anything slightly close to that for somebody else; what they shared was an unbreakable bond, and now that they were apart, she felt a thread pulling her to him, but she couldn’t move, she feared that that tie could’ve been broken. What if he never came back?
That question creeped in the back of her mind, like a monster under a child’s bed, she knew it was there, but she couldn’t fight it. Having superpowers is pointless when your own mind is your biggest weakness, she thought.


“Alex, my beautiful sister-” Kara stood up with a glass in her hand “-and Maggie, you amazing woman, I’m so glad that you two found each other. Maggie, you make my sister the happiest person on Earth, and I’m eternally grateful to you for that, and I know how you would do anything to protect her, literally. I don’t– I know love is hard, finding love is hard, being together is hard, balancing that with a job that puts you in danger everyday is hard. But you kept fighting for it, that’s the most important part..you never let each other go..and you made it..to your happy ending. In a world full of sadness and negativity, you give me hope. You showed me that no matter how many–how many obstacles you will go through, you will overcome them, because you’ll stay at each other’s side. R-ride or die, right? I’m thankful for having you in my life. I love you.”
At this point Kara went to hug the two women, her tears falling on their shoulders. She had reached her breaking point.
She wasn’t okay. She wasn’t okay.
“I’m proud of you, Kara. I love you.” The older sister held the younger like in one of those nights, when she first arrived on Earth, she had recurring nightmares and she felt alone and..lost.


Kara felt an electric shock, going through her bones and skin: there was a shift in the air, she thought it could’ve been the sense of peace coming after releasing all the emotions she had bottled up for months, but something in the atmosphere had changed. She closed her eyelids, but she felt her sister turning around, pulling away.
“Kara..”
She heard that voice. His voice.
Her eyes opened quickly, making sure that it was a mirage but..she saw him. Standing in front of her.
Everyone was staring in his direction, so it probably wasn’t an hallucination. She stepped closer to his silhouette, slowly and carefully, almost afraid that a wrong move would’ve made him disappear.
He didn’t move, he was just looking at her with expectancy, she hadn’t reacted. She recognized those eyes and she touched his face. “Mon-El?” Kara hadn’t pronounced those two syllables out loud for so long, her lips felt a weird sensation.
His palm touched hers on his cheek, her knees felt weak; “H-how?”
He gave her a weak smile and she didn’t even let him reply. She just sobbed into his strong arms, burying her face in his neck. Her necklace was still there. Kara knew there was a bunch of (confused) people around them, but she couldn’t care at all. Mon-El was back with her. She was okay. She was more than okay.


“Please, tell me I’m not dreaming.” Kara whispered through the tears. “Because I feel your arms around me.” She chuckled bitterly, thinking about the dreams she had about him.
“This isn’t a dream.” He cupped her face smiling, resting his forehead on hers like always.
Somebody started clapping and she hated it: but at least it made it real, Mon-El was with them.
Kara grabbed his hand and led him out of everyone’s sight, still in complete shock, with tears streaming down her face.
“How did this happen? The lead in the atmosphere..are you okay?”
Every question was followed by a touch, just to be sure, again, he was really there.
“I am okay. Well, when I went away..I got into a portal that got me to the 31st century. A group of heroes helped me find a cure to get back to you, and in the meantime..I became the hero you thought I could be. I helped them saving the world multiple times, I’ve been called a hero multiple times, but you were my inspiration behind all of that. You were in my heart the whole time, and you helped me get through my weakest times. I know it’s been 6 months for you.. But it’s been almost 2 years for me. Yet..nothing changed.” He touched her blonde hair, while she processed all the information she got in such a short time.

“So, you aren’t allergic to lead anymore?”
“Nope.” He took a deep breath.
Kara threw herself in his arms and Mon-El picked her up to spin her around. “When did you arrive, though?”
He scratched his chin, “3 days ago, but I didn’t want to go to you immediately..I didn’t know if you moved on, and..”
“Mon-El.. how could I move on? I love you. Even if now I’m mad at you for hiding for three damn days? Where did you go?” She playfully hit his arm, but her eyebrows shot up.
“I went to the DEO first, praying that you wouldn’t have been there, but I found out that you were out shopping for the wedding. I can’t even lie, I almost thought that you were the bride. I felt so relieved when J'onn told me that Alex was getting married, I’m so so happy for them..” He chuckled lightheartedly. “I explained that I didn’t want to see you right away, he called Alex, and we set up a plan.. I stayed at Winn’s place. And here I am.”
“Wow. This is..unbelievable. These months..were hard. It was like I was surrounded by a wall of glass, I could see everyone’s joy but I couldn’t take part in it. I can’t even comprehend how you could do this for almost 2 years.”

“I had hope, you taught me to be hopeful. I knew that everything would’ve been alright.”
“I hated this sentence for all these months, who would’ve thought that they were right, after all?” Kara smiled, truly, her lover mirrored her expression.
“Kara..” Their fingers intertwined on her flowy dress.
“Mon-El?”
“I really need to do something.” His voice lowered, Kara felt shivers.
“What?”
“I really need to kiss you, or I’ll go crazy. May I?”
Kara cupped his face and simply replied with her lips on his, it tasted like the oxygen she felt missing in her lungs, it tasted like happiness. It tasted like a happy ending, or better, a brand new happy beginning.
“I love you so much.”
“I love you even more.”
“It’s good to say it when neither of us are crying.”
“It feels really good.” Kara laughed and hid her face in the crook of his neck, she missed being this carefree and..happy: like that Dopey grin, butterflies in her stomach happy.


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AND HERE IT IS! 😁😁 I hope I can write some more content for the fam during this hiatus, but finding inspiration is pretty hard.😪 I know it’s not the best, but I tried and I hope you enjoyed it. Let me know what you think in my inbox or in the reblogs maybe, love you allllll!😘😘😘❤❤

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So I am following this parody account on Twitter which is like @danisnot0nfire or something but their tweets are hilarious so I’m notified to them but when it comes in the notification thing it only shows their name… So as u can guess.. I saw this and literally had a heart attack.. And was like Holy shit I’m not ready for this so i clicked on it to see the phandom’s reaction below but then i saw it wasn’t actually Dan and went from being the happiest person on earth to the opposite.. It was like Someone took me to the top of the world and just dropped me.. (kinda soft landing though)

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So I just met Jaden Smith? My literal idol? I look like the ugliest person alive next to this angel but I showed him my phone case (it has one of his tweets on it) and he asked to take a picture of it…I’m the happiest person on Earth

familysoapstealer  asked:

Honestly I'm so glad that you like malec especially cause they remind me a little bit of sterek. I just can't wait for you to get obsessed far enough to write the lil headcanons and fics that I adore, especially with Alec in all that leather ;)

Also I’ve been stalking your blog for months now it’s a genuine problem and now you’re going to be stuck with my head canons and me just constantly sending you asks whoops

OH OH OH. PLEASE SEND ME ALL THE MALEC HEADCANONS. I AM HERE FOR THEM. 

Let me tell you what I know headcanon so far.

  1. Alec is a shy sex cupcake.
  2. Alec loves that Magnus has to stand on his tip toes to kiss him.
  3. Magnus introduces Alec to pop culture and Alec gets strangely addicted to The Hunger Games. He likes all the arrows and game plans, less so the rule breaking and death. He’s upset when Cinna dies because he reminds him of Magnus.
  4. Alec cannot dirty talk to save his life and Magnus thinks it’s adorable. 
  5. Magnus is a very good cook. Alec is very good at distracting Magnus from cooking.
  6. Magnus likes to show Alec off at parties.
  7. Alec gets super drunk once and somehow convinces himself dressing up as Cupid is the best seduction plan ever. (The outfit is literally nothing more than his bow and arrows and a small, white towel.) Magnus becomes the happiest warlock on earth that day.
  8. Magnus really hates Harry Potter (especially being a warlock himself). “I don’t understand, Alec. Why didn’t they just shoot Voldemort? Problem solved.” “Who’s Voldemort?” “A bad man.” “Should I alert the Clave?” “No, sweetie, that’s okay.”
  9. Magnus likes to draw patterns on Alec’s body. Sometimes with glitter.
  10. Alec is shy about cuddling and is really awkward about going about it. 
  11. (Alec is a cuddle monster.)
  12. Magnus really likes taking baths, especially when Alec joins him.
  13. Alec frequently gets Disney songs stuck in his head. “I’m not the one who told you to watch The Little Mermaid, Alec.” “I thought it was an educational documentary!” “It’s an animation.” “Whatever.”

@alecmagnu @wreckstiles @adversebore, anything to add?

DON’T GIVE UP ON THE SHOW

So more than 24 hours after that heartbreaking episode, I think I finally cooled down. I will admit that I was very, very angry, with this episode. Literally 1 minute I was the happiest person on the face of this EARTH, but then they just had to “kill” her. I love Lexa’s character, not just because she is representing the LGBT community, she is representing females the way they should be shown. She is a strong, smart, badass leader. But she isn’t cold hearted, she has a loving side that is shown through Clarke, who does all of these things as well. So you could only imagine how I felt watching 3x07. BUT I’m still not going to give up on this show.

 I started watching this show, like all of you, because of Clexa. I actually always wanted to watch THE 100, but I was trying not to add more shows to my list, and I sort of thought it wasn’t that good. The pilot wasn’t as good as the rest of the series, so that is why I stayed away until this year. Now, after watching the whole show, I actually like it, and of course Clexa is the best ship in TV history. All this hatred that everyone has for writers constantly ruining LGBT ships, is kind of stupid. First off, I hate the labels that LGBT stand for. Labeling people is the most stupid aspect of our society. But I really don’t want to rant about this now.

 So when you all say that “it’s wrong that the lesbian always dies”, it pisses me off that there is a difference between a straight person dying and a “LGBT” person dying. There is no difference! STOP making there be a difference. I can’t be the only person thinking this.

Now getting back to the show, Lexa “died”, and as much as we all feel like killing ourselves, it’s not bad writing or hatred towards all of us. Jason didn’t plan to “queer” bait us into a plot. He’s writing a drama/scifi story, that sometimes has to have deaths. TWD, Games of Thrones, and many other shows do this as well. Her “death” advanced the plot in the best way. And it made me want to find out more about ALIE/ALIE 2.0 and the CoL.

Now, for my last bit before I shut up, I personally don’t believe she’s dead. I think this for a number of reasons. 

1. A major character like Lexa, has had many near-death experiences. Finn, Jasper, Raven! Only, one of those people died, ONLY AFTER their near-death experience. Obviously want happened in 307 made it seem like a death scene, sort of like the way the pilot ends with Jasper “dying”. It seems pretty legit, but this is a sci-fi/ drama show, literally anything could happen. This could all be tricking not only us, but Clarke as well, into believing she’s dead! 

2. Unfortunately, we sort of lost the whole “surprise” element here, but the Vancouver Leaks show us Lexa is coming back for the finale. Also after what some people believe is being said in the videos of clexa, Lexa is fighting and saying to Clarke that ALIE is trying to separate them. It also seems like Lexa is fighting to get Clarke back. And we all know that Lexa is very accepting of death. And why would she be trying to get Clarke back if she were dead. Of course, we all know that the “digital soul” of the people who swallow the chip live on in the CoL, but Lexa didn’t eat the chip!. She had ALIE 2.0 IN HER THE ENTIRE TIME, so essentially she was ALIE 2.0(but I’m still a little confused on those details exactly) Either way, this CoL seems to be something that ALIE created, so Lexa wouldn’t be a part of this, but she could probably access it. So I don’t believe that she is just another soul trapped in CoL forever. The fact that they are attacking her in seems to show that she’s lke a virus corrupting ALIE’s system. Obviously everything i just said could be wrong, but I am just analyzing what I see in these leaked videos. But we all saw that Titus had that chip with him, who’s to say he didn’t swallow it himself! He worships anything with the sacred symbol, so this could be possible. If he did swallow it, THEN he is being manipulated/controlled by ALIE. So he could’ve made it look like an accident, but maybe the shooting was meant to get Lexa into Clarke’s room, and the minute she entered, Titus would shoot her.

3. Lastly, the great Lindsey Morgan tweeted this out

I don’t think Lindsey would screw around with us like that, since I’m pretty sure the whole world noticed how mad we are, but this really makes it seem like Lexa might not be dead. Now this is totally up to how you all see it, but this just gave me so much hope. Also it’s safe to say Lindsey likes Clexa.

Okay that’s all I have to say for now. I might or might not post my other theories of Lexa coming back, but the main thing to get out of all this is that stop labeling, stop the hate on Jason & writers (let’s not turn into the “let’s boycott!” Bellarkes after Bellamy’s descent into Pike’s club), and don’t be fooled into this very abrupt “death” of Lexa. Hopefully, some of you agree with me, and please, PLEASE, don’t turn into the hateful group of Bellarkes! Because that is literally what all this will turn into.

Thanks for reading if u got this far! It means a lot to me that you read all of it! THANKS!! also if you disagree you could hate me thats fine too.

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yeah so I went to #tatinof in Berlin and i had the chance to meet Dan and phil. They’re literally the cutest person on earth, they were so adorable.
When I met them I told them I came from France and they were really impressed, also Dan liked my magneto tshirt. They were so caring. Their arms are the safest place on earth.
The show was absolutely incredible, and I can’t thank them enough for their hard work and passion. They put all they’ve got in this. This day was the happiest I’ve ever been so far.
I already miss them so freakin much, and I hope to see them again soon. I feel literally empty now, like what am I supposed to do with my life now?

(Dan took a blurry picture but I don’t really mind tbh)

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WE JUST GOT HOME FROM OUR LITTLE TRIP LITHUANIA - FRANKFURT HAHN - FRANKFURT - COLOGNE - LUXEMBOURG - FRANKFURT HAHN - LITHUANIA
I think it’s time to tell you our very first Taylor Swift’s show expierence.
As you guys already know, the begining of our trip wasn’t easy, we faced so many troubles on our way there, and it took us 10 hours to get to Cologne, but the thought that we will see our baby, after 7 years of being swifties, kept us positive.
The night before the concert, we made our sign, it was quite simple, but it said what we wanted to tell our sister - “WISH YOU WERE HERE (with us)”. Also, we glued two little kitten cutouts on the corner, so they were like Meredith and Olivia, that we wished were there with us as well as their mom, our sister TayTay! :D FUN FACT: AFTER THE CONCERT, BEFORE LEAVING COLOGNE, WE VISITED COLOGNE CATHEDRAL WHERE I LEFT MY POSTER BY ACCIDENT, SO IF YOU FOUND IT PLEASE RETURN IT TO ME I WILL GIVE YOU BACK ALL THE MONEY FOR THE MAILING :D (PAUL SIGNED IT!)
On the 20th of June, we reached the Lanxess arena about 6 hours before the show. We met some super awesome swifties, captivated-by-you-baby came to me and she was like ‘ARE YOU TAYLORS SISTER?’ LET ME TELL YOU THAT AT THAT MOMENT I DIED I MAY LOOKED CALM BUT INSIDE I WAS DEAD. SHE KNEW ME LIKE SHE KNEW MY BLOOOOG! . thank you guys for coming to me, I felt so special, you’re just so amazinggggg I had the best time with you! xx
When they opened the doors we were wandering around the arena hoping to meet Andrea, hug her and talk to her, there were so many things I wanted to tell her! But we had no luck, so we decided to go to see the stage instead. We were watching the videos (which were hilarious TAYLOR TELL ME HOW TO BECOME THIS FUNNY AND ADORABLE I REALLY  NEED TO KNOW, BECAUSE GOALS). then I saw Mark [Taylor’s dancer], I waved to him and said hi (it seemed like I was the only one standing there, nobody else came to talk to Taylor’s dancers and the band, but it was cool because I could just talk to them like eye to eye). Mark is such a sweetheart. We talked about our trip and stuff, and I gave him one of the friendship bracelets I made for the dancer’s and the agency! He was so happy about that! He thanked me so many times saying that he loves bracelets and I thanked him even more because I mean, he was like, can you put it on please? I MEAN HE WANTED TO WEAR MY FRIENDSHIP BRACELET I MADE HIM I WAS LIKE YES OF COURSE. (MY HANDS WERE SHAKING SO BAD). Then I talked to Giuseppe (such a babe), Toshi (HE’S SUCH A CUTE CUPCAKE I CANT), Nolan (HE’S SO NICE I TALKED TO HIM THE LONGEST HE’S SO SO SWEET HE WAS AMAZED BY OUR TRIP AND ASKED FOR OUR SEATS SO HE COULD WAVE TO US! AND HE DIIIID!!!!), and some other dancers and they all wanted to wear my friendship bracelets and were just so nice and friendly I’m still in tears.
Then I saw Paul, he came to us and we talked! He’s is such a cool guy! I gave him friendship bracelet as well and he gave us TAYLOR GUITAR PICKS I WASN’T EXPECTING THAT SO I FREAKED OUT!!!! I told him that you should all visit Lithuania and he was like yes of course (I know you guys won’t ever come here, but thanks for being so nice to me :D). Oh, and I made a gift for Taylor as well and gave it to the guy who talked about that with the stage manager who promised that he will make sure that Taylor is going to get my gift!

It was about the show time so we decided to go to our seats (which are almost in the sky, that high :D) so we put on our lights and glowsticks, turned them on and ready to jam to James Bay [who is our bae] we ran to our seats. He started playing and we were the only ones dancing and having fun in the whole section!… it was weird but we love James Bay so we didn’t care…until… I got punched in my shoulder. No it wasn’t tapping it was a punch like a hard one. I turned back and there was an angry man yelling at me IN GERMAN! I didn’t understand a thing what he was saying, but it wasn’t compliments and just anything beautiful, he was so agressive, no one in my entire life has ever been this mean to me! I tried to stay calm and told him that I don’t understand what he’s saying, then he was like SIT DOWN OR I WILL MAKE SURE SECURITY IS GOING TO KICK YOU OUT OF HERE’. I got so scared. I dreamed about this day for 7 years and just couldn’t live my dream because the grown ass man who wasn’t even close to my seats is disturbed by people who are dancing and having fun? Anyways, with tears in my eyes I sat down trying to don’t let him bring me down,because I waited for this day for so long. I tried to show my support to James as much as I could, but it was really hard to do. but we did what we possible could and we really enjoyed his performance, as I said, he’s a bae. How can you not.
Then Taylor came on. I swear these seconds when I first saw her changed my life. I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. During the very first song ‘Welcome to New York’ my sister started crying. it was more like weeping and just she was drowning in her own tears. LET ME TELL YOU THAT MY SISTER NEVER CRIES OVER THOSE THINGS, SHE JUST I MEAN SHE NEVER CRIES, I HAVE SEEN HER CRYING LIKE 6 TIMES IN 19YEARS SO BELIEVE ME I WAS AMAZED, MY SISTER CRYING OVER TAYLOR SWIFT, WUT?!
the whole show was amazing. I mean, it’s literally the happiest place on earth!!!! What I liked the most is that Taylor was even nicer than I have imagined. SHE MADE US FEEL LIKE WE ARE HER FRIENDS AND I MEAN WHO DOES THAT? SHE MADE 15K OF PEOPLE FEEL FREAKING SPECIAL, LIKE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US WERE HER FRIENDS AND IT WASN’T ONLY WORDS , SHE REALLY MADE US FEEL LIKE THAT! SHE THANKED THE FANS WHO CAME GREAT DISTANCES TO GERMANY TO SEE HER AND I STARTED TO SCREAM. I’M NOT SURE WHERE THAT VOICE CAME FROM BUT IT WASN’T HUMAN. TAYLOR KNEW ABOUT US! TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT KNEW ABOUT US!!!!!!!!! WHAAAAA?! TAYLOR THANKED FOR LITERALLY EVERYTHING AND I WAS LIKE WHAT EVEN, WE SHOULD THANK YOU FOR WANTING TO SPEND TIME WITH US, LIKE IF I COULD I WOULD GO TO EVERY SINGLE SHOW OF YOURS WITHOUT ANY DOUBTS!!!!
WE STILL COULDN’T MOVE AS MUCH AS WE WANTED BUT WE HAD THE TIME OF OUR LIVES, WE DANCED, WE SANG, WE SCREAMED, WE CRIED, OH MY GOD THAT WAS INTENSE.
The night before the show I prayed for the ‘Wonderland’ to be on the setlist. I mean, I love ‘You’re in love’ , but ‘Wonderland’ at this point in my life applies more to my current situation than this one so I wanted to live and scream this song like crazy. AND I DID BECAUSE TAYLOR PERFORMED WONDERLAND, THAT WAS THE MOMENT I STOPPED GIVING EVERY SINGLE FUCK LEFT ABOUT WHAT THAT ANGRY MAN IS GOING TO DO AND JUST HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE. AND THAT WAS THE MOMENT WHEN MAMA SWIFT WITH BUNCH OF LUCKY FANS PASSED THROUGH OUR SECTION. WE STARTED TO SCREAM AND WAVE TO MAMA SWIFT AND SHE SMILED AND WAVED BACK AND DISAPPEARED. we thought that we lost every single chance that was left, but ‘Wonderland’ was playing so we still managed to have the best time during the song that we adore. I closed my eyes and sang as loud as possible when I felt someone tapping on my shoulder, I turned back in fear because I thought that I was doing something wrong again and I’m getting into trouble. BUT this time it was different. I turned back and saw young lady who told us ‘GIRLS, TAYLOR’S MOM WANTS YOU TO GO TO THE B STAGE PIT WITH HER, IS THAT OKAY?’ WHAT? IS THAT OKAY? I MEAN IS IT EVEN A QUESTION? I MEAN ANDREA AND THIS LADY ARE LITERALLY THE ANGELS SENT FROM GOD WHO CAME TO SAVE US FROM AN ANGRY GUY WHO DIDN’T LET US ENJOY THE SHOW AND JUST WANTED TO KICK US OUT?! I LITERALLY STARTED SCREAMING BUT IT SEEMED LIKE SHE WAS USED TO AND FULLY PREPARED FOR THIS REACTION AND SHE WAS COMPLETELY FINE WITH IT.
I SAW MAMA SWIFT LIKE SO SO CLOSE BUT I WAS LITERALLY IN AWE SO EVEN IF THERE WAS LIKE 100 PAGE ESSAY OF THINGS I WANTED TO TELL HER, I ONLY MANAGED TO SAY ‘THANK YOU SO MUCH’ BEFORE GETTING ALL EMOTIONAL AND STARTING SHAKING LIKE I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME. SHE WAS LIKE ‘YOU’RE VERY WELCOME’ AND I FELT ALL THESE ‘THE BEST DAY’ VIBEZ AND OH MY DEAR GOD BLESS THIS WOMAN, I WAS STILL STANDING IN AWE, BECAUSE I COULDNT BELIEVE THAT THIS WAS ACTUALLY HAPPENING TO ME. WHAT WHAT WHAT?!
AND THEN ALL SPARKLY AND GLOWY WE CAME TO THE B STAGE, TAYLOR WAS ABOUT TO START SINGING CLEAN WHEN SHE SAW US LEANED TO US,WITH THE BIG SMILE ON HER FACE SHE WAVED TO US AND SAID “heeeeyy” LET ME TELL YOU, AT THIS MOMENT, EVERY SINGLE BAD THING, EVERY TROUBLE, THAT’S EVERY HAPPENED TO ME, JUST DISAPPEARED. EVERYTHING THAT MADE ME SAD ONCE, WAS GONE. I NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. AND NOW, 4 DAYS AFTER THE SHOW I STILL CAN’T BELIEVE THAT THIS HAD ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO ME. WHO AM I, THAT TAYLOR SWIFT LOOKED AT ME AND SAID HI, I’M JUST A POTATO, BUT I’M  SUCH A HAPPY POTATO. OH MY GOD I’M GETTING ALL THESE FEELS BACK AND I WANT TO CRYY ASKJDBASL

TAYLOR, I DON’T KNOW IF YOU’RE GOING TO READ THIS, IT’S HELLA LONG, BUT I WANTED TO THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, FOR SO MANY THINGS, BUT ESPECIALLY FOR MAKING US FEEL SPECIAL, FOR GIVING THE BEST ADVICES, FOR TREATING US LIKE YOUR FRIENDS, FOR MAKING US FEEL LIKE HOME, EVEN WHEN WE ARE FAR AWAY FROM OUR HOMES.
I WOULD BE SO THANKFUL IF YOU COULD TELL MAMA SWIFT THAT I WASN’T ABLE TO FUNCTION PROPERLY, THAT’S WHY I STRUGGLED WITH WORDS AND EXPRESSIONS. I’M SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS DAY AND I SWEAR, I WILL NEVER FORGET IT AND I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU AS LONG AS I LIVE.


PS I REALLY HOPE YOU GOT MY GIFT TAYTAY, BECAUSE I WORKED SO HARD ON IT! I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE IT! xx

With love,

Your friend
Paulina xx



I was once on a trail filled with blossoming flowers. And I said to myself, “I am in heaven on earth.” And it was one of the happiest moments of my life. And you know what? I was alone, literally and figuratively. It just goes to show, happiness really isn’t about one particular person or thing. It is a moment of exhilaration. A moment of bliss that comes from within you, not outside of you.
—  Myself

Until we really know what it means to love the unlovable, we can never truly know how much Christ loves us. Loving the hate filled KKK member, loving your mild mannered neighbor, the homeless man who yells at random people. Loving the widow and the orphan, loving the family of 4 who are the happiest people on earth, the wounded veteran who is dealing with PTSD, the preacher who spews hate from the pulpit, and the one who offers love. Loving all races on the earth, loving the ultra conservative who believes in America more than God, the liberal who cries out for pro-choice. And finally, loving yourself, the worst parts and the best parts. Loving everyone is literally what it means to love the unlovable.

Don’t you see? Christ loves them all, to the point of death. We are included somewhere in this group, and when we show hate toward one of them, we show hate toward God’s grace. That is the ultimate point of God’s love, that it does see our abhorrent sinfulness, and still He loves us all the same.

—  T.B. LaBerge // Jesus, His Grace and the Gospel

Vicky and Misha seem like the happiest couple on earth and I’m not just saying, I’m speaking quite literally here

I’ve honestly never seen anything like it, they’re both just so fucking intelligent and generous and open-minded and humble and overall amazing

They’re the kind of people that enjoy the most simple things this world has to offer, you can tell by just one look at them

They’re high-school sweethearts and 2 decades later, they’re just as much in love as they’ve ever been, it just fucking shows

I’m not a relationship person but I want the same thing so bad because it’s so fucking real