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hi pretties 🌷💕

may is almost over kids, which means i have waited all of mental health month to share own my story! when i first started this blog, i mentioned that i had some issues in high school but i never really shared about them.

i got depressed for the first time when i was a sophomore. i didn’t have much friends and i was painfully shy so i had a really hard time socializing with anyone but the few friends i already had growing up. not being given much attention made me feel a little insecure, sorta like i wasn’t good enough. i had never been confident, and i developed a habit of comparing myself to other girls. because of this, i became extremely self conscious about my looks, especially my body. at this time, i was at a healthy weight; i didn’t overeat and never in my life was i overweight, but comparison and insecurity got the best of me.

it started with me wanting to lose just a few pounds. i didn’t have much knowledge about healthy eating and weight loss, but simply eating less was how it began (this is also when i started running). overall, i just wanted to look and feel more fit. what i didn’t realize was that i was becoming obsessive about it. i wouldn’t finish meals or i would skip them; i stayed away from certain foods, even foods i used to eat all the time. i even tried counting calories everyday, how much i was eating and how much i was burning. i thought i was doing myself good, but by the time i was early into my junior year, “a few pounds” became 20. this made me feel tired, depressed, even scared of eating like a normal person. all i remember from my junior year and the summer after is being unhappy with my life. i tried to fill the void with guys, partying, being around people i shouldn’t have been, and on top of all this i was completely faking my confidence; i’d cry because i hated myself then walk into a room and act like i loved myself more than anyone.

when senior year rolled around, i knew i had an eating disorder. i knew that i was unhealthy, and if i kept doing what i was doing, i was going to end up in the hospital. that was the year that i started trying to overcome these habits (notice i said TRYING). when i made the decision to start recovering, i had no idea that it would be so difficult. my weight began to go up and down, and it got really frustrating. some days i felt genuinely happy with my body, but other days i felt awful. i was proud of myself, though, because no matter how hard it was, i never let myself starve again. 

the end of my senior year and that summer is a story for another time. but i went through a lot and i met people who helped me become who i am today. i also found out that i am a lot tougher than i look! i’ve become truly happy with who i am, and i am genuinely myself again. i am able to run because i like to run, not because i’m trying to lose weight. i eat whatever i want, whenever i’m hungry (so cake). and although anorexia doesn’t consume my life anymore and i’m healthier than i used to be, i’m still recovering from those painful two years. sometimes i have my bad days, but i always end up finding a way to pick myself up.

so if you’re still reading (thanks💕), please remember to take care of yourself, whether that means staying alive another day or simply eating breakfast. and i don’t care if it feels like the whole damn world has given up on you, don’t give up on yourself. your life is worth so much more than that asshole in your head that keeps telling you you’re not good enough.

so there you go friends, my first personal story about my mental health journey! thank you for those of you who stuck through it all, i know i’m not the best writer in town but i like to tell stories! 🙆🏻
(another thanks for your support)
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anonymous asked:

Hello, love. I'm looking for any school au where Harry and Louis are secretly dating and they get outed. Thanks!

I kind of just went for the whole secretly dating thing! I can’t remember how they get outed in these fics!

Here You Go:

Learning To Breathe by youcomecrash [ 20/20 | English | 110,890 ] ***

He’s playing football at one of the top universities in England and he should love everything about his life right now, but instead he’s moving backwards. How does your past fit into your present? Louis is still figuring it out.

So Let’s Cross The Lines We Lost by thecoloursneverfade [ 20/20 | English | 165,291 ] 

Or: Harry and Louis have a complicated past, Niall throws too many parties, Zayn is definitely not pining, and Liam just wants everyone to get along.

A Love That Feels This Right by Don’tLetHimGo [ 1/1 | English | 13,692 ] 

The Sixth Form AU where Louis is the footie team captain, Harry is head boy, and no one at school has any idea that the two of them are in love.

Monsters At Home by theteapirate [ 1/1 | English | 21,566 ] 

High School!AU. Everyone’s eyes are on Harry, the beautiful, charming new student. Harry’s only got eyes for the school golden boy: football captain Louis Tomlinson, whose homophobic father complicates matters a bit.

Little Wings On My Shoes by juliusschmidt [ 1/1 | English | 39,487 ] 

The American High School AU in which no one is cool (except Niall) and Harry wears a rainbow bracelet.

I hope these are okay! - Happy Reading! :) 

hiriahb  asked:

Music Asks: 1, 2, 3, 10, 15, 19, 20, 22, 23, 24, 25, 29, 32? (Hope this wasn't too many :P )

1. Song that always makes you happy

Phish - Backwards Down The Number Line. Happy, happy, oh, my friends.

2. Song you listen to when sad

Richard & Linda Thompson - Walking On A Wire. The whole Shoot Out The Lights album is a great sad times album.

3.  Top 5 songs of *blank*

Top Five Oingo Boingo Songs

Bachelor Party
Nothing Bad Ever Happens To Me
Out Of Control
Not My Slave
Ain’t This The Life (Specifically the live version from Urgh! A Music War)

10. So you gotta dance to

Fishbone - Everyday Sunshine. Really all ska but, you gotta dance.

15. Most hated song of all time

That “Once I Was Seven Years Old” song. Fuck it.

19. Most underrated artist

The Carpenters. The Carpenters are very good. I don’t know if they qualify as “underrated,” but we all need to do better when it comes to talking about The Carpenters

20. Favorite vocal performance

The version of “Under Pressure” that Annie Lennox and David Bowie did at the Freddie Mercury Tribute Concert.

22. Song nobody expects you to like

Okay so everyone on this awful website loves CRJ. That’s a given. But people in real world land still think of Call Me Maybe as a goof and don’t get that I genuinely enjoy it.

23. Song you get stick for liking

Everything Emerson, Lake, and Palmer ever did.

24. Song you’d like at your funeral

Bonzo Goes To Washington - 5 Minutes

25. Song you’d like for first dance

A friend of Brandi and mine had their first dance to Grateful Dead’s “Easy To Love You.” That isn’t my first choice, but it’s a good one.

29. Artist you used to love but don’t listen to now

Matt & Kim. I used to love Grand, but everything after that just got progressively worse and worse.

32. Top of the charts when you were born

Topping the Billboard Hot 100 on July 17, 1992 was Baby Got Back, by Sir Mix-A-Lot.

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TOP 20 EPISODES OF PARKS AND RECREATION (as voted by my followers) #4: April and Andy’s Fancy Party

“I guess I kind of hate most things. But I never really seem to hate you. So I want to spend the rest of my life with you, is that cool?”

Eight Months Late

Author: weekendatbuckys
Featuring: Chris Evans x Reader (Alex; @chewbbucky on Twitter)
Shot/word count: One-shot; 2141 words.
Rating: Fluff
Synopsis: Chris struggles to contain his deepest feelings for the reader, a friend whom he has come to love. She is accompanying him at a party but the sun setting at the beach is much more enticing than a room full of strangers. [Inspired by the beach scene from Playing It Cool.]

Chris was not the type of man to take friendships lightly, and his friendship with Alex doesn’t fall short of that.

It was another Hollywood party that he had been roped into attending, and in turn, Alex had been dragged along, too. She definitely made a show of refusing the days prior to the event, and he didn’t blame her. It was a lazy Friday where the sun was aching to reach the lip of the ocean. Chris wanted nothing more than to spend his evening with a pizza and a Disney Classic.

As he turned to his left, after depositing his empty glass on the passing waiter’s tray, he expected to see Alex’s back to him as she made idle small talk. His wondering blue eyes quickly caught Alex gliding through the scattered guests towards the entrance leading to beach front.

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sometimes when i’m about to fall asleep i remember that one of my professors was once sent to pick up world-renowned slovenian philosopher slavoj žižek from the airport when she was in grad school and he screamed about spoiled academics the entire time she was driving and then when they got to the conference center he demanded she take him somewhere he could take a nap instead so she brought him to her mom’s house and made him cookies while he slept in her mother’s bed. they were white chocolate cranberry biscotti and when she gave him one he said she reminded him of the oracle from the matrix. every time i think about this i am consumed with the knowledge that i will never hear a wilder story as long as i live and i lie awake for hours trying to convince myself it never actually happened but it doesn’t work, i will be haunted by the specter of slavoj žižek eating white chocolate biscotti on a strange woman’s couch in east chicago until the day i die because nothing in my life will never top that experience, i’m only 20 and my party stories have topped out forever

alright so let me tell you

i work night shift at a factory, and nearby there’s this fancy building complex of bars and restaurants and there’s a sitting area in the middle of it and it’s surrounded by three pokestops, all of which you can reach from the sitting area without moving

so every single night at 1:30am SOMEONE puts out lure models on ALL THREE pokestops. i never went there before because it’s  the middle of the fucking night and it’s a factory area and it seems like a prime opportunity to get mugged and i expected there to only be like one lone nerd sitting there 

but it was break time and i was feeling antsy and i own a boxcutter so i figured fuck it and i went to check it out.

it was a fUCKING PARTY. LIKE. 30 OR 40 ADULTS ALL SITTING AROUND PLAYING POKEMON GO AND CHILLING WITH DRINKS AND FOOD AND SHIT. SOME DUDE WOULD YELL OUT WHATEVER POKEMON POPPED UP AND SOME PEOPLE CLAPPED AND CHEERED WHEN THE RARER ONES WERE ANNOUNCED? AND THIS FUCKING SHIT IS HAPPENING EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT AT 1:30AM. JUST ALL THESE 20-40 YEAR OLDS, HAVING A NIGHTLY CATCHING PARTY. long story short i found a new place to go during my break time.

Imagine a world where no one physically or mentally NEEDED any sleep, just 8+ extra hours a day where you could read more books, catch up on that tv show, learn a new language, take up a new hobby. Sleep is something fun you can do if you want, artists like to nap to draw inspiration from their dreams, groups of people throw ‘dreaming’ parties where everyone naps with a bunch of cushions and throw pillows, life in general is good times

And now flip it around and have a world where sleep again, isn’t needed, so work hours are longer, employers can legally make you work 20 hr days, you get a 5 hr break tops between shifts. Everyone feels sort of numb, with a constant headache that never goes away. Dreams are seen as a sign of mental illness, and naps are for lazy people or children.

And now imagine both these ways of living happening in the same imaginary world

Some really cool questions

1. What is a memory of yours that you could live in forever?

2. If there was a tv show about you what would it be called?

3. What’s your most irrational fear? What’s your most rational fear?

4. What was the first cell phone you owned?

5. Which, if any of your possessions could you live without forever?

6. You find a duffel bag containing 10 thousand dollars, what happens next?

7. Did you ever own a pair of heely’s?

8. Explain the most embarrassing moment of your entire life so far.

9. Drugs?

9 ¾. Alcohol?

10. Pepperoni or cheese pizza?

11. If someone were to say to you “what’s cooler than being cool?” What would you say?

12. Top three favorite colors?

13. Do you do your own laundry?

14. What was your favorite birthday party?

15. Are you my dad?

16. What’s your Favorite planet?

17. Can you ride a sk8board dude?

18. How many different countries have you been to? How many states?

19. you’re allowed to force everyone on earth to listen to one song, one time. What song do you feed our ears?

20. Can I have your phone number.

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This Is What Zoe Saldana Taught Us at Alfre Woodard's Pre-Oscars Dinner

No exhaustive Google search is necessary to find tales of women being cruel to other women, in Hollywood or elsewhere.

But it’s the female in-fighting in Tinseltown — especially among actresses and other entertainers — that often reaches levels of infamy that only serve to pad the tabloids and provide entertainment for the masses (Hello, Bravo).

No backstabbing, rude remarks, catty comments or anything of the sort happened on Wednesday night at the Beverly Wilshire during Alfre Woodard’s annual pre-Oscars dinner — properly titled as the Oscar’s Sistahs Soiree — celebrating black women in entertainment. The event, in its sixth year, is all about support and sisterhood among Hollywood’s top actresses of color — like an exclusive sorority party, only much more hip and fashionable.

Woodard broke her own rule of not allowing anyone but thespians into the event (select journalists are invited only for a cocktail hour which precedes a stilettos-off dinner party where the entree is “real talk,“ says Rosario Dawson) by inviting the breakout director of Selma, Ava DuVernay, to the fete, sponsored this year by Elizabeth Taylor’s White Diamond Lustre (sales of which benefit the Elizabeth Taylor AIDS Foundation) and Piper-Heidseick with transportation by Audi. The helmer and Gugu Mbatha-Raw, who also had a banner year with stunning turns in Belle and Beyond the Lights, were both singled out for their entertainment contributions in 2014.

So what does sisterhood feel like inside a posh Beverly Hills hotel? First of all, you can actually feel it — the energy in the Royal Suite on the eighth floor was like a warm hug from your favorite girlfriend. And you can hear it. DuVernay received a standing ovation when she approached a corner of the penthouse that contained Viola Davis, Dawson and others like Loretta Devine and Regina Taylor.

But also worth listening to are the words from the actresses themselves on why Woodard’s bash is so special and so important in a town not known for authentic embraces, especially during a time when the challenges of being a woman in Hollywood have been so thoroughly examined — not to mention the challenges of being a woman of color in this town.

Alfre Woodard: “I’ve been in this town 40 years. Nobody has ever said, ‘I think we need to have more black women and brown women this year on TV and in feature films.’ Nobody has said that. We are here because we are brilliant at what we do and we are persistent and we don’t go away. If you locked these women in a trunk at the bottom of the ocean, they would find a way to make their presence known. … To know that the women who do what you do and have the experience you have are lifting each other up. They’re behind you, they’re supporting you. By having this event, I want them to know when they have that swag going down the carpet that there is this sisterhood behind their step.”

Kerry Washington: “[This party] is about all of the things awards season is supposed to be about — celebrating excellence — but it also has a sense of immense sisterhood and sincerity and authenticity. You don’t always get that throughout the awards season — or even in life. This is a room full of nothing but love.”

Rosario Dawson: “I have been acting for 20 years and there are so few people you can share that experience with in a very real way that doesn’t sound insane or over the top, and these people all get it. This is an amazing night. None of us ever get to see each other or spend any time together, we’re always working separately. We’re all done up, this looks like a normal, chichi event with top actors and blah blah blah, but the second all of you guys leave, the shoes are off and everyone gets super-intimate and we have those real conversations, it’s real talk. It’s invaluable. Last year was my first time and I’ve looked forward to this night all year. I will be here every year, hell or high water, because this is invaluable and so special.”

Angela Bassett: “We inspire each other. Every woman in this room is an inspiration and we look about and we gain inspiration. That’s what is really wonderful about it because it’s an opportunity to come together, which so rarely happens throughout the year. Every woman in this room is fierce and every woman in this room is working.“

Zoe Saldana: “There’s nothing we can’t do. I will never have any other attitude than that one. I was raised that way. That’s how I’ve gotten where I’ve gotten. If I thought every morning about all the reasons I should stay home then I would not be here. We will all have reasons that the world will be against us. We have to ignore those and focus on the ones that are for us.”

Gugu Mbatha-Raw: “Sometimes you are out there on your own as an actress for months on end on location and you don’t have the camaraderie of other actresses. This is really, really special. Events like this are a reminder to support each other. That’s how things move forward.“

Carmen Ejogo: “We’re in this together and there are women here who get your journey and want to see the best for you. To know that there’s a space where you can say what you want and be heard and not be judged for it. There’s a level of understanding that is innate with all the women in this room.”

Ava DuVernay: “This is usually a safe place for actresses to get together and commiserate, talk, network, cry, celebrate, do whatever they’re going to do and they’ve never allowed a filmmaker in — this is the first year — so I feel very honored. All of these sisters are extremely special and important to the black cinematic image for the way black women are seen around the world. They have a lot to carry on their shoulders. They do it beautifully. To be invited in and honored is very emotional for me.“

Viola Davis: “Here’s the thing about being a woman of color and an actor of color: You get it. You understand that it’s going to be challenging so you find a way to navigate your way in this business and become an actor and the artist you are with what you’ve been given. But the challenge is that we’re not included in the narrative that lets us shine. That’s the only problem. If you’re the third girl from the left or the bus driver, and you’ve been in the business for 30 years, you know you can blow it out of the box. You’re just as good as anybody else, [but] you can’t show your talent being the bus driver in two scenes. That’s what we’ve been relegated as. We very rarely drive the narrative; that’s the challenge. So, it’s very important to get it out. It’s important to be in a safe place and let it out and to share.”

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We held our second annual Lucky Peach WINNERS ARE LOSERS After Party for the James Beard Books, Broadcast and Journalism Awards this past weekend at Má Pêche

In order to make the night more than just a bunch of people getting drunk at a midtown restaurant, we tried to bring the All You Can Eat issue (hitting newsstands May 20) to life at the party. Adam Gollner has a mammoth piece about the history of eating in Quebec in the forthcoming issue, so the main dining room featured a “Quebe Cornucopia” by M. Wells, along with a light show by ggeeoorrggiiaa and music by Mark Ibold, Brian Turner, and Bruno Meyrick-Jones.   

The top floor channeled Las Vegas excess, complete with an AYCE Vegas-style buffet by Paul Carmichael, as well as craps and roulette tables (with gambling for prizes, kind of Chuck E. Cheese’s style!). The “All Ewe Can Eat” themed balcony bar, featured sheep-inspired cocktails by Joaquín Simó of Pouring Ribbons, lamb ribs, and sheep paintings by Steve Keene that doubled as takeaways for guests. We’re gonna put a few those untaken paintings online to entice people to subscribe to magazine just as soon as our hangovers clear up. 

Thank you to all of our partners who made WINNERS ARE LOSERS possible: Breville, Le Creuset, Tiger Beer, and Audi. Additional thanks to Campari America, Domaine Carneros, and S.Pellegrino