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Merlin Fanfiction Recommendations

Those Who Inherit the Earth – Gryvon

After Nimueh wreaks her revenge on Camelot, the rest of the world is left plagued with monsters. Arthur/Merlin slash.

Prophesized Series – CaptainOzone

1. A Soul, A Mentality, A Name

Bk1 of Prophesized. Merlin and Arthur are faced by a new, powerful threat: the Gvarath. Merlin once again dons the guise of Dragoon the Great to save Arthur. But the question is: will he be able to convince Arthur to fight alongside him?

2. Powerfully Modest, Modestly Powerful

Bk2 of Prophesized. Arthur has embraced Merlin’s magic with open arms, but when the time is right, how will he be able to open the eyes of others? A sequel to SMN. The after-effects of my Reveal.

2.1 Oathbreaker

Companion fic to Powerfully Modest, Modestly Powerful. Missing Merlin Whump scene from Chapter 7 and a little something extra set after PMMP.

2.2 Young Hawk

Two-shot sequel to Oathbreaker. During a breakfast in which Hunith meets the Knights, humorous anecdotes are shared, and the full story of Merlin’s birth is revealed.

2.3 Her Doom

How does Morgana react when news reaches her of Arthur’s decision to lift the ban on magic and when she learns of Merlin’s identity? Part of my series. Bit of a prologue to Heart of Gold but CAN STAND ALONE.

3. Heart of Gold

Bk3 of Prophesized. Camelot has slowly adjusted to their new Court Sorcerer and the freedom of magic, but prejudice hides in the darkest shadows, with treason and betrayal at its side. However, when Dark magic gets thrown into the mix and when the witch comes out to play… prejudice really is the least of their worries. Merlin!whump/BAMF; Arthur!whump.

4. The End

Because the story never really ends when the author writes “The End,” does it? All the unanswered questions, all the scenes yet to be written…A collection of oneshots and drabbles all connected to my Prophesized series.

The Lost – Ultra-Geek

In the blink of an eye, Merlin goes from laughing in the halls of Camelot to lying on the ground, hurt and alone, in an unfamiliar, ruined castle. Now all he has to do is figure out what’s happened.


To Serve and Protect – Ultra-Geek

After something terrible happens, Arthur, Gwen, Gwaine, and Lancelot take their turns in protecting their protector, watching over their watcher. Merlin’s the one in trouble, now, and it’s up to them to save him.

Crossing the Line – Ultra-Geek

In which Merlin is bludgeoned, strangled, attacked, smothered, shot with glass, and tossed out a window, burned, whipped, stabbed, thrown down stairs, nearly drowned on dry land, and harpooned, and still manages to save Camelot from seven evil sorcerers.

Beneath the Surface – Ultra-Geek

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. Especially if that woman happens to be the all powerful Lady of the Lake. And you’ve just shot her boyfriend with a crossbow.


The Next Seven Days – Ultra-Geek

Arthur is told a series of events that will occur over the space of a week. The seventh day will end with magic returning to Camelot, ushered in by the warlock Emrys, either to save the kingdom or destroy it. Arthur has a plan, though. Sort of.


Exaggerations and Overreactions – Ultra-Geek

Merlin and the Knights of the Round Table are led to believe that Arthur is dead. Merlin doesn’t take it very well. BAMF!Merlin


Standing on the Edge of Forever – Ultra-Geek

Merlin couldn’t for the life of him remember at what point he’d heaved himself up onto the actual wall, standing with the wind ruffling his hair and the toes of his boots sticking out over the edge. But, he had.

The Other Side of the Edge – Ultra-Geek

Arthur tries to talk Merlin out of a long fall with a sudden stop, and then gets a little more information than he bargained for. Sequel to “Standing on the Edge of Forever”.

Try, Try Again – Ultra-Geek

In which Arthur tries, several times, to name Merlin as Court Sorcerer, and things just keep going wrong.


Wayward Sons – Ultra-Geek

In the wake of Uther’s death, Arthur goes too far in an argument with Merlin and is left to try and pick up the pieces.

Twisting, Turning, Tilting – Ultra-Geek

It’s not the first lie that Merlin has told you. You pray that it won’t be the last.

The King’s Legacy Series – llLethell

1. Crossing the Line

Merlin was no stranger to being tormented by the knights of Camelot, but when one ups the ante he finds that while not all of them know where to draw the line, at least some will come to his aid when it is crossed. Set during S2.

2. To Share a Secret

Weighed down by his secrets, Merlin allows himself to tell Arthur that the dragonlord they are seeking is his father. How does this affect what’s going to happen? Set during The Last Dragonlord.

3. Just Desserts

A visiting lord comes to Camelot to do business with Uther. However, he has ill intent towards the prince and tries to use Merlin to get what he wants. But Merlin will protect Arthur no matter the cost to himself.

4. The King’s Legacy

“I hope you are rolling in your grave brother, I will find your son, and I hope he is like you. I will ruin him and gain a lovely weapon in the process.” Cenred spat on the grave, “I win Balinor.”

5. Play With Fire

The sweet scent of revenge is intoxicating to many. One disgraced lord with a vendetta against Merlin is drawn back to Camelot to take his own just desserts, and is determined to get it.

6. Fear of the Dark

Morgana plans to enact complete revenge against Merlin, unknowingly setting off paths of destiny. Emrys will be the one needed to vanquish the evil she unleashes. Old enemies resurface and new ones emerge. And allies will be needed in Emrys’ dark hour.

With Sufficient Thrust, Pigs Fly Just Fine – inktomi

Merlin locks himself into a cell, sneaks out to defenestrate sorcerers and has magical parties to celebrate. Arthur takes a while to catch on.


A Cautionary Tale About Tomatoes And Zombies – netgirly2k

Armed with two swords, a slightly dented helmet and a wooden spoon, our heroes fight zombies.

Before I Was Yours – revhead

Before they swore their allegiance to Prince Arthur at the Round Table, their loyalty had already been earned by the servant at his right hand. From the POV of Lancelot, Gwaine, Percival, Guinevere, Gaius, and finally Merlin himself.

A Study in Natural Philosophy – Mad_Maudlin

It wasn’t all that unusual for people to hide their daemons; Merlin, however, seems to be taking it a little far.


Hunger Strike – FaeryQueen07

Original prompt: Arthur/Merlin, Hurt/Comfort - effects of starvation on one of the boys, with the other nursing him back to health

Additional prompt: For whatever reason, Arthur doesn’t go to Ealdor in the “Moment of Truth”, and Merlin on his own can’t convince the villagers to stay and fight, so the harvest is stolen while the villagers hide. Merlin stays on to try to help the famine-stricken town, but feels so guilty for failing to save them that he takes almost no food for himself. When Arthur hears about how things have turned out, he comes as quickly as he can bringing whatever aid he can manage, enough to get the village through the winter. Merlin is in worse shape than most. Arthur, wracked with his own guilt for not helping earlier, cares for Merlin himself.

Arthur’s Silent Guardian – Sydelle Rein

A powerful sorcerer named Emrys resides in Camelot, a silent guardian to Prince Arthur. But why would any sorcerer protect a Pendragon? Candun intends to find out, even if it means kidnapping the prince of Camelot as bait.

On Shaky Ground – Sydelle Rein

Sequel to Arthur’s Silent Guardian! With the unknown identity of his sorcerer-protector plaguing him, Arthur is unsure how to deal with this new knowledge. Meanwhile, a series of mysterious earthquakes is threatening the safety of Camelot.

Of Walls and Scars – Sydelle Rein

Sequel to On Shaky Ground! As an army of sorcerers marches on Camelot, Merlin scrambles to come up with a defense strategy. In the meantime: Arthur, newly enlightened about the identity of the mysterious “Emrys,” finds hiding his knowledge a little more difficult than he originally anticipated.

What’s in a Name? – Sydelle Rein

“His name’s not even Merlin!” Arthur shouted, rounding on his servant again, jabbing a finger in his direction. Merlin flinched. / Arthur’s discovered something. And he’s not happy about it.

Iron Grip – Sydelle Rein

Gwaine may be known for his tavern brawls and his willingness to prank his fellow knights, but he is nothing if not loyal. So when Merlin begins acting strangely, Gwaine goes to great lengths to figure out what’s wrong, unaware of just what he will uncover in the process: blackmail, plots, danger, and a dark secret hanging over the head of his best friend like an axe.

Unintentional Eavesdropping – Sydelle Rein

3x13 tag. Lancelot doesn’t understand Merlin. He saves all of Camelot, yet asks for no recognition. Well someone needs to thank him, and Lancelot decides to fulfill that roll. But what if someone else is within hearing distance when he does?

Are You Kidding Me! – Sydelle Rein

Another run in with pesky bandits puts Merlin and Arthur in a sticky situation, and Arthur is left gawking like an idiot at Merlin’s escape strategy.

The Curse’s Origins – Sydelle Rein

He couldn’t let Arthur do this. The old sorceress was not in her right mind. She deserved pity, not death. That is, until she mentions a young woman she once cursed. Merlin’s blood runs cold, and Arthur stares at him in confusion. Merlin/Freya, no slash.

Why You Don’t Mess With Merlin – ForIHaveOvercomeTheWorld

Claude is new in Camelot and he doesn’t understand that Merlin and Arthur’s banter is normal. He wishes to teach Merlin a lesson. Will the other guards stop him in time? Will they have their own story of foolishness to tell? Whump, bromance, no slash.

The Mystery of Merlin – ForIHaveOvercomeTheWorld

Sequel to Why You Don’t Mess With Merlin. Claude is still confused about the servant Merlin. He just doesn’t understand him. But when something bad happens Claude sees the side of Merlin that is willing to do anything to protect even one person. No slash.

Starving a Warlock Isn’t Wise – ForIHaveOvercomeTheWorld

Tag to 404. The knights played a joke on Merlin and we see him not eating for two nights, but what if it’s been longer than that? Will Arthur and the knights realize something abut Merlin that they never knew before? Bromance, no slash, overworked Merlin.

A Question of… Series – Alaia Skyhawk

1. Whom History Won’t Remember

Fans of A Question of Motives, this is officially a key part of my “A Question of…” Series. It tells past events for main characters, and reveals OCs that will be in Season 4 sub-eps and my planned fic “A Question of Destiny”

2. A Question of Destiny

Destiny. For him it is both burden and blessing. How fair that fate lead to that friendship, how cruel that he must lie to protect it. The question being what more will destiny ask of him? What price to obey it? Prequel to A Question of Motives

3. A Question of Resolve

He’d chosen his path, and now he had to walk it, but it’s going to take more than stubborn will to protect Arthur. What Merlin needs is true resolve #S2 fic, prequel to A Question of Motives#

4. A Question of Motives

As he lay there bearing witness to the battle before him, he could scarce believe what he saw. What was he to believe? What to do? How are you supposed to react when the man you saw as your closest friend turns out to be a sorcerer? *Spoilers for SE-3*

5. A Question of Brotherhood

The Brotherhood of the Round Table has begun, leading the fight against darkness. The threads of destiny are weaving ever tighter, and the one question is if their trust will be enough. Spoilers Se4 Sequel to A Question of Motives

6. A Question of Decisions

Magic has begun its slow return, beneath the illusion of indecision Arthur must wield. With the Brotherhood at his side, he knows that all lands now wait for him to reveal his ultimate choice. Spoilers for Se5 Sequel to A Question of Brotherhood

7. A Question of Unity

Shadows lurk beneath the golden glow of peace, and trouble stirs in the east of Albion. For when one foe ceases to cast their shadow, another will rise to take their place, and spur the call of Unity (Sequel to A Question of Decisions)#Season6#

Pendragon Institute Series – ForzaDelDestino

1. Inside the Pendragon Institute

Arthur is Assistant Director at a museum of medieval art. Morgana’s the senior curator. Lance is the armour specialist, Gwen works with tapestries and textiles. Merlin is a new employee with a reputation for quirky brilliance.

2. Outside the Pendragon Institute

Sequel to “Inside the Pendragon Institute.” Arthur, Assistant Director of the well-known museum of medieval art, plans a summer visit to London with the Institute’s newest and most gifted conservator, Merlin Emrys. What could possibly go wrong? AU Merthur

3. Christmas at the Pendragon Institute

Part 3 in the Pendragon Institute series. A 3-shot in which the museum staff celebrates the end of the year. Morgana’s mysterious, Uther looms on the horizon, Mordred approaches puberty, and visions of commitment are dancing in Arthur’s head. AU slash.

4. Emails from the Pendragon Institute

4th and final fic in the Pendragon Institute series. At the museum of medieval art, reactions to Arthur’s latest decision range from excitement to shock. Arthur and Merlin head to London to make things official, but will they have any time alone there? AU

5. Worth Your Tears, a Pendragon Institute One-shot

At a museum exhibition opening and conference, Arthur Pendragon, Assistant Director of the Pendragon Institute of Medieval and Renaissance Art, and his junior conservator, Merlin Emrys, have a very unexpected encounter. And they only have 24 hours to figure out what to do about it. The 5th story in the Pendragon Institute series. One-shot. AU slash. References to episode dialogue.


To Tell a Tale – LeggyLulu

“Arthur started it, he had practically dared him. Fine then. He would show them, he would show them all. They were about to get their socks blow off.” In which Merlin tells a tale, and Arthur pays attention. Story time has never been this complicated…


All The Ways – LeggyLulu

This is a story of scenarios…think of it as drabbles, but longer. I’m going to pretty much post all the one-shots I’ve written and also write more. Next Up: Comparing Scars in which Merlin gets drunk and takes off his shirt.

Exiles Series – Kiva Taliana

1. The Scheme Of Things

Arthur finds out the truth.

2. Hard Choices

Following on from my story ‘The Scheme Of Things’, the knights who know about Merlin, have to make some decisions, and so do Arthur and Merlin.

3. The Order Of Things

Follows on from 'The Scheme Of Things’ and 'Hard Choices’. Uther finds out about Merlin.

4. The Exiles: A Close Shave

My little band are back! The exiles have a run in with an old enemy, which naturally lands Arthur in a spot of bother, and a cage.

5. The Exiles: Snowed In

Part of the series I have planned for my team of runaway knights set after 'The Order Of Things’ while they are in exile. Merlin, Arthur and the others take refuge during a snow storm, and being at close quarters can get interesting.

6. The Exiles: The Battle For Camelot

The exiles rescue a group of druids from an attack and learn some disturbing news, some of which comes from Merlin. They are forced to risk everything as they return to Camelot, in an attempt to save the kingdom.

7. The Exiles: Blossoming

Following 'The Battle For Camelot’. After Arthur takes his role as Regent, he leaves the care of his damaged father to Gwen. And Gwen finds her relationship with Uther blossoming. Not slash.

8. The Exiles: Release

Continuing the 'Exiles’ series. Things move on a pace in Camelot as things are found out, and hard decisions are made.

Beyond the Vale – BeyondTheStorm

Post S3. When a patrol goes missing under strange circumstances, Arthur is determined to find out what happened, and no one can persuade him otherwise. With nothing to go on but a foreboding story, Merlin fears that their luck might finally run out.


Cast Me Gently Into Morning – BeyondTheStorm

It starts with a choice. After promising that when the time came he would choose wisely, Arthur never once thought that he would make the wrong choice, but the choices that matter most aren’t always what we think. *Post season 3* Oneshot, 2 parts.

Healing Spells – BeyondTheStorm

After revealing his magic to Arthur due to life-threatening circumstances, Merlin decides it’s time he learned to heal. With Gaius off dealing with an illness in the outer villages, Merlin is left to his own methods, bearing some rather costly outcomes.


A Fresh Perspective – dr4g0ngrl

De-aged!Merlin, Caring!Arthur, Caring!Knights, Reveal!Fic. If that doesn’t say it all, Merlin is turned into a child by ex-druids bent on raising “Emrys” to be their weapon to free magic. Plot is actually just an excuse to write Merlin-as-a-kid fluff. SPOILERS for S4. Set during S4, after episode #whatever, when Elyan is … you know.

On the Wings of a Butterfly – Ph0enix-Flyer

Merlin’s magic is revealed and Arthur struggles with his views on magic and the issue of trust. It takes talks with Gwen and Gaius, as well as a display of innocent magic viewed secretly from a bush, to make him realise that nothing which truly mattered has ever really changed. Post-S3, will now be considered AU.

Friendship and Brotherhood – msmhtp

Friendship and brotherhood are tested when the secrets come out bit by bit. Some angst and whump. Bromance, No slash. Set after S4.


Of Guilt, Blame, and Misappropriated Weaponry – Aoitori

Tag to 4x8, “Lamia.” When Arthur discovers what his knights did to his servant while under the creature’s influence, he and Merlin get into a bit of a row over what should be done about it. Chapter 5: Back in Camelot with Arthur and a visit from Gwaine.


The Hopes and Dreams – Cloud-Dee

“You have failed destiny Arthur. And the price you pay will be a heavy one.” When Arthur is told he will lose the one person who holds his and Camelot’s hopes and dreams, he rushes to protect Gwen. No-one notices the look of despair in Merlin’s eyes.


Dancing Light – Cynical and Sarcastic

Merlin hovered nervously in Arthur’s doorway. It was time to tell him. But perhaps…not alone. The rest of the Round Table should hear as well. Reveal fic.

Fixing That Which Was Broken – Reiya Wakayama

AU post season 3, slash, G/M, Gwaine watches silently as Merlin falls apart piece by piece as Arthur falls in love with Gwen and then marries her. Later, he will have to fix up the broken warlock as best he can.

In The Shadowed Dell – Reiya Wakayama

Post S3, slash, P/M, Percival has always been a man of nature, most comfortable amongst trees instead of people.

Learning the Rules – Reiya Wakayama

AU, slash, A/M, When someone new comes to court, it’s up to some of the more seasoned people in Camelot’s court to take them aside and explain a few rules…about Merlin.

My Brother’s Keeper – SecondStar2theRight

Sir Olwen had left his brother alone in Camelot for only a few hours. Perhaps he should have explained a few of Camelot’s rules first…

Honesty is the Best PolicySecondStar2theRight

After the latest magical attack, Uther is having everyone in Camelot interrogated. Now it’s Merlin’s turn to be questioned by Leon. Tag to The Son of a Sorcerer by Literaria

The Son of a Sorcerer – Literaria

In which Merlin gets to tell more of the truth than usual and still lies through his teeth the entire time, and Arthur presumes to know far better than Merlin about, well, everything.

Just a Trim – Literaria

Of all the ways Merlin worried Arthur would discover his magic, he never thought it would be so mundane.

Sit In – Literaria

Not entirely surprisingly, Merlin ends up in the dungeons again… but the Knights of the Round Table never abandon one of their own.

Total Knockout – Emachinescat

Or “Why Arthur Should Stop Getting Knocked Unconscious at Strategic Moments Throughout the Show so that Merlin Can Do Magic Without Getting Caught” Arthur’s been hit on the head too many times, and isn’t quite himself on his coronation day. Chaos ensues.

When It All Comes Crashing Down – Emachinescat

Originally anthologized in “Sesquipedalian.” After the weight of his past and destiny becomes too much for Merlin to bear, Arthur comes to Merlin as a friend and Merlin tells the truth. Sort of.

For Arthur – Emachinescat

Originally anthologized in “Sesquipedalian.” After an attempted assassination of Prince Arthur nearly costs Merlin his life, Arthur decides to have a little “talk” with Merlin about his apparent longing to die for him.

The Visiting Prince – Emachinescat

“Stay away from him!” The visiting prince snapped his eyes to meet Arthur’s challenge. “Why?” he sneered. “He’s just a mouthy servant. He needed to be taught a lesson.” An old acquaintance of Arthur’s is in Camelot and Merlin suffers because of it.

Stone Cold – Emachinescat

Tag to 'The Darkest Hour’. Merlin has always been there for Arthur, a constant companion that always seems to come out of any situation unscathed. But this time, Merlin doesn’t get up. And Arthur doesn’t know if he wants to stand up again, either. 4x01

Hero – Emachinescat

Tag to 'The Darkest Hour Pt. 2’. Arthur and the knights take care of Merlin after the Dorocha attack and before they split up. Arthur struggles to say his goodbyes and Merlin is, of course, trying to protect Arthur, even while dying. 4x02

So Close – Emachinescat

Tag to 'The Wicked Day’. Merlin had been closer to his destiny than he had ever been and it had blown up in his face. How can he pretend everything will be alright after destroying everything he’s ever worked for? 4x03

No Apologies Necessary, Just Strongly Encouraged – Emachinescat

Tag to 'Aithusa’. On the ride back to Camelot, the king and his knights attempt to apologize to a distracted Merlin for treating him poorly on the way. Merlin’s shocked yet touched, Gwaine’s drunk, Elyan’s ashamed, and Arthur’s just plain awkward. 4x04

Too Far – Emachinescat

AU tag to 'Lamia’. Looking at the bloody, battered Merlin on the cold floor, with Lamia’s green eyes focused hungrily upon the weary men, the knights realized that this time, they might have crossed the line. Enchanted or not, they have gone too far. 4x08

You're Alright You. Part Five

• What if … on the day of her release from the mental hospital Rae doesnt see Chloe and the gang on the bikes…

Part One- HERE

Part Two- HERE

Part Three-HERE

Part Four-HERE


Part Five.

Within a few minutes of Chop bringing them their drinks from the bar. Archie, Finn’s best friend since first school turned up. He was actually a good laugh and neither him nor Chop seemed to have a problem with her hanging out with them. 

During a dull moment when Archie was telling them about some fact about a wall Finn pressed his thigh against Rae’s. She smiled softly but kept her attention on his friend. What the bloody hell is he going on about?

“Arch, give it a rest” Chop finally told him and as he spun a beer mat in his hands “Your giving me a head ache mate” Thank you Chop.

“Well I am sorry Arnold” What? Is Chops name Arnold? oh my god “Would you rather talk about the latest trend in Corpse de perfume?”

“Fuck off!” Chop threw the beer mat he’d been holding at him “Jesus Christ”

“Well you sa….”

“Alright you two” Finn laughed “Calm it down” He is so hot when he’s assertive. Lord

Rae laughed before adding her own two cents “I have heard corpse if the the big taste of summer ‘96” with a serious, well as serious as she could without bursting out laughing, face. 

Finn laughed snorted and Archie starting slapping his hands on his knees as he laughed.

“You think your so funny” Chop said glaring at her, in what she assumed was meant to be a menacing manner ,but he kind of look like a lost puppy. Awwwh

“Yeah, I do actually” And they all cracked up laughing even harder. 

However Rae instantly stopped when a voice appeared next to Archie “Alright guys, whats so funny?” Bloody Chloe.

Chloe looked up and her mouth popped open when she saw Rae sat there.

Rae?” she looked at Finn sat next to her “Whats going on?”

“Alright Chlo’ ” Shit.

“You two know each other?” Archie asked, pushing his glasses up his nose. 

Rae glanced at Finn who was looking down at his hands in his lap with a small scowl. Oh fucking mega shit

“Yeah” Chloe said loudly “She’s my best mate, from school”

"What?” that was Chop.

“What you doing here Rae?”

“She’s having a drink” Finn answered Chloe before Rae could, he sounded a little annoyed. She nudged his leg with hers but he stayed still.

“Hiya guys” the girl Rae had seen with Chloe the other day in the park came and sat down the other side of Archie. She looked up at Rae and smiled. That must be Izzy.

“This is crazy” Chloe finally took a seat.

Raes heart was pounding in her chest, She hadn’t bargained for this. She wasn’t ready to be with Chloe.

What if she brings up France? I am fucked.

Especially if Archie knows as much about that as he does about history. Fuck me life. Shit. 

A awkward silence filled the swelling groups table. Well fuckity fuck fuck.

“Help me at the bar Chlo” Archie said “I need a drink”

“Oh” she got up, and didn’t look too happy. Thank you Archie.

“Your friends wiv’ her” Finn and Rae spoke at the same time.

“Not really,no” Finn replied as Rae said “We used to be”

"You two are like watching a tv show” Chop laughed but Izzy just looked at him out the corner of her eye.

I see what Finn means about wanting to smash their heads together.

“Used to be?” Finn asked, in a lower voice so the others couldn’t hear.

“It’s a long story” she mumbled and starting biting on her lip.

“Wanna go?” He asked.

She did and she didn’t.

Today had been one of the best days she’d had in years. Fucking ever more like. Bollocks Chloe.

He was watching her face closely. She noticed that Chop and Izzy where now awkwardly talking to each other and Chloe and Archie where still at the bar, waiting to be served.

“I’m just really not in the mood to talk to her really” I was never going to be a hundred percent ready though.

“You two fall out or summet?”

“No, we just, stopped talking”

"Oh” he said.

“Which is probably worse than if we had fallen out really”

“We can go, if you want?” he leant forward “Back to mine”

“I should probably go home” she told him “When we leave” her Mum was going to wonder what the fuck she was up to, if she was too late home.

He smiled “Staying?”

Yeah” he smiled bigger “But..”

“Just” he wiggled a finger “If you wanna go, ‘member” How could she bloody forget?

She just nodded and looked up again just as Archie and Chloe came back.

“Here you go Rae, Finn” Archie put another pint of snake bite and black in front of each of them. 

“Thanks Arch”

She felt so silly for worry that Finn’s friends would judge her and not want her to be there.

Chop and Archie had been really nice.

And she was sure Izzy would be too.

The only thing she wasn’t happy about was Chloe being here.

It might be a good thing tough, there was a reason that we used to be best friends. Wasn’t there?

How did she even become friends with these lot?

The last time she had seen her supposed best friend she had been all chummy chummy with the popular girls at school, too pre-ocuppied with being the skinniest, prettiest of everyone there. No time for anyone else that wasn’t in their circle of mates.


“Rae” Chloe spoke “Come to the loo with me” fuck sake.

Taking a deep breath she nodded and followed the girl into the bathroom.

Rae didn’t look at Finn, or anyone else at the table as they retreated. 

“How’d you meet Finn?” Chloe demanded as soon as the door shut behind them.

"Why?” Oh piss off.

“It’s just a bit odd is all” Chloe crossed her arms.

"Odd?” why? because anyone other then her wasn’t allowed to hang out with me.

It reminded her of the other day when she was kinda rude to Tix. Was that really only yesterday? Fucking hell.

“Yeah, I mean he’s Finn NelsonHis last names Nelson? “A bit of a grumpy sod half of the time but he is the fittest lad at the college, even Georgina’s sister fancies him, and she’s twenty four!”

“So?” Whats a twenty four year old fancying a teenager for? Gross

“Its just odd” Chloe said again.

Yes I get the picture Chloe, you think I’m odd. And anyone that wants to hang out with me is an odd thing to do. Apart from you of course. 

“Well….. it is what it is” I shrugged my shoulders “I only met him a couple of days ago”

“A couple of…” Chloe’s eyes widened “Your the girl he was blushing over when he was late here the other day?”

“What?” he blushed? She couldn’t imagine Finn blushing. Especially not over her.

“Do you fancy him?” Chloe was smiling, and it reminded her of when they used to be close. When they were so much younger than now. Before all of the shit had happened.

“Chloe, look..” but she got cut off as Izzy came through the door laughing.

“Bloody Archies going on again”

Before Chloe could turn her attention away from the red headed girl Rae darted out of the bathroom, and back to the table. Safer territory.

“Alright?” Finn asked as she sat back down next to him again.

She didn’t trust herself to speak so just nodded before taking a big gulp of her pint. Could he of really been blushing over her? Bloody hell.


Chloe barley spoke as they all laughed and joked once her and Izzy had came back from the bathroom.

At one point Chop spat out a mouth full of his pint across the table, which of course made them all laugh harder, even Chloe joined in that time. 

She kind of looked annoyed, and Rae wondered why.

Maybe she didn’t want Rae to be hanging out with her gang of mates. She knew them first after all.

But then Chloe started talking about some lads she met at a chip shop earlier.

I couldn’t understand why she kept looking over in mine and Finn’s direction. And then it clicked. Chloe fancied Finn. Pissing hell.

Thats why she’s been off with me about hanging out with him.

And why she wanted to know if I liked him.

Well she might of known him first, but he’s my friend too. You want him way more than as a friend.

Without even thinking Rae’s hand shoot out to Finn’s thigh and she wrote out ‘G O’.

He gave a small nod and clapped his hands together.

“Right you lot, we’re off” and stood up. I quickly scrambled to my feet too.

“Oh ‘ye” chop laughed “got summet else on have yah?” he was wiggling his eyebrows suggestively “You dirty fuckers”

Finn slapped him on the head and laughed “Laters guys”

“Bye” Izzy smiled and waved good bye while Chloe just mumbled a ‘see yah’ and turned back to telling her story to Izzy. She was the only one really interested in what she had been saying out of everyone sat there.

They had taken about two steps away from the table when Chops voice shouted over the pub noises “Oi, Rae”

She paused and turned to him “What?” 

This is it, she thought, he’s gunna tell her to piss off. 

“We’re meeting at the chippie on the high street tomoz at eleven” he smiled his tooth gap smile “and then were gunna hang at the park, have some beers”

“Ok?” why are you telling me?

“Don’t be late” he winked “Alright?”

She was silent for a minute, was he actually wanted inviting her to hang out with them again. SPEAK!

“Yeah alright” she nodded. Slow down.

“Ace” he gave her two thumbs up.


Once her and Finn stepped out side the both of them let out breaths of relief.

“Well, that was bloody eventful”

“Your telling me” she rolled her eyes. All she wanted to do right now was to go home, get into bed and sleep for a year.

“Which way?” he asked her, confusing the fuck out of her.


“I’m walking you home”

“No” she shook her head “Don’t be silly”

“I sure as shit ain’t letting yah walk alone in the dark” he told her, with a eye roll. 



The two stared at each other until she finally gave in and pointed to the left.

The opposite direction than they had come from Finns’ place, earlier in the evening. 

“Come one then” he linked his arm through hers, both smiled at the contact. She was well and truly fucked. They both were.

“So” Finn spoke once the pub was out of view.


“You and Chloe?”

“Me and Chloe”

“How’d that happen?”

“What do yah mean” she slowed down to an almost stop and turned to him.

“Its just that you two, I would never of pegged yah for friends. in a million fucking years. Your so different ta each other” awkward laugh came out of his mouth as he finished his sentence. 

She was well aware just how different they had been, through out their entire friendship, she always had been.

Chloe was skinny, pretty and perfect.

And she was loud, fat and ugly. Oh and don’t forget about being as mad as could be.

Why would someone like Chloe ever be friends with someone like Rae Earl?

“Don’t take it like that” he spoke as he saw a look of pain pass across her face “I didn’t mean that” he tightened his grip on her arm “Its just your funny, yous’ actually tell bloody funny jokes, your dead nice and I like talking to you” she felt the stress fade a little “and I don’t like talking to just anyone”

Rae laughed “Chloe did say you where a bit of a grumpy sod when we where in the bathroom”

“Cheeky bitch” he muttered “Your nothing like her you know, your good”

“Chloe is good” I said without thinking “She is…deep down" 

"So good that she just stopped talking to you?”

“It don’t matter” I shrugged my shoulders. Can’t change whats happened. 

“It does matter” he insisted “If someones your friend, thats it, your there for them, no matter bloody what. You don’t call someone your best friend if your not going to be there”

She knew he was right.

But its easy to say these things.

Things that you should do, but life happens.

It aways gets in the way.

Plus, its not like she had told Chloe about the things that had been going on in her life lately.

It was both of their faults that they had drifted apart.

“She tries too hard to fit in” Finn spoke again “It makes her look desperate sometimes”

Finn“ I sighed.

"Its true Rae” he pulled her to a stop" If she stopped trying so hard I might actually start to like her, she just needs to be herself and not try to impress every guy that passes by" he wasn’t wrong “Look, She might of been hanging out with us for the last few weeks” thats all, a few weeks? “But I want you to hang out with me, I don’t invite just anyone to my house you know!” he smiled.

“No?” she wiggled her eyebrows at him.

“No, only youfuck yes “And Arch too of course” he added.

“Not even Chop?”

“Not even Chop” he assured her “Its an exclusive invitation”

“Is that right?”

“Damn right”

So Chloe may of known him longer, but she hadn’t been invited to his house. And she sure as shit hadn’t laid in a bed with him listening to music all afternoon. Well she bloody hoped she hadn’t.


“Ok” she mumbled in agreement.

The two feel into a comfortable silence as they continued their walk to Rae’s house.

Both excited that they would be seeing each other again tomorrow.