life story in the notes

Maybe someday I’ll write to you,
I’ll put a message in a bottle and throw it into the ocean hoping it will somehow reach you when the timing is right. I know I could just send it to you, but simply sending it to you would be too easy;
too easy for you to not respond, too easy for you to break my heart, too easy for me to loose you completely.
So I’ll toss my words into the ocean because keeping them locked in my head any longer would drive me insane.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write, 58
“Letters to the ocean”

We spend so much of our 20’s looking for the one. We are stuck at that age where half of our friends are engaged or married, some with children; the other half is drunk off their ass 90% of the time and never made it past their second semester of college. We find this compelling need to compare ourselves to everyone around us, “oh at least I’m doing better than her,” and “fuck. She’s about to be a doctor and I am not sure what I want to be.” We have to swipe left endlessly looking for what we want.

I’ll tell you what you want, it’s to be happy.

Happy is not the same for you as it is for the girl who sat next to you every day during 3rd period.

And for me? Happy is making sure I get to see the world while I’m young, experiencing different parts of our country before I pick and place and settle down. If I’m going to dig my roots so far into the nutrient rich ground I want to make DAMN sure it’s the right kinda soil to make me grow. At some point I woke up and realized I’m living life for myself and not others. I welcome their criticism but learned to filter out when it was helpful versus unnecessary. There’s nothing wrong with getting on a plane to anywhere or long road trips or moving around to figure yourself out. Cause let me tell you, I was looking for the one, and I found her. It’s me. I’m the one. But when I find someone else who can be my plus one to everything I’ve already given myself, I’ll be ready because I won’t expect them to give me all the love in the world. To always pick me up when I fall. I will not rely heavily on them because i know I’ve already done it for myself and deeply rooted myself in those capabilities. Whoever comes along will hopefully have done that for themselves and instead of 2 trees in a yard we can create a jungle that radiates so much life everything comes to live within us. You see I was born a queen with a throne, now I’m learning to make an empire.

And for you? I hope you find whatever your happiness is to be able to do the same. To be a source of life.

I promise you don’t know real love, until you have truly fallen in love with yourself. Life is so different then. You live different. You breath different. Your fears are different. Your creativity is different. You think different. You laugh different. But most of all, you love different.
—  Treka L. House
1.) Take more selfies- you look beautiful!
2.) Meet new people, make new friends
3.) Do well in school and always do your best
4.) Be more positive- life is full of great things
5.) Make mistakes and accept fhem as they are
6.) Don’t hold grudges
7.) Find who you are
8.) Dont let others stop you from being you
9.) Always look your best, confidence looks great on you!
10.) Read
11.) Write like you mean it- don’t let writer’s block get in the way
12.) Do what you love ❤️
13.) Be kind to others
14.) Take a deep breath- in and out. You’ll be okay.
15.) Stay hydrated
16.) Be happy with who you are
17.) Learn to love yourself
18.) Sing. Let everybody hear your beautiful voice.
19.) Love fiercely. Passionate is good.
20.) Listen to new music
21.) Be more open minded
22.) Smile more
23.) Help strangers more often
24.) Go out with friends more, enjoy he time you have with them!
25.) It’s okay to be sad sometimes- go easy on yourself
26.) Slack off less
27.) Stay true to yourself
28.) Make your happiness a priority too
29.) Don’t just survive- live!
30.) Go on adventures, excitement is fun!
31.) Think positively
32.) Never doubt yourself
33.) Love your life, even if it isn’t perfect
—  33 things for me to remember throughout the years | a.m
I have made up thousands of stories; I have filled innumerable notebooks with phrases to be used when I have found the true story, the one story to which all these phrases refer. But I have never yet found the story. And I begin to ask, Are there stories?
—  Virginia Woolf, The Waves
Podcasts I Love

All the below are available on iTunes.

Kind World - 5-6 minute episodes. Intimate, life affirming stories about people whose lives have been changed by someone else.

Note To Self - Presented by Manoush, the creator of “Moment” app. The latest episode “I Didn’t See Your Text” is amazing.

Dear Sugar - Comforting, humanising podcast that focuses on all kinds of relationships.

Philosophy Bites - Great 15 minute episodes on topics like laughter, gender, suicide notes, categorising mental disorders and more. 

The School of Life - This isn’t a podcast, but their Youtube channel is a gold mine for anyone interested in self-development, psychology + philosophy applied to modern-day problems.

Death, Sex and Money - Hosted by Anna Sale about the big questions and hard choices that are often left out of polite conversation.