You were getting ready to go watch Jay perform at a club here in Hongdae. It had been awhile since he’d performed locally and you were as giddy as a young child. You hadn’t seen him perform in so long that you’d almost forgotten how he sounded live, so you were in no way going to pass up this rare opportunity. Jay always figured you didn’t want to see him live while he was in town because you had never brought it up in conversation with him, but the truth is, you wanted to surprise him. It was a secret that you were going so you didn’t tell anyone that could possibly be able to tell Jay. You liked surprising him and he absolutely loved when you surprised him. It seemed to make him happy, so why not?
You put on something simple: just a plain black tee and a pair of faded blue jeans with a messy bun to go along and a pair of old gray boots. He thought you looked your most beautiful when you didn’t dress up anyway, and truth be told, you didn’t want a bunch of drunk, horny guys hitting on you and trying to get laid while you were there to see your boyfriend.
You hurriedly got ready putting on a light pink eye shadow, one layer of black mascara, and a soft lip balm. Considering you had a little time to kill before you had to leave, you contemplated posting a photo on twitter or Instagram but decided against it not wanting to risk getting caught trying to surprise him.
You slipped out the door of your’s and Jay’s apartment while trying to put your boots on, making sure the door clicked so you knew it was securely locked.
You were already shaking with nerves as you pulled up to the club, smiling broadly and shaking your head in your hands trying to hopefully calm the violently fluttering butterflies within your stomach. You gave your cash to the cab driver and stepped out of the car.
Walking into the club, you handed your ticket to the bouncer outside and stepped inside the already crowded room. Of course the first thing you did was make your way over to the bar to order a drink because you knew that your nerves would control you for the rest of the night if you didn’t. Jay had already started performing with some others from AOMG, which was intentional. You didn’t want him to see you before the show. You wanted to enjoy the show and not have him worry about you while he was working.
Arguing with Jay was an
unpleasant experience. Thankfully, it was something that you rarely experienced.
Jay was always the chill, loving
boyfriend. He very rarely got angry (at you, anyway), but when he did nothing
could stop him. He became someone you barely recognized during arguments.
You knew that Jay would never
hurt you. But fights always drained you. You tended to avoid them whenever possible.
However, it seemed as if this fight was unavoidable. Tensions had been running
high between you and Jay for the past few weeks. It seemed as if one bump in
the road after another was continually plaguing the two of you. And what was
supposed to be a fun, opportunistic evening for the two of you ended in a
It had all begun a few weeks
prior to the event. Jay had been working on a new music video with a model who
was very obvious in her intentions. She completely disregarded your presence
and continually threw herself at Jay. He was sure that you were just jealous
and had been quick to put you at ease. However, as he continued working with
her, your unease only grew. The weeks had been full of tense conversations
about boundaries and outside respect for your relationship. But the tipping
point didn’t come until you actually arrived at the event.
Jay opened the door to his house, moving his
shoulder backwards for a stretch and throwing the keys inside the bowl you had
put at the table next to his front door. He called out for your name, hoping
that you were still sleeping and he didn’t have to handle with last night’s fight
right after getting out of a three hours long meeting. He leaned down taking
off his shoes when he heard shuffling from inside his room and you came
bursting out the door, with wet hair and his boxer and his t shirt on.
You had a smile on your face, but when your eyes
met his. He could see the guilt seeping in as you chewed on your bottom lips
looking down at your feet. Jay continued to take off his shoes ignoring the fact
that he was dying to apologise to you but he was a bit scared, scared that the
fight would resurface and everything would go horrible. He could handle you
complaining how he never wants to eat what you want to eat, or how girls flirt
with him endlessly and he lets them. He could handle all that but this; he
“Where did you go?” you asked him softly, your
eyes shifting but your voice soft and inked with apology.
“Office. Had a meeting this morning.” He responded,
taking his time with his shoes.
“Did you slept there?”
“Yeah-“ he sighed out and stood up straight,
stretching his back while he was at it. He wasn’t young anymore, despite his
constant attempt of denial. He really hated not being able to sleep on a comfy
bed, sure he was used to not always being able to sleep on a bed with his
constant travelling but he most certainly did not expect not able to sleep on
his bed when he just got back from tour. Touring had taken a toll on his
physique. He barely had time to recuperate. “Listen baby…” Jay started and he
noticed how your mouth opened, but he stopped you holding his hand up. He was
definitely at fault despite his initial irritation of you blowing the argument
out of proportion. “I’m sorry about what I said. I was a dickhead. I was
surprised, you sort of caught me off guard- I mean we’ll talk alright? I’m sure
Pairing: Madison Joseph x reader (friends), Josh Dun x reader (friends, lovers?), Tyler Joseph x reader (friends), Jenna Joseph x reader (friends), other Joseph and Dun family members
Plot: You take a leap year abroad, where you meet Madison Joseph. You become best friends and move in with her family. You meet her brother Tyler and his best friend Josh, who you have a crush on. Will Josh and you become more than friends?
This chapter: You try to mend fences, but will all be okay?
as expected. Maddie and Ashley caught up, having known each other for years
through their brothers, still occasionally laughing and joking about ‘your
zoo-boy’, as they called Brandon. Jenna and Kelly were happily chatting with
each other, while Tyler and his dad conversed, mostly about Tyler’s music. Josh
sat furthest away from you, on purpose you suspected. He joined the
conversation between Tyler and Chris from time to time, but mostly sat in
silence. You were quieter than usual, getting annoyed by Maddie and Ashley’s
jokes and feeling you screwed things up with Josh, even though it was in no way
your intention or your fault. “Thanks for the lovely dinner. We should be going
now, I’ll call you soon.” Tyler said to his mom after dinner and coffee. Jenna,
Ashley and Josh got up as well, going around the table to say goodbye to
everyone. You frantically tried to think of something to say to Josh before he
left, thinking you had approximately 5 seconds to say something when he’d come
over to hug you. He hugged Maddie, who sat next to you and turned to you. “Can
I just…” you softly started, trying to look in his eyes. “Bye, y/n.” Josh
simply said, ignoring your words completely, leaving without even looking at
@buttercup–bee your metas are amazing and such a joy to read, gives us Jonsa shippers (the nice friendly ones) a glimmer of hope. The insights you offered along with @thewolfbit part as well was just icing on the cake.
Hey it may happen, or it may not, but it doesn’t matter if they’re already my headcanon otp and reading all the great metas was such joy, you have no idea , to an ol’ Jonsa shipper like me :) all we can do now is pray and hope our wish comes true in the upcoming seasons.
I wish these anons likewise of what they said to you coz they deserve it for such evil and hate. Reflects more on them than you so just ignore these idiots. If they know what’s good for them, they’ll stop soon coz karma has receipts yo lol I believe in that shit.
Anyway listen to Jay Z and shrug it off - it’s dirt off your shoulder. No sweat.
Jay doing this face when you yell at him because he didn’t do the dishes as you asked him:
You - Are you serious ?
Jay - What ?
You - I told to do the dishes !
Jay - And what ?
You - Listen, you are not a baby anymore , you must take your responsabilities !
Jay - I tought , i was your baby ❤! (Doing cute face)
You - No you are not funny !
Jay - No you are not funny ! [Imitating you] Babe ❤, look i’m going do your “dishes” [Kiss you on a neck]
“Babe do you not want me to come?” Jai asked you over the phone. “Of course I want you there Jai. I just wonder if there is a way to figure how to not have any paparazzi scoping out my high school graduation and harassing my classmates.” You sighed into the phone mentally exhausted. You knew dating Jai would come with some consequences especially with your eleven-year age gap but you had no idea it would be as bad as it has been. You were constantly harassed online so much so you had to set your personal Facebook and Instagram pages as private. You were tempted to take them down all together but your family and friends talked you out of it. They did not want the internet bullies to think that they have won. “Will you be ready for the getaway trip I have planned as part of your graduation gift?” Jai asked hoping to lift your spirits. “Yes I am. You still didn’t tell me what to pack.” “I told you to pack warm and think tropics. I definitely want to see you in a two-piece bikini.” You smiled at the thought. You could not wait for whatever vacation Jai had in store for you both. Lord knows you both needed a getaway. You frowned as a Google alert popped up on your lap top. Your cousin had showed you how to have alerts whenever your name came up on the World Wide Web. “Babe are you alright?” You sighed into the phone as you read the latest headline on you and Jai’s relationship. “My God they are comparing us to Tyga and Kylie Jenner.” You wanted to cry. You were not a minor when you met Jai. You had turned eighteen months before you laid eyes on him. “Who is Tyga and Kylie?” “They are not important.” “Then why are you getting so worked up. You need to stop those Google alerts before they drive you insane.” You sighed, shut your laptop and laid across your bed. “Babe listen to me. It will be alright. Do not stress yourself. You are graduating and on your way to college. You have your whole life in front of you and you have me so don’t let outsiders ruin our relationship.” Jai was right. He was always right. That was one of the many qualities you loved about him. He was protective of you and always took the time to make you feel better. “I will be flying in Friday morning. Our flight leaves that evening. You sure your parents are ok with you going on vacation with me?” “Yes Jai. I’m an adult and I will be out the house as soon as we get back from vacation.” You heard a smile in Jai’s voice. “So we will have our own space when I come to visit you instead of me sleeping in hotel rooms?” You chuckled. “Yes I will have my very own place.” Heat rose to your cheeks as you thought of the different ways you both were going to christen your new apartment. “I got to go babe. I will see you Friday.” You hated that he had to get off the phone as you enjoyed talking to him. “See you Friday.”
I changed the roommate to housemate, hope you don’t mind. :)
‘I don’t know
why you can’t just stay with me.’ He replied waving off your excited tones and
your tongue at him, annoyed that he wasn’t being the supportive boyfriend you
wanted him to be. You continued to eat your food and told him about your room.
He didn’t look excited but he would smile every time you pouted adorably at him
for not listening to your stories.
slapped his arm trying to get his attention. He turned to look at you furrowing
his eyebrows and rubbing his arm trying to ease the pain that you had caused. ‘Were
you even listening?’ you asked him pursing your lips and crossing your arms on
your chest, looking ahead. He chuckled at you sulking indignantly at his
ignorance. He ran his hand through your hair affectionately, trying to coax you
into looking at him. ‘Here turn here.’ You told him, pointing to your left and
‘There it is.’
You leaned forward a little bit, pointing a finger towards a tall building and showing
off your apartment to your boyfriend.
‘My house is
still bigger.’ He smirked and you turned your head to look at him with an
accusing look. He laughed at your expression as you turned your back on him.
The two of you got into the apartment using your access card and he carried the
last box you brought from your home. He kept on eyeing you up and down when you
were in the lift making you uncomfortable. ‘What?’ you demanded from your
boyfriend and he shrugged looking you in the eyes and turning back to look at
the tiny screen showing the levels. You slapped his arm again, slightly mad at
He was being an absolute child since you told
him you were moving from your apartment now since it was so far away from your
university. Your new apartment was a lot further to his but a lot nearer to
your university which was convenient for you.
‘Convenient?’ He repeated at your
choice of word.
‘Is being far away from me convenient?’
He scoffed and rolled his eyes at you. You laughed and nodded your head, giving
him a small peck on the lips. ‘Yes, away from any distraction.’
It was the first time Jay and you left Seoul to go on a trip together. And it was all the more meaningful, because you were visiting your hometown. Well, truth be told it wasn’t entirely a romantic trip. He had to go to Jeju Island to film one of his music videos and he managed to take a few days off so he can spend time with you. And you were visiting your grandparents and relatives.
You had already made a whole list of places in your head where you wanted to take him to. You probably wouldn’t have the time to visit all those attractions, but you could worry about that later. Not being able to hide your excitement your were blabbering nonstop during the flight and Jay was silently listening to your anecdotes from your childhood and adolescence as he smiled to himself, staring at you lovingly. He couldn’t take his eyes off you. He hadn’t seen you this happy for a while. You had been stressed out from work and Jay didn’t make your life easier with all the broken promises and futile attempts of amend. You were in a bad mood most of the time and Jay loathed himself for not being able to take a load off your shoulders. Instead he was even putting more of a weight on them. However, you didn’t complain. You tried your best to bury all those negative emotions, but Jay saw how you were struggling with everything and it tortured him to see you like this. That was the reason why he suggested to go on vacation together. So you could let go of everything that was holding you down. To leave the bustling and busy city behind for a week of calm and peace to clear your mind.
Here it is guys, my celebration scenario! I hope you like it and feel free to request me things(:
Park Jaebeom aka Jay Park. The guy of your dreams. He was the reason you started working for AOMG. You had been friends for a while now and when you suddenly lost your job last month, Jay suggested you should try to get a place at AOMG since they were still looking for people. You applied for the job and could start right away. Since you started working at AOMG you got to see Jay more often which was nice. In the beginning it was great fun but after a while it seemed like he was getting annoyed with you, constantly ignoring you when you brought him coffee or being rude when other artists where with him. At first you tried to think nothing of it, he must be very busy, but after a while he got under your skin. You hated when he acted like this. When you saw him outside of work it seemed like nothing was wrong and he was almost just the same Jay he had always been. He wasn’t as loving to you as he used to be though. You were just friends but to you he was deffenitely more.. He was one of the most attractive guys you had ever seen, he was sweet, great fun to be around and his smile was just gorgeous. Sometimes you felt a flash of hope that maybe, just maybe he felt more for you too.. Stop it (y/n), now you’re just being stupid! Ofcourse he just sees you as a friend, he would have done something by now if that wasn’t the case right? Suddenly your phone started vibrating. It was a text from Jay.
Meet me at my studio, I need you to listen to something for me. Jay
Was he still there this late? Your curiosity started to grow as you made your way over to AOMG. When you got to the studio Jay was patiently waiting for you. “(Y/n)-ah you made it! Here come sit down.” He patted on the couch beside him. “Now listen, don’t you think it’s good!?” Jay exitedly pressed the start button and a trendy beat filled the room. You only listened to the song half hearted, you were more busy checking Jay out. He had closed his eyes and his head softly bobbed to the beat of the song, a smile on his face. It was when Jay suddenly flashed his hand before your eyes you realised the song was over. O god, you had been swooning over him right in his face, how embarresing! Your cheeks turned a bright pink and you quickly looked away. “So what do you think (y/n)? Were you even listening?” He smirked at you, a twinkle in his eyes that indicated he was amused. God this was just getting better and better.. Not! You were about to say something when Jay’s face suddenly hovered inches away from yours. “Why don’t you say what you really think of me? I’ll tell you what I think of you..” His voice low and husky while his hands moved to your face. “You’re so pretty..” his hands went further down, peeling at the buttons of your shirt, “So sexy..” even further down to your legs, “I want you..” his hands went under your skirt, up your thighs. You let out a gasp, what is he doing?! You couldn’t help but feel hypnotised by his hands on your skin, his soft breath on your face. “Question is, do you want me too?” In the meantime his hand had slipped inside your panties. Afraid you were unable to speak you just nodded. Jay flashed you a breathtaking smile before hungrily smashing his lips onto yours. With his free hand he pushed you down on the couch. His other hand was still down your panties, fingers playfully sliding against your folds before entering you slowly with two fingers. You let out a moan, “Holy shit”. “If you think this is great, just wait and see what I got in store for you..” he grinned before sliding his other hand under your blouse, going up to your breast, whilst covering your neck in wet kisses. You decided to help him a little by quickly opening up all the buttons, exposing your lacy red bra. “Damn baby” Jay let out a low whistle before continueiing the attack on your neck. His fingers started moving faster in and out of you. It all became too much. You could already feel your orgasm buidling up, panting heavily, when he suddenly stopped. “Yah what are you doing?” You asked annoyed, you were so close! “I didn’t want you to tired for the real work” Jay just winked at you before quickly pulling your skirt and panties down before removing them completely. You suddenly felt very exposed. A red blush spread over your cheeks as you insecurely bit your bottom lip. Jay saw you were feeling insecure. He softly grabbed your face. “Baby..” he pressed a soft kiss on your lips, “you..” this time he kissed the exposed part of your left breast, “are..” another kiss on your right breast, “absolutely..” a kiss on your stomach, “beautiful.” His last kiss went to your forehead. You smiled up at him before letting out a soft giggle, you didn’t know he had this side to him. Jay quickly got rid of his clothes too. You couldn’t help but stare at his tattooed chest, admiringly letting your fingers slide over the inked skin and hard muscles. You could see his hard on trough his boxers, waiting to be freed. You impatiently pulled his boxers down. “Ready babe?” You nodded as Jay positioned himself between your legs, spreading them a bit further. He went in ever so slowly, teasing you. You impatiently wiggled your hips a little, ready to take him in. When he was fully inside you he immediately started moving at a energetic pace, giving you no time to adjust to his length. “Jaebeom oppa..” you slowly moaned out his name as he picked up the pace, going faster and faster, deeper and deeper. Your legs circled around his waist, pulling him closer to you. His hands were entertwined with yours, keeping them above your head. “You have no idea how hot you look right now..” he said breathless before he slowly started sucking on the sweet spot of your neck, turning you in a panting and moaning mess. This seemed to turn him on even more. “I want to see you ride me jagiyah” Jay suddenly grabbed you tightly before spinning both of you around, causing you to be on top of him. You moaned at the feeling of this new sensation, he seemed to go even deeper inside you. A powerful feeling spread trough your body as you slowly started moving up and down, in total control of the pace. Or so you tought. Jay grabbed your hips, fingers digging in your skin, as he started to move you up and down faster. “O god..” You felt you were getting close to your orgasm again. Your nails dug in the skin of his chest. “You look so fucking hot right now, shit” Jay let out a low moan and you could feel he was getting closer as well. The familiar tingling sensation of your orgasm already started building up in your stomach. “Fuck I’m so close oppa..” You closed your eyes in pleasure as your orgasm washed over you, making your walls contract around him. You loudly moaned out his name. The feeling of your orgasm seemed to send Jay over the edge too. He let out some curse words in a low raspy voice when he came inside you, sending a warm sensation trough your body. You let yourself fall onto his upper body, completely exhausted. You both lay there, breathing heavely and smiling like idiots. “We should defenitely do this more often” you said giggling, hoping he’d agree. You felt his voice vibrating trough his chest when he laughed. “Absolutely.” “Jaebeom oppa?” “Hmm?” “Do you like me?” You hated how insecure you sounded but you needed to know. “Ofcourse I do, otherwise we wouldn’t be doing this right” his fingers lazily started to draw figures on your back. “Then why do you act so different towards me lately? I thought you were annoyed with me..” This caused him to sigh, “It’s not that, it’s just that my feelings for you started changing so everytime you came in my studio with that sweet ass of yours in that tight little skirt I felt the urge to pin you against a wall, rip your clothes off and fuck that pretty body of yours.. So I kinda acted like an ass so you wouldn’t know, I’m sorry.” You let out a relieved breath. “It’s alright, I just wish you would’ve told me oppa” you murmered against his chest before letting out a yawn. “Don’t go to sleep just yet jagi, we’re not finished here..” He winked at you before turning you around once again and covering your complete body in kisses, causing you to laugh, “Oppa that tickles!”
Yeah so below are the 50 best rap songs from 2010 and on. These records usually are singles, sometimes strong album tracks, mixed with impact. If you disagree, then you’re wrong.
Oh also, each artist is only represented once, and once only.
1. Jay Z & Kanye West - Niggas In Paris 2. Kendrick Lamar - Cartoons & Cereal (feat. Gunplay) 3. Rick Ross - BMF (feat. Styles P) 4. Chance The Rapper - Pusha Man (feat. Nate Fox & Lili K) 5. Chief Keef - I Don’t Like (feat. Lil Reese 6. Kanye West - New Slaves (feat. Frank Ocean) 7. Tyler The Creator - Yonkers 8. Odd Future - Oldie 9. Frank Ocean - Pyramids 10. Future - March Madness 11. Chris Brown - Look At Me Now (feat. Lil Wayne & Busta Rhymes) 12. G.O.O.D. Music - Mercy (feat. Kanye West, Pusha T, Big Sean & 2 Chainz) 13. Rich Gang - Lifestyle 14. Mr. Muthafuckin’ eXquire - HuZzah! 15. Meek Mill - Dreams & Nightmares 16. Denzel Curry - Threatz (feat. Yung Simmie & Robb Bank$) 17. Waka Flocka Flame - No Hands (feat. Roscoe Dash & Wale) 18. Juicy J - Who Da Neighbors 19. Danny Brown - Monopoly 20. Kevin Gates - Posed To Be In Love 21. Lil Wayne - John (feat. Rick Ross) 22. Jamie XX - I Know There’s Gonna Be (feat. Young Thug) 23. Mac Miller - Red Dot Music (feat. Action Bronson) 24. Isaiah Rashad - Heavenly Father 25. Migos - Versace 26. Pusha T - Numbers On The Board 27. Rich Homie Quan - Type Of Way 28. ScHoolboy Q - THere He Go 29. T.I. - About The Money (feat. Young Thug) 30. Vince Staples - Senorita 31. YG - Bicken Back Bein Bool 32. Young Thug - Danny Glover 33. Lil B - Wonton Soup 34. Soulja Boy Tell ‘Em - Pretty Boy Swag 35. Curren$y - Life Under The Scope 36. Travis Porter - Make It Rain 37. Ab-Soul - Terrorist Threats (feat. Danny Brown) 38. Earl Sweatshirt - Earl 39. Big K.R.I.T. - American Rapstar 40. Wiz Khalifa - Big Screen 41. A$AP Rocky - Brand New Guy (feat. ScHoolboy Q) 42. E-40 - Function (feat. YG, IamSu!, & Problem) 43. Father - Look At Wrist (feat. iLoveMakonnen & Key!) 44. Drake - The Motto (feat. Lil Wayne) 45. Fetty Wap - Trap Queen 46. Run The Jewels - Banana Clipper (feat. Big Boi) 47. MellowHype - 64 48. Jeezy - Seen It All (feat. Jay Z) 49. Rae Sremmurd - No Flex Zone 50. Bobby Shmurda - Hot Nigga
A few hours later, I was done designing Alex’s room and eventually fell asleep from boredom. When I woke up I noticed it was night time and got up since I decided to go show Jay what I wanted. I knocked on Jay’s bedroom door checking if he was in there. He wasn’t but I never knew where he did business since I always slept over and snuck out early in the morning. My cheeks flushed a bright pink as I remembered the very activities which happened here. I shook my head realizing how much I enjoyed it and craved it again. I couldn’t think that way. I just have to stay on Jay’s good side until I have a chance to escape. I walked around the house until I saw a henchman and ran up to him.
“Excuse me, do you know where Jay is?” He looked at me and stood straighter than before. Jay was really strict with them. “You can relax, ya know? I’m not gonna hurt you.
He nodded and smiled at me which I returned. I felt bad for all of Jay’s men. Though, they made decisions that got them here. “Hello, miss. Boss is at the club. He’s waiting for the heist to go down and having a meeting.” I thought about what to do now.
“Is Frost with him?” Maybe Jay forgot about what I asked and sent Jonny on the heist.
“Yes, Frost is at the club.” I smiled. Jay listened.
“Do you think I can use your phone to call Frost?” The henchmen pulled out his phone dialed Jonny’s number and handed it to me. “Thank you. I’ll be back.” I gave him a quick smile to represent my gratitude and walked away a bit so he wouldn’t hear me.
“Adams? What is it?” Jonny answered the phone.
“It’s me, Jonny. I was wondering when Jay would be home. I finished deciding what I want for the room.” I could hear Jonny move.
“Who is it?” Jay asked but he wasn’t speaking into the phone he was just loud enough to hear him.
“(Y/N).” Frost said. I could hear Jay grab the phone.
“Dollface, I’m in the middle of business.” I sighed.
“I’m sorry. I just wanted to let you know I finished the baby’s room. I’ll have a henchman give it to you since it’s getting-” I paused hearing someone else speak.
“Mister J, do you want another dance?” I froze. He was with another woman. I sighed. It wasn’t like we made anything official.
“You’re busy. I shouldn’t have called. Sorry.” I went to hang up but heard him speak.
“It’s not what you’re thinking.” Jay responded. How could it be anything else?
“Honestly, it’s my fault. I gotta go.” I was calm. He was known to mess with the women from his club. Shouldn’t have expected anything different.
“No, darling. It isn’t that.” I could hear him growl lowly. He was getting angry. I just rolled my eyes. What else could it be?
“Jay, it’s okay. I’ll give it to the henchman. Goodbye.” I hung up the phone as I gave it back to the henchman and thanked him for letting me use it. I started walking back to Jay’s room. I just wanted to take a shower and go to bed. I got the magazines and brought them to the same henchman.
“Miss, he actually called back wanting to speak to you.” I just shook my head.
“I’m not feeling well. Let him know I’m going to bed.” I stopped by the kitchen to get a quick snack since I slept through lunch and dinner. I felt Alex kick which made me smile. He’s active in the night like his father. “Just no being like him.” I spoke looking down at Alex. I drank a glass of water and headed up stairs. I eventually fell asleep after my shower. Feeling Alex kick was strangely relaxing and somehow helped lull me to sleep.
Hearing the door slam woke me up. Jay had come home. Maybe the deal hadn’t gone as he’d hoped. “Jay, what happened?” I spoke as he entered the room, my voice hoarse from being asleep.
“Why didn’t you let me explain? She was just some whore.” I creased my eyebrows. Was he angry at me?
“Jay, I don’t care honestly. I don’t think we’d work out together. You have women throwing themselves at you and you don’t know how to say no. You go there almost every night so how am I supposed to trust nothing will happen? How am I supposed to trust you?” I crossed my arms on my chest as I looked at him.
His face changed from understanding right back to anger and I realized I messed up. “She was dancing for the man I was doing business with. I told him the dance was on the house so when she asked me if I wanted another dance she was wondering if she should keep going with him.” I stared at him.
“Really?” He just nodded. “Oh.” I scratched my arm absentmindedly.
“Do you really think so low of me that I would sleep with any slut from my club?” I looked at him sadly.
“Well, why wouldn’t you? Wouldn’t any man want to sleep with any girl they could have?” He made a weird noise while stretching his neck.
“Did earlier mean nothing to you?” Was I hurting his nonexistent feelings?
“Jay, I care about you and all. It didn’t mean nothing to me, but what did it mean to you? Can you honestly tell me you care for me?” He punched the wall which caused me to jump. “Jay, please. Look at me.” I walked to him and held his face so he would look at me.
“I care.” He mumbled and I just nodded.
“I know. I just need you to stay calm.” He placed his head near my neck.
“Don’t leave me.” He wasn’t sad or scared. It was quite threatening but I understood he couldn’t show how he cared correctly. I just had to show him.
He pulled away and took off his jacket. I sighed when I saw blood on his shirt. “Sit on the bed.” Maybe he was hurt and didn’t even realize it.
I got the first aid kit from the bathroom and went back to Jay. “What were you doing?”
“It’s not my blood.” He looked at me waiting for a reaction but I just shook my head. I wiped the blood away. He was right on it not being his.
“Shit, Jay. You wanna explain?” I unbuttoned the rest of his shirt and turned to get him another one as he took it off.
“The guy try to scam me so I sent a message to his partners.” I shook my head.
“You can’t come home like this. I think we should talk about us.” Rules needed to be set. He couldn’t come home covered in blood. What if he was angry one day? Or the baby saw blood on him and freaked out? No doubt this would end in a fight. I sighed thinking about how not to make him angry.