life relatable

And I’ll always
wonder about
what’s swirling
in your mind—
what’s blooming
in your heart,
but I’ll always
be terrified
of not being
able to find
my name
written inside
any of them.
—  ma.c.a // Please, Say Who I Am
  • Me: Come on brain, write.
  • Brain: I know what's going to happen next!
  • Me: That's fantastic, but for the sake of pacing can we work up to that point?
  • Brain: Yeah. We could. Or, hear me out, I can tell you every single detail of the next part and we won't be able to focus on the current point of the story and we'll get really frustrated because we know where we want to go but don't know how to get to it.
  • Me:
  • Me: ... Go on

1. Hello.
2. I miss you.
3. Can we talk?
4. I hope I’m not annoying you.
5. I want to see you.
6. Please tell me you’re doing fine.
7. I’m worried about you.
8. Let’s listen to our favorite song.
9. Do not let other people bring you down.
10. I hope you’re truly happy.
11. I love you. I really do.

We started from 1 and I felt 11. Sometimes we do 8 with comforting silence. You used to remind me about 9. And I will always be grateful about everything we’ve had. Wherever you are, and whoever you’re with, please always remember 2, and 10.

—  ma.c.a // 4 but 7,3,5 and 6 : An Indirect Message From Me

“If I’d’ve known that would be the last hug you ever gave me, I would’ve held on longer.”

- D.N. // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #189