like you don't even want to know

sorry guess i just needed this out of my system

A little vent I guess?

I don’t know how some people seem consider me a friend, even tho I barely talk to them or have disappointed them.

It’s not like I don’t want to be friends. I just feel like a burden. And if I don’t talk to you anymore is probably couse I either feel like I’m annoying you or that I feel like you’re better off without me.

I find it hard to communicate with people. It makes me nervous and anxious.

“what I they don’t like me in the first place?” “I’m probably annoying them” “they probably left me caouse I disappointed them”

These are thoughts I have constantly and that hold me back from socializing.

What IS wrong with me?

Rules: Tag 20 followers you want to get to know better

Name: Ebony
Nickname: a lot of people call me Ebs or they just call me Ebony, but i’ve been called ratchet things like Ebby and Ebonizer (don’t even pls i’m begging you D:) 
Gender: female
Star sign: aquarius 
Height: 5'7 1/2″
Sexuality: gay af
Hogwarts house: probably hufflepuff
Favorite animal: it’s a tie between dolphins and elephants!!!
Average hours of sleep: 7-9 hours on a good night. 4-5 hours on a bad night
Dogs or cats: am i even allowed to choose if i own both?? LOL. i prefer cats tho. they’re more independent and less needy. 
Blankets you sleep with: summer time: 1 if any.. winter time: i think i use 6-8? it reached -20 at night. it’s brutal.
Dream trip: i would really love to see europe, and i’m generalizing it because if i could i would like to see every country, but that’s unlikely because i’m broke af, um.. i would also love to see bora bora, i have family in Malaysia so that would be cool, new zealand! ugh there are honestly so many places i would love to go. i’m currently saving money and gathering the courage to try and go to london because i have a long time online friend who lives there. 
Dream job: ummm. my dream job would be having no job but simultaneously making crap loads of money???!! does that work?! it’s a literal dream. LOL. 
When I made my blog: i made THIS blog about a month ago? approximately. 
Followers: 235
Why I made my Tumblr: okay, so originally i was going to make this another demi lovato fan blog, but i just wasn’t feeling anymore, and i started noticing that i was reblogging more taylor swift related things so i made the conscious decision to join the taylor swift fandom and it’s been a blast! i’m just here because i love taylor & her music and it’s cool that this is such an inclusive environment. (:
Reason for my URL: i thought ‘burton to this taylor’ was a really witty lyric and i wanted it in some shape or form!!

I’m tagging: @holygrcunds @dontlikeurgames @andneversayinsorry @youngerthanmyexes @sadbeautifulmagic @andthenthecoldcame @youjust-run @shadesofruin @drama-equals-karma @enchantedbytaylorswift @redaoty @curlytay @cherryslips @i-wear-heels-now @wannaknowyoubetternow @ninetay89 @thiefthen @taylaswifts @villageisaglow @theygaveusourtrophies

ALSO thank you to @alitoowell for tagging me in this. i hope you learned a little more about me. (:

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infodumping about the ocean

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Whose bad end is this again?

aka thoughts that keep me up at 2am if we had his ROUTE

anonymous asked:

It's really inspiring that you're so vocal about shipping plance! It's really helped me to be more vocal about my own ships in this fandom and it means a lot to me (also I loooove your art!!)

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ya characters aesthetic: Alina Starkov (The Grisha Trilogy) 

“I’m the Sun Summoner. It gets dark when I say it does.” 

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

enjoying dark themes in media ≠ supporting dark themes in real life

@ parents 

please don’t tell your kids to shut up when they’re trying to tell you something or if they’re upset. don’t ignore them. don’t invalidate their feelings. talk to them. listen to them. never tell your kid(s) their thoughts and feelings don’t matter.

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Blond Skywalker genes, the secret’s out thanks to the little Matt the Radar Technician incident…

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*tries to be cute but ends up looking like this*

3 things to remember:

Shipping one thing does not make it impossible to like another ship involving the same character. 

Disliking the portrayal of a canon ship and/or character is not the same as hating a ship and/or character.

Sharing your opinion and point of view is not the same as forcing someone else to accept it as their own. Your opinion does is not matter more than theirs. 

I want Shiro’s vlog to just be a shaky sounding black screen and just the whole five minutes being this:

“Where the fuck am I?“

“Seriously what the fuck Black“

“You couldn’t send me to like the Bahamas or something? Or a bar?“

“What the fuck even is this shit? Oh god please tell me this water dripping from above.“

“I don’t…are these fucking trees or people?“

“I don’t even fucking know anymore.“

*3 minutes of cursing, tripping over his feet, and various planet/ship sounds later*

“God I hope Keith didn’t find my stash of cheezits, I could really go for some cheezits right now.“