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To all you Hux lovers out there

Headcanons that you do NOT want to imagine:

- do nOT imagine Hux’s parents marrying simply because of power and money, with no love involved, and having sex literally enough times only to have ONE child, because praised families need to have heirs.

- do nOT imagine Hux being a small baby, born in a family that has no love, and the only thing he receives from his parents that comes from a place of love is his first name.

- do nOT imagine tiny baby Hux being taken care of by droids because his parents simply don’t have time and don’t care that much about him. They check on him sometimes when he’s sick but that’s it.

- do nOT imagine baby Hux crying because babies cry and instead of his mother or father arriving, a droid comes in and takes him into his arms to put him to sleep.

- do nOT imagine Hux being trained since he was little not to cry and respect each and every order he’s given.

- do nOT imagine Hux’s father putting him inside a dark room whenever he cries, and not letting him out until he has stopped.

- do nOT imagine Hux never being taught to apologise after walking out of the room. He’s just taught to accept his place and learn from the experience.

- do nOT imagine Hux never crying since he was three.

- do nOT imagine Hux being used as his father’s experiments to see if his program really works.

- do nOT imagine Hux’s mother always watching and never changing her cold stares to the boy she created.

- do nOT imagine Hux’s parents calling him Hux instead of his first name because he shouldn’t have anything that is his, not even his first name.

- do nOT imagine Hux’s father leaving a seven years old Hux in Snoke’s hands to train and never ever seeing him again after that.

- do nOT imagine teenager Hux forgetting he has a first name at all (because everyone calls him Hux now) and only remembering when he finds a small drawing he had made of him and his parents with their first names under each sticky figure.

- do nOT imagine Hux having dreams of a perfect family while he trains to be the most feared general of all time in the first order.

- do nOT imagine Hux finishing his training and letting go of all the things that reminded him of the family he never had, by burning all the drawings and pictures.

- do nOT imagine Hux finally giving up and admiring that he’s /Hux/ and he will never be anything else by the exact machine the First Order wanted him to be.

- do nOT imagine Hux actually forgetting his first name until one day when that stupid, ridiculous excuse of knight Kylo Ren /calls/ him by his first name.

- do nOT imagine the nightmares coming back to hunt him.

- do nOT imagine Hux’s first name being the thing that breaks him out of that brainwashing the first order did to him.

- and especially do not IMAGINE a happy ending where Hux and Kylo go to the light side and it’s not more Hux and Kylo because everyone calls Hux is first name and he feels free because it’s him and Ben and everything is finally on place.

I don’t have a life