life can always start up anew


What can I say to you to express my deepest apologies? There hasn’t been a nasty word that was said to you, by others, that I haven’t said myself. For that, I am sorry. We have been through so much and you are the only thing that has kept me together when everything fell apart within me. I am deeply sorry. I do not know why you haven’t given up on me. I wouldn’t blame you. I am ashamed of the way I have acted and I am regretful for how I’ve treated you. So, Body, can we start anew? Will you accept me as I am trying to accept you?

The heart that lives inside you

—  E.M.

batb 30 day fanwork celebration

14. blanket

when gaston sees the infant wrapped in a little blue blanket, his eyes well up with tears. never before in his life did he think he would have this - a loving husband, a safe home, a child to care for. he just never thought he deserved it, that happy life that everyone strived towards. gaston is not a good man, he has done some terrible things - he gets praised as a war hero but all the men he killed in battle have haunted him ever since.

but now, he can put all that aside and start anew, focus on the life he wants to build for himself, and be the man he always wished he could be.

“mr. bordeaux?” the nurse asks him. “would you like to hold your new son?” gaston glances towards lefou, who only smiles and nods, tears in his eyes as well. gaston matches that smile, nodding, before he’s suddenly holding his son - yes, his son - in his arms.

“hello,” he says, glancing down at the little guy. his smile only grows as he watches the boy’s small chest rise and fall with his breaths. gaston can’t help but laugh for a moment, in complete awe of the fact that this is real, it’s really happening to him - what did he ever do to deserve this?

suddenly, lefou is at his side, an arm wrapped around his waist, attention focused on their little bundle of joy. gaston lets his attention stay on lefou for a brief moment, smiling at the love and awe he sees in his eyes, finding his heart skipping a beat just like it had all those years ago when he notices a lock of hair falling out of lefou’s ponytail. gaston has the urge to tuck it back, but considering that his hands are occupied, he decides to let it go - besides, its imperfection makes lefou look even more beautiful, despite him clearly being so tired (gaston is too, though - it was quite a long night).

he glances back down at the baby in his arms, and for once, he feels complete​. he has his loving husband by his side and his beautiful son in his arms. gaston simply couldn’t ask for more.

Abbie Schumacher for @sevenleafsimblr

Brave | Family-oriented | Loner | Hopeless romantic | Over-emotional

Abbie’s fascinations take on a life of their own. Her parents and her brother just always ran with it. “She’s just being Abbie” just always worked. For a while. Unfortunately, her latest obsession–the end of times–has driven Abbie to the brink of paranoia. Leaving behind a tearful letter to her family, she’s taken off for parts unknown, hoping that she can sneak up on the impending apocalypse and fool it into thinking she’s dead. Who’ll be laughing when Abbie Schumacher rises up from the ashes of the world she left behind to start history anew? (Well, nobody, at least not for a generation or so.)

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Lord Montague is relieved when after a while after the tragedy Benvolio takes up a new hobby.

He is surprised, that it is painting of all things since his nephew never showed any interest in art before but he supports him nonetheless. Anything to keep the boy’s mind of his friends!

So from then onwards Benvolio is seen anew on Verona’s streets.Not hanging our with his friends, but avidly painting whatever he can spot. Slowly he makes progress not only artwise but also with his life. People start talking to him, the quiet boy who is always sitting on the market and he finds new friends. A marketwoman, some children who want to try painting as well, the old man playing the flute. Very different friends from what he used to have, but they make him feel better.

Eventually he accepts a position in tje city council, marries a nice girl, has a bunch of children, settles down. Still he spents every free minute painting, but only seldomly shares his work with others.
His wife sometimes teases him,what good art is if not shared and usually he just smiles at her words, except for the one time when he mumbles quietly; “ Not all art”

After his death many years later his kids for the first time enter their father’s office. They start sorting the papers and at last have a look on their father’s art work.
They are surprised that all of it are jst sketches for two paintings, two portraits.

Turning the paintings around they see two names. “So that’s why he started painting” mumbles Romeo,Benvolio’s first son, and shows the portraits of Romeo and Mercutio to his sister.

“He wanted to see his friends again.”


Time Machine Video of the Week

MGMT - Time to Pretend (2008)

MGMT, are a Connecticut-based indie / rock / psychedelic band, formed by Andrew VanWyngarden and Ben Goldwasser in 2002. And were later joined live and in the studio by Will Berman, Matt Asti and James Richardson.

Time to Pretend was the first single off Oracular Spectacular album, which got high rotation on radio etc and gave the band worldwide acclaim. It was the band’s debut single in the UK.

The music video contains references to Alejandro Jodorowsky’s 1973 film The Holy Mountainand the classic book Lord of the Flies. The video was directed by Ray Tintori.

I’m Feelin rough I’m Feelin raw I’m in the prime of my life.
Let’s make some music make some money find some models for wives.
I’ll move to Paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision to live fast and die young.
We’ve got the vision, now let’s have some fun.
Yeah it’s overwhelming, but what else can we do?
Get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute?

Forget about our mothers and our friends.
We were fated to pretend.

I’ll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms.
I’ll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world.
I’ll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home.
Yeah I’ll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.

But there is really nothing, nothing we can do.
Love must be forgotten. Life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we’ll get a divorce,
We’ll find some more models, Everything must run its course.

We’ll choke on our vomit and that will be the end.
We were fated to pretend.

Yeah yeah yeah

the signs as another random af mix of my favourite songs

Aries: Magnolia - Gang of Youths “I’m drunk but i’m ready to kick some ass tonight”

Vlad The Impaler - Kasabian “You can’t miss me, I’m still alive”

When They Fight They Fight - Generationals “When they fight, they fight
and when they come home at night they say, I love you baby”

Taurus: Try it Again - The Hives “They say the definition of madness is doing the same thing and expecting a different result”

Stay - Rihanna ft. Mikky Ekko “It’s not much of a life you’re living, it’s not just something you take, it’s given”

Under Control - The Strokes “I don’t want to change your mind, I don’t want to waste your time, I just want to know you’re alright”

Gemini: Lola - The Kinks “It’s a mixed up, muddled up, shook up world”

New Romantics - Taylor Swift “Heart break is the national anthem, we sing it proudly”

Retrogtade - James Blake “All your friends are gone, all your friends won’t come, so show me where you fit”

Cancer: Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers “Save some face, you know you’ve only got one”

Just a Girl - No Doubt “I can’t do the little things I hold so dear, cause it’s all those little things that I fear”

All Night - Beyoncé “my love’s too pure to watch it chip away”

Leo: Back To Black - Amy Winehouse “Me and my head high and my tears dry,
get on without my guy”

You - The 1975 “It’s my party and I’ll cry to the end”

Fire - Jimi Hendrix “Just play with me and you won’t get burned”

Virgo: Unbelievers - Vampire Weekend “I’m not excited, but should I be?”

Baby - Devendra Banhart “I finally know what I’m going after, I’m learning to let in all the laughter”

Hold Up - Beyoncé “I’m not too perfect to ever feel this worthless”

Libra: Arabella - Arctic Monkeys “She’s a modern lover, It’s an exploration, she’s made of outer space”

Common People - Pulp “You’ll never live like common people, you’ll never do what common people do, you’ll never fail like common people, you’ll never watch your life slide out of view”

Brianstorm - Arctic Monkeys “So kind of you to bless us with your effortlessness
we’re grateful and so strangely comforted”

Scorpio: Spanish Sahara - FoalsI’m the fury in your head I’m the fury in your bed I’m the ghost in the back of your head" 

Never Be Like You - Flume ft. Kai "What I would do to take away this fear of being loved allegiance to the pain, now I’m fucked up and missing you, he’ll never be like you”

Somebody Else - The 1975 “I don’t want your body but I hate to think about you with somebody else”

Sagittarius:  Time to Pretend - MGMT "Love must be forgotten. Life can always start up anew" 

Lost Stars - (Keira Knightley version) “Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand”

Miracle Mile - Cold War Kids “Get outside, get all over the world, you learn to love what you get in return”

Capricorn: Techno Fan - The Wombats “Shut up and stay with me, stay with me, or let go of my hand”

Team - Lorde “everyone’s competing for a love they won’t receive”

Come And Be Alone With Me - The Jungle Giants “It’s alright, it’s ok I didn’t need my sanity anyway”

Aquarius: Sympathy For The Devil - The Rolling Stones “what’s puzzling you is the nature of my game”

Solitude is Bliss - Tame Impala “Nothing else matters, I don’t care what I miss,
company’s okay, solitude is bliss”

Liquorlip Loaded Gun - Sticky Fingers “Once in a while I’ll show you who I am”

Pisces: 40oz on repeat - Fidlar "Because everybody’s got somebody, everybody but me Why can’t anybody just tell me that I’m somebody’s?”

Pusuit of Happiness - Kid Cudi “Everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold”

Magic Carpet Ride - Steppenwolf “why don’t you tell your dreams to me? fantasy will set you free”

anonymous asked:

My boyfriend just broke up with me and I was wondering if you had any tips on how to get over it

Well I can’t really tell you how to get over it lovebug, because only you can decide when you’ve had enough of being heartbroken, but if you want to help numb the feeling you can:

  • get rid of trinkets and tokens of this person. closure is necessary to fully move on. u need to admit to urself it’s over and it’s for the better. u could start out by returning items (of clothing, borrowed films, books, headphones, etc) and maybe boxing up photographs and gifts away from sight. also clean sheets feel right
  • surround urself by a positive group of people. plan nights/days out with ur friends. go to lunch or to the mall or to the park or wherever it is. if ur feeling lonely they can be really good company and really help u feel a little more alive again
  • take up a hobby. starting anew without someone u probably opened up ur heart to can be healing. try pottery, or sketching, maybe knitting or baking? becoming more occupied will help u feel productive and it is fun and distracting
  • start a journal. ur in a new stage of your life (no matter how short) and journaling could really help u get those feelings out on paper, it’s good for the soul tbh. and if in the end u don’t wanna keep it around you could always burn it lmao
  • in the worst case scenario if none of the positive/productive things seem to work out, u can turn to the good old binge film watching. some of my favorites are high fidelity, (500) days of summer, amelie, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, legally blonde, heathers, blue valentine, forgetting sarah marshall, kill bill (lmao) and any of ur go-to feel good films
  • music is also a go-to… some playlists i like are this one, also here, and this if u wanna really go all out
  • also this is random but i always recommend mango ice cream… its indulgent but its also a really bright flavor and idk it makes me feel bright as well??? yeah lmao i cant give advice for shit

and know that most importantly, being alone isn’t a bad thing. and all good things must come to an end (bad ones too). it’s better to be alone than in bad company, and the best person there is out there for u just so happens to be urself. u r just so great and i believe u will bounce back in no time!! i luv u very much so 😊

for myself, who I am slowly learning to love

   You always manage to surprise me. The results on the English competition are above any of our expectations. People always think you’re faking modesty, but they’ve got no clue what’s going on in that head of yours, sometimes I don’t either. Nonetheless it’s a good head, don’t lose it. I know why you didn’t expect anything from this competition; I know you barely got out of bed that day and found the strength to take the exam; I know you’re tired of everything, of trying, of letting yourself down. You always set these absurd standards for yourself which are higher than anyone else’s. You actually manage to achieve your goals but at what cost? Is it worth the sleepless nights?
   The world won’t end because you got a C on that one exam (or 3 exams). How could it when you’ve got the lightning from which life itself was created running through your veins? Even if it starts to crumble sometimes know you can always start anew. 
   Love, you will achieve greatness, you will be fine. You’ll do the things you dream of, you’ll see those whales you love one day, I promise. You will heal and flowers will grow from your scars, you will shed this skinThe world will hear the thunder in your laughter once again and will light up the night sky. But now rest, love. Let yourself grow and become. 

   Be proud. You have every right to. You did good and I love you. Always try to be better, what comes from that is irrelevant. You know you tried and that makes is better.

   Love, you’ve got sunshine in your eyes, you just couldn’t always see it through the tears but you’re done crying now.

Eternally with you, your dear self.

P.S. talk to ocean boy, I know you miss him even when he’s in the same building as you as much as you do when you look at the waves crashing endlessly and that scares the living shit out of you but he makes you feel a little less like shit sometimes and that can’t be too bad.