like i wasn't expecting them to get many notes at all

anonymous asked:

Ack sorry about sending another pitch question (I know you said something about people sending those) but you mentioned you pitched a show twice, and since I'm a creeper, I read the tags and you said the pitch wasn't how we'd think they'd be; how were they, then, out of curiosity? If I ever pitch a show, in your position, what should I expect? What exactly happened? Sorry for asking all these questions; you've been my inspiration for a while and I hope I can pitch my own show someday!! Thank you

Oh no, that’s fine!  I don’t mind telling my experience with it, and I’ve even given pitching tips before, but this post is about the extent of my knowledge.  (You can also just search my blog for “pitch”, ‘cause I’ve reblogged stuff from other people that actually KNOW what they’re talking about, haha)  I just don’t want people under the impression that I’m super experienced with it, or that I’ve ever pitched to a big deal network or producer.  I absolutely haven’t.  

I have exactly 2 pitching experiences.  The first one was a few years ago at an event in Nashville called “Film-Com”, which is an annual trade show/expo event for financing and distributing filmmaking projects.  Basically you get a booth, and you set up in this convention center with all these other aspiring creators (filmmakers, documentary people, a few video game/new media folks, all sorts), and they’ve invited a WHOLE SWATH of producers and industry professionals to come mull around the show floor with you so you can make connections and get your product out there EAT FREE MEALS and then idk, maybe fuckin’ walk around a bit and look at your dumb shitty projects if they fuckin’ feel like it but they probably wont, so what ends up happening is all the creators just walk around and look at each others’ shit, which for me—being the only animator there—means that a bunch of other jack-knobs who have some vague idea for a shitty cartoon end up giving me THEIR card so that maybe in the future I can work on THEIR dumbfuck ideas.

ANYWAY, to get to the point, they selected certain projects and scheduled them to actually go up and pitch in front of a whole room full of producers.  This happened over the course of the whole day, so I suspect the reason none of the producers were walking around interacting with people is ‘cause they were stuck in a room all day hearing 30 different suck-ass pitches and when it was all said and done they were probably exhausted.  I was scheduled as the last pitch of the day.  I enter the room and wait patiently; the person before me is running about 10 minutes over their allotted time.  I scan the room… everyone is MISERABLE.  They’re anxious, they’re uninterested, they’re sighing… the main guy who’s sort of monitoring the whole thing is pinching his brow and trying his best to keep up the pretense of politeness in telling the current pitcher to wrap it up.  NONE of these people want to be here anymore.  It seems like everyone’s spent the whole day “warming ‘em up” for me, but now they’re all sweaty and miserable, so I can either go up there and give another mediocre pitch, OR I can go up there and try my goddamn hardest to make them laugh. 

I go up on stage, just IMMEDIATELY force myself to get over any fears I have, and I pitch W2H.  I screen a short mock trailer I made (no way I’d force them to sit through that whole fucking thing), and it’s sort of like a fever dream, because I can see all of the life returning to their faces, they’re WAY into it, I’m doing fucking GREAT somehow, despite literally zero experience… and when it was all said and done, it became abundantly clear that even though they all LOVED it, not a single one of them could help me.  None of them were animation producers.  None of them KNEW animation producers.  One guy suggested I go into comics, because “comics get turned into film and tv shows all the time”.  I just had the PERFECT fucking pitch, and I pitched to people who couldn’t fucking help me.  As I was leaving, many of them came up to me and actually thanked me for sending them off for the day on a good note.  There was a big dinner at like, the fucking Governers’ mansion or something that night, and again, some of them were coming up to me and thanking me, wishing me the best and all that.  I guess if nothing else, I learned what I’m capable of.

The second pitch was an ACTUAL disaster.  When I’d first graduated I thought I could pitch W2H to Frederator, ‘cause it seemed like a good fit.  They told me (understandably) that they couldn’t reverse-engineer a show from something I’d already produced, and also that it was inappropriate (despite having a show at the time called “SuperFuckers”, but whatever; language and subject matter are different things).  Later on I got an email from them, saying that someone in their office was familiar with my work, and they invited me to come pitch them something that wasn’t W2H.  They also said that I was free to swing by their office any time, even “just to hang out”, and that if I had any questions “whether it be pitching or where to get the best burgers in Burbank”, to hit them up.  How friendly!  How perfect!  I was JUST about to move out to L.A., so I started working on this idea tentatively called “Gayliens”.  I swung by their office once, you know, just to pop in, like they said; thought I’d make myself known or whatever.  They looked at me like I was nuts.  They still invited me in and we chatted for a bit about the history of early Disney studios, but when they asked why I was there, and I reminded them about the email they’d sent, they seemed to have no idea what I was talking about.  I told them I was working on a pitch for them and that I’d be in touch so we could schedule something.  

When I finally finished putting my pitch together, I went in for a meeting with them.  It was just 2 folks, we were in like a board meeting-type room (which I imagine is probably standard).  They made some small talk with me first, which I’m sure was an attempt to loosen us all up a bit and set the mood, but all of their questions really caught me off guard.  (I guess they asked where I was working, and when I told them I didn’t have a studio job, they asked how I was making money, and I’m sure it wasn’t meant to put me in an awkward position, but people asking me how I make money literally ALWAYS puts me in an awkward position, because my income sources are scattered and weird.  Try explaining how youtube ad revenue works to your social services worker, it’s a blast.) 

SO okay, I let myself get tripped up a bit.  I go on with the pitch; they don’t really want me to pitch the concept, they just have me show them my storyboards and read through the whole thing.  They’re DEAD silent the whole time.  I can’t get a read on them at all.  When it’s over, they ask me some more questions that trip me up.  Some of them are 100% my fault; they asked for a title, and I wasn’t ready to say “Oh, it’s tentatively called GAYLIENS,” out loud to people who I couldn’t get a read from.  

It’s all kind of a blur, but the few topics of discussion I remember them bringing up were that “the storyboards look almost TOO good”, like it was TOO polished or well-developed (which is sort of a backhanded compliment I guess???), because see, “when they made Adventure Time… blah blah blah it just started off as this loose idea, and once they were a season or so into it, they started expanding on the universe and developing the characters a little bit more…” — AS IF ANYONE doesn’t understand why AT got so popular???  You don’t have to TELL ME, I WAS WATCHING IT, I FUCKING KNOW.  No one gave a shit about AT until they got Rebecca Sugar and all these talented writers working on it a couple seasons in, and doing all this character-heavy shit.  I tried to present them with something that had all that character shit baked into it already, ‘cause I knew they were gonna’ use AT as an example.  But it seemed like they’re not looking for something that’s already developed with it’s own voice or sensibility, they’re looking for a vague idea that they can mold into something as they go.  

They also told me–and I still can’t get over this–that they’re looking for “”””””characters that people will want to cosplay as””””””, which is funny to me for a plethora of reasons; namely that they have no way of knowing that PEOPLE DO COSPLAY AS MY CHARACTERS, but also that I spent half of my time in college working on ridiculous magical girl Adventure Time crossover group cosplays (don’t fuckin’ laugh) like trust me I’m ALARMINGLY familiar with cosplay, and ALSO, that looking for a new property with the guidelines that it should be “the next big thing that some fucking nerds will dress up as at comic con” just seems like such an out-of-touch-but-trying-to-be-hip, capitalize-on your-fandom-doing-all-the-legwork-for-you, fucking executive thing to say.  I know I sound like a whiny art school kid saying that but my animation instructor was so anti-establishment, and I carry a lot of that with me still, and something about that statement–insignificant as it may be–kind of epitomizes how I feel about the industry?  It’s a hard thing to explain. 

I walked out of that pitch with my mind feeling like TV static.  My friends were waiting for me next door at a bakery and they were super excited, asking me how it went, and I was just like “I mean… BAD, for sure, but I don’t know where to even start.”  Hahaha.  I don’t know.  It just seems like everyone wants to play gatekeeper I guess.  They want This Thing™, but it can’t be too This Thing™.  They want the thing to have A Fandom™, but they don’t really understand fandom ‘cause they don’t participate in fandom.  They want Your Idea™ but they want to make it Their Idea™.  I don’t know.  I’m just angry and bitter and that’s my experience with pitching.  Admittedly some of what went wrong in these pitches was my fault, or there were circumstances beyond my control, and regardless of how that pitch went, I don’t actually dislike Frederator (I’m on their youtube network), and Fred Seibert has actually done a ton of iconic shit.

I don’t think I’ve ever AIRED MY GRIEVANCES in such great detail before, but there you have it.  If you want some tips on pitching, you can check out the links I provided at the beginning of the post; there’s tons of people out there who actually know their shit too, and they’d probably give more proactive advice.  I don’t know if this helps at all, but hopefully you can glean something from it!  That’s just my limited experience with it.  Haha.  Good luck!  

The Notebook

Tw: Suicide. I’m pretty sure that tells you this is a sad fanfic. Also, it’s Roball. Hope you enjoy!
It was incredibly late at night, and Gumball should have went to be long time ago. But the guilt keep him from sleeping, it made him unable to think about anything but the notebook that his parents tried to hide in the kitchen. He had found it, and he had been tempted to read it, but he was too stubborn to accept the facts and face things. Until now.
Doing his hardest to be silent, the young cat went downstairs and started to search in the bookshelf, until he finally found what he searched for. Slowly, he grabbed the notebook and a flashlight. He sat in a corner of the house and considered for a second the idea of skipping everything and just reading what was actually important, but he was unable to do it. He wanted to know when things got sour.
The first pages were so dirty it was impossible to actually understand anything, but all the numbers and drawings showed that they were evil plans of some kind. Inspectioning further, he noticed that some pages appeared to be missing, but it was impossible to know if they had been important or not. Too tired to actually give it much thought, the feline decided to let it go and continue reading. Finally, in page 29, he got to the “fun” stuff: Rob’s diary. Why he felt the need to write all the things in his life was beyond him, but it didn’t really matter that much. At least it had served a purpose at the end.
“My life has been really shitty lately” Started the first entry, without any kind of introduction. There wasn’t a date, and the calligraphy was awful, but Gumball wasn’t going to back up now that he finally had the courage to actually read the damn thing “I’m living in the streets, I nearly got erased from existence because I’m a mistake and I just learned I’m in a TV show. Basically, everything sucks” He couldn’t help but roll his eyes at how dramatic his nemesis was. Were did he even got such weird ideas? How could he be in a TV show without knowing? The idea was simply ridiculous.
He slowly went page after page, checking for answers to his questions and laughing slightly when the cyclops mentioned him, until he finally reached the point were things started to go downhill. The words in page 37 were even harder to read, and they seemed like they had been written in a rush “I made a discovery, I finally know why I always get hurt, why things always go wrong. It’s part of a joke, my suffering is for the entertainment of the viewers. I’m still not sure how dark the humor can get, but I’m worried about what will happen next” That was all. It worried him to no end how wrapped up in his own paranoia the other boy had been. Had he know how serious the situation was, he would had helped.
The next entry was completely unreadable. He guessed his nemesis ruined it out of embarrassment, because the only words he could understand indicated something private had been written there “crying…Watterson…I’ve tried…mine…” Whatever, it probably wasn’t that groundbreaking. What could Rob probably think about him that he didn’t know? Nothing, of course.
“I murdered Gumball yesterday” Was the disturbing start of page 40. It scared the cat to death, but his curiosity took over and he ended up continuing his reading “He’s okay now, and he doesn’t remember, but it’s driving me crazy. I should apologize, maybe, but I’m scared. Are we really trapped forever, no matter what I do? What’s permanent, and what would be restarted the next episode?” Apparently, his dear enemy had a dream and he thought it was a reality. He didn’t exactly remember dying horribly, but he remembered when the cyclops awkwardly apologized for… whatever he thought he had done. And wasn’t killing him the other’s goal, anyway?
Feeling a headache coming from all the overanalyzing, the feline decided to just continue “I think​ I’m going insane” You think? “This is too much for me. I need help, but nobody believes me. I feel like it's​ time to give up. I didn’t want things to end like this, but I don’t think I have another choice”
-You had me- Whispered softly the cat, feeling tears forming in his eyes. The next page was the last one, but he wasn’t ready to end the book yet. There probably were a lot of things Rob didn’t write, things that were important and interesting. But now it was too late to ask for that. Breathing slowly to calm down, he continued.
“It’s kind of funny how little I have written in this notebook. Guess I didn’t really last that long, eh?… Anyway, this is a goodbye. If you are reading this, I’m not alive anymore. Which would mean I made a permanent change, finally. Looks like I wasn’t that important of a character after all… Whatever” There were a few words that were crossed, making them hard to read. Luckily, they didn’t appear very interesting “So, I’m leaving this note for someone to find. So… Uh, I hope my family is OK (If I had one, that is. I don’t know) My classmates were interesting so I guess that’s something. The Watterson family was a pain for me, but at least I could use they basement and stuff” That’s it. Not a mention of him directly, not some kind of threat, nothing. So much for them being nemesis.
He prepared to close the notebook, when suddenly he thought of something. He checked every single page, one after the other. All of them were blank, until he reached page 64 “I wasn't​ going to write this, but… I’m going to die so it doesn’t really matter. Gumball Watterson, if you’re reading this, I need you to know something: You ruined everything in my life, and I really wish to get my revenge. But you also gave me a purpose, a distraction. Kind of like friends, I guess. And I know this doesn’t make sense, I know we’re nemesis and that I should hate you, but… I love you. I hope at least you remember me” It wasn’t exactly what he expected, but it did bring him to tears. Hugging the notebook to his chest, the cat cried and slowly waited for the pain to dissipate, or at least to become less overwhelming.
-I’m sorry- He said to himself, trying with all his strength to calm down. If days actually reset, he wanted to remember. He wanted a chance to listen and help. But looking at the calendar, all the hope left him. Just how many days had passed already? Probably too many. At least he could do one last thing for his enemy- I’ll remember you, Rob. I always will.

Undertale - Starter Sentences
  • SPOILER WARNINGS AHEAD! Please proceed with caution. As always, feel free to change any pronouns/words to your liking.
  • "You're new here, aren'tcha?"
  • "Golly, you must be so confused."
  • "Hey buddy, you missed some."
  • "Is this a joke? Are you braindead?"
  • "You just wanted to see me suffer."
  • "Ah, do not be afraid, my child."
  • "Welcome to your new home."
  • "Here, take my hand for a moment."
  • "I should not have left you alone for so long."
  • "Surprise! It is a butterscotch-cinnamon pie."
  • "I want you to have a nice time living here."
  • "I have seen it time and time again. They come. They leave. They die."
  • "I am only protecting you, do you understand?"
  • "Hmph. You are just like the others."
  • "Attack or run away!"
  • "I know you want to go home, but..."
  • "I promise I will take good care of you here. I know we do not have much, but... We can have a good life here."
  • "My expectations... My loneliness... My fear... For you, I will put them aside."
  • "Do not worry about me. Someone has to take care of these flowers."
  • "Quick, behind that conveniently-shaped lamp."
  • "I will bathe in a shower of kisses every morning."
  • "Hmm... Maybe this lamp will help you."
  • "He's playing poker by himself. He appears to be losing."
  • "I can't be your friend!"
  • "I guess this means I have to go out on a date with you?"
  • "All that pressure to succeed... Really got to her..."
  • "You know what would be more valuable to everyone? If you were dead."
  • "You think I'm gonna be friends with you, huh?"
  • "We're gonna be best friends!!"
  • "Envision these vegetables as your greatest enemy! Now!! Pound them to dust with your fists!!"
  • "Uh, you know, like a robotic TV star or something."
  • "Now he's an unstoppable killing machine with a thirst for human blood?"
  • "Yes, she scrawls her name in the margins of the notes. She names programming variables after her. She even writes stories of them together, sharing a domestic life. Probability of crush -- 101%."
  • "Yeah, you gotta save your money for college and spiders."
  • "D-Dude... I can't... I can't take this anymore! Not like this!! Like, [NAME]! I like... I like, LIKE you, bro!"
  • "I found a gun in the dumpster!"
  • "He's like, my robot husband. He just doesn't know it yet."
  • "You've still got time. Don't live like me. I'm 19-years old, and I've already wasted my entire life."
  • "Never interact with attractive people."
  • "Why do people find him so attractive? He's literally just a freaking rectangle."
  • "Future? What future? I'll probably be trapped at this stupid job forever."
  • "This was all just a big show. An act. [NAME] has been playing you for the fool the whole time."
  • "All so you would think she's the great person that she's not."
  • "Nice day today, huh? Birds are singing, flowers are blooming..."
  • "We could be like... Like a family..."
  • "You really are an idiot."
  • "Killing me is the only way to end this."
  • "If you let me live... I'll come back. I'll kill you. I'll kill everyone you love."
  • "Don't you realize that being nice... just makes you get hurt?"
  • "Let's go to the garbage dump!!"
  • "She's so confident... And strong... And funny..."
  • "I'm just a nobody. A fraud. All I've ever done is hurt people. I've told her so many lies, she thinks I'm... She thinks I'm a lot cooler than I actually am."
  • "If she gets close to me, she'll... She'll find out the truth about me. ... What should I do?"
  • "Let's roleplay it."
  • "I kiss her back... S...softly... I... l-look gently into her eyes... I START HOLLERING!! [NAME]!!! I LOVE YOU!!! [NAME]!!! KISS ME AGAIN, [NAME]!!!"
  • "...WHAT did you just say?"
  • "You don't have to lie to me. I don't want you to have to lie to anyone anymore."
  • "[NAME]... I want to help you become happy with who you are."
  • "Anime is real, RIGHT?!"
  • "[NAME] and I finished our training early. Very early. So I sent her home. Very home."
  • "Is that your ex? Gee, that's rough, buddy."
  • "OH MY GOD. Will you two just smooch already?!"
  • "It's all your fault. It's all because you made them love you."
  • "Your life will end here, where no one remembers you..."
  • "No! I don't need anyone!"
  • "[NAME]... Do you know why I keep doing this? Why I keep fighting to have you around?"
  • "I'm doing this... because you're special. You're the only one that understands me."
  • "I care about you, [NAME]. I care about you more than anyone else in the world."
  • "I'm not ready for this to end. I'm not ready to say goodbye to someone like you again."
  • "I'm so alone... I'm so afraid... [NAME], I... I... I'm so sorry."
  • "I always was a crybaby, wasn't I?"
  • "I wish I could tell you how everyone feels about you."
  • "I understand if you can't forgive me. I understand if you hate me. I acted so horrible. I hurt you. I hurt so many people. There's no excuse for what I've done."
  • "Maybe... The truth is... [NAME] wasn't really the greatest person."
  • "You're the type of friend I wish I always had."
  • "Take a deep breath. There's nothing left to worry about."

jay4jam  asked:

I love your blog. I was reading thru some stuff nd came to the SBL premiere. Some miarren fanatic was going on about M being there but she wasn't even sat next to him. If that was this year she would have prob been on bt he RC. Anyway, eventho some of my theories and beliefs differ from yours...I think the biggest cc tell was when d and c left and came back with reajusted clothes. BTW, what are your thoughts on what c said about pursuing the man he thought was perfect for him. I saw that today

Hi There and thanks for your note! Glad you are enjoying.  Yes, SBL was an interesting time.  She for sure was there, but left before the after party and agreed, the re-adjusting was very telling. I am guessing Darren couldn’t wait to get home to show Chris exactly how proud he was.

I do believe this is the quote you are referencing:    

This comes from “Little Red’s Guide to Royalty.”  And what a beautiful quote.  This is when Red is addressing her Kingdom as she is trying to avoid a scandal for being in a “Cross-Species Relationship.” She is explaining to her kingdom that there is absolutely nothing scandalous about her relationship at all.  Right before this quote, she is explaining to her subjects that:

 “love is love. regardless of age, color, gender, and yes, long as I am your queen you will have the right to love whomever you wish.”  

A farmer inquires if this means he can marry his cow, and I absolutely love the response:

Does your cow love you as much as you love it? Do you miss each other when you are apart? Does you cow embody your happiness? Do you look into each other’s eyes and know you have found your other half?”

This quote to me is Chris stating what is important in a relationship.  You know that the love is real and should be fought for, no matter what the circumstances, if the person is truly your other half (hmmm…kind of reminds me of some dialogue and critical themes from Hedwig).  And I think it is important to read this in conjunction with the quote above.   Red, as we know, pursued Jack for years.  A man she could never have as he was in love with someone else.  And when she was least expecting it, Froggy came along and stole her heart.

Let’s not forget the dedication:

We all know and accept that this was Chris’ creative way of dedicating a book covertly to the love of his life, Darren.  And we all know that Chris identifies with Red, he has said it himself and I will always love this IG that also confirms this:

And that quote, that quote is speaking volumes about their relationship. Not literally, I don’t think there was someone else that Chris was pursuing that he felt was perfect for him before Darren walked into his life and completely turned it upside down.  

But abstractly.  The person he thought he wanted, the image of a relationship he thought he would have, likely even when it all first started, when he was so enamored and falling in love, so young and so naive, not yet tainted by the industry. And this image of perfection didn’t turn out to be reality for him. Yes, he still has Darren. Absolutely. But not in the manner that he thought.

I think the line I love the most is:

He is not the definition of perfection.  But he is perfect for me.

How many times do you think Chris has had to defend his relationship? To himself, his family, his friends, his colleagues, his employers. I struggle sometimes to understand why he would chose to be with someone that he has to hide.  And then I realize, there is “Too Much Love” in that relationship. And I realize, what Chris accepted long ago, their relationship may not be my idea of perfect or your idea of perfect.  I am sure so many have said that he deserves someone that will proudly walk a Red Carpet with him and hold his hand in public. And yes, absolutely he still WANTS that.  And I think he believes he will have that someday (please soon).  But the fact remains, even if he was never to have that opportunity. If he was never acknowledged as the boyfriend/fiance/husband. It does not matter.  He and Darren have found true happiness with each other. Which is amazing considering the toxins that constantly try and poison them and their relationship.  

Because all that matters is Darren is perfect for him.  And he is perfect for Darren.  And Chris would not have it any other way.

Worse Than Werewolves: Matchmaking Teachers...

Fandom: Teen Wolf
Pairing: Stiles x Reader ft. Finstock and others
Warnings: Meddling teachers…and slight angst before the happiness…
Writer:  imaginesofeveryfandom aka thequeenofthehobbits
This popped into my head: Coach Finstock ships you and Stiles with a passion…he will do anything to get you two together…

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Victoria 105

This post contains spoilers.

This episode felt like a watershed moment for me. It was saying goodbye to the impossible and trying to be optimistic about the future.

  • Victoria and Albert are happy and in love. *sigh* I acknowledge that I suffer from major bias here, but I still don’t feel the heat. At all.
  • Hmm…Ernest seems to be making eyes at the Duchess of Sutherland. This can only end badly. But what the hell? I seem to love climbing on board sinking ships.
  • Victoria doesn’t know how to tell Lord M that she’s engaged. It’s awkward, it’s tense, more so because he’s none the wiser. I literally clutched my chest when she finally plucked up the courage and told him. And he could not look her in the eyes. *heart breaks for the first time* 
  • Albert heads back home and everyone’s talking about money and titles. I get it. He’s poor as a church mouse and he wants some independence. I don’t begrudge him that.
  • Ernest, darling Ernest. He thinks his brother needs some experience ahead of his wedding night so takes Albert to “a house of ill-repute.” Let’s just say Victoria has nothing to worry about. The only thing Albert was interested in was taking notes. Haha.
  • Were you throwing some shade Albert’s way, Lord M? LOL
    Victoria: Do you think Albert has a mistress?
    Lord M: No, ma’am….at least not yet.
    It’s okay. We know you’re secretly in pain, Lord M. Quite frankly, so am I.
  • Penge has a romantic backstory? I wouldn’t have guessed.
  • Thanks for being a whole lot less creepy this week, Mr Francatelli. I think I’m back to low key shipping you with Miss Skerrett. But oh, there’s some drama with her, isn’t there? I need more information!
  • Albert returns and Lord M stands to the side and watches their reunion. *heart breaks again* But not long after Albert’s return, he and Victoria argue about his position at court and his finances.
  • However, with the wedding day rapidly approaching, Victoria and Albert make up once she confesses her fears about his taking a mistress. He admits to wanting only her and she promises to love, honour and obey him. They embrace and kiss. At the window Lord M watches on as Lehzen approaches. “We have been replaced, Lord Melbourne,” she says. He smiles sadly. “As it should be.” *note that at this point I’m in cardiac arrest. I have so many feelings.*
  • Is it just me or does everything still feel really rushed? Three episodes of world building where the pace is relatively slow. One could even argue that very little actually happens. Then suddenly within the span of two episodes a) Albert arrives b) they’re engaged c) they’re married. Jenna Coleman mentioned that they filmed a birthing scene so we know there’s going to be a baby or nine at the rate things are going before series end. I honestly feel like the pacing is way off. IMHO, Albert should have been introduced sooner if they planned to have a wedding by episode 5. #justsaying
  • Finally, the moment arrives and I am not prepared. Lord M and Victoria say their goodbyes. I won’t lie. I sobbed like a baby. I didn’t know what to expect, but I do love how Jenna and Rufus played it. It was heartfelt and sincere. Then this happened:
    Victoria: Do you remember telling me that someday I would give my heart without reservation?
    Lord M: Yes, I remember.
    Victoria: You were almost right. 
    Lord M: Almost, ma’am?
    Victoria: I shall never forget. *camera pans to Lord M’s face and I die.* 
  • Eyes sparkling, he asks for permission to kiss her and tenderly presses his lips to her cheek. I’m amazed I managed to see this through the waterfall of tears pouring out of my eyes. Victoria leaves and Lord M turns back to watch her. It was heart-wrenching and I was reminded of Daisy Goodwins words: Lord M was Victoria’s first love and she was his last. It was a fitting farewell, I think. Painful and bittersweet. But beautiful. 
  • The episode ends with the consummation of the marriage. I heard it described as “steamy” and so I had built up some expectations in my mind. Or maybe it’s the Julia Quinn binge I’ve been on. Either way, it seemed very tame.

I assume Lord M has now retired to Brocket Hall and will spend the rest of his days staring at his rooks. I do hope he finds happiness there because I hate to think of him alone and lonely. He deserves so much more. (Yes, I know historically he dies alone after a stroke, but I choose not to believe that, okay?) I will miss him and I think Rufus Sewell’s departure will leave it’s mark. But the show must go on and there are three more episodes before the series ends. (BTW - I was under the impression Lord M would be around until episode six. But this felt like his exit, so I don’t think we’ll see him back.) 

Side note: Rufus Sewell was PHENOMENAL in this show. He’s such an underrated actor and I hope more people sit up and take note of his extraordinary talent. 

That’s about all I can muster for now, so excuse me while I curl into a ball and sob into my pillow.

On going too far and acknowledging it.

I joke around with my students. I tease. I kid. But I have a good sense for when it’s okay and when it’s not–that’s part of what makes a sense of humor good, isn’t it? The timing of it all. To everything there is a season.

And not just timing, but also audience. My momma taught me at an early age that the key to good writing is knowing who your audience is, what they want to hear, and how they want to hear it. Then: you give it to them, to get what you want. Most days I think that’s really the most fundamental key to life.

But like all things, there is no such thing as having perfect timing all the time. There isn’t a 100% accuracy button on judging your audience–because even when your audience is the same every single day, every single day is not the same. The line changes. You have to change with it. Adjust, and rapidly.

Today I missed the line. It took three small steps closer to me and, unwittingly, I took one giant step forward and went too far.

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anonymous asked:

20. things you said that I wasn't meant to hear MC/Klaus!

Long work day means therapeutic writing at night.  Two anons asked for this prompt, and I actually had several ideas for it, all of which will eventually make their way into one fic or another.

But for now, I hope you enjoy this one!  Optional Lulias undertones if you squint.

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Invincible, Klaus/MC

“How did you know?”


“About my brother. That he was…you know…” There was an embarrassed cough, and the rest of the sentence was muttered. “…the one.”

Klaus stopped in his tracks.

The voices were unmistakable, and just around the corner. If he’d gone any further, he would have revealed himself.

This seemed as good a moment as any not to reveal himself.

He glanced around, noticing a pillar.  If it had been Clara, she’d have ducked behind it, thinking herself hidden but - like an ostrich with its head in the sand - still blatantly obvious to anyone with half a brain.  But Klaus wasn’t Clara, so he whipped out his wand and muttered a nearly soundless camouflage spell.

Klaus usually considered himself a morally upstanding individual, but he certainly wasn’t above eavesdropping when the reasons were right. Or when the subject was himself, and the speaker his adorable but often exasperating girlfriend.

As he’d expected, Clara was stammering.  Klaus could picture her – head ducked, eyes downcast, cheeks as red as beets.  “Wha… I… W-What kind of question is that, Elias? That’s so embarrassing!”

Klaus rolled his eyes. Here would have been the moment where – if it’d been him – he’d have reached out, grasped Clara’s chin, and glared at her until he’d scared the answer out of her.  But because it was Elias, that didn’t happen.

“N-Nevermind! F-Forget I asked!” Elias sounded as panicked as Clara. Klaus’ brow twitched in irritation at having seemingly been denied a choice morsel of information.  

“No, w-wait!”  There was a rustle of movement, and a few steps, and by the next moment they sounded a little further away, though still audible to Klaus where he stood.  “Elias…is this about L – “

Don’t say it!”


“Owww! My ears!”

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anonymous asked:

If you don't care that the deleted 6x01 scene is or isn't canon and accept all it says, then you have to accept that for all deleted scenes. Including the sleepover in 5x01 which happens before the proposal and where Kurt says he knows about it and is thinking to say "yes". So 1) Kurt wasn't pressured by anybody bc he was a legal adult with the mental capacity to take how own decisions and be responsible for them; 2) his intentions were already to say yes. Funny how this is always brushed aside.

I don’t care whether the scene is ‘canon’ or not. Watch the fucking scene. Kurt was pressured, canonically, in 5x01, and that’s exactly what we saw. You have all you need to prove this just by watching the aired scenes themselves. Burt drove him there, without telling him where they were going. He knew, but that takes away his choice, not telling him, and furthermore, by being behind the wheel, Burt is implicitly authoring his approval, while denying Kurt an opportunity to really talk about his options when he asks for it. Burt also notes that he looks like he’s going to his execution (canon evidence), and then used his dead mom to get him in there (emotional manipulation), and then the whole fucking town is there practically (manipulation by social pressure), while Kurt is cringing and overwhelmed. 

Then, Burt said that Kurt should listen to what Blaine has to say. Kurt goes in expecting Blaine to TALK to him, not give him another serenade (when he said, the day before, that he doesn’t want Blaine to do that anymore) that involves every person he knows and so many other people watching and expecting him to say yes. That’s not a HAPPY expression on Kurt’s face.

Funny how Blaine always brushes aside any boundary or want that Kurt has, because he’s a manipulative selfish fuck.

BUT if you really want to argue this about the cut scenes: His intentions as of then end of season four were definitely them ‘not a couple’ and to NOT get together again. And if you’re saying all scenes are canon, then he was still manipulated because in the 6x01 scene he FUCKING SAYS HE WAS MANIPULATED. “Kurt wasn’t pressured by anybody bc he was a legal adult with the mental capacity to take how own decisions and be responsible for them” — You are so full of bullshit people can smell you from around the world. No one is arguing about Kurt’s legal capacity, and by making this argument, you are taking a huge shit on anyone who has ever been in an abusive relationship. You are saying you can’t be manipulated if you are a legal adult, which is utterly untrue, and diminishes the position of many, many people who are, in fact, legal adults with “mental capacity” (god you are a jerk), who have ended up in relationships with someone who manipulates them and uses their family and friends, and children, and whatever it takes, to force them to stay in a relationship.

Furthermore, “thinking about saying yes” is not a definite decision to say yes, and it’s followed by Kurt in the car with Burt saying he doesn’t think he can do any better and looking for an option other than ‘yes’ or ‘no’. This means that his INTENTIONS are undecided, still, as of walking into the place…


You are so wrong you must have done a backbend to get into this position.

Go enjoy your abusive toxic bullshit ship that the writers know is toxic and abusive and bullshit.