like ripping my own heart out

100 Dialogue Prompts: Part 2

We did it amigos. Another list! I am so grateful that you all are sharing your ideas to help inspire others (faith in humanity restored)

  1. “Where is my fucking pudding?!”
  2. “I thought we agreed to never use butter for that reason again…”
  3. “Well if it’s the guy who never shuts up about toilet paper!”
  4. “Honey, did you see my sniper rifle?”
  5. “Oops…”
  6. “God damn it he died. Whatever. Just leave him there.”
  7. “Listen, I know you’re upset, but please put down the baking soda before someone gets hurt.”
  8. “Look, about the monkey…”
  9. “I don’t understand! I only used a finger.”
  10. “It’s not as hard as you think, I promise.”
  11. “well this is what i call hell of a night”
  12. “How could an entire school disappear?”
  13. “What do you mean the brownies are "not quite brownies”?“
  14. "Yes, I understand that its cool, but why does your toaster have wings?” “Well its alive of course. It flies.”
  15. “Don’t turn that on!”
  16. “Wait…I’m also- technically- underage and you’re a stranger…should I be screaming also?”
  17. “I though you meant "literally” metaphorically. “
  18. "Ok so don’t get mad but I might have started a war.”
  19. “Good morning… I see the assassins failed again.”
  20. “You’re a murderer, how are you working at a hospital?”
  21. “That cat just stole my cereal!”
  22. “Did you see that? Please tell me you saw it.”
  23. “Hey, can you stop shooting people right now? We’re trying to sleep.”
  25. “If you think I’m leaving you and your demon eyes and evil horns you’re wrong.”
  26. “What do you mean, this isn’t Earth?”
  27. “Damn it, ____! Not peanuts again!”
  28. “Why did I just press the big red button?”
  29. “So tell me again why this dead body is being sent to Goodwill?”
  30. “Lucifer, I know that we said we would share rent but you never said anything about your brother living with us.”
  31. “God dammit, I’m supposed to be a bat! Why the hell am I a possum, Karen?!”
  32. “Sarah, where’s the dog?” “Up in space?”
  33. “You had only one job and it wasn’t even a difficult task, but seriously, how did you end up like this!?”
  34. “Well I never said I WASN’T going to kill the bartender …”
  35. “I mean, it was only a small eldritch being, so it wasn’t that bad…”
  36. “Hold me back bro!”
  37. “I think there’s a new lifeform evolving in my fridge.”
  38. “WHAT THE FUCK?!”
  39. “Can we have lunch now, or do you still want to continue looking at dead people?”
  40. “I can’t believe you ate my cheese…we’re over”
  41. “Sometimes I wonder why we’re still friends.” “Because I turned you into a cyborg after being shredded by an explosion and you owe me.” “…Fair enough.”
  42. “Well, I didn’t quite expect to wake up pregnant either and yet… here we are, so can you please pass me that can of bread?”
  43. “Ok, I know I said ‘You can throw a hairbrush at them’, but I didn’t actually mean it!”
  44. “When I told you to feed the dog I didn’t expect you to feed him the neighbors cat.”
  45. “Clearly, you’ve never gotten rid of a body before…”
  46. “This sort of thing never happened when I was dating your brother.”
  47. Sometimes, I wonder about you. And then I worry.“
  48. ” Wait, wait, wait, start from the very beginning. how did you manage to set the house on fire with that??“
  49. "For fucks sake, dude, how many times do I have to tell you that that’s not what penises are for?”
  50. “One woman’s terrorist is another woman’s freedom fighter.”
  51. “This isn’t right… the humans shouldn’t be able to move on their own.”
  52. “Why is unicorn blood on our shopping list?”
  53. “Must you unhinge your jaw like that when you eat? It’s disgusting.”
  54. “You’ve violated the law, my trust, and your friend. Tell me, why should I believe anything you say?”
  55. “No, no don’t open the fridge, I need to keep they eyeballs cold.”
  56. “did he break his jaw again by falling down a flight of stairs?” “Passive aggressive much?”
  57. “For the last time, put the declaration of independence back!”
  58. "That isn’t permanent, right?”
  59. “You know, ripping someone’s beating heart right out of their chest with your bare hand looks cool in anime, but irl it’s just unsanitary…”
  60. “She didn’t tell you” “Tell me what” “He’s dead”
  61. “But his dad is an asshole–” “HIS AUTHOR IS AN ASSHOLE”
  62. “You are here and you haven’t tried to kill me yet. You must want something from me.”
  63. “The salesperson made a flying tentacle monster sound a lot more alluring, I swear!”
  64. “Okay…the radiator just growled at me”
  65. “Dude, were you listening to me? Why are you barking?” “I’m not barking. I thought YOU were barking!”
  66. “How did you get that bump on your lip”
  67. “Buddy. You need to chill, and put that knife away before I get out my gun.”
  68. “ ” I dare you to take your shirt off" “ no” “ I doubledare you” “No” “I tripledare you” “ god dammit Steve , im not wearing a Shirt!”“
  69. "Why the fuck are there founding fathers in our living room”
  70. “Girls only say 'I will not dignify that with a response.’ when they’ve done the thing you’ve just accused them of.” “Do you know this, because you’ve done it?” “I will not dignify that with a response.”
  71. “They think we’re terrible but really we’re only mediocre”
  72. “You’d think by now we’d stop bringing death into these things. Look at them, they have anxiety!”
  73. “Ok, first of all asshat, stop touching me. Second, that is never going to work out! Third, stop TOUCHING me.”
  74. “So if I do understand, you’re telling me that you created insects robots. The same one that destroyed the city. ”
  75. “Why is THIS in your fridge? This is some serious contraband.”
  76. “Please tell me you’re joking about marrying the bastard’s son we call Satan.” “ Don’t talk about your mother like that!!”
  77. “Did you explode the microwave again?!”
  78. "Honey where’s the dog?” “Like I said, I’m making a smoothie.”
  79. “Fifteen bucks you can’t hook up with Satan.” “Make it twenty.”
  80. “I don’t know, maybe because he has some semblance of taste?
  81. "What could possibly make you think eating three tons of cheese for the mice in radiation-test labs was okay?!”
  82. “Who actually let the dogs out?”
  83. “Hey, you don’t know how many bodies are buried in my backyard.”
  84. “I told you to kill me.” “I did. Just this morning.” “Well, shit!”
  85. “So… This isn’t the end, is it? I mean I still want to hang out with you at least. Maybe go for another space adventure, hm?”
  86. “I’m sorry, it was the HEAT OF THE MOMENT,”
  87. "Hey, wanna go out for a romantic moonlight killing spree?”
  88. “So, you’re into …..? Huh, I never would’ve known.”
  89. “Did you hear that scream?” “Yes, I’m the one who screamed”
  90. “What are you doing?”
  91. “But really, why would anyone need two dozen armadillos?”
  92. “You can’t keep 'solving’ your problems by going to another dimension!”
  93. “I still can’t believe you assassinated a unicorn.”
  94. “Wait, you have FOUR knives?” “No, no. I have four knives ON me.”
  95. “I’ve killed a man using only a copy of Hamlet and a computer mouse. I am NOT afraid of you!" 
  96. "What the hell are those?”
  97. “Are you sure you’re not an arsonist?”
  98. “I know, right? You’d suspect any of them of secretly being an alien, but not…”
  99. “Why didn’t you stop?”
  100. “So, start explaining why there are dozens of puppies in my guest room.”

Let’s make another list. Part 3! Leave a reply and don’t forget the double quotes “”. I want to give everyone a chance to contribute to our community. So as always, one prompt per amigo. Dankje! 

So the next trailer dropped for S3 and there’s a lot to parse through, but for me the only thing that matters in Coran.

He has like 1 second, but that second literally ripped my heart out. That cry of “No!” is a cry of pain. It’s the cry of a man who has lost too much already and is terrified of losing more. It’s the crumbling of a cheerful facade to face the raw pain and anger and sorrow underneath. It’s the cry of a man who has hurt so much, he cosiders suffering to be an old friend. That cry, that shout, is the horror of a man, aged beyond his years due to the oppressive weight of his own pain as he watches children face unimaginable danger in his place.

Coran has suffered so much. Don’t forget his pain.

do you ever cry bc in blue lily lily blue when ronan is dreaming up the murder shit adam is disgusted with himself and is like ‘blah blah left to his own devices ronan manifests beautiful things but when im given the power i manifest filthy murders etc etc’ rip my heart out adam on so many levels with this one EXCEPT EXCEPT earlier in the book ronan straight up says to adam 'maybe i dreamed you’. maybe. i. dreamed. you. ronan dreams beautiful things and adam is so so beautiful to ronan that he could be one of them and he all but says as much to adams face but adam still cant see how special and wonderful he is rip me.


This is my fur child, Mittens. He’s the fluffiest most majestic creature I’ve ever known. He enjoys long trips to the water bowl, ripping his own fur out and leaving it on my pillow (he’s fine, he’s just weird) and running throughout the house like a frenzied chicken at all times. Bless his heart.

anonymous asked:

Oh my god im so dead after bellamy's scream. What do you think he thought/felt in the moment and what do you think he's going to do next?

short answer: he’s going to be dead inside my dude

long answer: oh man, i wasn’t even gonna publish this, i just quickly wrote it for @wellamyblake, but it holds all my Feelings about what bellamy is experiencing. SO, HERE, HAVE CLARKE COMFORTING BELLAMY.

Clarke finds him in the same room they made the list in. He’s sitting on the couch, bent over with his elbows on his knees, his hands over his face.

Every part of her is instantly relieved to have found him. “Bellamy,” she says quietly. He doesn’t lift his head. “I heard what happened.” Her voice breaks a little. She can’t believe it herself– Octavia, gone.

She expects him to tell her to go away. To shout at her, to do something. but he doesn’t. He just sits on that couch. He doesn’t look up. It’s like she’s not even here.

Heart-rate quickening, Clarke approaches him, sinking onto the couch next to him and putting her hand on his shoulder, squeezing it. “Bellamy?”

He still doesn’t respond.

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“They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should just be friends’, turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

~ Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol 9: The Kindly Ones

No Need to Worry

Enjoy this little idea that came to me about half an hour ago. 

Plot: H is grumpy and jealous but Y/N knows how to cheer him up.

Warnings: None. Might hint on some smut but not really. 

Gif of this angel isn’t mine.

“Joe is friendly, isn’t he?” 

A deep frown decorated his forehead as he murmured the words, the only give away that the question wasn’t meant lightly. For a moment I’d believed he hadn’t meant for me to hear at all.
I looked over at Harry who was sitting beside me in the back of a cab. His shoulders were tense and his lips set into a pout, his eyes focused out of the window and onto the streets and buildings rushing past us in the dark.
We were surrounded with silence as our cab driver didn’t seem to want music playing and anyway after a long and busy night Harry and I were glad to have some peace together. Although it didn’t feel too peaceful. 
Something was going on in his head and I was determined to find out what. However, Harry didn’t like prying. So I would have to be careful.
A smile tugged at my lips and I reached out to rest a hand on his knee. My fingers touched over the skin his ripped jeans left exposed and my smile widened when I noticed Harry trying to suppress a grin of his own when my thumb tickled him slightly. His hand batted at mine in a half-hearted attempt at disconnecting us. I giggled and let go.

“Joe is an alright person, yes,” I chose to answer. 


Harry shifted in his seat and I swallowed hard when now even the hint of a smile had disappeared from his features. I moved my hand to squeeze his thigh gently. 

“Are you okay, Harry?”

He nodded. When I kept staring at him in doubt he rolled his eyes. “M’fine, Y/N.”


Silently I unbuckled my seatbelt, careful not to let him notice. Then I leaned in closer and breathed a chaste kiss to his cheek, allowing myself momentarily to enjoy his warmth, his familiar smell and the softness of his skin, then I moved away again. My eyes focused onto the trees at the side of the roads we travelled on, all of them decorated with lights that made them shine. London really was one beautiful city. 

“I don’t like Joe,” Harry grumbled from beside me.

I let out a laugh. That didn’t take even half the time I had expected. “Oh really?” 

When I looked at my boyfriend his face was set into a hard mine and he breathed heavily. Both arms were crossed over his chest and one of his knees shook nervously. 

“He’s strange,” Harry explained, though his tone let me know that there was more. 

My body turned to his. I let my knees nudge his gently and lifted one hand to massage his left shoulder. My fingers felt his tense muscles and I sighed, unhappy he was so uncomfortable.
Harry looked at me briefly. 

“He kept touching you.” 

I cleared my throat, unsure how to reply. My head played through the events of the night, entering the restaurant, greeting all of Harry’s mates, sitting down with them and enjoying a meal with friends. It had been harmless, hadn’t it? Joe didn’t even sit close to me. 

“What gave you that impression?” I asked quietly. 

Harry hissed. Loud. 

“What didn’t give me that impression is what you should be asking!”

“Har-” I began but was quickly interrupted.

“He kissed your cheek when we came in, too properly and too long. I saw him squeeze your waist when he thought I didn’t see and I doubt he knows what his plate looked like, given that he stared at you as if you were his piece of meat he’d have tonight!”

A hand brushed over his forehead and only now did I notice that he was actually shaking. I was certain that if we weren’t in the confines of the backstreet of a car he’d explode in rage. His cheeks were flushed and his brows furrowed. 

“Harry,” I spoke soothingly, “He really didn’t seem that pushy to me.”

“Probably ‘cause you think he’s attractive.” 

Harry’s burning green orbs found mine and I shrunk back a little. “Now you’re being silly.”

He fell silent. My gaze was set on him with worry, trying to find out how to calm him when he would clearly not be swayed to believe into the innocence of his friend anytime soon.

“Harry,” I murmured, my hand moving to the back of his neck so I could scratch his hairline, “I love you.” 


I bit back a laugh. My fingers moved up and slightly pulled at his hair. Careful not to make too much noise so the driver wouldn’t be alarmed, I climbed closer to him so I could press myself into his side. The skin of his neck shuddered when my mouth found the shell of his ear.

“You’re the most handsome man I know,” I hushed and all seductiveness of my tone drained when I giggled. 

Harry whined and turned his head away, but he was clearly smiling, too. 

“Joe couldn’t possibly look as good when naked as you do,” I continued, feigning a moan, while my hand trailed up dangerously close to his crotch, “You always steal my breath, Harry. Make me crazy.”

It was when my teeth nibbled his earlobe that his entire body began to wind and turn, his smile and giggle now impossible to stay hidden. 

“Dammit Y/N. Can’t you just let me be pissed of at someone for once?” 

“Nope,” I laughed, “I like your smile far too much, my love.”

His eyes met mine, full of adoration and warmth and he leaned in, nudging his nose with my own. Harry’s arm found my back and he pulled me into him with a short yank. I giggled and embraced him tightly. He didn’t give me any time however, before his lips were attached to my own with needy kisses, almost as if we’d been apart for an undesired amount of time. I whimpered and secured my hold around his neck. His kisses had my tummy flutter and my skin’s heat increase. I could taste his desperation to be close and if we were anywhere else I might just have given in. 
But we were in a car. And a stranger could watch.

“Harry,” I urged, trying to disconnect his mouth from my own, “Wait.”

“M’impatient,” he groaned. 

“Oh I can tell,” I giggled, pushing his wandering hands away from my breasts, “But we’ve got to wait until we’re home.”

He pulled back at last, a pout on his pink lips and lust in his eyes. Harry could be such a boy at times. 
His body relaxed back into his seat and I drew back, only allowing my hand to stay interlocked with his. I let my thumb draw slow circles over his skin before bringing both of our hands up to kiss his. 

“We don’t have to hang out with Joe again if he made you uncomfortable,” I offered. 

Harry shrugged. “I would have thought you’re the one to find him uncomfortable.”

“I don’t,” I explained, “but he’s also not someone I desperately need in my life. Like I do you, for example.”

Harry smiled smugly.

I continued, “So it’d be fine with me.”

Now it was Harry’s turn to bring my hand to his mouth. My heart squeezed happily when he pressed a warm kiss to it. 

“Thank you,” he murmured, “for putting up with me. You know I hate going all caveman on you but something ‘bout him is just off to me.”

“I understand,” I assured him with a reassuring smile, “And a little caveman is quite nice every now and again.”

Hope you enjoyed that! 

Rest of my writings:

All of my stories sorted out:


warning:      triggers apply. adult language, sexual themes, violence.                             change pronouns to your liking/as you see fit!

❛ We are three distrustful acquaintances who happen to share a bloodline. ❜
❛ You don’t suppose they’ve found a way to kill him once and for all, do you? ❜
❛ I’ll either stop them, or I’ll help them. Depending on my mood. ❜
❛ I cannot be killed. I am immortal. . ❜
❛ I will always protect you. You have my word on that. ❜
❛ What do you care about the witches?  ❜
❛ You would dare threaten an original? ❜
❛ I was expecting to see some sort of supernatural miracle baby bump. ❜
❛ You hardly know him… and yet you miss him.  ❜
❛ What is it about my brother that always inspires such instant admiration? ❜
❛ I cannot believe you disposed of those vampires without me. ❜
❛ Was I supposed to leave them in them in the front yard to rot? ❜
❛ It’s called compulsion. It’s a neat bit of vampire trickery. ❜
❛ The world is an awful place. Best to meet it on its own terms. ❜
❛ They want to be good. Something makes them bad. ❜
❛ You get a daylight ring when you get invited into the inner circle? ❜
❛ You do not want to end up on the wrong side of me. ❜
❛ The kind of damage a werewolf might do, only there was no full moon. ❜
❛ So, enlighten me. What did you mean when you said you had to die? ❜
❛ You’ll keep your promise about my mother’s spell book? ❜
❛ Those Orphan Annie vampires are my family, and this city is my home. ❜
❛ So this is what you do the first time we’re back together as a family? Vampire Book Club? ❜
❛ I’d deal with the devil himself just to see you suffer. ❜
❛ I’m a gay club kid who died and came back as a vampire. ❜
❛ Forgive me. Thought you were in danger. It appears I was mistaken. ❜
❛ A coven of psycho witches want to sacrifice me in a blood ritual. ❜ 
❛ What makes you think I’m afraid to die? ❜
❛ So you’re having weird, retro sex dreams. Get over it. I’m staying. ❜
❛ It is ironic discussing free will with a mind-controlling vampire. ❜
❛ Is there anyone who isn’t plotting your downfall? ❜
❛ I have conspired against my own blood and I doubt even your God could save me. ❜
❛ You compelled her to go out with me, didn’t you? ❜
❛ Do you have any idea how rare love is? In a thousand years I have found it but twice. ❜ 
❛ Kill the demon today, face the devil tomorrow. ❜
❛ Young, old, dead or alive, witches are a pain in the ass. ❜
❛ Is this what it’s come to, making moves against your own blood? ❜
❛ I’m going to find the witch who did this and then I’m going to do what I do best. ❜
❛ If there’s a war going on, I want to be on the winning side. ❜
❛ You’ve poisoned me with a kiss?!? At least you haven’t lost your sense of irony. ❜
❛ Are we skipping the part where you beg for mercy? For forgiveness? ❜
❛ Hey, am I taking orders from you now or are we in this together? ❜
❛ One little spell then we can finally be together for real, what are you waiting for? ❜
❛ They took my home, my people, everything. I can’t just run away. ❜
❛ You know, you’ve come a long way, little wolf. ❜
❛ I woke up in the church and all I felt was this hunger. ❜
❛ A warrior fights for what they believe in. A warrior fights for his family. ❜
❛ I kept you from becoming a beast for as long as I possibly could. ❜
❛ As a devout feminist, I refuse to say that you hit like a girl. ❜
❛ Am I crazy, or did he just do his version of a nice thing? ❜
❛ I am your only family. And there is no greater strength than family. ❜
❛ Don’t be stupid. I’m offering you eternal life. ❜
❛ We will sleep for a century and wake with a power unlike any that’s ever been seen. ❜
❛ Being Alpha’s an honor, you know. It’s one you have to earn every day. ❜
❛ We are a macabre echo of a family, and I take all the blame for that.  ❜
❛ You just wouldn’t be you if you didn’t have a knife, would you? ❜
❛ And does this monster have complicated feelings for you? ❜
❛ Okay, fair enough, pick a fight, call me out! ❜
❛ What do you feel like you owe these people? ❜
❛ Do you mind? I’m trying to reverse a very complicated sacrifice spell. ❜
❛ I leave you with the burden of a truth that no one will believe. ❜
❛ Tell me, darling, how did they respond to your overtures? ❜
❛ If you truly thought me weak, you would snatch this weapon from my hand. ❜
❛ I wanted to rip my own heart out every time I woke so I couldn’t feel. ❜
❛ We came here to honor the alliance between us.  ❜
❛ You know why I’m sitting here day drinking in the corner all by lonesome? ❜
❛ I’m pretty much done and through with the vamps, wolves, and witches of this town. ❜
❛ It’s not safe being out this late. You never know who you’ll run into. ❜
❛ I’ll explain everything. Just say you believe me. ❜
❛ It’s been a thousand years. How is this possible?  ❜
❛ I know that we’re in a cemetery and I happen to be terminal…. ❜
❛ Spread the word and do arrive early enough to clean yourself up. ❜
❛ You have disgraced this family for the last time. ❜
❛ You talk about family; family this, family that. ❜
❛ I haven’t earned the right to share your secrets, have I? ❜
❛ You’re my blood. And I need you… I need you by my side. ❜
❛ Oh, you’re angry, are you? ❜
❛ I’ve been here a thousand years! I was building that dagger to protect myself against you! ❜
❛ I got a family who didn’t care if I lived or if I died. ❜
❛ This house, though charming, is completely falling apart. ❜
❛ I know this wedding can work. We can bring our little girl home. ❜
❛ You absolutely will not believe the week I’ve had. ❜
❛ Fine. Go. You’ll be back. The prodigal son always returns home. ❜
❛ Family are not just people who coddle you, who grant you your every whim. ❜
❛ I will step in front of a moving truck before I let your mother take over my body. ❜
❛ Not the first time that’s been done by a member of this family.  ❜
❛ I woke up with puncture wounds all up and down my spine! ❜
❛ If what you say is true, then death is far too delicate a fate for her. ❜
❛ Heh, you think I’m gonna break her little heart? ❜
❛ I have a unique ability. Because I’m a hybrid. ❜
❛ Except that every werewolf in town is trying to kill me. ❜
❛ We need to get out of here… Are you gonna help me, or what? ❜
❛ Your pack? Last I checked, your pack was blindly following me. ❜
❛ First, I’m going to kick your ass. Then, I’m going to take my pack back. ❜
❛ We’re so going to hell for this. ❜
❛ Remind me to teach you how to send a text message. ❜
❛ A thousand years estranged, and you choose to walk in silence? ❜
❛ Kind of hard to rest with a thousand-year-old psycho in the next bed. ❜
❛ You waited for me, so I’ll do the same for you. But, our people need their alpha. ❜
❛ Is this rash a side effect of the witchy acid trip he’s on? ❜
❛ You declared war when you came after my family. ❜
❛ You’re outnumbered. Are you going to beg for your miserable life? ❜


aries- supercut

I’ll be your quiet afternoon crush
Be your violent overnight rush
Make you crazy over my touch

taurus- sober

We’re King and Queen of the weekend
Ain’t a pill that could touch our rush
But what will we do when we’re sober?

gemini- writer in the dark

I am my mother’s child, I’ll love you ‘til my breathing stops
I’ll love you 'til you call the cops on me
But in our darkest hours, I stumbled on a secret power
I’ll find a way to be without you, babe

cancer- liability (reprise)

Maybe all this is the party
Maybe the tears and the highs we breathe, oh no
Maybe all this is the party
Maybe we just do it violently

leo- perfect places

I hate the headlines and the weather
I’m nineteen and I’m on fire
But when we’re dancing I’m alright
It’s just another graceless night

virgo- sober II

All the glamour, and the trauma
And the fucking melodrama 
All the gunfights, and the limelights
And the holy sick divine nights 
They’ll talk about us, all the lovers
How we kissed and killed each other

libra- hard feelings

When you’ve outgrown a lover
The whole world knows but you
It’s time to let go of this endless summer afternoon

scorpio- the louvre 

Blow all my friendships
To sit in hell with you
But we’re the greatest
They’ll hang us in the Louvre
Down the back, but who cares - still the Louvre 

sagittarius- green light

All those rumors, they have big teeth
Oh, they bite you
Thought you said that you would always be in love
But you’re not in love no more 

capricorn- homemade dynamite

So let’s let things come out of the woodwork
I’ll give you my best side, tell you all my best lies
Seeing me rolling, showing someone else love

aquarius- loveless

Bet you wanna rip my heart out
Bet you wanna skip my calls now
Well guess what? I like that
'Cause I’m gonna mess your life up
Gonna wanna tape my mouth shut
Look out, lovers

pisces- liablilty 

I know that it’s exciting
Running through the night, but
Every perfect summer’s
Eating me alive until you’re gone
Better on my own

I find myself crying in my best friends bedroom at two am asking myself how the fuck I fell so deeply for a boy I never saw coming. I bite my nails to the quick and smile half heartedly but never for long. I feel dizzy upon standing on my feet and wipe my tears in public bathrooms, straightening my makeup so many times in one day I wonder why I bother putting it on anymore. It’s not like there’s anyone I have to look nice for, anyway. “Its either there or it isn’t,” you say. I lay in the bed I loved you in asking where I went wrong again, I can feel my heart pounding in my chest and every beat aches for your touch. My lips still taste like you and my fingertips still remember the firmness of your body against mine, when all we had to do was breathe and be together and move. Why cant everything be as simple as kissing is? Why can’t it all make as much sense? “It isn’t there,” you tell me. “I knew from the beginning it wasn’t there.” When I’m with you I find myself asking myself why the fuck I’m doing this, spilling my love over someone who will wipe it off of his clothes before he leaves again. “Just go,” I tell you, when all I want to do is pull you so close so you’ll stay. But you look down at me like you almost feel bad for me for falling in love with someone like you. Someone who is tall and beautiful and honest and completely uninterested in the idea of loving them in return. “Is that your girlfriend?” Someone asks you when we are together. “No,” you say too naturally, too loudly. I try not to flinch as I stare down at the dinner you got us, curling my toes against the truth I’ve been trying so desperately to be okay with. Maybe that means I don’t respect myself, that I’d give everything you want if you only asked for it. Because I felt as lonely as I did in the darkest times of my life when you held me. Still unloved. Still alone. Yet here with you. Every kiss I gave you was a question, every sigh that escaped my lips was a plea for you to please, please, give me something more than this. But you hugged me without your hands lingering on my body and by that time tomorrow you said I was never different to you. I was in grocery store on a Sunday afternoon wondering how the hell I’m going to get through today and tomorrow and the day after that without you, I was wandering through midday thinking about whose lips you’re kissing now. And I have dreams of ripping my own heart out of my chest as if the pain you left me was something that can be held. But it can only be felt. And feeling was something you were never good at. You didn’t seem to even care when you told me you felt nothing for me, as if shattering heartbeats like violin music gone shrill was clockwork instead of something girls cried over when their loved ones weren’t looking. “Where do you want to go from here?” You asked me, and it took everything in me not to say the only place I wanted to be in was your arms around me, where I could sleep soundly because I knew I was the only girl you wanted to hold. I wanted to be in a world that doesn’t exist and that is why I bury my face in my pillow at night and still shiver when the scent of you is on the wind.

-ap (9.17) this is what it feels like when you touch me and this is what it feels like when I love you

Supernatural:  10 Things I Learned From Tonight’s Episode.

Season 12, Episode 12:  “Stuck in the Middle (With You)”

*SPOILERS!  (Duh.)*

1.  Blatant Tarantino references are abound, and I love every second of it.

2.  Dean is persistently uncool with anyone hitting on his man.  

Check out them Rage Dimples. 

3.  Dean has a unique approach towards “teaching Cas to flirt.” 

I.e. unabashedly flirting with him himself.

4.  It’s been shown time and time again that keeping secrets on this show is never, ever a good idea, and it almost invariably leads to someone almost dying.  And yet, everyone inexplicably continues to do so.

Evidently, it runs in the family.

5.  Nevertheless, Mary canonically considers Cas to be part of her family, takes shit from no one, and it is beautiful.

6.  Even after all these seasons, Supernatural still knows how to make my heart stop.

And hurt like a bastard.

7.  Cas has now canonically told Dean he loves him.

Moreover, it was immediately followed up by “I love all of you,” implying that the first one was addressed specifically to Dean. 

Also, the simple act of a male-presenting character saying “I love you” on this show is a tremendous step towards emotional health for everyone involved. 

8.  Dean unarguably loves Cas back.

Dean refusing to leave Cas behind (even at the possible cost of his own life) is all I’ve ever wanted from this show yet it makes me want to rip my lungs out every time I get it.

Also, look at his face.  This is the face of a creature with zero sense of self worth realizing he means something to his family and friends.  Just, fuck me up, SPN.

9.  I was sure this ep would end in tragedy, but instead it ended with Dean tenderly escorting his recovering boyfriend home.

God bless you, Andrew Dabb.

10.  Castiel, Angel of the Lord, is one of the most dynamic, three-dimensional, and genuinely altruistic characters I have ever seen, and every time I think about him and how far he’s come I get an ache in my chest because it’s so damn beautiful.  

Nothing to add here, just my incoherent wailing. 

Rating:  11/10.  This episode is everything I hoped it would be, and more.  Excluding an explicit confirmation of gayness (which would always be ideal), it was a perfect tribute to the enduring love between Cas, Dean, and his human family.  Well done, SPN!     

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“I Believe” by RM [trans]

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Track no.11 on “RM” , the 1st mixtape


I believe in me i believe in myself
even if time passes, i’ll be livin’ in myself
Believe my faith believe my rap
I believe my damn voice will one day be spread
even if there are times where I’m doubtful of my dream, my own existence,
there has never been a time where I’ve doubted my voice
in my world, I’m God. that not a deal
if you determine the rank, *I’m 1
How you feel babe? do you believe that you are your master?
are you adjusting it well- the seesaw of reason and emotion?
everybody wants to become it- the leader of oneself
but you should trust yourself, a **re-done for yourself
the rationalization of bad thoughts and pessimism is MSG
it may feel like it’s right, but it erases your real flavor
we are too familiar with what we only see outside
but I have a Milky Way that is inside of me

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

You know i believe in love, believe in hope
believe in thoughts that i got while i be living this life
living this stuff like breathin
from time to time I get confused too- what is a guy like me?
sometimes I’m quite like an angel or like a devil but
I coexist with everything. postive and negativity
the thing that leads the world and I, in the end, is those two guys’ synergy
about the previous topic, all the empty moments where I felt lost or even taken aback seem lovely now
whenever I’m confused about what on earth is right or what is wrong,
(I) think about what are the things that makes me want to live again
it’s this muzik, passion, those beautiful places outside and fashion
the whiskey that pretends to be an adult uh mom you kiss me
I hope that you, too, will find the reason that can relax your anticipations
everyone heads towards death. it may seem different but it’s the same road
anyways, on the palm of time that we are all on,
(Keep walkin’) rather than forget myself, I’ll believe instead

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

even if you don’t believe in your dream, if it’s a dream that somebody else dreamt, everyone believes it
in books and TV, the internet articles, whether it’s a dog or cow- leader leader
follow your heart, not your mind. ***ah this is not something I’m saying easily
anyways, because that side and your heart are closer,
even if you hide your face, there’s no way for you to hide your heartbeat
You can hide your face boy but you can’t hide your heartbeat
It’s one life to life and one heart to give
Who the fuck ya want to be? got no life to miss

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe

wherever I am, whatever I do
I believe I believe
wherever I am, I take care of myself
I believe I believe


I believe in me i believe in myself
시간이 흘러도 i’ll be livin’ in myself
Believe my faith believe my rap
I believe my damn voice will one day be spread
내 꿈 내 존재 자체를 의심한 적은 있어도
내 목소리만큼은 의심한 적이 없어 so real
내 세상에선 내가 신이야 that not a deal
등수로 따지면 I’m 1
How you feel babe 넌 너가 너의 주인임을 믿어?
잘 맞춰주고 있어 이성과 감성의 시소?
모두 되고 싶어하지 스스로의 리더
허나 스스롤 믿어야 하지 스스로의 리던
안 좋은 생각과 비관적 합리화는 미원
그게 맞는 것 같겠지만 너의 진짜 맛을 지워
우린 밖을 보는 데에만 너무 익숙해
내 안에 은하수가 있는데
내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

You know i believe in love, believe in hope
believe in thoughts that i got while i be livin this life
livin this stuff like breathin
나도 가끔 혼란이 와 나란 놈은 무엇인가
때론 참 천사 같기도 악마 같기도 하지만
모든 것은 양립해. positive와 negativity
세상과 날 이끄는 건 결국 그 두 놈의 시너지
존재에 관한 모든 방황, 가끔 당황
스러울 정도로 허한 순간들조차 이젠 사랑스럽지
대체 무엇이 맞는지 틀린 지 헷갈릴 때면
무엇이 날 또 살고 싶게 하나 think about
바로 이 muzik, passion, 저 밖의 아름다운 곳들과 fashion
어른인 척 하는 위스키 uh mom you kiss me
너도 널 기대 쉴 수 있는 의미를 만들길
모두 죽음을 향해 다 다른 듯 같은 길
어차피 우린 전부 시간의 손바닥 위에서
(Keep walkin’) 난 날 잊기보단 믿겠어

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

자기 꿈은 안 믿어도 남이 꾸라는 꿈이라면 다 믿어
책과 TV, 인터넷 기사에선 개나 소나 리더 리더
머리 아닌 가슴을 따라가 아 쉽게 말하는 게 아니고
어차피 그 쪽이 니 심장과 더 가까우니까
얼굴은 가릴 수 있어도 심장박동은 숨길 수 없지
You can hide your face boy but you can’t hide your heartbeat
It’s one life to live and one heart to give
Who the fuck ya want to be? got no life to miss

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

내가 어디 있어도 무엇을 하더라도
I believe I believe
내가 어디 있어도 내가 나를 지켜줘
I believe I believe

Notes on his lyrics:

“If you determine the rank, I’m 1″ is word play. In the context of a ranking system, Namjoon is saying that he’s number 1. But also, 1 in Korean is pronounced as “il” or “ill” which is American slang for “cool” or “awesome”. So it can also be interpreted as Namjoon saying that “he’s ill” aka the coolest or best.

** “A re-done for yourself” means a rebirth or remake from what I understand. Koreans adapted the English word “redone” into their culture and it’s most commonly used to describe fashion (ie: redone jeans=vintage styled jeans that has been readmitted into modern day fashion). I think Namjoon was trying to say that you need to trust what you make of yourself (your own redone or rebirth, rather) to become your own leader.

*** “Ah this is not something I’m saying easily” is yet another play on words.  In the official lyrics that Namjoon posted with his mixtape, he spaced his phrase as “아 쉽게 말하는 게 아니고” which is literally “Ah, this is not something I’m saying easily”. In the actual song, however, it sounds like he’s saying “아쉽게 말하는게 아니고” in which “아쉽게” means regrettably. So the line can also be understood as “This is not something I’m telling you out of my own regret (for following my head instead of my heart)”

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Sundays with Spideypool #12

For @musicprompts who wanted fluffy soulmate au with a meeting in a Starbucks. 



Peter sat anxiously at a table in the back of the Starbucks, letting his coffee get cold, alternating between staring out the window and staring down at his phone.

The Soulmate-Matchmaker had assured him that his soulmate would be here by three pm, and it was three-oh-three and that made Peter more nervous than it should.

He supposed he could have just waited to find his soulmate like everyone else did, but between being Spider-man and trying to work and trying to find time to just fucking sleep the chances of him actually finding the one the universe intended for him to love were very slim.

Harry had been lucky. MJ was his soulmate, and they had gone to school together forever, now happily married with a set of red headed twins tearing around their home. Flash had ended up with Gwen of all people.

Peter could have waited– not everyone met their soulmate right out of highschool, some people had to wait until well into middle age, but he hadnt wanted to. Those who couldn’t wait went to Soulmate Matchmakers, who set up meetings between two people who might not meet otherwise.

So here he was. Three-oh-seven. Waiting on the woman–or man–wait. Was it wrong to hope it was a man? Peter was almost positive he was gay, but he supposed it wouldn’t matter as long as the person was right for him…

Either way, he was waiting on someone who was now– Peter checked his watch again– nine minutes late.

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november like cough syrup

feel like a monster when the lights go low.
even with your head against my chest.
it’s a minefield & we all wanna see who
can pack the worst punch.

how can i swallow enough light to rid my
shadow? how can i eat the dark clawing at
my back? whose face do i have to lie to next?
how many more bodies do i have to pretend
i feel safe enough to fall asleep next to?
how much more venom is going to leak
from my gums?

the heart starts to feel old after its dodged
so many gun shots. after witnessing so
many knife fights. voice like an endless
night, no moon in sight. skin like the
itchiest blanket. body always constricting
like it can wring out the pain.

little beast in the low light, even with my
own ear to my chest. such a black hole story.
a love poem for the gaps between my rib cage.
how fond i can grow of holes. how the heart
latches onto anything bright enough. how the
salt only grows the wound, a weed never
properly ripped out by the root.

anonymous asked:

No offence, but I feel as if in this chapter, the author got tired of this entire ark in general, as the entire situation was solved ridiculously fast. Now, I don't really understand Japanese, so this may not be accurate. But from what I see, both highly powerful opponents were ridiculously quickly subdued, and somehow Fitzgerald decided to side with the Mafia and the ADA for no reason. We didn't even get to know Fyodor's ability yet, and he's already defeated.

I, too, was disappointed in this chapter, but after collecting my thoughts, I decided that it wasn’t a bad way of ending this arc, if this indeed is the end. Sure it may have looked abrupt, but it could have been worse… Or so I like to tell myself.

(Warning: I try my best to be unbiased and objective but this may read like a lot of whining. Only proceed if you’re fine with that.)

The good:
Akutagawa’s promise to Atsushi; appearance of the rest of ADA and Port Mafia; Fitzgerald saving the day; Ango and his crew appearing; that not-so-subtle nod to Odasaku in the end

The “I don’t have much of a good or a bad opinion on this”:
Shin soukoku new combo move;  Chuuya still in the book

The bad:
Quick resolution to the arc; implied lobotomy(!?); Dazai and his keikaku doori antics again; strange sense of déjà vu since they used practically same buildup as the last arc, but now it’s the remix version

First of all, I’ll just have to throw out my wildest (not really) theory out here: Fyodor is still the “final boss”. Come on, he gets the moniker “The Demon” and gets jailed off like that? No, no. It doesn’t make sense at all, at least to me. So my guess is that Agatha and the Order of the Clock Tower will swoop in to try and mess with the Agency, but when they’re on the verge of defeat, Fyodor steps in and uses this chance to strike ADA for himself. So uh Guild Arc 2.0. Or something along those lines. This could’ve been a test drive. Or he could have other Rats in Russia waiting for orders in case there’s a Phase II. Call me optimistic, but that’s what I would like to believe.

We jailbreak from Azkaban and invade Ministry of Magic now.

There really isn’t much to say about Dazai proving himself a formidable chessmaster again, other than I called it on an earlier ask. I just hope I’m not the only one tired of him being right all the damn time. No one can be that all-seeing…

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i just saw for the first time the quote where taylor said it was like “a light went out in my personality” after he touched her and i literally would rather rip out my own heart than know she was hurt like that

promise pt. 3

Originally posted by dr-spencer-reid-though

characters: spencer x wife!reader, ellie (daughter!oc), bau team

summary: spencer returns to the bau to keep his promise to his daughter and save you. but he is not ready what waits for him. his strength is tested.

warnings: torture, injury to the reader, talk of death, and one vague allusion to suicide if you squint. 

words: 1.6k

a/n: here it is y’all!!!! this is the part where shit starts to get a little gruesome, so you’re warned. please message me and tell me what you think!!!!

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