Remember when the BBC sent out their first replies to our complaints and said “[…] and we hope viewers enjoyed the overall journey over the last 4 series.” [x]
And actually, you know what? For me personally the answer is NO, it wasn’t.
Ever since S2 it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions for me. Admittedly I wasn’t in a good place in RL when S2 aired but one way or another TRF hurt like a bitch and influenced certain parts of my health as well.
Then S3 aired and I expected a logical explanation for the fall, but nada. Disappointing to no end. But that wasn’t the worst. After HLV I was so confused? I can’t remember a time when a show left me with so many conflicting feelings. I saw that Sherlock was in love with John, but he pushed John back to Mary and John went? And Mary just got a free pass? If it weren’t for post S3 fandom I probably wouldn’t have stayed around or been active in fannish activities. Fandom kept me sane with the explanations of theories of what was supposedly really going on between the three of them.
But as it turned out, nothing of all that was actually the case in S4. And tbh, NEVER have I been SO HURT by something I’ve loved so much media-wise. Yeah, TFP was complete garbage and TST was characterisation hell but TLD? I have not cried this much about anything like I did over that episode probably ever. Yeah, some triggers might have been involved too. But the way the character ~development went thanks to the shitty plot arc? It was terrible to see that happen to my favourite characters.
So no, overall the journey was NOT ENJOYABLE. What kept me holding on over the years was my love for Sherlock and John and the fandom. The show itself? A clusterfuck of emotionally shocking moments that were never dealt with in a serious way, something that I usually expect from a good TV show.
Right, our expectations might have been sky-high and we hoped for something good, something logical, something coherent. And then we received none of that. But I refuse to blame our high expectations for the level of disappointment we’re now dealing with. This is not our fault.