Reflections on wet pavements. The city itself is a natural watercolourist! It’s been a long rainy day at the library, and although I feel frustrated with myself and my work right now, it was worth rolling up just for this. 2016, Photo Diary, April 11.
Go into the world and fuck it up beautifully. Design clothes so hideous that they can’t be worn ironically. Horrify us with new ideas. Outrage outdated critics. Use technology for transgression, not lazy social living. Make me nervous!
you arrive on your first day a little early to get a good seat. fourth row right in the middle for optimal view of the board.
you’re going over your notes on the first chapter of your textbook when someone asks you “this seat taken?”
you look up only to find gorgeous brown eyes staring at you.
he’s very tall and wearing an outrageously brightly coloured red button up.
his hair is styled, yet it looks effortless as if he somehow has naturally styled curls.
you tell him it’s free and he beams down at you.
(your heart may have skipped a beat of two)
your professor walks in shortly after, passing a seating chart to the first row and asking you all to fill in your name. your seats will be the same all year long.
the guy sitting next to you smiles at you again
“guess you’re stuck with me darling.” *winning smile*
he introduces himself as Shawn and asks you for your name
when you tell him yours he lets the syllables of your name roll off his tongue and you try to hide your blush but probably fail since he smiles at you cheekily.
out of the corner of your eye you see that he’s squinting as he looks at the board. when you raise your eyebrow at him you get a “ glasses don’t work with my outfit darling.” which leaves you trying to cover your giggles.
he’s extremely vocal during the lectures always questioning the professor and the penal code. pointing out what he believes to be flaws of the system.
you learn that he wants to be an environmental lawyer.
“someone has to do something to save the polar bears.”
“why polar bears”
“THEY ARE SO CUTE WITH THEIR LITTLE WHITE PAWS AND BLACK NOSES”
(he loves polar bears he even has a button up with polar bears on it)
he’s very confident in his ability to make you blush and he knows what effect he has on you. he loves making you blush.
having study sessions with him and getting to drool over his arms as he carries the 12341923 books you guys have to learn.
his eyebrows furrowing as he doesn’t “ fucking understand how this can be an actual law.”
so much anger at the kids who want to be lawyers to get rich. law is his passion. he wants to make the world better. and these kids just want to make money.
you notice that he doesn’t have that many friends, everyone loves the kooky, colourful dude. he doesn’t like the Uptight Folk.
he spends half his time in the university library, drinking coffee like it’s water, typing away on his laptop.
He has a hairband to keep his hair out of his face. His eyebrows are so furrowed you’re worried they’ll never go back to their original form.
he mumbles to himself, wondering why this is a law and “who wrote this bullshit corporations law?” while pushing his glasses up his nose.
a hot and passionate man with the heart of a child. aka Shawn.
he tells you about all the cool conservation projects he knows of (around 56). he spends all his pocket money on supporting them.
he volunteers for a few and he’s doing an internship at a “save the bees” project during summer break.
after your first big exams that you two studied together for, he finally asks you out.
Confident!Mendes turns into Spluttering!Mendes.
you found out over the past months that he isn’t a proper blusher yet when he tries to ask you out there is a slight pink blush on his cheeks.
he picks you up for the date, a little nervous but smiling confidently at you.
he’s wearing his black denim jacket with the pin “save the bees” that he always wears in his coats over that red button up he wore the first time you met.
(he’s secretly a sap and wants to Romeo you off your feet)
he takes you to the zoo because he wants to introduce you to Margaret.
you think Margaret is a worker there that he is particularly fond of.
it’s Margaret The Polar Bear.
you both sit on the bench next to Margaret’s section.
(it’s one of those no cages zoos where they have rivers separating the animals from the visitors because it’s better for animal welfare)
during your date you ask him why he picked the seat next to you on that first day when there were so many empty ones available.
“you were the only one who stood out.” he said motioning to your signature red lips.
he walks you back to your dorm, slowly untangling his fingers from yours.
gently kissing your forehead before wishing you goodnight.
during class the next day he keeps sneaking glances at you and Beaming at you when you look back.
your relationship develops slowly yet steadily, he doesn’t want to overwhelm you
he asks you to be his girlfriend with Margaret as a witness.
cheeky smiles and rare dates turn into holding hands under the table and pecks which evolve into very very steamy make out sessions following another zoo date.
hey guys!!! just wanted to update you- im almost done with my second semester harvard!! i’m so excited to be going home for a little while soon then it’s off to paris this summer! but before then, i need to make it through the rest of this semester. here’s my current setup to write my environmental ethics & romanticism essay. here goes nothing!
A scapegoat is an object or perhaps even a sigil or whatever really that takes the curses or negative energy that’s meant for you. Whether it reflects it back to the sender or takes it into itself is something you can choose. However, the one I’m posting about is the former. Scapegoats are WONDERFUL additions to any home. It’s better to be safe than sorry.
What do I need?
Two clam shells. They do need to comfortably fit together, so they should relatively be the same size.
Thread to tie the two together. Color depends on you, but since this is for the scapegoat spell, you’ll probably want white for extra protection.
Small bells, marbles etc to put inside the shell.
Something personal to you. To make it easy it could be a nail clipping or some hair, it just needs to be something you identify as being you.
A piece of something reflective. Can be from a mirror, glass, sunglasses, maybe even dimes.
I have everything ready. What do I do?
Cleanse the two shells with ocean water. Hold the two shells together where they would connect, but keep it slightly open. Visualize just enough of your energy filling the inside of the shells. Put in a piece of yourself to help and something to make noise for when you shake it later. And if possible, a small piece of something reflective. Tie the two shells together with the thread. Speak: “Please take all curses and negative energy meant for me and reflect it back to them.” Keep it facing your window of the area you’re in most often.
Shake the shell to become accustomed to the sounds it makes. Sometimes it will make those noises when it is taking the brunt of the negative energy for you so you know when it’s happening. To keep its energies up, simply splash some ocean water on it however often you feel it needs. Once a month seems plenty.