light of my life i love you so much ; ;

I remember the moment I was born

I remember forty of them, maybe thirty clearly.
I was born slowly as I watched you discover me,
Born all at once when you went away
I was born watching you realize you’d never know me, predict me, and can tap out my pulse on your faded jeans and still guess my dinner order wrong
I watched you decide to trust me and I was born in the weight of it,
I was born deciding to be worth that trust

I remember waking up gasping, born in my subconscious
I was born when I realized betrayal can cripple the body and staystaystays in the attic of you
Another birth when I was so scared and kept moving

I wasn’t as alive as I am before I lost something I built myself on
I was born in a lifetime of watching my father’s body fail him in the strength he decides to employ in his determination to work
Born watching my mother fight for her life
Then again in her fight to rebuild
Born watching my big brother discover love as a verb
Born being so much to so many
And nothing to anyone
Born in hearing those I believed in begin to list and detail and compile like souvenirs the public figures they’d sleep with to get where I wanted to go,
Watching them get there
Realizing it’s not a victory I want,
I was born in disappointment
Born in having been used and disposed of Born on learning


Turning around and leaving my sacrifices behind
Replacing college with life experience and seeing the exchange rate
We all have debt
So much debt
We all have degrees

We’ve all been born, and then again; and then more
We’ve all passed away from who we were, what we knew, the dreams we had and the person in the mirror we wanted to do right by

I was born when I saw you for the thousandth time and the way the tiny plastic light in your car struck your face and showed me another way to see the person I love
Born when I recognized you
Born when you weren’t who you’d been, and I didn’t recognize you
Born the other day when you told me I’ve been reminding you of the one you knew before I broke
Born when I learned boundaries
Born when I learned to ask for what I need
Born when I did it alone,
Born in realizing we’re never alone

I just want to say thank you

To everyone here for supporting me as much as you do. In this time of crisis financially for me, I’ve been counting what I DO have to keep my outlook positive, and honestly such supportive, caring followers are something I never take for granted. You guys support my art, my self ship, my hardships, and while that may not seem like much, this blog is one of the few lights I have in my life. Talking to you all and drawing for you keeps me going. Thank you so much for being here. I love you

Originally posted by murdocsbelly

10

#HAPPYRAVIDAY
Happy birthday to the actual light of my life, Kim Wonshik. There aren’t enough words to describe how grateful I am that you exist, that you make music, that you’re a part of VIXX, that you’re such an angel and such an amazing human being. You cheer up my days when I’m feeling down, and I honestly wouldn’t know what to do without you here. Thank you for existing Kim Ravi ♥

IF YOU’RE THINKING OF SUICIDE

On May 16th 2015 I tried to kill myself by swallowing 3 bottles of pills and it was the biggest mistake of my life. You’ve got one shot, and this is it. I know your world may be confusing and extremely hard right now but the chaos is worth living through, I promise. Nobody can predict the future, but I know for a fact that the overwhelming sadness buried deep inside your chest will fade away to nothing and one day you will be happy. You will love life so much. I know it’s hard to see the light when you’re surrounded by darkness but I swear to you that it’s there, you get closer to it everyday that you wake up and give life another try. No pain lasts forever, and your worst days only last 24 hours. Your life is precious, don’t ever think its not. Please keep fighting, take it day by day.

When I look at you, I swear I see a city full of beautiful bright lights and opportunities. I see so much life behind your eyes that I almost want to live, just to see where your streets will take me. Like cities often do you have a past, but you carry it as if it has no weight and I can’t help but admire how you do that.
But when you look at me I can’t help but wonder if you see what I do. An old worn down town, the lights on its one diner left slowly flickering out. Do you see the abandonment? Can you tell how many people have come just to leave? Ran through me, straight to another destination, not bothering to see what I can offer? Do you see that despite how much I try and conceal it, can you see that I’m just a deserted town that others pass through just to get to someplace better?
—  v.m // what do you see in me?
If Vikings had memes
  • I want Freya to break into my house and use her falcon cloak to strangle me, killing me instantly
  • The Lokasenna but every time someone is kinkshamed it gets faster
  • Self-care is putting your hand inside a giant wolf’s mouth
  • Wake Brynhildr up (Wake Brynhildr up inside)
  • “Girls are so hot. Guys are so hot. Why is everybody so hot?” “It’s Ragnarok, and Surtur’s already fucking shit up”
  • Date a boy who thinks goats make wonderful pets
  • Are you a Frigg wlw or a Fulla wlw
  • “Are you a man or a woman?” “I’m Loki” “No, I mean, what’s your gender?” “Mischief” “Ok, but what’s between your legs?” “Sigyn, generally. Or Angrboda. Or Svadilfari. Or Odin, that one time…”
  • Brace yourself: Fimbulvetr is coming
  • Njord: *takes a deep breath* I lo-
    Skadi: yes, you love the sea, I know, you love the sea so much, it’s the light of your life, you love it so much, you just love the sea, I KNOW, you love the sea you fucking love the sea ok I know, I get it, YOU LOVE the sea. I GET IT.                                                              
  • “don’t talk to me or my eight-legged foal ever again” 
  • Mani: *currently engaged in a flame war over mooncourse with Artemis*
  • Odin: *disguised as a harmless old wanderer* A buddy of mine saw Odin take his shirt off in the shower and he said that Odin has an eight pack, that Odin is shredded
    Frigg: Your friend’s a liar, Odin is a punk bitch

10

#HappyBaekhyunDay ♥
Baekhyun, my one and only, you’ve taught me a lot of things since the day I met you, I learned how to be fearless, how to stay strong, and most importantly; how to be happy. You’ve taught me distances don’t mean a thing because your voice, and your love never failed to reach me. And you’ve taught me that I shouldn’t be afraid of dark because you’re always here to light the way. Everything about you is so bright, so vibrant, and even a small smile on your face is enough to make my heart beat like crazy. Thank you for being in my life, I love you so much my prince, my flashlight.

anonymous asked:

compliments that aren't about physical appearance?

  • i’m so glad i know you
  • your laugh is contagious
  • you are a source of light in my life
  • you are so caring
  • i trust you
  • you are one of the strongest people i know
  • i love how fun you are to be around
  • you’ve taught me so much
  • i can’t imagine my life without you
  • you make me a better person
  • you are home
  • you make me feel special
  • you deserve so much in this world
  • i admire your passion
  • the world needs more people like you
  • you have such a great taste in music, art, etc.
  • i love the way you love
  • talking to you calms me
  • i love hearing your ideas
  • you treat everything with an open-mind
  • you make me so happy
  • i’m proud of how far you’ve come
  • i don’t want to lose you
  • i admire your passion
  • you make me feel good
  • you’ve helped me
  • you’re so important to me
  • i love how you treat strangers
  • you are brave
  • you are fearless
  • you inspire me
  • you motivate me
  • you make me laugh
  • thank you for being you
I’m stuck in traffic, at a red light and it hit me, I can’t believe you’re mine.
There was a time when we were complete strangers, stealing looks like it was a crime. Now you’re part of my soul and you have so much control on my heart, but instead of being scared, I’ve never felt safer in my whole life.
—  giulswrites
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“She’s always so cheery with her endless questions you’d have no idea she’s so sad inside. She wears that mask well.”

things i love about my hero academia

(not all of them because then this would turn into a 500 page journal that could be published and sold and no one would buy it because no one is as much of a nerd as i am)

  • our main protagonist is not a traditionally masculine hero. he’s small, he’s weak, he’s a crybaby, he’s sensitive. especially in the shounen genre, this is a pretty rare thing to see, and even as Izuku grows as a person and becomes more confident in himself, he’s still shy and anxious.
  • he’s also a fanboy!! and not in a bad way!! it’s his fanboy nature that allows him to express himself and show how smart, intuitive, and observant he is
  • the character who does get all the traditionally masculine traits is the character everyone in the main cast acknowledges is a total asshole who mercilessly bullied and abused his classmate/childhood playmate
  • it’s also very clearly seen that Izuku has been conditioned (unintentionally) to fear Bakugou because of all of that physical and emotional abuse. just because he’s a hero in training and he’s learning and growing and becoming more confident doesn’t erase all of those years of bullying
  • it’s also acknowledged that they are children and still have room to grow. Bakugou is an asshole, but he’s not totally villainized for his behavior and is given the chance to change and become a better person because he’s only sixteen years old and still has time to change
  • and he does!! he makes an effort to change and try to adjust his behavior to make a more positive impact (even if it is a slow and arduous process, we do see him make great strides throughout the manga)
  • it would have been really easy to just throw Bakugou under the bus and make him a villain, but instead we get to see his growth as a person as he matures and enters the world of adulthood
  • All Might is the no. 1 hero, the Symbol of Peace, the man everyone thinks is invincible, and he has a chronic condition. he’s missing his stomach, he’s had multiple surgeries, he spits up blood, he literally looks like a skeleton, guys. but even after the reveal, people still admire and look up to him as an idol because he’s still All Might and he still protected and saved a lot of lives and was still a hero
  • All Might’s relationship with Izuku just in general. seriously, i could make an entirely different list just based on their relationship and 95% of the fandom has already talked about them, so i won’t gush about their relationship too much here
  • the fact that most of the adults take responsibility when they fuck up. the police force realize they’ve relied too heavily on heroes, specifically All Might, and they make an effort to change that so they can help people. the teachers at UA recognize that they’ve neglected students who need psychological help. Izuku’s mom acknowledges that she should have encouraged his dream in spite of his quirklessness. most stories, even in the west, don’t have nearly as much adult responsibility as this series does
  • the elusive living anime mom
  • okay but seriously, Inko is quite possibly one of the best fictional moms i’ve seen in a long time. she’s loving and encouraging and she tries her hardest, but she’s not perfect. she’s a single mom caring for her son, who wants to go into this incredibly dangerous profession. and when he gets hurt enough times, when her limit is finally met, she puts her foot down and says “no. i love you, but i can’t let you keep getting hurt like this.” like any reasonable parent would. and the only way she relents is when she sees how much Toshinori wants to teach him and nurture him and encourage him and see his dream recognized and she sees how badly Izuku wants to continue down this path, even if it’s under her terms.
  • this series seriously tackles a lot of topics that you wouldn’t expect it to. you know you’re gonna get the usual topics like what makes a hero, what makes a villain, etc. but, it also goes over other subjects like bullying, parental abuse, discrimination, grief, inferiority complexes, how easy it is to create a monster, redemption. this is a manga about teenagers learning to be super heroes, how did it turn out like this
  • it would have been so easy to sexualize any of the girls. this manga, in the hands of a lesser author, would have featured a lot of fan service shots of the girls. Momo especially, considering she wears a very revealing outfit. and yet, none of them are sexualized?? in any way shape or form??? yeah, we see Momo shirtless a lot and some girls wear skin tight outfits. but, you know who else has skin tight outfits and revealing hero costumes? the boys. and when we do see a shirtless girl or boy, it’s not framed in a way where we’re meant to be objectifying their body. there’s a reason why it happened and we move on. it’s so refreshing.
  • (there are only two fan service female characters. one uses her sexuality to get free shit and the other is meant to make you uncomfortable. take it what you will)
  • we get a lot of unique designs for each of the characters. there are no same faces. each character has a unique quirk and a design that belongs to them. they aren’t interchangeable with one another. Izuku looks like Izuku. All Might looks like All Might. they all look unique with different shapes and sizes
  • (admittedly the manga still kind of falls under the trap of the boys get to have weird, strange designs and the girls all kind of look cute, but it’s not nearly as bad as some other shows. and honestly, if that’s my only complaint, that says a lot)
  • fighting doesn’t solve everything! there’s a really incredible few chapters in the manga dedicated to acknowledging that Izuku and Bakugou seriously need to talk to each other about what Bakugou did to him. they’re both incredible people in their own right and they can learn a lot from each other, but only if they stop fighting and actually communicate with each other. one of the chapters is literally titled “a meaningless fight”. because it is meaningless. it’s not going to solve their problems, fix past mistakes, or make them feel better. it’s a fight to get aggression out because Bakugou doesn’t know any other way to deal with his emotions and trauma.
  • kindness is rewarded!!! cruelty is not!!! i’m really sick and tired of TV shows and movies trying to sell this pessimistic outlook that everything sucks and that gives us the right to be assholes to each other just because it’s edgy. My Hero Academia is such a positive manga and it brings me so much joy and happiness and it sends such a wonderful message of anyone can be a hero if you have a good heart and that kindness will be rewarded, even if it takes a really long time.

i love this manga so much and it’s given me so much light and happiness in my life and if that makes me weird because it’s anime, then fine. whatever. i don’t care. i’ll love it for as long as i can, dammit.

rhodey is the cutest person i can’t believe this,,, saying “boom” when something goes his way…Dad Jokes™… being So Into Being War Machine oh my god literally every one-liner rhodey has is life-changing i can’t believe how good he is??? “welcome to the dance floor, boys. oh no, i didn’t say you could leave” “I think it’s weird. you look like two seals fighting over a grape” “you look damn good mr president but i’m gonna need that suit back” WAR MACHINE,,,COMIN AT U,,, “no, it’s your fault, I just wanted to say I’m sorry”

he adapts so quickly to ridiculous situations he’s brave and resilient and selfless and incredible and his password is WARMACHINEROX with an x all caps what a giant dork i love him @ marvel where the fuck is my war machine movie