liberal project of individualization

acamaeda  asked:

There is a strong possibility that this isn't the ending. Hussie said he'd be making a "thing resembling an epilogue", which could be basically anything that comes after "The end", regardless of content. Even if Hussie's done, though, the fandom isn't. Homestuck: Act Omega is a project to create a possible ending for Homestuck, from the current "ending" point. We could definitely use someone like you to help figure out what the plot should be. The official blog is hsactomega on Tumblr.

I definitely respect the work you all are doing, and am both flattered and nodding with approval that you’re using a good number of my Aspect theories and such as a guide. But…

Here’s the thing.

I fell in love with Andrew’s vision. With the inexhaustible effort and love he put into Homestuck, with events and developments that were (usually) more satisfying than anything I expected beforehand. And even if the ending execution of it lacked so many answers, and felt so unsatisfying, it feels like it’d be the height of arrogance to imagine I could do better, just because I put my thumb on a decently foreshadowed story idea or two.

You, as well as some of the people who’ve worked with you, have gotten extremely close to calling this project “a ‘real’ ending for Homestuck”, and even if that’s not what you meant – even if it was just a little of our collective bitterness leaking through, and you meant something closer to how you corrected yourself – it still makes me extremely uncomfortable to put my name anywhere near such a project.  Especially with my attitude so much closer to what wtfihs said.  :(

However, I do recognize the substantial merit in such a project. I realize that Andrew might have signaled the desire for something like this loud and clear, with his possibly-literal newspost hint “I will leave you to draw your own conclusions”. I remember how upon the advent of Paradox Space, Andrew made these telling comments:

As I work on finishing the story, I tend to think a lot about where Homestuck as a creative property goes from here. It’s hard to ignore the fact that it has turned into something much bigger than just a long, crazy story on the internet. It has a lot of fans, and there’s a whole culture surrounding it. Friendships have been made, lives have been changed, or so people tell me. Those who like HS are extremely fond of the characters, yet those characters are trapped - “stuck” if you will - inside a very particular narrative, which itself has been at the mercy of my ability to produce it. So when I think about the future of Homestuck, I envision projects which liberate the things people love about it from the story itself, and most importantly, from my intensive personal effort.

So this website [ParadoxSpace] is the first major step in that direction.

It’s not just possible, but when paired with the unstuck and unbound theories highlighting the literal death of the author and its implications, actually likely that Andrew intended the ending of Homestuck to bring about something EXACTLY like this, like your project and any competing projects we’ll eventually see. Projects that liberate characters whose souls – their characters and individual uniqueness, now immortal thanks to this story – from the story itself, and allow us to draw them in all the directions we wish at once.

I’m, well…

I’m not going to rule out consulting for your project a little eventually? But first, I’ll need to wait a bit for some more proof that this project is intended to build upon Andrew’s work as he intended, in a sense, rather than to bitterly show him up. I know you’ve clarified your intentions, and I believe you for the most part, but wtfihs summed up a certain intense humility I feel that has always kept me from arguing that ANYTHING I’ve theorized – theories which I’ve specifically argued as possibilities for Andrew’s story-woven intent, rather than wish-it-were-true fantasies – would have been “better” than whatever actually developed. That weird humility and slavish devotion to the author has been deeply rooted in me for years and years, maybe before I saw Andrew’s work, even. The cautionary, unhealthily-strict lectures that part of me gives the rest of me aren’t going to be quieted easily. It’s just too much of a part of who I am.

Not that I’m going to judge others for feeling differently! I’m just kind of weird that way.

(It doesn’t help that the ending of Homestuck has left me a little too sore to really think about Homestuck much, so I’ve been heavily avoiding reading up on things like your project (for my own mood’s sake), and that’s not likely to heal for a little while… I’ll probably immerse myself in Overwatch and Dark Souls 3 for another week or two.)

So, I’ve gotta apologize that my ego doesn’t let me participate in the Homestuck: Act Omega project for the moment. But for anyone else motivated by Andrew’s challenge to draw your own conclusions – rather than bitterness – I’d heavily encourage you to take a look at the Act Omega project here. I haven’t even clicked the link; that’s how painful thinking about Homestuck and all the unanswered questions feels right now for me. But some of you aren’t as sore, and are eagerly checking my blog for more answers, more we can milk out of this cool story we’re all fans of. I think that given how this meshes with what Andrew’s hinted to be his vision, checking this sort of thing out may be pretty worthwhile for y’all.

EDIT: I clicked the link at least tentatively, and it looks like you’re making a concerted effort to call this a loving, faithful fan continuation rather than some sort of “real ending”. I’m glad to see that.  :D