light of my life i love you so much ; ;


The wind blows through your hair. The soft sunlight.
Everything is the same except you’re not here.
The person who told me, “Everything is up to you.”

Eventually the people you love deeply will disappear.
That’s how life works.
Nothing in my memories is absolutely perfect.

I love you, but I feel so much pain. I want to cry all day.
I can’t forget you. You still live in my heart.
The blue sky swallows all my overwhelming feelings.
It won’t reach you, so like a long-gone star, the light wanders aimlessly.

In the same way you face reality after you wake up from your dreams,
we can move forward by forgetting.
But we wish for a person who will prove otherwise.

I don’t know how to erase the promises, the scars, and the memories.
An old photograph eventually fades, but our hearts don’t work like that.

We grow older by experiencing pain.
If that moment is now, l’ll move forward and express my feelings
until the day comes when I can look back to the long track of my footsteps,
open that door, and say, “Everything worked out fine.”

When we lose that one precious thing, we think everything is over,
but that’s because we can’t live without them.

We assure ourselves by loving someone
that our heart is beating… that we are alive.

I love you. I love you. I loved you too much.
I’ve been listening to the sounds that make me forget everything else.
The blue sky swallows all my overwhelming feelings.
It won’t reach you, so like a long-gone star, the light wanders aimlessly.

-Flumpool - Zanzou (lyrics credits: @

Tomorrow is your big day. Your 24th birthday and also your graduation from Nogizaka. I wanted to be honest by saying that I’m more of sad than happy for you. Tears would fall every time I would at your pictures and videos. Why am I like this? I also don’t know why. Maybe because I still don’t want you to go. I still want you to stay in the group.

You’re my first oshimen, my first Nogizaka oshimen. The very first person that captured my heart. It is also the reason why I’m so affected with you leaving.

I know that I’ll eventually accept it wholeheartedly and send you off with a smile but just this once, the remaining hours before your birthday and graduation, let me pour it all out, the remaining tears of sadness so that at the end of the day tomorrow, it will just be tears of happiness.

Thank you for the great 5 and a half years that you shared with Nogizaka. Though I’ved only just been a fan for almost 2 years, it felt like I’ve already been one for 5 and a half years. Enjoy your day tomorrow and the 1st day of the 5th Birthday Live.

Thank you very much. Happy Birthday and Goodbye, my first Nogizaka46 oshimen, Nanamin.

anonymous asked:

I'd love to curse the fuck out of someone for cursing me for no reason and ruining years of my life and an important relationship I had. Any suggestions? I don't have access to many ingredients and I'm closeted. But if you know a good one with many ingredients I can get substitutes or use visualisation. Thank you so much

Alright, first you need to cleanse yourself to prevent the effects of the curse that is affecting you. You can do this a number of ways, here are few easy to do ones for someone closeted with limited ingredients:

You can also take a bath with salt of any kind added to it and chamomile tea bags in it to cleanse yourself free of a curse. Then cleanse your home. This can be tricky being in the broom closet but do not fret. If you can get some white candles of any kind light them in the main rooms of the house (easy enough to make it look like you just want some nice scented candle smell). If candles are not an option fill a bowl with salt and water (if you can manage moon water would be the best option but tap will work fine) and when you can go about the house using your fingers to flick some water about the house and especially at doors and windows. 

Another method is to clean. Clean the shit out of it. Wash the windows in counterclockwise motions to banish out the negativity of the curse. Sweep or vacuum towards the entrances of your home to ‘sweep out’ the negativity. Clean counters counterclockwise, was your sinks, dust your ceilings, whatever you can do. Wash your bedding as well.

Now for cursing the other back. I have a couple curses you can use that can easily be done in hush hush situations especially since many of them just require them being kept in dark places like closets hidden away.

  • Gravity Curse (Pokemon Inspired) A curse to weigh a person down with their own negativity. This curse all you need is a jar, a paper cut out doll, a marker, a black candle and some rocks. If you can’t burn the candle then i would use black duck tape or normal duct tape to seal up the jar.
  • Curse of Discord A curse to bring chaos and confusion to a person’s life. This one requires more ingredients but it has a lot of easily substituted ingredients. The black candle again can be replaced with tape for sealing. The rest are pretty common kitchen ingredients: vinegar, hot sauce, and black pepper. Then you will need a jar, paper, marker, thumbtacks, and black paint/ink which is easy to find in any craft store.
  • Nightmare Curse  A personal favorite of mine. This is a very easy to cast curse to bring someone nightmares and baneful dreams. You will only need some dirt or potting soil, a jar or container, some old starting to go bad lettuce (leftover salad), old garlic (peel it and leave it out somewhere to dry up for a night or two), black ink and a poppet. The poppet you can easily again make out of paper.

Some useful ingredients if you wish to make your own spell that are super easy to find and use:

  • Black Ink or paint
  • Black pepper
  • Old vegetables and fruit
  • Apples
  • black salt
  • Chili Powder, Pepper Flakes
  • Hot Sauce
  • Vinegar
  • Lemons and Limes
  • Mustard and Poppy Seeds
  • Leftover bones
  • Alcohol
  • Matches or Lighters (use carefully) for burning
  • Black markers, pens, pencils etc
  • Sharp objects (needles, push pins, thumbtacks, nails, screws, etc)
  • Broken Glass (use with caution)
  • Dirt and Mud
  • Blood or Blood substitutes (red colored juices, red wine, red ink or paint, beet juice, red food coloring, etc)
  • Thorny, thistle plants and weeds (including rose thorns)
  • Poppets (can easily be made out of paper, cloth, sticks, a potato, etc)
  • knives
  • thread for binding
  • jars and containers
  • Spit
  • Dead Flowers
  • A taglock (hair from target, their name on a piece of paper, a picture, a signature, an item of theirs, etc)
  • Anything Black, Crimson, Purple (I associate it with pride and confusion), and sickly colors like greens and yellows

Intents for Curses (a few of them, there are many):

  • Cause Confusion
  • Emotional Distress (fear, sadness)
  • Nightmares or disturbing sleep
  • Binding
  • Banishment or Removing them from your life
  • Emotional Pain
  • Bad Luck 
  • Ruining or Removing things (ie relationships, their job, etc)
  • Or return actions done onto you 

Once you have finished cursing them, be prepared to recleanse yourself and your space. Clean it, use some salt, go and take a salt bath or a long shower. then rest, cursing someone takes a lot of energy and it is super exhausting. Drink some tea, eat something, lay down with a blanket and listen to some music or watch a movie. Take a nap if needed. Just take care of yourself. Then be patient for the results to happen.

Good Luck Anon!

*not my own

icanneverbesatisfied  asked:

2, 5, 26, 31, 53

2. what would you name your future kids?
I’ve always adored the name Alice because I’m obsessed with Alice in Wonderland, but I never really thought about having kids of my own. My fiancé and I are considering adopting in the future, and I’ll be completely fine with whatever name they already have :)

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
My younger sister. She’s the light of my life. She’s pregnant right now and I’ve never seen her so happy and beautiful. I just love her so much.

26. idol(s)
Lin-Manuel Miranda, Patrick Stump, Carrie Fisher, Lady Gaga, Chris Colfer. The list goes on and on lol I love a lot of people

31. 3 random facts
I hate cherries (and everything even remotely cherry-flavored or scented), my fiancé collects bugs (bonus fact: he’s also a doomsday prepper), and I once had a fish named George who exploded.

53. 5 things that make me happy
My cats (or any cats in general lol), Parks & Rec, chocolate covered strawberries, singing, and being hugged really tightly.

Get to know me!

ryansurfgreenstrat  asked:


What was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

I was at my old school and I was hosting a production with the cast of the Maze Runner. i have no idea

What never fails to make you happy?

Listening to Mad as Rabbits. I can honestly listen to that song when I’m feeling the worst and be OK instantly, it’s amazing

What do you always daydream about?

honestly,, brallon

What is your dream city and why?

(if we’re talking real cities) honestly Auckland. I went there for my panic! concert and it’s honestly an amazing place?? like i was walking around the middle of the city and I was enjoying it so much?? like it was really colourful and!!! i Love

Name 5 songs you love at the moment

Cobra Starship - Guilty Pleasure
Panic! At the Disco - Turn Off The Lights its so good kms
The Brobecks - Anyone I Know
Kings Of Leon - Waste A Moment
Green Day - Time of Your Life

Talk about someone/something you really dislike

i hate really really hot days??? like im ok with sunny days but really hot days really Get On My Nerves u kno?? like im into chillin with 12 blankets and a hot chocolate but can i do that w hot weather??????no!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What are some unpopular opinions that you have?

idk if it’s unpopular but like the twenty one pilots cancer cover was like……..average

what i’ve found to be rly unpopular is people liking p.o more than vices. like p.o is actually my Favourite i love it!!! and especially the concerts?????i would have loved to go to one of those

Who inspires you?

@ryansurfgreenstrat u dummy

emoji asks!


“That’s how it works in my ‘Muslim Gangster World’:  You don’t judge your friends, and you stand up for them, no matter what.” 

- Happy 17th Birthday Sana Bakkoush! 

If Vikings had memes
  • I want Freya to break into my house and use her falcon cloak to strangle me, killing me instantly
  • The Lokasenna but every time someone is kinkshamed it gets faster
  • Self-care is putting your hand inside a giant wolf’s mouth
  • Wake Brynhildr up (Wake Brynhildr up inside)
  • “Girls are so hot. Guys are so hot. Why is everybody so hot?” “It’s Ragnarok, and Surtur’s already fucking shit up”
  • Date a boy who thinks goats make wonderful pets
  • Are you a Frigg wlw or a Fulla wlw
  • “Are you a man or a woman?” “I’m Loki” “No, I mean, what’s your gender?” “Mischief” “Ok, but what’s between your legs?” “Sigyn, generally. Or Angrboda. Or Svadilfari. Or Odin, that one time…”
  • Brace yourself: Fimbulvetr is coming
  • Njord: *takes a deep breath* I lo-
    Skadi: yes, you love the sea, I know, you love the sea so much, it’s the light of your life, you love it so much, you just love the sea, I KNOW, you love the sea you fucking love the sea ok I know, I get it, YOU LOVE the sea. I GET IT.                                                              
  • “don’t talk to me or my eight-legged foal ever again” 
  • Mani: *currently engaged in a flame war over mooncourse with Artemis*
  • Odin: *disguised as a harmless old wanderer* A buddy of mine saw Odin take his shirt off in the shower and he said that Odin has an eight pack, that Odin is shredded
    Frigg: Your friend’s a liar, Odin is a punk bitch


Happy birthday to the actual light of my life, Kim Wonshik. There aren’t enough words to describe how grateful I am that you exist, that you make music, that you’re a part of VIXX, that you’re such an angel and such an amazing human being. You cheer up my days when I’m feeling down, and I honestly wouldn’t know what to do without you here. Thank you for existing Kim Ravi ♥

When we first met, we were so hesitant and nervous, as if saying each other’s names would light us on fire. You couldn’t hold steady eye contact and I couldn’t stop looking at you through my lashes. Blood rose to your skin as if you were the ocean and I was the moon pulling at your tidal waves, calling them to come closer. The flowers on our table bloomed for you while your smile planted trees in my lungs. Do you even remember what it was like to figure out someone new and exciting? To have something so shiny and untouched that you consumed all the oxygen in the room with anticipation? You’ve brought so much beauty into my world and you have ruined so much for me.

“She’s always so cheery with her endless questions you’d have no idea she’s so sad inside. She wears that mask well.”

I don’t know how to fully enjoy any of these moments without wondering if it’s the last.
—  Jay Asher, What Light
  • me: *takes a deep breath*
  • me: i lo-
  • anyone who has spent five seconds around me ever: yes, you love Hamilton, we know, you love Hamilton so much, it's the light of your life, you love it so much, you just love Hamilton, we KNOW , you love Hamilton you fucking love Hamilton ok we know, we get it, YOU LOVE HAMILTON. WE GET IT. 

seokmin + MVs

↳ 1997.02.18 | happy birthday to the love & light of my life ☀️


Puck Personality @ Sidney Crosby

@johnwatso​‘s top fics of 2016

these are the best fics i read in all of 2016 (not necessarily written this year):

👌I Should’ve Said Yes by spacegeography (n/a)
Texts from John’s stag night.

👌The Ground Beneath Your Feet by Chryse (E)
Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure.

👌A Great Light by achycarnations (T)
Of course, they don’t get around to falling in love until the world is ending.

👌What He’s Like by magikspell (E)
“I’m so in love with you,” John says, a statement of fact. “I will never not be in love with you.” Realistic first time. They love each other so much.

👌State of Flux by Atiki (E)
John’s marriage is over and he is finally back home (i.e. at Baker Street, where he belongs). Sherlock is awfully insecure and John is awfully hesitant, and they’re both awkward idiots, of course, but they figure it out. Many First Times happen.

👌a good old-fashioned happy ending by darcylindbergh (E)
And Sherlock stands there, in the middle of a Christmas market as John hums along to Silent Night, John’s hand warm in his with fingertips a little gritty from the cinnamon-sugar doused churros they’d shared, and thinks, oh, that’s–that’s an idea, isn’t it? For Christmas this year, Sherlock wants to get John something special: something every fairytale deserves.

👌Living Sculptures by kinklock (E)
The reality of cocaine toxicity gives rise to more fantasy. (Continuing from the last scene in TAB, Sherlock slips in and out of his alternate universe.)

👌settling of the dust by thosewhowant (E)
The plastic bag of white powder is an event horizon. Every night he dances around it to the tune of the waltz he wrote for John, and some night Sherlock will tire of dancing and slam the giant Self Destruct button that beckons like an ember in the night.But for tonight he sets the Persian slipper down on the mantel reverently and pours himself another coffee, middle of the night be damned. He stands at the window and imagines that through the smog he can see Venus, Cygnus, Andromeda. That maybe, just maybe, John is doing the same.The idea that John may be in the Southern Hemisphere, looking at a different sky, hurts so much that he thinks it may kill him. After the inevitable confrontation with Moriarty, John leaves.

👌Offensive by ConsultingPurplePants (E)
John’s hands are currently pressed against his shoulder blades, under his shirt. His left hand is splayed across the remaining hard lines of three whip scars, while his right rests atop a smattering of rounded, raised, cigarette burns.Seconds tick by as he realizes he has no idea what to say. Moriarty is back.

👌Lunar Landscapes by J_Baillier (M)
An accident forces John to face the fact that Sherlock’s downward spiral had started long before his flight to exile even left the tarmac.

👌You Should Have Changed Course Long Ago by msdisdain (E)
John realizes too late what has been in his heart all along, and flees London. But can he ever truly leave Sherlock behind?

👌A Brand of Gold by aquabelacqua (M)
What am I doing? he wondered. The answer came back at once: Flirting. He sank deeper into the pillows, let the mist and blur of the wine settle around him, let it shore up his nerves and dim the warning signals that flashed dully in the back of his mind. He let the rest of the disappointment about Lucy and his strange accommodations and about the weekend as a whole fade into obscurity. He let the vital, missing piece snap into place as surely and as cleanly as if it had always been there. He was flirting with Sherlock Holmes.