like the ice in my heart

Science

How could you be so near
And still so far; love
Descending like Pluto through my heart
I have finally understood the difference between
The burn of fire
And of ice
I fall always
Into a space
Where nothing exists
Not even silence
Nor the scream
Not even ashes swept out into the ink black of the endless night

.

There is nothing, I looked
Through Urania’s Mirror and saw you
Saw the shape
Our bodies would have made
Illuminating in unison
I looked for heaven
And heard a chorale of ecstasy
But it sounded like the distance
Of your favourite song playing in someone else’s home
And a woman’s laugh
As I walked by on the street below
Nobody claps for that kind of hollow fidelity

.

History is the stories we tell each other
Where we collapse all the fullness neatly into one facet
But nothing ever is one alone
Not even me walking the streets at night
I have never felt unsafe in the darkness
Like I did in your light
You exposed me and I wanted to form a different image
Would you have loved me if I were less?
I haven’t had my haircut since you left and eventually I will disappear
Like the sound of laughter from your hearing
Like silence
Like the night
In another facet
The sun doesn’t rise but you slow dance around it
To somebody else’s favourite song
And later, that person wakes from a strange dream where they were nothing

.

Did you see NASA discovered that Pluto has a heart?
Have you ever been that lonely?
That misunderstood?
Even science cannot calculate the parameters of love
Or what it needed to survive
Even science has never been that cold in bed at night

.

I was walking through the dark back streets of time
When it slipped and I fell in
I could hear everything
But through a wall
I could even hear your dreams
I just could not touch them
I float on the skin of the sea between
Australia and Antarctica
In the shape of the cross
Staring up at our bodies
My skin was blue and marble white
There was no heart
Only the burning of ice

.

In another facet
I was gold
I was the ring around your finger
You would rise up to me every morning
And we would slow dance every night

.

In another facet
I cut my hair

.

In another
There was a science to the way I broke

.

In another
I was the sea water

.

In another
I could hold you up

.

In another
I was the salt of your earth

.

In another
I was the song that played
In your dreams

.

In years from now
NASA will discover that

.

In this one
I was the ecstasy
You came to the lip of
But never kissed
I was the fire
You didn’t want
When you were cold

m.edwards

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Viktuuri Rivals AU: Until My Feet Bleed and My Heart Aches by @kazliin

‘Where do I begin to tell the story of how great a love can be’

Thank you, for murdering us and happy birthday!! ♡ 

THIS IS SO CUTE??

okay i don’t know if anybody noticed this 

i was going to post this like a week ago but i forgot (wow)

at first otabek is wearing this black coat while he is inside then yuri comes and they go outside and BOOM

HE GAVE HIS COAT TO YURI. GOOD WAY TO CRUSH MY HEART BEKA. GOOD JOB. 

WHAT A GENTLEMAN HE IS

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“I have so many things to tell you–”

((the airport reunion is still making me tear up, so I went and re-drew some screenshots to deal with the feelings))

CAN❓YOU FEEL 🙌🙌 MY HEART❤❤ BEAT 👊👊 TIRED 🕘🕘😴😴💤OF FEELING NEVER🙅🙅 ENOUGH 😞😞 I CLOSE MY EYES 👀👀👀TELL MY SELF 👇👇THAT MY DREAMS 🌙🙏🙏😴 WILL COME TRUE✔✔ THERE’LL BE 🙌😤 NO 🙅🙅 ✖✖ MORE DARKNESS🌑🌑 WHEN YOU 🏃👇🙏 BELIEVE IN 🙋🙇 YOURSELF😜⬆⬆ YOU ARE 🚫🚫 UNSTOPPABLE 💯💯💯💯 WERE YOUR 👇👇DESTINY 🙌🙌 LIES DANCING 💃💃🏃 ON THE BLADES 😜😜 YOU SET MY HEART ❤❤ ON FIRE 🔥🔥🔥 DON’T 🙅🙅🙌🙌STOP 🚫🚫 US NOW 🕛🕛THE MOMENT 😳😳 OF TRUTH 😵🙌WE WERE BORN 👶👶 TO MAKE HISTORY 📖📖WE’LL MAKE IT 🏋🏋HAPPEN 🙌🙌 WE’LL TURN 🔄🔄 IT AROUND ↙↙ WE WERE BORN 👶👶 TO MAKE 📖📖 HISTORY🙌🙌💪💪

episode one :: Yuuri Katsuki is the most beautiful disaster that Victor has ever met in his entire life, and Victor has built his empire on beautiful disasters.



Victor isn’t sure he knows what he’s doing anymore by the time casting rolls around for season 22 of The Bachelor.  Okay, he knows what he’s doing, but it’s all autopilot.  He’s got a dossier of Chip Vanderbones and Tad Hardbeefs to look at, but is almost resigned enough to just give into Lilia and Yakov’s suggestion to cast Georgi Popovich, notorious histrionic Bachelorette season 10 runner-up, as this season’s lead out of sheer notgivingafuckness.  At this point Victor isn’t even sure whether he really wants to be in this game at all anymore, but what the hell else he would do besides sleep for a thousand years if he retired before thirty?  

And then Phichit Chulanont comes into his office to distract him during a conference call with Yakov to tell him a story about his friend who just crashed and burned at the Figure Skating Grand Prix Finals, and everything click click clicks into place: redemption narrative.  Twenty young men are going for the gold, but only one can win the heart of Yuuri Katsuki– he can hear the promos, see the character arcs unfold, and the narratives rush through him like they’ve always lived inside him and it feels–exciting.  

“Phichit,” Victor says suddenly, interrupting Phichit and grabbing him from across his desk.  “We have to get him.  He’s our next bachelor.”

“Oh my God,” Phichit replies, eyes widening, and then again, “Oh my God.

“Do you think you could get him?” Victor asks.  He’s seeing figure skating dates, thematic destination shoots in Chile and Finland and Iceland, “The Bachelor: Love on Ice” title screen flashing over two champagne glasses on the lip of an outdoor hot tub.  

“Do I think I can get him,” Phichit repeats dismissively, looking the closest to offended that Victor has ever seen him.  “What do you think you hired me for, Nikiforov.”

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Yuuri @ the beginning : I can’t understand Eros

Victor: But babe-

anonymous asked:

Ok but like what if Yuuri's a street performer and plays violin across from the rink Viktor practices at. Everyday when Viktor's going in he gives Yuuri money and watches him for awhile before he gets yelled at to go in. Well what if like competitions were coming up and Viktor doesn't have any music yet, so he runs across the street to Yuuri and asks him to help compose his music.

MY HEART….SOMEONE WRITE THIS

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“Is there anything else you like about me Yuuri?” he joked as he set Yuuri gently down on the bed, unwinding the other man’s arms from around his neck and trying to make sure that Yuuri wasn’t going to roll straight off the moment he let go. As soon as his arms were free Yuuri reached up again, not wrapping them around Viktor’s neck this time but cupping his cheeks, running his thumbs over the skin there and staring up at Viktor, gaze intense.

“Your eyes.” he said, the words slurred but clearly audible all the same. “You have…pretty eyes.” Viktor nearly tripped over the bed in surprise but Yuuri didn’t seem to notice. “I’ve always liked your eyes…”

I read chapter two of the brilliant @kazliin’s Of Bright Stars and Burning Hearts and as always it destroyed me, especially finding out what really happened at the Olympics. Couldn’t help but try and draw a quick something for it. ;;;; Bless you for this brilliant fic. ♥

Preview (or more like the color sketch :’D) für @runcharityzine! I’m glad I can help Casey out by taking part, please consider supporting this project all profits go to charity!

5 mile run new Boku No Hero thoughts are as follows:

  • this is my all-time favorite “previously on” section. it was highlighting Bakugou’s resolve to win by mashing together all the clips of him declaring his ambitions but because its Bakugou it was actually just a 2 minute montage of Bakugou fucking screaming
  • Todo acts naive but i doubt that more and more each day with the number of sick fucking burns he’s gotten in at people, case in point:
  • Bakugou: -storms on in to Todo’s room and starts yelling at him.-
    Todo: Hey Bakugou :))) you know what this reminds me of? :))) That guy you fucking hate. :))) Except he did this better. :)))) You really cant ever live up to him can you :)))))))
  • Bakugou calls Todoroki “IcyHot” in the dub and I watched the dub today specifically in hopes that he’d call him IcyHot again and he DID.
  • I’m not done with this scene because the PHRASING HAD ME IN STITCHES–Bakugou stormed in like “Hey IcyHot, is this how you fucking treat your opponents!?” while blowing up Todo’s table. And Todo responded with “That’s what Midoriya said too…” I dont think Deku said it quite like that, Todo. But too late now I can’t stop picturing:
  • Deku voice: “Hey you stupid piece of shit sore-muscle hot-and-cold sports pack you better fucking look at me while i stand here and break all my fingers and yell, because fuck you, you fucking icepack.”
  • Bakugou his table
  • His table Bakugou
  • This is the screamiest Bakugou’s been to date, I’m glad for him
  • ominous BOOM noises from inside the iceberg
  • dub!Sero called Bakugou a “moleman” and i want the world to know that Bakugou’s been canonically called a “moleman”. Moleman Bakugou.
  • Bakugou, grabbing Todo by the hair and piledriving him into the ground: “GIT FUCKING GUD, ICYHOT
  • Aizawa: -provides commentary on the strategy, strengths, and weaknesses of the children’s fighting techniques-
    Present Mic: -sees Todo surfing on an ice wave and says “Looks like fun!!!”-
  • Bakugou: “Use your full power IcyHot! I want the world to know you’re trying to destroy me!! THIS MEANS NOTHING IF I CAN’T SURPASS DEKU!!”
    Deku:
    (Regina George voice) Why are you so obsessed with me?
  • Bakugou, or better known by his full name, Katsuki “Fidget Spinner” Bakugou
  • Bakugou: -screams incoherently for 20 minutes trying to rile Todo up-
    Todo:
    Deku: -says one thing-
    Todo, heart racing, palms sweaty: holy fuck. holy shit. thats my fucking boyfriend.
  • Srs for a moment, I really adore and am moved by Todo’s character development here. The easy shonen answer would be for Todo to be “fixed” following his fight with Deku, but the poor kid’s sitting on like 10 years of trauma. He’s not fixed. He’s healing. And healing comes with pain and doubt sometimes.
  • Like I actually clutched my shirt while his fire unraveled.
  • Bakugou: -pulls of the coolest fucking spin projectile move in history-
    Bakugou: -lands like this-


  • IT’S HERE. THE GRANITE SLAB OF VICTORY
  • We are blessed with Dad Might in this house today
  • Todo: “My path forward isn’t as clear as I thought. There’s still someone I need to settle things with…”
    Todo: -steps off the podium, walks into the crowd, punches Endeavor in the face- “Fuck you Dad”
  • In the sub All Might calls Bakugou’s face “amazing” but in the dub he calls it “scary” and 4 years were added to my life when dub!All Might gave Bakugou the once over with the medal in his mouth and went “…still scary.”
  • dub!Bakugou is great here too with “I DON’T WANT THAT PIECE OF GARBAGE. KEEP YOUR TRASH AWAY FROM ME HHGNGNGHG”
  • I want to empahsize that several hours pass after that scene cut. It’s evening. The kids are changed back into their school uniforms AND back at the classroom. And Bakugou still has the fucking medal in his mouth. No one took it out. 
  • me: fuck…i hope iida will be okay
    also me, who’s read the manga: (hes not gonna be okay)
  • The hospital scene makes me kinda want to take back all the making fun of Todo I did because…god fucking this poor child…he deserved so much better
  • Protect Mama Midoriya she deserves the world

KATSUKI YOU CAN’T WAKE UP AT NOON AND START YELLING

Not sure why I’ve never noticed this before. It’s almost one of those things where I’m hoping it’s a continuity or script error that’s contradicted in another episode.

But in Episode 4, when Yuuri calls Celestino, he comments that he hasn’t seen Yuuri since the Sochi Grand Prix Final.

Which implies Celestino wasn’t there with Yuuri at the Japanese Championship (aka Nationals).

So that means Yuuri was so embarrassed after his GPF performance (and probably after getting drunk at the banquet) that he immediately walked away from Celestino. That didn’t happen after Nationals like I thought it did.

Yuuri faced Nationals by himself.

This sweet, beautiful, dumb baby child.

I love him with all my heart, but he really did need to learn that he had love all around him the entire time. He just kept hiding from it.