lighting up the world

I’m home from my surgery and the worst of the anesthesia has worn off (not all of it though so typing is very difficult haha).

My surgeon was very pleased with the result and said I’m nice and proportionate now! I think I am also pleased with the result but I’m so bound up I really couldn’t tell you - but I feel good, all things considered! MY NEW BOOBS ARE SO LIGHT. The world spins when I stand up so I avoid it, but when I do, I can really feel how much was taken off. (3lbs yall. 3. entire. pounds)

Thank you to everyone for the well-wishes and thoughts/prayers - they worked pretty well!!

ily guys💕💕💕

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.