So I jotted this down a while back when I read the post on it from @shitty-check-please-aus and I was reading some Soulmate stories tonight and I realized a thing.
First, this is what I’d written -
You have the date that your soulmate dies on your body (time and everything). Bitty has Jack’s date of death as when he overdosed, because he technically died for a second, but he was brought back. So when the date comes and passes, he knows his soulmate is dead and is grief stricken.
Flashforward, he meets Jack and its all like it was in the comics, but one time, when they’re chatting, and Jack’s a bit drunk the SMH team is playing Never Have I Ever and Jack hasn’t done anything and Shitty is getting frustrated so finally he goes “NEVER HAVE I EVER DIED” and the team is like “Shitty what?” but Bitty realizes that Jack put down a finger. His eyes widen as Jack explains softly, briefly, about an OD when he was younger. Bitty remembers the time around which that happened, because his mom, the huge Bad Bob Zimmermann fan she was, told him about it. After the game, he manages to pull Jack aside and ask him when it was. Jack gets stiff and starts to try and pull away but Bitty stops him, too determined to know he asks.
“Was it November 14th, 2008 at 01:23:42?”
“How do you know that?” Jack asks, eyes wide.
Bitty throws his shirt half over his head to show the time stamp printed on his left collarbone.
(here comes my realization)
So after this they date and everything, it’s amazing and exciting EXCEPT
JACK KNOWS BITTY’S EXACT DATE OF DEATH.
WHAT IF HE DIES YOUNG SO IT’S SOON? EVEN IF HE DOES DIE OLD, JACK WOULD KNOW WHEN IT IS AND LIKE BITTY WOULD TOO AND JUST THE IDEA OF KNOWING THE DAY I’M GOING TO DIE FILLS ME WITH ACTUAL DREAD. THEIR FRIENDS WOULD KNOW. HIS PARENTS WOULD KNOW. LITERALLY EVERYONE WOULD KNOW.
HOW. FUCKING. DEVASTATING.
(Also they can never actually confirm that Jack is Bitty’s Soulmate until Bitty dies and even then someone dies literally every like few minutes. It could be anyone. This really is a shitty AU because you can never be 100% if u actually met your soulmate)