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kogumasden  asked:

First, lemme say that I love your art <3 I'm not talking shit, I do like it, seriously. Mind if I ask you for any tips for learning how to draw dragons, specially heads? I've been trying to learn those bastards, and I thought that looking at real lizards would be helpful, but a dragon skull and a lizard skull don't quite match if you know what I mean. Thank you in advance!

Yeah definitely! The good thing about dragons is they’re complete fantasy, so you can push the anatomy pretty far and draw your inspiration from practically anywhere. Reptiles, birds, bats, mammals. 

BUT it’s easier to create your own believable anatomy when you’re comfortable and familiar with drawing anatomy for other animals. A strong understanding of anatomy will carry you a long way. Being able to mentally conceptualize your design in 3D helps too.

I really enjoy looking at dinosaurs for dragon facial inspiration. Bats and birds are great for wings and musculature but I don’t have time to get into that.

Dragons are fun because you can design such unusual and striking silhouettes for them.

The best thing about dragons is you can draw them as alien or as terran as you want. Take your inspiration from anywhere, go wild! There’s absolutely no set form to stick to.

Made Amends

Originally posted by manny-mellark

Gil x Reader

Made Amends



Warnings: Just a little Gil fluff while I try out the character.

Word Count: 781

Being the younger sister of the King of Auradon was not all it was cracked up to be. And while you didn’t have even half of the responsibilities your brother had, you still had a lot of pressure to be the perfect example of a model lady. Books were often your escape from all of that. These days, you could almost never be seen without one.

The Royal Cotillion had been almost a disaster, but your brother’s little…extended stay on the Isle of the Lost had opened his eyes like nothing else. And now, there were more children of villains on the campus than ever before.

Gil watched you from across the courtyard, trying to think of what he could say to you. He knew who you were. Of course he knew who you were. After all, his father had spent his entire life trying to be with your mother, but all of his father’s stories could have never prepared him for the gorgeous girl walking beside Jane. You certainly were a princess alright.

“I’m gonna say hi to her.” He declared with an innocent certainty. Harry raised an eyebrow at him.

“Are ye sure that’s in yer best interest matey?”

“Why wouldn’t it be?” he asked, and then got up before the others could say anything.

“Eh, it’s your funeral.”

Gil walked over to your locker, where you were currently exchanging the book you had finished reading for yet another one.

“Hi!” he waved. You slowly looked up at him and offered a shy sort of smile. You knew who this was, but like your brother, you had a certain feeling of optimism when it came to the VKs.

“You’re Gil, right?” you asked, offering your hand. “Gaston’s son?”

“How’d you know?”

“Well, I mean, I’m kind of the princess, so I’m trying to learn as many names as I can.”

“That’s a lot of names.” Gil was wide eyed just thinking about it. “Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and that you’re really pretty. Actually, I don’t think I was supposed to say that other thing out loud.”

“Thanks, Gil.”

“There was something else…” He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to remember the other Very Important thing he had come over here to tell you. “Oh! I need an English tutor. I heard you tutor people.”

“I do. I can definitely tutor you, Gil.” You looked in your calendar for your planner, but realized you must have left it in your dorm. “I’ll meet up with you after classes. I left my planner in my room.”

“Sweet! Where do you want to meet?”

“Here is fine.” You smiled sincerely. “I’ll see you then.”


Many of the students that passed you tutoring Gil in the weeks to come couldn’t help but smile. This was the future Ben had envisioned. The future he had worked so hard to make real. A future where Belle’s daughter and Gaston’s son had not only made amends but were friends, actively working to help one another better themselves.

Gil’s English grades had gotten so much better since you had started helping him out, and in return, Gil had done everything he could to make your day to day life easier. He held doors for you, he carried your books and bags, and sure he wasn’t the brightest guy you had ever met, but he was certainly very sweet. You were pretty sure the big lug didn’t have a mean bone in his body.

Currently, the two of you were situated in the library, a stack of books next to you. You pulled Romeo and Juliet from the pile, and Gil’s expression lit up.

“That’s your mom’s favorite book!”

“It is. How did you-?”

“My dad knows a lot about your mom. My whole life he told me about how she was the most beautiful girl in the village, and I thought I would be prepared to meet you, but I don’t think you could even compare to Belle.”

“Thanks, Gil.” You could feel your cheeks practically burning at this point, and you were sure you looked like a tomato.

“So, I was wondering if maybe after the Tourney game you would want to hang out with me.”

“Sure.” You smiled, and in that moment, Gil realized that everything Gaston had taught him about winning a lady’s heart was false. It wasn’t about showmanship or proving your strength. It was about being genuine and kind. He was really glad that even after everything his father had done to your mother, you had still decided to give him a chance. And he knew with all of his heart that he wouldn’t blow it this time.

anonymous asked:

How do you think Levi's handwriting would look like? C:

DISCLAIMER: This is my personal opinion. In no way am I stating what I say here is canon or completely accurate. if you disagree with my opinion, that’s perfectly fine! Everyone has a different interpretation, but if you are going to send me messages trying to argue points of view with me or send me hate messages; please do us both a favor and just don’t even bother.

Legible but nothing fancy. The man has TONS of paperwork to do so I doubt he spends time trying to write in a pretty manner, but I also doubt that he scrawls chicken scratch in a hurry. I think his handwriting is simple, a little rough, and easy to read. 

anonymous asked:

do you think Tate from AHS relates more to Eric or Dylan?

With out a doubt, Dylan. 

He started off the season acting more like Eric with his impulsive acts, thinking about accomplishing his own personal goals & madness rather than the consequences of his poor choices. He definitely had Eric’s acting before thinking kind of guiding principle. Or what Eric would say “follow your animal instincts.” 

Later on, when Tate falls in love with Violet he becomes more like Dylan. By how he cannot imagine a life without her. He even takes the step to try to convince her to commit suicide with him so Violet’s father can’t send her away to boarding school, meaning they can stay together forever. We already know by reading Dylan’s journal, if he wasn’t going to execute NBK with Eric, he would’ve done it with his soulmate. He already had this image in his head what their after life together would look like if they died together.  “… we will be inseparable. Her & I. Whether it is [redacted]or not, I think I’ll find it (my love). We will be free, to explore the vast wonders of the stars. To cascade down everlong waterfalls, & thru the warmest seas of pure happiness .. . no limits .. . no limits. Nothing will stop us.”

Plus, when Tate explains why he likes birds it a lot sounds like Dylan..

Originally posted by tate-ahs-quotes

Dylan’s constant suppression of emotion, in particular his rage and feelings of depression. How he would rather take the flight response when dealing with a challenging situation than fight it, was metaphorically what Tate was explaining.

anonymous asked:

Okay but imagine you guys are making out then ur phone rings and u have to take the call because its someone important then shawn cheekily teases you while ur talking on the phone and ur try to keep a straight tone but sometimes little moans escape ur mouth that u have to cover ur mouth w ur hand

stop!” you’d hiss and he’d just keep right on going with the naughtiest little grin.

“hold on a sec,” you’d say into the phone, pressing mute and then giving him the sternest look you can muster. “shawn, seriously?”

whaaat?” he’d be looking at you incredulously with those big pretty eyes. like a kid. “I’m not even doing anything!” 

“you’re interrupting my call, shawn. that’s what you’re doing.”

“yeah well they’re interrupting our time together. i was here first.”

you wouldn’t back down, so he’d start to roll off of you with a faux pout. “fine. take your little call then. but just know - these lips are off limits to you for the rest of the night.”

you’d groan then and sigh, catching him by the wrist to keep him close to you as you unmute your line. “mom? yeah… lemme call you right back…”

Hey how’s all my “but both sides are the same” peeps at today?

You feelin good?

You feelin happy?

You feelin that proud self-righteous feeling?

You feelin that your insistence that both sides are the same, that your insistence that there’s no reason to vote for Hillary, that she’d be “even worse” than Trump, that she “screwed” Bernie and deserves what she got… you feelin all that’s still worth it?

You feelin like your obsession with Ben Ghazi’s buttery males is worth 22 million Americans getting stripped of health insurance? That it’s worth the President of the United States of America going out and giving a speech to the Boy Scouts of America that basically is trying to recruit them into being his own Twitler Youth?

Well I just want to say thanks. As someone who relies on the ACA for health insurance, thanks. As someone whose mental and physical well being is reliant on being able to see doctors when needed, thanks. As someone whose family has a history of cancer, thanks. Thank you for all that you’ve done to hurt as many people as possible just so you can be a self-righteous asshole.

I hope that you will forever be proud of the fact that millions of Americans will lose their health coverage because you value your purity ahead of the human lives.

And more than anything, I hope that pride isn’t classified as a “pre-exisiting condition” that will now deny you the ability to get health insurance. 

anonymous asked:

I'm having headache just trying to believe everything that is put up on my face by these media outlets. lol. I haven't been on tumblr a lot because I wanted to focus more on streaming and I have a job now so.(it's lunch break!)I just watched the so called vid that would shut us all up. I mean, if you are trying to kill, double kill, triple kill or even ultra kill LARRY rumors for 7 years. Why would you even say, believe what you believe? Dang sucks for the Elk. Not sorry though.

i’ll never stop chuckling dan made it out to seem like it was gonna be a resolute, hard no but louis still danced around the subject

anonymous asked:

I actually don't like reading sub!BTS fics, because it never seems realistic to me and doesn't seem like my style. (Lol, that's what I thought before reading Transference. Now that story treats me like it's bitch. 😂) But since it's from you, I'll give it a try when it comes out, babe. 😘✨

Thanks! I appreciate you saying you’ll read it even though it’s outside of your comfort zone. I think sub fics are definitely a mixed bag on here as far as how they’re written. Some of the sub fics I’ve read don’t really go past the OC making the member beg a little, but there is so much more out there, which is why I’m giving it a shot. 

It’s also an acquired taste, as I think most readers are subs themselves (or they at least prefer or respond more to dom!BTS fics). Call Me Mistress will definitely not be for everyone and I am expecting that many people will not like the series. I’ll do my best to be clear with the warnings when the stories roll out so readers can decide for themselves whether to give it a chance. 

Future Raider Status

Due to some upcoming events, Skye’s involvement in Nuka-World will eventually be gone, as per her storyline’s progress.

However, it’ll be some time before then, so I don’t mind continuing Nuka-World related threads for now, but any that are made after her next major drabble will be set in the past. So it’ll still be possible to have made contact, alliances, or enemies with her during her time there, even if the story has moved forward.

Again, it’ll be awhile before this happens, as I would like for her to have more conflicts of interest, and to feel more and more worn down by her alliance to Mason specifically.

So if anyone is down to plot, to try and make friends, enemies, and what say you with her before then, just hit me up! I figured to make a little note of it all for you guys.

anonymous asked:

How old do you think Keith is?

DISCLAIMER: This is my personal opinion. In no way am I stating what I say here is canon or completely accurate. if you disagree with my opinion, that’s perfectly fine! Everyone has a different interpretation, but if you are going to send me messages trying to argue points of view with me or send me hate messages; please do us both a favor and just don’t even bother.

I’d say somewhere in his late 40′s. Like 48. 

Lol I just checked mchanzo tag and there are people who hate it, saying things like “urgh people who like it are so WIERD and I don’t like why Tumblr is even recommending me this, it’s awful!”
Well um
Uhhh what did you expect from such grando fandom? It’s like being on a huge party where everyone drinks and suddenly two people hug each other and others cheer. Typical thing for a fandom, try to ignore it, if you don’t like it.
DON’T GET TOO OBSESSED WITH MCHANZO, dear shippers. People ship different things, ‘cause, again, this fandom is freaking HUGE. Yes, some people ship mcsombra, mcgenji and others. Understand each other. Everyone. The peace is in understanding.

i know the dumbest most fucked up argument people repetitively repeat on here about any pedophilic ship is what pedophilia means.. which 80% of the time… it usually is. exactly what the definition defines. 

what makes a pedophile is a person who is sexually attracted to children under the age of content. our ciel, is under the age of consent in that canon life, and even now. just because sebastian isn’t “human” doesn’t fucking justify HOW HE IS A GROWN FUCKING MAN WHICH EVER THE WAY YOU PUT IT. yall have to be so up your fucking ass trying to defend pedophilia that you’ll reach to THAT length of saying “WELL JUST BC HES A DEMON DOESNT MAKE HIM A LARGE GROWN MAN” …. like shut up…. you know it’s wrong… just stop trying to reach and reach for these little dumb straws of “well he’s” blabalashbalh.

it’s pedophilia, doesn’t matter how you spin it, it is what it is. 

anonymous asked:

If you look closely at the paladins image you can tell that rather than angry Keith looks annoyed? If I am allowed to reach lol I bet its something like Keith: Alright team, form voltron!! And then immediately get embarssed when the rest of the team smiles or laughs at his lead, Lance leaves a witty comment that gets to him and they all laugh, I am sure even if Shiro is not with them the team will try their best to cheer Keith up at all times and if thats not beautiful then I dont know what is.

i wouldn’t say he looks annoyed he kinda seems more frustrated? my impression is that he’s trying to do something and it’s not working and the team is trying to cheer on him (wow we’re gonna hear keith say form voltron i’m emotional)

anonymous asked:

Frustrated tears tightening her throat and something bordering on anger bubbling in her veins, Rose pulls her dress off the moment the TARDIS doors close, leaving herself in only a lacy bra and thong, and tosses it over the rail. "What are you doing?" Behind her, the Doctor sounds choked. "Like you bloody well care." An entire evening spent pressed against him, trying to prompt him to do more than waltz, and yet... "You barely even looked at me tonight." (1/2)

(2/2) She turns. “I might as well have been invisible.” “Trust me, Rose Tyler,” — his voice is suddenly low, his hands on her bare waist, and she stares into his eyes darkening with the sort of hunger she knows has been lurking in her own for months — “I noticed.”

Originally posted by stupidape

Ohhh my goodness, Nonny! <3<3<3 Slay him, Rose!

(*puts on Sherlock hat*) Could this be a sequel to certain other askbox fics? Hmmmm….

So I watched a shit ton of Alex Danvers stuff on Youtube

That way I wouldn’t have to compromise my decision not to watch the show itself. But this is not really about that. I just want to say that the way Alex shuts James and Winn down about the Guardian shit at Thanksgiving dinner gives me life. Like, she’s all, “No, fuck y’all. I’ve hid this shit from even myself for 28 goddamn fucking years. You can wait to tell Kara about playing dress up for a little while longer, goddammit. Do not take this from me, I swear to god, you won’t like my rage if you don’t back the fuck up.”

And she’s doing this drunk off her ass. “NO, KARA IS NOT UNDERSTANDING! SHUT UP!”

And Kara just rolls with Alex’s drunken shut downs cause she knows that even though she has no idea what the hell James and Winn are trying to say, Alex’s planned coming out is important to her, she’s really fucking drunk, and she’s not really liable for unambiguous threats she’s making at the moment.

I just gotta wonder what Eliza’s thinking in that moment, though. She makes it clear that she knew Alex wanted to tell her something important. So, is she like, “Oh, Alex is getting drunk at a holiday dinner again. And threatening family members with looks that could kill. All in a normal day, I guess. No wait, she’s actually trying to tell me something this time. Huh.”

This whole scene just had me cracking up. I’m super fucking late with this, but oh well. I might not watch the show live anymore, but Alex is still my favorite.

i like to imagine that clark kent’s search history is mostly normal but then there’s stuff like “improved superman costume concept art” because he wanted ideas

Black moon Lilith

What is Black moon Lilith? Black moon Lilith is the nothingness, the empty space that’s fills the void between the earth and the moon. Knowing your BML will help determine your subconscious side, secretive behavior patterns, sexual wants and needs, seductive traits, repressed anger and possible reason for death. It’s the energy who makes us feel empowered and vulnerable at once.

Who is Black moon Lilith? To sum it up, BML is a bad ass angel who took a stand for her sexual desires, and because of this, she was cast out of Eden for upsetting the dynamics between male and female power. Black moon Lilith is the feminine sexual energy that we are told to hide, uncontrollable lust, dirty thoughts, obsessions, kinks, anger and impulses.

Black moon Lilith in…

Aries Lilith in Aries feels the need to look powerful. They attain this by working out and eating clean. They need to burn their excess energy out in order to relax, by internalizing their abundance of energy this can cause suppressed anger, anxiety, depression, and lack of will power/motivation. They don’t listen to rules and regulations. They come up with the rules. BML in Aries people are usually talented and fast learners, but they can also be fickle. Instead of changing their mind they should learn to focus on one thing at a time and conquer it before moving on. Sexual energy is high, with a need for control and domination, they prefer BDSM, rough sex, adventurous and impulsive sex. Too much of this can lead them too dangerous situations, lack of this can cause unsatisfaction. Find a balance and you’ll be a bedroom god, oh and mind your head as there’s a chance of severe injury in that area.

Taurus A strong attachment to possessions, money, power to attain security. There’s seductive way about BML in Taurus, they have lustful eyes, soft skin, soothing voices and cupids bow lips, because of their pretty features there’s a connection between this sign and sexual/physical abuse, unwanted pregnancies, stuck in bad relationships especially in their youth years. This placement indicates a need for raw, natural connections, they can immerse themselves in music as they’re very in touch with their bodies and rhythm. A few bats of their lashes could leave anyone melting. Sex can involve domination, abuse, drugs, alcohol and money.  They shine in bed with someone who they feel comfortable with, and have a love for kitchen counter top intimacy. They have a tendency to have people obsess over them, perhaps even break a few hearts in their younger years. Remember, familiarity isn’t always right… jump into the unknown once in a while.

Gemini A difficult connection between mind, body and soul. Split personalities. Problems with communicating and expressing their true feelings, emotional blockages and dissociate personalities. There’s a strong sexual urge in this sign, when controlled can lead to satisfying sex, when uncontrolled can lead to suppression, anxiety about sex and relationships/intimacy; resulting in prostitution and drug use later on in life. When mind, body and soul are in balance, expression, verbal communication and tech skills are at an all time high. Their words are powerful weapons, and they possess and sharp tongue in conjunct a restless mind. Tendency to combine communication and intimacy… dirty talk, phone and cyber sex. Promiscuity and lies can happen when the mind and heart aren’t working together. LGBTQ’s are higher in this placement. 

Cancer Intuitive nature. Seems trust-worthy and kind, gets you to expose your secrets to them and stores them away for later use such as blackmail and emotional manipulation. Can indicate problems at home or feeling like an outcast in their own family, a difficult/distant relationship with either parents and siblings. These people have outstanding memories, able to easily access their past life and reincarnation through meditation, day/night dreaming or intuition. They fear loneliness but find it hard to become emotionally available out of fear of being betrayed. When this placement is channeled at a lower frequency, someone who strives for a peaceful trusting home life might choose to be with someone that won’t make that’s happen by choosing a partner who’s distrusting, abusive, loud, they may have a problematic child, or they themselves cause the chaos at home. Nevertheless, they protect and love their family with their entire life. They love in abundance, and this shows under the sheets. Sex with a Cancer in Lilith will probably leave you falling in love.

Leo Strong need to feel admired, looked up to, frothed over. Will unconsciously run away or close off when they sense rejection. Obsession with creating “meaningful moments” by travelling, communicating, giving, having countless friends.. this obsession can be ego driven to make it seem like they’e living an exciting  life; even if the friendships are fake and the travels rip a hole in their wallet. However living life on the edge is what makes them happy. empowered, charismatic, eccentric, magnetic. These people make great artists, actors, musicians or something along the lines of channeling their creativity to an audience. Their love of a good thing can be self destructive if not controlled, tendency to become sex and money addicts, homewreckers, chronic drug users, Most Leo Lilith’s discover their sexuality at a young age and stay sexually active their entire life. They have no problem jumping from one partner to the next… many have multiple partners. There’s a chance they’ll cheat if they aren’t receiving enough attention from their other half.

Virgo A good placement to have Lilith in. These people possess sharp analytical minds… when used at their fullest potential they’ll go far in terms of career and finance. Prone to using work as a source of escapism. Tends to think and analyse their emotions rather then “feel” them. Excels in psychology, medicine, law, teaching and cooking. Fear of vulnerability and letting themselves go. They can appear “up tight” or very prim and proper, when really they’re free spirited and open minded individuals, able to see between the lines of everything, recognize patterns and reasons most people can’t. This leaves them feeling like an outsider or loner. trichotillomania, OCD and eating disorders are common in this placement; there’s a need for systematic control otherwise they become extremely anxious and fidgety. In bed is where a Virgo Lilith really relaxes and goes wild, sex is a way to release tension and they aim too please.. by taking into account of what turns you on and what you enjoy, they’ll make sure to incorporate it into sex. Advice would be too let feelings happen without creating a reason for them, take some risks, and don’t suppress your emotions.

Libra They mirror the actions of those surrounding them, they can be the sweetest person or the coldest person you’ll ever meet… depending on you. They are proud of their fluent  allure and charm, they’ve mastered the techniques of seduction and use this to their advantage, possible using it to get something out of someone. These people are often geniuses in many areas… arts, music, law, criminology, and language to name a few. Co-dependency and a need for the perfect lover is strong… leading to abusive/problematic relationships especially in their younger years, as they grow they’re more choosy with whom they give attention too, but their flirty nature and need for attention can cause love affairs in their relationship. Their father tends to be detached or overly protective. As mothers, these people can be verbally abusive, particularly pointing out their children’s flaws.. they have an aloof way of showing their love. In bed, they love BDSM, role play, wine, whipped cream, pretty lingerie and love bites.. spank their ass too lol. If this is your placement, remember not to let anyone else’s thought’s or words affect how you feel. You’re all that you need.

Scorpio REBIRTH is frequent in this placement.. strong, intense relationships with their parents, friends and lovers. They feel the need to completely deteriorate themselves and their SO, mostly driven by passion and emotion. When channeled at a lower frequency their personality can become self destructive, they’ll have their perfect job, partner, and finance one second, then find themselves bankrupt, single and depressed the next.. they need to fall into the depths of rock bottom in order to rise up even higher then before. Sex is their favorite weapon.. they usually posses some fire genitals too ;) Don’t be surprised if they’re throwing you against a wall right before they’re in your pants. Most are fascinated by the occult, black magik, astrology, hypnosis, metaphysical subjects and psychology. They possess the best bullshit detectors, and can sense a good idea of a person within 2 seconds of meeting them. Not by analyzing what they say.. but how they say it and what they don’t say. To them, love isn’t love without jealousy, truth, lies, passion, and extremely kinky sex. All the time (sometimes even involving blood)  Chances of anxiety, paranoia, psychotic depression are high. Their ex partner will constantly compare their new spouses to them, because no one will make you feel passion, love, lust, and hate all at once like a Scorpio Lilith

Sagittarius Relies on “luck” to make it in life… and these people are usually quite lucky surprisingly. Rash, gossipy, fickle. Due to their “wanderlust” mindset, there’s a fear of being held down, these people unconsciously try too escape from anything they fear will confine them. This becomes a big problem when the thing they’re trying to escape from is themselves. Escapism outlets include… drugs (especially weed/acid) alcohol, fighting, video games, drawing, fashion, social media. This becomes apparent in relationships. Go travelling with a Sag Lilith. They’ll make the experience the most mystical and eye opening adventure you’ll  have. They prefer raw experiences and travels instead of fancy resorts and restaurants. They’ll be the one’s eating what the locals eat, with the locals. They often feel a little different from everyone else,this can lead to depression and/or anxiety. It takes a while for them to realize the rare gifts they have. How connected they are with the universe as a whole… I bet a Sag Lilith has the most philosophical dreams.  Prone to being boastful , full of themselves, know-it-all’s though. They need to understand that they’re not always right, and not everyone is out to sabotage them. Sexual partners are usually a different race to them, with a completely different background too. Sex while travelling and meeting their soul mate in another country is high.

Capricorn Someone with Lilith in Capricorn has the mindset of a CEO. They get shit done without help from anyone. And they know it. They can appear extremely intimidating, cold and they pretty much invented the resting bitch face. Many have high positions in terms of career, or they’re self employed. Like the other Earth Lilith’s, there’s a need for financial security, control and empowerment. Infact, they’ll do almost anything to get to the top, even if this includes sleeping with their married bosses. They’ll barely ever let their guard down, and if they do… they’ll beat themselves up for it later on. Their mysterious secretive nature can allure many kinds of people in, it doesn’t take long for you to be trapped under their spell. They like to control or be controlled during love making, and they prefer sex after a few glasses of champagne in a big beautiful bed with expensive bedding, some scented candles and erotic music… then their “other side” (think Christian Grey from 50 Shades) comes out to conquer you. Capricorn Lilith’s are notorious Power trippers… they’ll humiliate their best friend in a crowded room to make themselves feel better and wont give a shit. Prone to acting out in cold ways when they don’t get what they want; the one’s they love the most usually take the brunt of their bad moods.. when their frustration is suppressed it can cause sickness, depression, OCD and paranoia. They might have a few run in’s with mean bosses, jealous friends who use their superiority and success to help them. As children they may have been neglected and abused. As parent’s they’re surprisingly warm, cuddly and protective.. they want their children to have the childhood they never got.

Aquarius These people need freedom. They discover their independent streak from a young age and usually worked for their own money and assets from a young age too. They’re drawn to humanitarian subjects, astrology, numerology and tarot. Tendency to have odd behavioral patterns.. they might have a quirky laugh, a potty mouth, they mutter things under their breath to “make a mental note” something about them is different and it’s this why people are so fascinated by them. Aquarius Lilith’s are extremely charismatic. They’re the masters of influencing, convincing, spreading a message to a large crowd.. most Aquarius Lilith’s had the opportunity to travel from a young age; enlightening them to the world and differences in humanity, this makes them more wiser and brainier then most, but they keep that a secret. They have very active minds, this makes them prone to insomnia and depending on the other placements in their birth chart; Schizophrenia is more common here. They fear losing their independence and self identity, so they need someone who’ll let them roam and explore without being clingy or emotional.  Emotions aren’t a huge deal here, they’ll come up with a logical reason for almost every emotion they feel. And if they can’t, they’ll let it go. Among the more sexually open, these individuals value every kind of sexual kink, desire and fantasy’s, they prefer exciting sex to mundane. Most are chronic masterbators because they’re capable of having multiple orgasms. Dark side includes detachment, disassociation, suppression, alienation, and escapism. 

Pisces Among the more higher frequency’s of BML, Pisces is an intuitive Lilith, capable of interacting with the other side, as they’re easy channels for the spirit realm. They receive messages in dreams, they’ll determine whether someone had a bad childhood just by feeling their energy. Being around negative people and situations heavily drains a BML in Pisces, they’ll need a while to come back from a traumatic experience.. counselling is also preferred. The problems of other people affect them more then anyone else, sometimes using drugs, alcohol and sleep as a way to escape the realities of this harsh world, if they channel this energy into a creative outlet they’ll create magic. Very naive, some in this placement got bullied or taken advantage of as children, and they usually had a bad relationship with one or two siblings because of their innocent kind nature, this progresses as they get older and learn to stick up for themselves. They seduce by sub-missing themselves, appearing innocent and cute , like a little school girl (every dom daddys dream lol) sex is slow, passionate, with gentle touches and lots of foreplay/teasing. They play the victim card a lot though, and emotionally manipulate to get what they want. They’re not as innocent or caring as they may seem. There’s an inability to take charge and confront others here, and will often end up in abusive partnerships most likely with a possessive or controlling partner. Meditation, walking in nature, deep breathing, positive people, cuddles, crystal healing, lucid dreaming, writing, drawing, creating music helps a Pisces Lilith out of their depressive episodes. In their darkest state, they can be psychotic and completely out of touch with reality.. leading to a downward spiral of self destruction. In their superior level, they can heal anyone with their calming energy.

We talk a lot about Yuuri having to reconcile his idea of Viktor with the real Viktor–that is, Yuuri has this flawless, wonderful ideal of Viktor in his head which has to sort of be cut down to fit the person that Viktor really is. Which is a healthy part of their relationship, and which I completely agree is something Yuuri has to face at some point during that first summer.

But I think there’s also something to be said about Yuuri realizing that some of the horrible things he’s heard about Viktor through the skating community grapevine are not so true.

Yuuri, despite what he says, is much closer to is idol than most people ever get. If Viktor is a movie star, Yuuri is the secondary character–he’s there, and a lot of people definitely know he’s there, and he knows enough people who also know Viktor for the gossip mill to really get churnin sometimes.

I also think that at the back of every person who has ever had a celebrity crush’s mind is a little voice saying, “Never meet your heroes,” and Yuuri Katsuki is terrified of that little voice, and it contributes to the distance he keeps from Viktor–because at some point, that much distance from someone you’re facing off against in international competitions has got to be just a little bit purposeful.

So cue Viktor coming into his life all of a sudden one day, and all Yuuri can think about are the terrible awful no good very bad things people have told him about Viktor and the kind of person Viktor is.

“Fuck Viktor Nikiforov,” an older skater had told him after Skate America, six glasses into a box of wine and bitter as hell about missing the podium. “No, really, fuck him. The Russians are paying off the ISU to keep him at the top. He isn’t even that talented. I hear–I hear he doesn’t even train. I hear he just shows up and fucking does whatever and they give him gold because he’s Viktor Nikiforov.”

“I…don’t think…” Yuuri frowned at his own glass of wine. “I mean…that couldn’t be true.” He glances at Phichit next to him. “Could it?”

“Sour grapes,” Phichit advises, and Yuuri isn’t as familiar with English idioms at that point, so he thinks Phichit is talking about the wine.

Yuuri mostly forgets about it, but somewhere in the back of his mind–he can’t stop thinking about it. He watches and rewatches Viktor’s old programs and wonders to himself if the reason he thinks they’re so good is because he’s watching them through rose-tinted glasses.

Yuuri and Phichit are suffering through finals and trying to survive through twenty-hour days of nothing but studying and skating. They lay themselves on the bleachers one afternoon while they’re supposed to be doing warm ups.

“What if I just quit school and became and underwater basket weaver,” Yuuri mumbles directly into the metal seat of the bleacher. “That would be fine, right?”

“WWVND,” Phichit replies. “What Would Viktor Nikiforov Do.”

“You’re right,” Yuuri sighs.

“Viktor Nikiforov is dumber than a box of rocks,” says of the other members of the club as she skates by. “You know he never even finished high school? I mean, what counts as high school in a country like Russia. The guy probably thinks two plus two equals borscht.”

“That’s not…” Yuuri smushes his nose against the bleacher. “Hey, that’s not…”

“FUCK OFF OLIVIA,” Phichit shrieks across the rink, and Celestino definitely hears. They have to do twenty minutes of line drills. 

“What Would Viktor Nikiforov Do, right boys?” asks Olivia as she watches Yuuri try not to heave after Celestino finally releases them from their Sisyphean torture.

“I’m gonna fucking kill her,” Phichit says, and he sounds so deeply serious that Yuuri is sincerely worried.

Several weeks later, someone mentions Viktor within earshot of Phichit and he jokingly says, “Watch what you say, that’s Yuuri’s future husband you’re talking about,” and it sort of makes Yuuri want to hit him but mostly makes Yuuri blush.

“Really?” replies that someone. “I don’t know about that, Yuuri. I wouldn’t touch that guy with a thirty foot pole. He sleeps around. Probably has all kinds of nasty stuff going on down there.”

“Oh, whatever,” Phichit says, rolling his eyes. “Like you would know.”

Yuuri ducks his head back into his book and tries not to think about it.

These are the things that Yuuri holds in the back of his mind about Viktor, the worries that travel with him anywhere he has even the chance of encountering Viktor Nikiforov. 

‘Never meet your heroes’ becomes something of the unspoken mantra of Yuuri’s life. 

Then Viktor Nikiforov catapults himself straight into Yuuri’s lap, and Yuuri learns a few things.

Viktor trains. Viktor trains hard. Viktor has neglected everything but training and skating and satisfying his own frantic need to be the best for twenty years. Viktor Nikiforov is a lonely, sad bookworm with one friend and a gaping, yearning need to be touched–and he did not get to be where he is without making sacrifices. 

Yuuri has never met anyone who made more sacrifices for this sport and this art than Viktor Nikiforov. It opens something up inside of him, throbbing and raw. It makes Yuuri want to take Viktor’s heart and shove it inside his own chest so that it never feels cold or lonely again. It makes him want to stand on the top of a tall building somewhere and scream fuck you to every person he’s encountered whose jealousy tried to convince him that this man was less than what he is.

And yes, Yuuri knows now that Viktor is forgetful and brutally honest and often doesn’t say the right thing at the right time.

He knows that Viktor is only ambidextrous in that he can use a fork with both hands and that it takes him twenty minutes in the morning to decide on a shirt to wear. He knows that Viktor Nikiforov is a blanket hog and that if Yuuri wants to wake up still covered in the morning, they have to have no less than three blankets on the bed at all times.

He knows that Viktor sometimes descends into these loops of manic energy where he wants to do everything and can’t sit still and in those moments, Yuuri wants to lock him in a room and leave him there until he starts making sense again.

He also knows that Viktor Nikiforov has the most genuinely beautiful soul that Yuuri has ever had the opportunity to touch. He knows that very few people in his life will ever love him like Viktor, and that he himself has never felt for anyone quite what he feels for this man. His man. 

He knows these things and he thinks that maybe Viktor is perfect after all, perfect in his imperfection. Every jagged edge of his fits into one of Yuuri’s, and every curve of Yuuri’s lovingly presses flush with Viktor’s until they fit together seamlessly, like a pair of puzzle pieces.

Yuuri is also still a very petty person on the inside, though–which is why he makes posts on Instagram that read things like Viktor received his sixth well-deserved Russian National gold today! Congratulations to my amazing fiance.

And also:

So proud of my husband for all of his hard work commentating at the #Olympics. Some people go to school for half their lives and aren’t half as articulate as my Vitya. #Proudhubby

After that last one, Phichit leaves a voicemail on Yuuri’s phone that is literally just two whole minutes of him laughing hysterically and then wheezing, “THE SALT!” before hanging up.

“Yuuri, why did Phichit just sent me…sixteen crying laughing emojis and a text that says ‘your husband I can’t,’ in all caps?”

“Because a lot of people tried telling me you weren’t perfect and I’m proving them wrong,” Yuuri replies, not even looking up from his phone.

“Oh,” Viktor says, and literally crawls on top of him.

Yuuri supposes that the moral of the story is that the heart wants what the heart wants, and you have to find perfection in the imperfections–Viktor is loud and ditzy and forgets the English word for tomato on an almost daily basis, but he’s Yuuri’s husband. And because he’s Yuuri’s husband, he’s perfect.

one of my favorite things to do for my own amusement is to try to emulate the speech patterns of Reggie Fils-Aime because his way of speaking is so peculiar

he always enunciates very clearly, his choice of words is always really simple so that even children can understand what he’s talking about, he sprinkles his speech with carefully selected marketing jargon, and he uses contractions to seem like he’s trying to be casual

let’s say that you get caught cheating in Splatoon 2 and Reggie comes to your house to destroy your console with a baseball bat. he knocks at the door, you answer, and he says:

“Hello there. With the release of our latest game in the Splatoon series, Splatoon 2, we here at Nintendo have been incredibly pleased with the amount of fun our players have been having. It seems, though, that some players have been having more fun than others. Please, step out of the way.”

Reggie readies his baseball bat and walks past you, shoving you of of the way with his body while maintaining perfect posture.

“I’m going to demonstrate to you the innovating new punitive measures we at Nintendo have come up with to ensure a safe, fun, friendly environment of play. You deserve this.”

Reggie sends his baseball bat crashing through your Nintendo switch, shattering the screen and sending it flying across the room. The whole while, Reggie never breaks eye contact with you and he never stops smiling.

The baseball bat flies through your television next, knocking it to the floor. Reggie steps on top of it, turns around to face you, and continues:

“Thank you for your loyal support of Nintendo’s family of products. We hope this experience has been valuable to you.”