Don’t Say Anything (part 10)
Summary: You finally decide to tell Bucky that you’ve been in love with him since the day you met but what happens when you walk in on him with a girl? And not just any girl; Natasha.
Pairing: Bucky x Reader
Warnings: I CAAAANNNNTTTTTTTTT
A/N: I’m going to Pride for the first time this Saturday and I’m sooooo excited :)
It goes completely silent. Like dead silent and you hate it. Wanda’s looking between you and Natasha while your voice gets caught up in your throat.
“Nat.. I-I’m-” you stop speaking, running your fingers through your hair.
The fiery red head stood in front of you, mouth slightly open in shock. For a spy, she did not see this coming. Everything happened so fast. You didn’t mean to blurt it out. You cracked under pressure. This is exactly what you were trying to prevent from happening.
Suddenly the door bursts open and in walks Bucky and Steve, worried looks etched on their faces and guns pointed.
“What’s going on? We heard yelling.” Steve spoke first, eyes searching the room. From where they were, all they could hear was muffled yelling and they thought you and the girls were in some sort of danger. Once Steve looks at you, he lowers his gun. “What happened?”
Your eyes travel over to Nat who kept her gaze on the ground. Your heart broke. “Nat, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Steve glances between the two of you before glaring at Bucky. “You’re not waiting any longer - talk to her.”
“Talk to her!”
Bucky let out a shaky breath before stepping towards Nat. “Natasha can I.. Can I talk to you? Alone?”
She cleared her throat. “Yeah, we have a lot to talk about.”
You watch the two exit your room and your eyes fill with tears yet again. As your lip quivered, Steve pulled you into a hug where you let out a sob. “She hates me, Steve. I hurt her.”
“She doesn’t hate you, Y/N.” he sighed, rubbing your back in a comforting manner.
“You didn’t see the way she looked at me. She was so hurt. I betrayed her.” you cried. “What kind of friend am I?”
He shushed you, petting your hair softly as you cried your eyes out. It wasn’t supposed to happen like this. She wasn’t supposed to find out. All you wanted was for them to be happy regardless if it hurt your feelings and made you want to drown in your own tears.
Wanda slowly got off the bed and placed her hand on your back. “Are you okay?”
You step away from Steve and wipe away your tears. “I fucked up.”
“I tried to stop it, Y/N.”
“I know. I should’ve walked out or something. Anything really.” you sniffled. “Now she hates me.”
“Steve’s right, she doesn’t hate you.” Wanda frowned. “Shocked, yeah. But she would never hate you.”
“Why wouldn’t she hate me? She just found out that her best friend is in love with her boyfriend. Of course she hates me!” you exclaim.
Steve’s eyebrows raise. “You’re in love with Bucky?”
Both you and Wanda ignore him. “Don’t think like that. She doesn’t hate you.”
“You don’t know that.”
“Wait.” Steve waved his hand. “You’re in love with Bucky?”
“Don’t make me repeat it.” you sigh.
“For how long?”
“Does it matter? Nothing good-”
“Five years.” Wanda cut in and you glare at her.
“Five years?!” he shouts. “Oh my god. Oh my god.”
“What?” the both of you say, watching as Steve slapped his palm against his forehead.
“Bucky, he-” but he stops himself.
“He what?” you question.
Steve cleared his throat. “That’s not for me to tell.”
“What the hell? Tell me.” you take a step towards the blonde.
He takes a step backwards. “No.”
“Steve, I’ve had enough today. Just tell me.”
“You’ll have to ask Bucky.”
You scoff. As if you’ll ever go near Bucky now. You should’ve just stayed away from him right when you found out about the two of them. Now everything’s out of control. You’re pretty sure Natasha hates you and Bucky - Why would Bucky want to be with you now? Nothing will change with him.
Platinum blonde hair pokes into your room and the man attached to it smiles. “Guess who’s back and brought a cake… What’s going on? Why are your eyes all red?”
He fully steps into your room with a bag hanging from his wrist and you exhale loudly.
“Not now, Pietro.” Wanda says, shooing him away with her hand.
Pietro snarls. “Not now my ass, she’s crying.”
“Just go!” she points to the door.
“Like I’d ever listen to you, младшая сестра.” he scoffed, setting the bag down on your bed. “What happened.”
“She’s in love with Bucky.” Steve says as Pietro walked towards you.
“You finally told him? Did he reject you? Is that why you’re crying?” he held you by your upper arm, eyes filled with concern. You glance at Wanda then at Steve before letting out a sigh.
And you told him everything.
Bucky led Natasha to his room where he shut the door and locked it so they could have their private conversation. Bucky was nervous. His hands were shaking, his heart was pounding and he wanted to throw up.
If he even said the slightest thing to piss her off, she’d murder him. Literally. Bucky walks around her and sits on his bed, patting the spot next to him. Natasha doesn’t say a word as she sits beside him, a decent gap space between the two of them. She was thinking hard, thinking about the mini argument with Bucky 3 days ago, thinking about everything that’s happened, literally in the past hour and 30 minutes.
The brunette clasps his hands together, leaving them to rest on his lap and clears his throat. “So..”
“Do you like Y/N?” Nat asked, not bothering to waste any time. “Be honest with me.”
“I - Yeah. Yeah, I do.” he breathed.
Natasha exhaled an ‘okay’ and looked over at Bucky. “Don’t hurt my best friend, Barnes. Do you hear me?”
Bucky nods. “Yeah.”
“If she ever comes crying to me because of you, you’re dead.”
“Alright.” she nods. “We’re done here.”
Natasha moves to stand up but Bucky grabs her hand. “Wait, that’s it? We didn’t even get to actually talk!”
“Because there’s nothing to talk about!” she replied.
Bucky scoffed. “There’s a lot to talk about.”
The red head sighed and sat to face Bucky. “Alright, fine. Let’s talk.”
“Thank you.” he breathed. “Before I start I just want you to know that I do care about you and you’re a great person.” Nat nods. “Okay so, before.. us happened I had a thing for Y/N but I didn’t think she.. you know, liked me back.” this made Nat scoff as she thought back to what you had blurted out earlier. “And then you came along and we got to talking which then led to.. you know and every time I was with you, I forgot about my feelings for Y/N. You were like a distraction. What we had was a.. a fling. You know that. I enjoyed your company. You filled the hole inside me briefly, the one that yearned for Y/N’s love and affection. I know this all sounds bad, trust me - and I know that messing with your feelings was a douchebag move but at the time, I thought I wanted to be with you. I told myself over and over again that I wanted to be with you and not Y/N but fuck, seeing Pietro all over her these past couple of days annoyed the hell out of me and I couldn’t lie to myself anymore - I couldn’t hurt you as well. I couldn’t string you along, making you think that I loved you when really, my heart belongs to Y/N.”
Nat nods her head. “So you were using me this whole time?”
“I wouldn’t necessarily word it like that but yeah.” he sighed. “It was a dick move, I know. It’s fine if you want to hit me or cut my balls off. I deserve it. I’m sorry.”
The red head exhales. “If I were some other woman, I’d be absolutely furious right now. I’d want to punch you, knee you in the balls so hard that you wouldn’t be able to produce children later on in the future.” Bucky chuckled softly. “But, I’m not some other woman. I’m me. And although everything you just said was fucked up, I shouldn’t be one to judge because I’ve been using you too.”
Bucky raises his eyebrows at Natasha’s words. “What?”
“I was in a bad place when we started talking. Bruce had ran off without even saying goodbye to me. I had to hear from Tony that he left. Fucking Tony. I was sad, I mean I really did love him. I get that he had to leave for the protection of everyone around him but a simple goodbye would’ve sufficed, you know?” Bucky nods. “Anyways we got to talking and all that other stuff and for a minute, you’d make me forget about all the heartbreak Bruce caused me. Just like I filled the hole in you that craved Y/N, you filled the hole in me. A distraction was what you were. You distracted me from my real feelings. I know what we had was a fling, I never saw it as anything more than a casual talk and fuck - sometimes make out sessions. But other than that, I didn’t have feelings for you. I liked the fact that you distracted me from Bruce and I guess I made myself think that I actually liked you in the process.” she ran her fingers through her hair. “And I’m sorry too.”
“Wow.” Bucky laughed, staring straight ahead at his wall. “So us dating, that was-”
“Completely idiotic and for no reason.” she finished for him.
He face palmed. “Oh my god, we’re idiots.”
“Yeah,” she laughed. “We are.”
“We didn’t even actually like each other, why did we start dating?” Bucky questioned, although he already knew the answer.
I have no idea.” Nat laughed. “Oh, and sorry about getting all mad after accusing you of liking Y/N. I guess I got frustrated that reality was setting in and the fantasy was no longer there.”
“It’s cool. Sorry for.. literally everything.” Bucky shrugged.
“It’s fine.” she chuckled. “No hard feelings?”
“No hard feelings.” he nodded before running his fingers through his hair. “Oh god, now I have to talk to Y/N. What if she doesn’t feel the same way?”
“I have a feeling she will.” the spy says as she stood up, extending her hand out for Bucky to take. “Come on, let’s go get your girl.”
The super soldier takes her hand and stands up, following her out to the hallway. “You know Y/N’s a jealous person, right? Not too jealous though but a reasonable amount of jealous.” she says.
“Yeah, it’s cute, right?” he smiled. “Ooo she’s gonna get so mad and jealous when she realizes that we’ve had sex. Plus those make out sessions and the amount of times she’s caught us. Wow. You’re in some deep shit.”
“She’s gonna get mad at you, not me.” Nat scoffed.
“You were messing around with her man.” Bucky countered.
She rolled her eyes. “Sisters before misters, Barnes. Never forget.”
“Yeah well… Bucky before Nat.” he replied, causing the red head to laugh.
A/N: OH MY GOD I’M FINALLY DONE WITH THIS FLIPPING CHAPTER AND I REALLY HAVE TO PEE SO HERE YOU GO I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS PART, IMA GO PEE NOW. TELL ME WHAT YA THINK
TAGS ARE CLOSED BC I CN’T KEEP UP SORRY AMIGOS
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