library college
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Chapter 15: At the library's Christmas gala, everything seems like a beautiful fairytale. Sirius decides the time is right to tell Remus he's trans.
By Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 15/? (45k words and counting …)
Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Remus Lupin & Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black & James Potter, James Potter/Lily Evans Potter (side pairing)
Characters: Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, James Potter, Lily Evans, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Non-Magical, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Romance, Angst, Getting Together, Falling In Love, Libraries, College, Trans Male Character, Gay Male Character, Latino Character, Japanese-American Character, Black Character(s), Jewish Character, POV Trans Character, Bad Parenting, Parental Rejection, Homelessness, HIV/AIDS, Drug Use, Sex Work, Seattle, Friendship, Fluff and Angst, It’s not a downer I swear!, Latino!Remus, Japanese-American!Sirius, Trans!Sirius, Black!James, Jewish!Lily, Texting, bisexual!Lily, Bisexual!Sirius, Gay!Remus, Asshole!Snape, Found Family, Families of Choice, LGBTQ Themes, LGBTQ Character of Color, LGBTQ Jewish Character(s), Anxiety Disorder, Panic Attacks, Embedded Images, Poverty, Secrets, Slow Burn, Marijuana, Cuddling & Snuggling, Kissing, Lots of kissing, OMG so much kissing…
Summary: When 21-year-old assistant librarian Sirius spots a cute hipster college student at the Seattle Public Library, he just needs to figure out a subtle way of determining whether he’s into guys. But Remus’s life is more complicated than Sirius knows.


James eyed him shrewdly. “You seem kind of quiet today. What’s up?”

Sirius took a deep breath and looked down at his knees. “I think I’m going to tell him. Tonight. After the gala.”

“Wow,” said James. “That’s huge. You sure you’re ready?”

Hesitantly, Sirius nodded. “He – trusted me with some personal stuff the other night. I want to show him I trust him, too. And – I think maybe I have to tell him.”

James rested a hand on his shoulder. “You don’t have to tell him anything you don’t want to.”

“I know.” Sirius looked up into James’s concerned hazel eyes feeling scared but resolved. “I want to tell him. But also – I don’t think I can put it off any longer. I need to know how he’ll react, before it’s too late.”


28.09.16 Two hour study session in the library! Making sure I’ve got all the books I need in a list so I can go get them later, but I’ve already picked up Marx’s theory of history. This library gives me chills and also I feel like I’m at hogwarts. I hope it never wears off. I played quidditch today for the first time too! Really fun - I scored a goal and tackled two people to the ground! Bake off tonight and then to the pub! Xxxxx emily

We see movies in which people are represented as being in love who never talk with one another, who fall into bed without ever discussing their bodies, their sexual needs, their likes and dislikes. Indeed, the message received from the mass media is that knowledge makes love less compelling; that it is ignorance that gives love its erotic and transgressive edge. These messages are often brought to us by profiteering producers who have no clue about the art of loving, who substitute their mystified visions because they do not really know how to genuinely portray loving interaction.
—  “all about love: New Visions” by bell hooks

16.12.16// a shoot from my yesterday studying at the HU library after lunch.
I enjoyed the quite ‘Gruppenarbeitsraum’ - group work space  -  and finished my Referat. On Friday and Saturday I have a Blockseminar, from 10 am to 18 pm, then I’m done for this year! 

Going to spend the entire afternoon in the library preparing for classes and reading my two textbooks. Did all my chores and planning during the morning, now off to fetch my new glasses and then it’s time to find a cozy spot in the library!

Ps: I have been practicing piano lately, something that I haven’t done for the past four years and it feels soooo amazing to play again!