Please read this entirely and process it without a knee jerk reaction.
I was front row B-Stage on the far left Louis side.
I had the rainbow American flag I posted about smashed into my purse and it was a big mess, so I was trying to organize my stuff and wrote a note on the flag and the venue security saw that I had it, and reported it to each other and their supervisor to watch me (lol they were literally right in front of me talking about me like I wasn’t there, a+ job.) My section and I also got our tickets checked twice while I was already seated down there - the supervisor said to me that ‘someone kept making complaints’ (don’t share your seat info on fucking harmless ass truly lighthearted and playful posts that get you dragged, don’t carry rainbows, and definitely don’t carry (separate and unrelated to RD) Larry signs if you aren’t up for a bunch of fucking salty ass stares and security all up in your grill.) [I’m oppferit.]
When they got word the boys were going on stage (like a 3 minute warning I think?) The supervisor came over and asked for “Jumper” (a girl more toward the center) and “Rainbow.”) (Me. She pointed right to me and the supervisor looked right at me to verify.)
I didn’t take a pic of what I wrote on the flag, but it was along the white grommeted part, something along the lines of “We all love you and support you and we’ll always be here. Hang in there. Thank you for everything and Indy” etc and signed it 💜 @lornasaurusrexx. I rolled it up into a burrito/football thing and wrapped it with a dollar store (hot pink with black leopard spots!) ribbon hair tie like Harry wears. I made sure the blue star part was peeking out, with all the other colors peeking out so that they could see that it was rainbow. (Hi this is where I’m obligated to say that I did this so it clearly gave them all the knowledge they needed to make an informed decision on whether or not to pick it up therefore did not ‘force them into’ anything.)
I threw it onto the stage before they even made it down to the B-stage since it was dark and because the biker looking security guy (1D’s) with the long black and grey beard guy was flirting with an adult fan and the venue security was focused elsewhere, and it wouldn’t hit or trip the boys.
Obv it was Louis’ side but I knew Harry would be there during DMD etc too. Louis ignored it, which I totally expected anyway. Until WDBHG.
Louis went to the side of the stage where Preston was standing on his right and got a water and took a quick drink. Then he carefully dropped the water bottle down by the flag to try to hit or cover it, he was probably trying to hide it or point it out, then he stepped toward it, very daintily covered it with his mic stand and got it under his foot, and with legit soccer skills, accurately kicked it backward and to his right where Preston was standing. He was not angry, but he was thoughtful and concentrating. It wasn’t a 'get the fuck away from me’ explosive kick. It was sneaky and pretty well hidden and very gracefully and well aimed. Most people wouldn’t even have known what it was except the few people who literally saw me fold it from full size then also saw me throw it. His sneakiness said to me that he didn’t want anyone to see him kick it away.
Preston picked it up and kept it as long as he stood there, he may have either pocketed it or put it aside. I didn’t see Preston much the rest of the night, except for quick buzzing around.
Here’s video. - it happens at the beginning (the round rainbow lump to the left of the white tshirt hanging there. He ignored the white tshirts and they were there all night.)
Obviously I didn’t expect them to do anything with it, because the closet is clearly on lock still with Babygate and now also Xalamander. I especially didn’t expect anything from Louis except for him to ignore it, because we all know his situation.
I needed to sleep on it and process it because my initial reaction was fear/anger (not at Louis, but at 1DHQ, and the entire fucking closet situation. I know he’s not a homophobe and I know he and Harry are together. I know their situation and limitations. Since my rainbow flag was gone, I held my Oops and Hi sign confidently, then out of spite for HQ, taped it to the inside of the damn barricade so it was there the ENTIRE night.
Louis made eye contact with me a few times through the night and his eyes were kind, and I smiled lovingly back, trying to convey my understanding over the flag, even though he only knew for sure that I was responsible for the Oops and Hi sign.
Anyway, don’t give Louis any shit. He did not do it with any malice.
Harry was rounding the corner and blowing kisses, while still facing that direction with his body, he looked toward me, (with my sign still taped below me) and also toward 2tiedships2 (right next to me) and he looked right into her camera (you can see better here than in the gif because it’s zoomed in.)
(Follow her blog! She’s posting a bunch of gif’s from the show! - and she’ll be posting more and she will also be posting gifs of the video of Louis that I took where he kicked the flag to Preston and a separate video she took where you can see that Preston was standing there to Louis’ right at the time.)
Anyway I love Louis and I love Harry and I love LouisandHarry and Louis and Harry and I’m here to see this through to the end.