life's not worth living

I Dreamed a Dream (Cover)
I Dreamed a Dream (Cover)

I managed to find the old I Dreamed A Dream cover I did probably about 6 years ago now. At the time I really wanted to get into musical theatre but I was around 7 months pregnant when I recorded this and didn’t realise just how much my life would change after my son was born… Thanks to the anon for reminding me how awesome Les Miserables is this morning and for jogging my memory! Had a little trip down memory lane and I found a treasure trove of musical theatre covers I’d done years and years ago! All That Jazz was in there as well which is another fav but I’m not going to post that since I want to keep this blog Solavellan related as much as poss and at least this song kinda fits? 🙄 the gif I used was in the gif selection thingy and it is beautiful! Click just underneath it to visit the creators blog ❤

“I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I prayed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
And they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he’d come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream, I dreamed…”

Originally posted by x0mbi3s

Henlo there is one month until my birthday

yes on May 24th I will be turning 18 and bc people always ask me what i want for my birthday here is a short list of things that will make me happier than u could ever imagine

  • Refer to my list of Soukoku Fanart Aesthetic™ (note that these tropes also apply to fanfic)
  • Chuuya being the one thing in Dazai’s life that makes him think maybe life is worth living
  • Motojichuu in any way shape or form
  • But I especially love people talking down to Kajii and Chuuya defending him
  • Also love motojichuu dancing together
  • the height difference between kunikida and chuuya
  • ranchuu in any capacity 
  • any of my Best Boys* (*Best Boys include Chuuya, Kunikida, Kajii, and Ranpo)
  • drawing me WITH my Best Boys
  • also tbh kunichuu in any capacity 
  • your undying love and support
  • seriously i’ll be happy with literally anything you’d like to give me
  • and if you dont have a gift then your love and support is all that i need and want
  • i love you
  • thank you for even thinking of me

anonymous asked:

The way things are going in this country (I also live in the US) has me losing so much hope. But my friends, family, and strangers like you make every day worth getting up and living my best life... and fighting for others. Thank you for being a positive force in this world. I wish you all the success and happiness.

living your best life is the best thing you can do in the face of all the things that are happening today. i know it’s pretty scary but there’s a lot of hope too, a lot of people looking out for others and fighting against injustice. you are doing great, and keep getting up and living that best life. wishing you all the success and happiness as well. take care, lovely anon  ❤

Would it be too much to imagine that I wanted to spend time with you?
— 

Gentle words I hear in my head at 5 AM when I’m still awake and asking God what could be keeping me up.
I wondered if it was guilt or anxiety or fear or just uncertainty. His response was pure love.
Why do we assume God is looking on us with scorn or with the intent to berate us? Discipline is not hate and disciple isn’t even the sum total of our Father’s love.
It’s easy to say “Jesus loves me” to someone or recite it in song but when we’re alone is that how we act? Or do we hide? Do we hide because we fear that judgement will come when we least expect it from an almighty fist? How often do we forget that He is a God who walked among us and sat with the lowest of us? How often do we think that our sin is just different, that we are less because we “should know better”? How often do we forget that God’s love and grace is for everyone, people who met Him yesterday and those of us who have been walking with Him for years? Unlike our human love God’s love doesn’t not wane; it is constant till the end of time. There is so much more to God than realize and so much more to His love for us than we allow ourselves to believe.

Believe that God would just want to spent time with you. Believe that He loves you enough to desire nearness with you. Believe that the Creator of the Universe, the Alpha and Omega, the One who gave His only Son to save, truly and deeply loves you.

-31 Women (Nan)

Imagine an eight hour work day, but instead of sitting at a desk in a cubicle, you’re running suicide sprints for the entire day with only a 30 minute break to sit down.

Now do that six days straight, take one day off, and then do it six days straight again.

This is why food service workers deserve to get paid a living wage.

Being loved can make you feel more beautiful. But it does not make you beautiful. It does not make you worthy. You have inherent worth. You have inherent beauty. You. Are. Good. Enough.
—  Unknown