also u gotta tell me ur kira thoughts fam
oh man OK so preface: i am not excusing him at all it’s interesting to think about it
so. so. araki’s outwardly pretty conflicted on how he decides to talk about kira’s backstory. in one interview, he talks about how he didn’t want to make kira sympathetic by virtue of “oh well his parents neglected him”/he was abused whilst everything we see in canon rejects this. kira’s family is described as “close” and happy and his father is devoted to the point where not only does he cover up his crimes but stays around as a ghost to keep protecting him. like he’s not even just forgiving of him, he straight up thinks that he’s his beautiful baby boy who sometimes does bad things but otherwise is perfect.
so, the way i interpret it- and actually just found out is more or less what araki said in a 2004 interview- is that the abuse was the opposite of neglect: he was completely smothered. his parents were a much older couple; it’s not that much of a stretch to assume that kira was either a surprise or a last chance miracle baby for them, which meant that from day one he was very special to them.
everything was strictly controlled: food, schedules, trips to the doctor like clockwork every year, ties perfectly done up, socks the right way and folded neatly in drawers, photographs taken and stuck straight in books… like, god, i’m betting everyone at some point remembers getting their nails clipped too short or told off for biting them so imagine that turned up, if his fingernail clipping obsession started as a result of that.
everything he does can be seen as a way of clawing back control. half of his MO is based in control; kira literally turns his victims into objects, strips their identity, imprints his own thoughts and ideas on them- he even dresses them. his identity as a serial killer aside, he rebels against what any japanese parent in the 1970s and 80s would want and determinedly refuses to be the best at anything; not only does he not like the spotlight of being number one, it’s just so much easier to be unremarkable, particularly when you have the ability to reject your parents and make that decision for yourself.
when he’s older, kira is just as meticulous- arguably to the point of ocd- and he carries on with all those habits because he’s afraid of change but it’s all on his own terms. and then he gets to assert that same control over his victims. when you look at his interactions with his father in the manga, he never seems particularly relieved or grateful; he makes no effort to contact him and only seems to get more agitated when he gets involved before he gets bites the dust.
idk tell me ur thoughts