It’s midnight and was happily dozing while trying read to finish my chapter and thinking about going to bed. Then I get a text from my landlord because she can hear water running somewhere in the house and saw my lights were on. It’s not me and I can’t hear running water. We had a text exchange about whether or not I could hear the water and if it could be coming from difficult neighbor’s apartment. Difficult neighbor is passed out dead to the world asleep in front of her tv (she does this every night and wonders why she has trouble sleeping and feels so tired all the time, but I digress). So it’s not me and difficult neighbor won’t answer her phone. I’m getting ready for bed and just heard this loud banging on the porch on difficult neighbors door followed by a lot of yelling. It’s not her either and she’s now super cranky at being woken up out of a tv induced coma to answer questions about water. I go to brush my teeth and now I CAN hear running water and it sounds like it’s in the wall behind by my bathroom which means it has to be coming from upstairs, which is my landlords part of the building. And it’s not hot water because the water heater isn’t kicking on. But they obviously are not running any water. Is there water running down the inside of the walls? Will we all be washed away in our sleep? Is the roof going to collapse on me? Who knows! I’m going to bed.
Getting the chance to catch up with someone and hear what they’ve been doing with their life and in the end feeling so damn inferior because you haven’t done fuck all 😊 how do people adult with such ease
I am so fucking disgusted by people who manipulate the hell out of people they “care” about or once “loved.” You do not manipulate someone you care about. You do not have any right to make them feel like your poor life choices are their fault. If you screwed up, be an adult (or even just a fucking human) and realize what you did wrong. Own up to your mistakes. You can not grow without mistakes. People do not control your actions and people are not responsible for what you choose to do. They may impact it but they are not holding your finger to the trigger. Ultimately you choose what happens. Good or bad, own up to the things you do and say. Yes, there will be consequences either way but fuck it. You are here to live. Not just to exist. Make the most out of your life. Fucking live.
In which: Bedelia provides therapy by phone now, apparently. Will still hates her.
(You guys, I’m peeking through my fingers at this chapter. I almost didn’t write it, and then I almost didn’t post it. It’s my first shot at Bedelia and I’m not sure it works at all. But I’m just so entertained at the idea of Will being so fucking confused about his own poor life choices that Phone Therapy With Bedelia seems like a viable option, so fuck it, here it is. Cheer up, we’ll get the boys back together in the next chapter so that’s something to look forward to even if this chapter is dreadful.)
4. What do you love about yourself? - I give people a lot of my time and energy, and I’m pretty generous as a friend. I also think I’m pretty good at being self aware and objective about situations, like even if I’m making poor life choices I’m doing them knowing full well that they’re poor life choices and what the emotional consequences might be. So I guess that’s good? 5. What’s your greatest flaw? - I make shit choices knowing full wel that they’re shit choices? And I’m so attracted to arrogant pricks, like if someone is witty I’m going to want to be around them, even if they’re obviously a dick
10. How do you spend your free time? - I like stand-up comedy, good Tv series, poetry and talking shit with good people
The first character I first fell in love with: Noiz The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Mink The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Koujakk The character I love that everyone else hates: Ryuuhou The character I used to love but don’t any longer:- The character I would totally smooch: Mizuki The character I’d want to be like: Hmm Idk they all make rather poor life choices The character I’d slap: Trip A pairing that I love: Re:Connect MinkxAoba A pairing that I despise: SeixAoba