I’m just copy pasting what I wrote on facebook earlier cause omg I need to have this here as well
Ever since I came home from Japan 2 years ago I’ve been sitting in my room every day. I’ve been plagued by constant depression, anxiety and horrible paranoia.
But for the first time ever, I find myself wanting to get a hold of my life. I’m getting inspiration to dress up again, to go out, to work out, to actually do things. While I knew how bad my mental health has been, it never occured to me until now how crippling it’s been for all these years that I’ve lived.
The new antidepressant I got have truly helped me feeling like I do today. While I’m still depressed, anxious and paranoid… I actually find myself wanting to change that. I’m not afraid to recover anymore. I actually want to enjoy my life, and I’ll be damned if I don’t deserve it after all these years!
I can’t believe that I’m writing this, I never thought a day where I felt like this would ever happen, yet here I am!
I know it will be difficult, I know that my issues will most likely never go away completely and that I’ll have my ups and downs, but it doesn’t matter. This is the first step for me to actually learn how to love myself and my life, and it feels so fucking great! <3