like this is the actual worst*

Most of the time i feel really inadequate and i don’t think it’s called a low self esteem.
I think it’s a sort of self actualization.
I often feel like i’m not kind enough or pretty enough or smart enough or well read enough. I think i’ve read books but just not the right ones and i’ve been places but just not the happening ones.
And the worst part is just not knowing which standards i’m trying to match. I know that i’m inadequate, but i don’t know for what or who.
I think this is just me realizing that i could be so much more. That there are other ways to be alive and other people to be but god knows why everyday i wake up to choose me.
Maybe these are the kind of things i’d tell you at midnight while we lie down on top of a five storey water tower staring at the stars.
Maybe (and as weak as that makes me sound) then i’d want you to hold my hand and tell me that it’s fine. I’m enough.
—  Why, oh why can’t i tell that to myself
Why am i such a hard person to love || esha

This is a fuck coworkers story. So I work where you get subs your way in a mall. One of my coworkers is just one of the worst people. One of those everything is handed to me. She works 10 hours a week and is pregnant with her second child acting like that is a way to support her kids on minimum wage. Then she calls out every other day saying she is sick. When she does work, you have to come in and pick up after her because she won’t clean or do the shift change duties but because she is pregnant she is hard to fire. It looks bad on all of us who actually work. But she has a kid and has no want to support her it is just angering

happstablook  asked:

are you guys rlly saying "uuuuh but the game grumps said kin was weird tho" even tho they're known for being racist shitheads??? if you're gonna use someone popular saying kin is the worst thing ever at least get somone who isnt known for being gross as shit lmao

How are they racist? Aside from Jontron who has been gone for years now, they make bad jokes about their own race. Did you almost break your arm with that stretch?

Also,

I only just actually looked at your blog and

@egaylitarian @only-on-tomblr Look boys! You’re on tv!!

You say you don’t want anyone that are like us on your blog, yet you keep on coming back to our blog like flies to shit? Make like a bird already and piss off.

P.S, You also say you don’t want transmed/truscum on your blog, aka trans people that want people to know what trans actually means. Going by how you present yourself irl and the fact you use they/them + say you’re gay everywhere, I smell a tucute that treats being trans as a fun lil game, soooo… 🤡🤡🤡

- Boi

lulumcbonbon  asked:

K, so this ask is more relates to back pain. I feel like you should get checked out for scoliosis??? Idk, maybe I feel this way because my scoliosis is really fucking me up with all the pain, and we're the same height?? I'm gonna put this out for all of y'all who has back pain: get yourselves checked out and work to reinforce your backs. I realize that seeing a chiro can be expensive, but the scoliosis surgery is even worst (I'm looking at you US) (hurray for free health care 🇨🇦)

I’ve actually been checked multiple times in my life. I remember my mom telling me something along the lines of ‘I almost developed it’ and that’s why I ended up doing ballet for 15 years of my life to prevent it. (only thing that happened was I had bad posture for a while) 

I also get back pain because of an injury I had my senior year of dance. I got really bad whiplash and now my back seizes up every time the weather gets bad. 

but for anyone else, it definitely wouldn’t hurt to get checked out if you have back pain!

anonymous asked:

Can bpd make you slightly delusional (for lack of better word) in the way you look? Like when I picture myself I look completely different to how I actually look like sometimes I think I'm extremely attractive or the worst person looking alive.

It can, yes! BPD means we often have a disconnect from our identity- including how we look, so we often forget who we are and how we look. Also, black and white thinking can cause the moving between seeing self as either perfect or the worst

anonymous asked:

Blueberry-Muffin tea

Blueberry-Muffin tea: Tell me a memory which makes you smile

What even is blueberry-muffin tea???? Has anyone ever had it before and does it actually taste like blueberry muffin?

I am so bad at these seriously, like I have a problem with recall of events; remembering events I have no problem with. Hmmm… well, I guess when I think about the things that my parents have done for me I feel happy? Like they go out of their way to support me when people are giving me the worst time. Even currently, I’ve been going through people drama and my parents were like do you want us to fly over early? Like??? who even does that??? Flies overseas a week early because their daughter is being treated badly by the other people in the group… Anyway, I’m reminding myself that I did the correct thing by being the bigger person in that whole kerfuffle, but yeah my parents and brother were really supportive of me during these few weeks, they even helped talk to the teacher for me through the phone because my Mandarin couldn’t explain the situation well :)

✧・゚:*✧・゚:* Tea Asks *:・゚✧*・゚✧

anonymous asked:

hi there! first: i love your blog. your goonified icons are so cute! : ) second: i recently watched phantom rouge and wanted to know what your opinion on it was? i know you said somewhere that you didn't like it, but i wanted to know why : ) thank you!! <3

aww, thank you!!! i was actually considering changing my icon… (gasp!) but i’d just be changing it to a different goon lol.

i think, for me personally, the overwhelming issue with both of the hxh movies is that they follow your average shounen manga cliches. the second movie is the worst offender of the two imo but phantom rouge is also pretty guilty of it.

one example is how they handle battles. a huge reason i love hxh is how well-written the rules system is for nen. tbh, because nen has clearly established rules, a part of me is like, “how do you not think through the basics here??” but the seemingly unlimited power of the Big Bad in phantom rouge w/o any real risk/vow established just drove me up the wall! like, he controls dozens (if not more) puppets at once, with seemingly their own consciousness, and yet it was established in like the heaven’s arena that even creating a single, exact clone is highly draining. iirc i think it’s also addressed (or implied by kurapika) that tocino is only able to create so many puppets at once because of how simplified they are. so like… how the hell is this dude in the phantom rouge doing any of this???

there’s also just a lot of questionable character writing, like killua deciding to jump in front of a train (?????) and kurapika not really being all that mad after discovering pairo’s been possessed or whatever. like, you think kurapika is just going to mope around in bed for a while after that?? the kurapika i know is gonna be pissed and refuse to stay put until he gets to the bottom of it.

anyway, i think that summarizes a majority of my issues with it. there’s other ones too (like creating an original female character just to be a love interest for gon???) but these are the major ones imo lol.

Update on me I guess??

This hasn’t been one of my best weeks, but it hasn’t been one of my worst either. Doing that Draco RP the other night is probably the highlight. It was really fun and put me in a good mood.

Because of this, I’m trying to think of some more ideas to film (if that’s something you all would like?). I thought It would be a cool thing to do, because it’s summer and I can film outside for a change.

If you all have and character suggestions or ideas, feel free to send them in! 

anonymous asked:

About the hate comments they picked. They were mostly from the comments, that are filtered meaning that the really nasty ones doesn't show up. And none of the ones they showed were actually constructive criticism. And some of them were pretty nasty. I think it's also them not wanting to show the actors being targeted, which is where the worst hate has occurred.

OK. I haven’t seen any of the hate comments translated so it’s hard for me to tell what she referred to as “hate”. I’d like to be able to read them.

And I’m still :/ about the Jonas speech about “why do people who try to do something good still get hate” which to me felt like another comment like “I tried to do something good with this season, why are you criticising it?”. 

But maybe that’s just me taking it too personally.

agenderopal  asked:

I (secretly) think that you are a soft forest fae, who has blessed us all with their ethereal presence, donned in rainbows and cuteness and an amazing photographic talent. I also think I'd like to meet them someday (and maybe actually remember to initiate a conversation) 😊❤🌸🌈

;-; I am so overwhelmed with love for u, bb 💗💗💗💗💗💗 I would absolutely love to meet you someday and show you all my animal pals and the forest!!! That would be amazing, especially if @cyanea-capillata was there too?! oh my goodness. I really need to be better about initating conversation, you’re the sweetest pea, I’m the worst one at talking!! Uhhg. I’m trying to work on it, you are more than worth it!! you’re a radiant being who always brings so much kindness into my life.  🌈💗💛💚💙💜🌈

Originally posted by thecrystalgifs

anonymous asked:

Oh my god there was this girl at my school who actually fucking identified as "Alexander Hamilton". The worst part is that I dated her for like a year before I found out.

for any of you REAL OLD followers, KFTMK (kin fuck the mods know, some real ugly tucute otherkin + fake DID chick that i have to see at school every day) was like this to the fucking t. she had alexander hamilton in her kin page and everything. i recently peeped it again and its gone all of a sudden 🤔🤔🤔🤔 hmmmm and they say you cant pick and choose your kins

- Boi 

anonymous asked:

Iruka for the character ask.

General Opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life 

Hotness Level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang

Hogwarts House: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff

Best Quality: He does have a great personality and would seem like the type of person you would want to be friends with.

Worst Quality: Ehhhhh, I can’t think of one. 

Ship Them With: I would like to see him with a civilian girl. I think it suits him.

Brotp Them With: Yamato even though they’ve had like, no interaction. I think it would be cool to see the two dad friends getting along.

Needs to Stay Away From: Kakashi. I know this is a popular ship, but I honestly don’t care for it.

Misc. Thoughts: He is a sweet cinnamon roll who needs to be protected.

anonymous asked:

hashirama

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff
best quality: caring 
worst quality: gambling haha
ship them with: MADARA
brotp them with: tobirama ofc haha
needs to stay away from: hmmmm
misc. thoughts: i loved hashirama, loved, his whole apperance and mindset, just amazing 

this is mostly about me being a grumpy old fart (and tumblr’s broken search feature) but i am getting kiiiinda sick of lgbt tags i follow being like 60 % fictional characters, the vast majority of which are not canonically lgbt

like i too used to be into slash and femmeslash bc i didn’t dare confront my own queerness but like

tag it slash, tag it shipping, tag it with shipnames

when i go into the wlw tag or sapphic tag or whatever i want to read about real life stuff, real actual people

the worst offender is definitely the oslo pride tag which is A REAL EVENT FOR REAL PEOPLE but which is filled with people imagining characters from a certain tv show attending it

Hiatus

Hey friends, mutuals, followers: Starting tomorrow (it’s nearly 8 pm on the 24th here right now) I’m going on hiatus for about 3 weeks. I’ll be back as soon as I can, but we’re doing a big extended-family gathering thing, and there will be no wifi. That’s right, for 3 weeks. Pray for me 🙃. Anyway, I have a queue set up, but it’s only going to last about 3 days, so tonight is the last you’ll see of me for a while.

I’ve been working on the first chapter for a Steve Harrington x Jonathan Byers cinderella au that I told @dadharbour I would do ages ago and haven’t yet finished it, even like a month later, because I am actually the worst. Hopefully I will have that chapter finished by tonight and in the queue to be posted sometime in the next few days. If not, it’ll be done at some point within the first week of my hiatus, and I will try to get to wifi to post it.

See you guys in three weeks!

-Fox 💙💜❤️

anonymous asked:

Elhokar

                                                                                                                        general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life

hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang look at forever

hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff

best quality: he’s… trying

worst quality: i don’t really feel like he knows what he wants?

ship them with: confidence

brotp them with: Lopen

needs to stay away from: leadership roles

misc. thoughts: I honestly can’t think of many characters i feel more neutral on than Elhokar.