liberal arts

My desk today.

Most of the time when I’m working I put on a nice background sound from Noisli, wait for a soothing background colour, and put it on full screen – that’s what you can see on my computer.

It’s quite messy today: I’m supposed to write an essay on the use of English slurs by non-native speakers (hence the books to the left), but I’m not feeling very motivated, and am reading my Christine Delphy book instead.
The rest is just clutter: my planner, sticky notes, other notebooks, folders, language books, water, tea, caffeinated drinks, and so on and so on…

PS. The Jan van Eyck reference is totally on purpose.

‘Person of Color’

I was shocked the first time I heard it in real life.
As if I was hearing someone repeat a paper written by a kkk member.

I am Mexican, a Hispanic; not a ‘person of color’.
My native ancestors were persecuted for their religion during la Conquesta.
As were my Catholic ancestors, during la guerra Christera.
Neither died as martyrs to be belittled to ‘martyrs’ of color’.

My veins are both rich in Native and Spanish blood,
I refuse to let that be forgotten and replaced with a term, as insulting as: ‘colored blood’.

My skin as white as the snow that falls onto Spainish land during winter. My eyes as dark as the bark on trees in my country, my hair as black as the coal found under my native Mexico.
I refuse to let that be forgotten, and recognized as simply ‘colored traits’.

My last name is a Spanish last name, which I carry as proudly as my first name: A Nahuatl name.
Which is a constant reminder of who I am, and where I come from. I refuse to let my name ever be considered just ‘colored name’.

I am a Mexican, a Hispanic, and I refuse to let that be stripped away and forgotten under a term like ‘person of color’.

-csm
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