For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.
In the last few months I’ve begun learning how to live without sickness. After years of illness and growth, I always thought I was chasing the light, trying desperately to get out of the darkness but not really knowing how to reach my goal. Being happy and healthy always seemed unreachable. I always felt stuck and miserable. It made me bitter and I began to hold a certain amount of disdain towards people that seemed to have their life together; oblivious to the fact that most people aren’t happy but through social media they convince everyone that they are. Just like me. I felt uncomfortable with being “not okay.” and I always had to find a way to fix my own battles. I refused to rely on anyone.
No one can understand the roads you’ve travelled or the wars you’ve fought in. They see what you want them to see and if you’re anything like me, I was darn good at hiding what was inside. I was a jumbled mess and I couldn’t think with clarity or precision. I had to learn who I was, embrace my past so that I could plunge into the future with a new fervour for life- a new excitement for beginning again.
Without struggle you don’t grow. And most of the time you don’t realise how beautiful and inspiring you are. Maybe you consider yourself a caterpillar holed up in yourself waiting to sprout your wings and become a butterfly. Or maybe you are the butterfly but you can’t see or feel your wings. So look at yourself in the mirror, stop searching for the flaws and focus on the beauty and be true to yourself and love the skin you’re in. And remember to fly, baby fly. xo
Optional: I sandwiched my mac and cheese after it was cooked with two cooked Boca Spicy Chik’n patties. (they are meat free!)
Cook macaroni according to the package directions. Drain.
In a saucepan, pour coconut oil over medium heat. Stir in enough flour to make a roux. Add milk to roux slowly, stirring constantly. Stir in hummus, peanut butter and other seasonings. Cook over low heat until the sauce is a little thick. Put macaroni in large casserole dish, and pour sauce over macaroni. Stir well.
Melt coconut oil in a skillet over medium heat. Add breadcrumbs and brown. Spread over the macaroni and cheese to cover. Sprinkle with a little smoked paprika.
Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 30 minutes. Serve.
Alright, this isn’t an acai bowl but it could easily be one. I’m working on getting my Acai bowl loving craze on but haven’t found a place that I can get good Acai juice or powder. (I haven’t looked hard enough) It’ll change soon. If you want this to be an Acai bowl, just switch out the juice with acai juice or add the powder in with the other ingredients. xo.
½ cup of coconut yogurt ( I make my own )
½ Cup of juice or water.
2 frozen bananas.
Cup of frozen strawberries
Cup of frozen blackberries
Cup of frozen blueberries
Optional: A few leaves of mint for a refreshing taste.
Add whatever supplements to the mix, blend and then top with whatever you want. I like to put nuts and grains on my smoothies and smoothie bowls. Enjoy!
Health benefits of this smoothie -
Boosts Immune System The antioxidants like vitamin A, vitamin B complex, vitamin C, vitamin E, anthocyanin, copper, iron, selenium, and zinc contain in black and blueberries help boost the body’s immune system so enable the body to fight against viral and bacterial infections.
Neutralizes Free Radicals Blueberries are packed with Anthocyanin, a pigment responsible for the dark blue color of the blueberries. This powerful antioxidant help neutralize free radicals that can lead to cancer and other age-related diseases.
Improves Memory Blueberries are probably the best brain food of all because they increase the potential of neuron signals, protect brain against oxidative stress and reduce the age-related memory problems, such as dementia and Alzheimer’s disease. Researchers found that a diet that includes blueberries significantly improve memory and brain functions.
Maintains Good Eyesight Nutrients contain in black and blueberries has proved helpful in enhancing and maintaining people’s eyesight. Black and blueberries are great source of Vitamin A which is an essential nutrient for maintaining good eyesight.
Lowers Cholesterol Levels One of the black and blueberries health benefit is their ability to lower cholesterol levels naturally. Recent research shows that a compound in black and blueberries prove to lower cholesterol as effectively as prescription drugs but without side effects.
Prevents Heart Disease Black and blueberries have the ability to keep cholesterol levels under control, thus improve heart health. The presence of antioxidants and fiber content makes this fruit a natural food supplement to prevent heart disease.
Prevents Urinary Tract Infections Another health benefit of blueberries is their ability to not only prevent urinary tract infections, but also cure them. Recent study at Rutgers Blueberry Cranberry Research Center in Chatsworth, NJ, has showed that blueberries have compounds similar to cranberries that used to prevent and treat urinary tract infections (UTI).
Prevents Cancer Several Compounds in black and blueberries such as Ellagic Acid and Pterostilbene are known for their cancer prevention and healing properties. Laboratory study published in the Journal of Agricultural and Food Chemistry showed that phenolic compounds in black and blueberries can inhibit colon cancer cell proliferation.
Prevents Constipation and Improve Digestion Black and blueberries are rich in fiber, a nutrient which helps prevent constipation, while copper, fructose, sodium, and vitamins in black and blueberries help to improve digestion.
Reduces Belly Fat Researchers at the Michigan University claimed that eating blueberries may help reduce belly fat. In a study conducted on mice for 90 days, scientists has proved that mice that were given blueberries-enriched diet had less belly fat than those with normal diet.
Slows Aging process Black and blueberries have been shown to have a positive impact on aging. The antioxidant and anti-inflammatory properties of black and blueberries build a protective layer around the brain to fight the signs of aging and deterioration.
Acts as Natural Anti-depressants Black and blueberries would keep you in good mood and reduce depression symptoms without the use of any medication.
Writing words on a page that spill your heart and mind seems like such an unnerving, unconventional process. You’re stuck in the constant realization that other eyes will look upon your work, judge it, take it in and they have the choice to expand it by applying it to their life or shutting off, and rejecting it. Rejection is a frightening word for me and one that is always shooting through me and constricts my mind and my soul. It’s a constant growing disease, and I guess, I’m trying to use the right medicine of hope and trust to defeat it and be able to stand up and advance into a happier and healthier version of myself. Life is full of so much more than rejection, fear and the lack of comfort. Be uncomfortable. Embrace it and it soon won’t bother you anymore.
That is why I started a blog. I want to have my mind, my memories and struggles written on a page and be shared with the world. Maybe it will impact someone and maybe it won’t. But in the future it will impact and encourage me to see how far I have come. This space is going to be full of surprises, ups and downs, all arounds and my life. My heart on a page, my soul written between words and you are lucky enough to read them.
I will try and be as candid as possible, as open as one can be and I hope that will challenge you to be unafraid of the world and the constant critics. They will always be there but you won’t. Have the ability to trust yourself, to comfort yourself and to live life abundantly and full of no regrets. I read an interesting quote the other day and it said, “The people that died yesterday had plans for today.” Which made me realise just how stuck we are into our routines. We go to work, we eat, we sleep, we drive, we exercise and we get stuck in the daily grind of no purpose. We get lost in it and we never truly live freely. We are always aware but not aware enough of our time clock and how fast a day goes by.
So I challenge you to plan carefully, say what you need to say and be unafraid to be bare, and open. It’s important to live life to it’s fullest and try different things. Find your heart and your soul. You might not like it but guess what, you also might love it. Sometimes all it takes is for you to open your heart, try something and begin to be the change.
Know that a closed heart is never a free one to love and to be loved.
Little luxuries always lift my spirits. When I’m having a bad day, when I feel like death warmed up and my body isn’t working the way it should, I find myself grasping at strings and focusing on the little things that make me smile, make me feel better. Sometimes I think we forget how beautiful and awe-inspiring it is to be alive. Everywhere I look there is beauty to be discovered and captured - and I’m glad I’m capable of finding my happy places. Even if it is just knowing that I can roll out of my bed, stand and have food on the table. That’s comfort enough. In some areas in this world, that is a luxury. It’s also a simple act that illness signifies the importance of. I rarely take it for granted.
This past month, due to a significant change in remedies to combat my disease, I find myself almost paralyzed by it and my body feels like a cage. Where I’m poking my hands out of the bars, reaching to touch the beautiful pieces that people experience every day, wanting to feel what it’s like to breathe clear air, and not have achy bones. I wonder how it is to live without taking a hundred steps backwards and begin feeling the waters raising as I sink into a mere existence of illness. It breaks my heart, it crushes my spirit. But I go on.
But a way of rising above it, is being thankful and accepting of it. Without my disease pointing out my weak parts, I would have never grown and achieved my level of emotional sincerity and I would have never understood the significance of being grateful (and among other things). Illness is a thrilling adventure; one that is fat with fears that push you out of your comfort zone, and take you a little farther than you want to go but regardless- with the right mindset, you emerge victorious. It’s a battle - and a hard one too - but there is always a way to find yourself in the light, even if it’s just imagining yourself standing there.
How I find myself in the light while being sick is by spoiling myself and ensuring that I’m taking the best care of myself that I can. By finding those little luxuries I encourage my mind and soul, pushing myself forward and getting just a step closer to wellness by loving myself. Wether that luxury be having a bubble bath, making a smoothie, talking to a friend, going on a walk or playing with my pets, it’s the little things that make the big things more significant.
One day, I know I’ll be able to take back my life. I’ll be able to ride my horses the way I want to. I’ll be able to write my music and sing without the fear of being fatigued and paid out by my body. One day, I’ll reach my goal; I’ll be there. But all great things take time. I’m waiting to shine but I don’t lose hope. I can see myself in the light of health and prosperity. I know I’m headed somewhere and where I’m headed is somewhere good.
I hope this encourages you to keep pressing on through the hardships and loving yourself enough to care and spoil yourself. You deserve it; you always deserve it.