liar and thief

  • Voltage guy: yeah I'm not interested in dating or falling in love with anyone.
  • Me: ( aww why tho? U hot and I know I'm ugly but who the fuck cares man oh well *sigh* )
  • Voltage guy: I am interested in a certain someone..
  • Me:'s me.
Dear Voltage

Aye man I’m sick of voltage having only these clueless women who just believe anything and just are all around hella naïve like make the MC a mean girl make the MC an intelligent girl make the MC a hoe dang MAKE THE MC SOMEBODY WHO CAN PUT 2 AND 2 TOGETHER AND ACTUALLY GET 4 AND NOT 3 OR SOME SHIT DAMN GIVE ME A MC THAT CAN ACTUALLY LIE ! They’re doing better cause I like the MC from Liar! Uncover the Truth but I truly wish they could make the MC’s more reliable on certain things.

Dramas I've watched in April

Finished Dramas:

Beautiful Gong Shim (10/10)- I watched this after Chief Kim aired because I needed more Namgoong min in my life and it did not disappoint.

Strong Woman Do Bong Soon (6/10): only liked the main leads (and maybe the brother idk?) and the rest of the Drama was just a shit show with racism, sexism and just yuck. I won’t be coming back to watch this ever again as one time was enough for me. Unlike Weightlifting Fairy which was 1000x more better than this and I would actually watch that again.

The King of Romance (8/10): Started this a long time ago and managed to go around to finish it. It’s a pretty ok Chinese drama so if you like those give it a try.

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How to do a Redemption Arc Right

Okay, I’m going to have some spoilers for Guardians of the Galaxy 2 so if you haven’t seen it, skip this.

So Yondu is a Ravager. They’re basically space pirates so that means he has done a lot of terrible things in his past. We also find out he brought children to Ego and later found out that Ego killed his children. That is right. Ego hired Yondu to bring him his kids and Ego murdered them. Granted, Ego is the one at fault but Yondu helped despite not knowing this. So not only is a liar, a thief, and a cheat but he also helped a man kill countless children. Of course, Yondu regrets this. So that already makes him a decent character because he knows what he did was wrong.

Then, when Peter kills off Ego, Peter is left on the dying planet. He think he’s going to die. But Yondu comes and saves him. Yondu then gives Peter the only space suit, leaving Yondu to freeze in the cold grip of space. He doesn’t ask to be forgiven, he just tells Peter than he was happy to have Peter in his life. He doesn’t demand to be forgiven, he doesn’t feel like he deserves it.

And that is what makes a good redemption arc. A character must not demand it. A character must earn it but they must not demand it and we must know that they realize they made a mistake.

Sorry, I just have a lot of feelings about Yondad.


In 2008 Ann Rule published one final chapter to her book “The Stranger Beside Me” (originally published in 1980). In this chapter she answers commonly asked questions to the best of her ability with the knowledge she has obtained over the years. 

 Who was Ted’s biological father? 

This has never been absolutely established. His mother, Eleanor Louise Cowell, said simply that Ted’s father was a “sailor.” His birth certificate listed his father as Lloyd Marshall, thirty, an Air Force veteran, a graduate of penn state university. Jack Worthington was another name listed as his father. Born at the Elizabeth Lund Home for Unwed Mothers in Burlington, Vermont, on November 24, 1946, Ted had “illegitimate” stamped on his birth certificate. Many feel that he was a child of incest, fathered by his mother’s father, a man known for his violent temper. To the best of my knowledge, blood samples were never taken to establish or refute this. DNA testing was fifty years in the future. Ted had many names: Cowell, Nelson, Bundy, and all the names he stole from other men to protect his identity when he was on the run. 

 Did Ted Bundy really father a child in prison? 

Yes, I believe he did. A frequent visitor to Raiders Prison in Starke, Florida, told me that prisoners in the early 1980s pooled their money to bribe guards to allow them intimate time alone with their female visitors. Whoever won that lottery did have enough privacy and time to impregnate a wife or girlfriend. Furthermore, the baby girl born to Carole Ann Boone is said to resemble Ted a great deal. 

 Where are Carole Ann Boone and her daughter now?

 I have always tried not to know anything about Ted’s ex-wife (who divorced him before he was executed) and child, feeling that if I had no information, I could never accidentally tell anyone in the media details that would invade their privacy. I have heard that Ted’s daughter is a kind and intelligent young woman– but I have no idea where she and her mother may live. They have been through enough pain. 

 Where are Meg Anders and her daughter, the child who looked upon Ted as a father figure back in the seventies? 

I have also attempted to know very little about Meg and her daughter, who is now around forty. Meg wrote a book, using the pseudonym “Elizabeth Kendall” many years ago. Entitled “The Phantom Prince: My Life with Ted Bundy” and published by a small Seattle press that no longer exists, it has been out of print for years. I was surprised recently to receive a phone call from Liane Anders, Meg’s daughter. Ted had hurt her emotionally, too. In the tangled way humans respond to trauma, Liane said she felt a lingering guilt about the young women Ted killed– as if there might have been some way she could have stopped him from killing. I pointed out that she should have no responsibility whatsoever for what Ted did. She was only a little girl when it all happened, a child who once loved and trusted him. Perhaps one day, she will write about her feelings, and I hope that “Elizabeth Kendall” will see that her book is reissued. 

 Was Ted Bundy ever cleared of homicides he was suspected of? 

Perhaps once or twice– officially. I believed that he had killed Katherine Merry Devine after picking her up in the University District in December 1973– and so did her parents and many detectives. But there was a “sleeper” suspect that Thurston County, Washington, sheriff’s detectives were also watching over the twenty-eight years her murder went unsolved. His name was William E. Cosden and he had a record for rape and a doubtful acquittal on rape and murder charges back in Maryland. In March 2002, DNA retrieved from Katherine Merry’s body and clothing was compared to Cosden’s and it was a definite match. Cosden had believed he skated away clear. He had been visiting relatives who owned a service station in Olympia when the fourteen-year-old hopped down from the ride she had gotten from Seattle. He met her there in the gas station/truckers’ stop, and she trusted him. Cosden is now safely locked away in prison. 

 Wasn’t Ted Bundy really nice…. underneath? 


 Were you ever afraid when you were with Ted Bundy– especially all alone at the crisis clinic all night long? 

Again, the answer is no. I had always prided myself on my ability to detect aberrance in other humans– both because I had that innate skill and through experience and training. And I have berated myself silently for a long time because I saw nothing threatening or disturbing in Ted’s façade. He was very kind to me, solicitous of my safety, and seemingly empathetic. 

 The only clue I had was that my dog– who liked everyone– didn’t like Ted at all. Whenever he bent over my desk at the crisis clinic, she growled and the hackles on her neck stood up. The lesson is clear: pay attention to your dog! 

 Don’t you think that Ted Bundy should have been kept alive– and studied by psychiatrists while he served life in prison? 

No, I don’t. Ted would have found a way to escape again, and he would have been more dangerous than ever. He fooled any number of intelligent, experienced people– including myself– and he was fully capable of doing it again and again. That was too big a risk to take. 

 What was Ted’s I.Q.? 

It was 124 on the Standard Wechsler-Bellevue. Enough to graduate from college and obtain further degrees. However, he never tested at the genius level. 

 Where is Ted Bundy buried? 

No one but those closest to him knows. His body was cremated, and he had asked to have his ashes scattered in the Cascade Mountains in Washington State. This was probably a wise choice, as a recognizable grave would be in danger of being desecrated. 

 I have read in numerous print (that) in July 1986, Bundy’s execution was stayed just fifteen minutes before it was to take place. And then again in October, his execution was stayed just seven hours before. Are these accounts accurate or just media sensation? And equally important, if Ted Bundy had only fifteen minutes or seven hours to live, why did he not confess until January 1989? Did his attorneys assure him that he would not be executed? Why did he wait and not pull this card in 1986? How did he know he wouldn’t be executed then? 

First of all, he did not come within fifteen minutes of execution in July 1986; it was fifteen hours. He did come within seven hours of dying in November that year. His attorneys had filed eighteen appeals. I think he had begun to feel invincible– that there would always be another chance. He could not have known absolutely, however, that he wouldn’t sit in Old Sparky on each date set. He took a chance, and he won again. However, neither I nor anyone else could say then– or now–what Ted was thinking. And this brings us to the most omnipresent question of all: What was Ted Bundy really like? I don’t know. He was so many things to different people. He was an actor, a liar, a thief, a killer, a schemer, a stalker, a charmer, intelligent but not brilliant, and doomed. I don’t think even Ted knew what he was really like. 

 -Ann Rule September 2008 from “The Stranger Beside Me”

Let’s talk about Silver.

This post is partly a response to this brilliant post by @squid-inspiration and to this equally brilliant one by @twilight-sparx, but also summarizes some of my personal thoughts upon the subject of John Silver. 

Here is the thing: Silver has never really changed as a person, he has grown some, he’s discovered unknown qualities in himself, but ultimately, he is still the exact man we see in season one. The interesting thing is that he has everyone - including Flint, Madi, and probably even himself - convinced that he is a good man when in truth, he absolutely isn’t. 

Silver starts the show as a drifter, committed to one selfish goal - his independence and financial security.  He’s a liar, a thief, and operates under no illusion of grandeur. He’s not necessarily cruel or interested in getting his hands dirty, but he’s unscrupulous. He has no moral principles, he actively refrains from passing moral judgment, he avoids attachment. 

When he allies with Flint, he does so knowing what Flint is capable of. He doesn’t blink an eye when he finds Flint cradling Gates’ dead body. Where Du Fresne has trouble grasping the extent of Flint’s amibition, Silver admires him for it - not because he thinks Flint has a noble goal, simply because he recognizes Flint’s singular dedication. 

Mid-season two, Silver’s priorities start to change. He’s been accepted into the ranks of the crew, he realizes that he has found a grateful audience for his antics, he realizes that he can gain influence, he makes the addictive experience of what it feels like to belong. That’s when his goal changes, and instead of being focused only on his own prosperity, his goal becomes belonging - because he has seen the appeal of it. His loyalty toward the crew - his unability to abandon them - comes as a surprise to himself. 

However, this newfound sense of belonging does not change who he is. It doesn’t change his moral ompass. He remains with the crew not because he’s committed to the cause or lifestlye of the pirates, he remains because he has formed an attachment which is strongly tied to what the crew means to him - what the crew can do for him. Silver is blinded by the new sense of importance he finds in being a quartermaster. He likes the power, the admiration. Acknowledgment and validation. The men like him. The men take his orders. The men listen to him.

Then season three wraps up, and Silver finds something even more alluring. True power. We see him get closer to Flint and grow more confident. Things are going well for him: Long John Silver is born, he finds Madi, he’s starting to be perceived as a leader in his own right. But what he still doesn’t have is any kind of principle that goes beyond what is good for him and his loved ones. His conversation with Flint at the end of season three - it states quite clearly that the most important thing to Silver is his own survival, and the best possible outcome that ensures his continued wellbeing. 

The war has never been Silver’s war. Flint is sorely mistaken if he believes, only for a second, that Silver is doing more than tagging along because it’s the most beneficial life for him at that particular moment. Silver’s personality has not changed, it’s only that he’s found a part to play which holds a different allure - the shiny, new pirate persona is a reward all on its own.

Silver loves Madi. Absolutely. He loves her a lot more than he loves his crew, and the inherent selfishnesss of a love that prioritizes a beloved’s life over those of everyone else becomes most obvious now, in season four. 

That is not to say that Flint, in his own way, is any less selfish than Silver. His selfishness, however, is less centered around his personal needs - emotional fulfillment, other people’s esteem and admiration - it’s focused more on abstract principles that he sacrifices everyone and everything to, even his own happiness.

Whereas Silver sacrifices everyone and everything for the things that bring him joy and gratification. 

For Silver, the question of whether it’s the right thing to exchange the cache for Madi is never even worthy of consideration. The cause has never been important to him, the cause, for Silver, is completely random. The crew no longer matters, loyalty toward Flint or their allies no longer matters. All that is left is Madi and what she means to him

His priorities may change, but Silver is still first and foremost an opportunist. Flint, on the other hand, is an idealist, or at least someone who is willing to deny himself when it means fighting for a goal that he forces himself to believe in. No less selfish, but certainly not more so, and as opposed to Silver, Flint actually has a working moral compass. That’s why Flint hates himself so much. 

All of that doesn’t mean that Silver isn’t capable of being compassionate, surprisingly brave, even loyal as long as there’s nothing at stake. Silver is not a good man, but he’s certainly no worse than any of the other characters in the show. Ultimately, Silver is playing a role, just as Flint does, but I think he’s a litle too convinced that he actually is Long John Silver, feared and respected pirate captain. I think he’s in denial about a lot of things, first and foremost his own responsibility. Just as he’s trying to blame Flint in 4.08 for the things he has done willingly and for his own, personal gain, he has been trying to re-frame his conflict with Billy as something that Billy presumaby made him do. 

For some reason, everyone else (apart from Billy) is buying into this narrative as well. Especially Flint, who has become so attached to Silver that he falsely attributes some of the virtues of James McGraw and Thomas Hamilton to him. 

I really think that Flint is in love with Silver - not necessarily in a romantic or sexual way, there’s very little for me to indicate that kind of attraction. But Flint’s assessment of Silver in 4.08? It’s his infatuation speaking. He’s been conned, same way as everyone else, into believing that Silver is a good person. If Flint has burrowed himself in Silver’s head, as Hands says, the opposite is also true: Silver has wormed his way into Flint’s heart, and he’s what Flint, who has pretty much given up on his own happiness, sees as his legacy. Flint, who wanted Thomas and Miranda as Nassau’s governors, now wants Silver and Madi as Nassau’s pirate king and queen. And while he may be right about Madi, I think he’s sorely mistaken about Silver. 

If we assume that both Flint and Silver survive the show, and end up as they do in Treasure Island, I think that ultimately, Silver will suffer the greater loss. His own sense of self-worth and purpose is now tied so strongly to how other people perceive him, to his new, shiny, position of power, the glory, that I think it will be difficult for him to accept that that he no longer has it. Silver will give up the war, but he will always mourn his own loss of relevance. He will become the Long John Silver of Treasure Island, the old man who was a part of something exciting and important, who can’t get over the loss of something that was bigger than him. A veteran in peace, talking about the good old times. Exaggerating his own importance, his own greatness, and incapable of letting go of the treasure and everything it stands for. 

God abhors sin, God punishes sin, God never condones sin, but God faithfully forgives the sins of the repentant.

God forgave the murder, the prostitute, the adulterer, the liar, the thief, the hypocrite, the coward, the prideful, the lazy, the disrespectful, the doubter, the slanderer, the immoral, the sinner.

No sin is to deep, no shame is to great that the grace of Jesus Christ cannot find you. God is faithful, and He will always forgive those who come to Him.

About the class trial...

I think one thing that’s majorly overlooked in the class trial is the effect it had on Phoenix. Sure, it wasn’t DL-6 or SL-9 or your shitty father leaving you behind and disappearing from the world for 7 years but … 

Phoenix was a kid when it happened. And not like, twelve. He was still in grade school. At that age, you’re kind of at the stage where “everyone is kind of your friend,” and the teacher is especially the biggest authority figure in their lives, next to their parents. And besides teaching, it’s their job to maintain order, to hear each side of the case fairly and equally. To be a judge, if you will.

So the class “trial” (it was more of a ganging up tbh) resulted in everyone Phoenix thought were his friends and the person a kid is supposed to be able to trust ganging up on him, calling him things he wasn’t, not even giving him a chance to defend himself. His conceptions of people he thought he could trust were completely shattered, even after Larry and Miles jumped in.

In those few moments before they jumped in, can you imagine how alone he must’ve felt when no one believed him? Even when he knew he was innocent, everyone still pointed their fingers, calling him a liar, a thief, and so on and so forth.

I guess it explains why he befriends few people (we don’t really know much about his life between grade school and college), but when they’re friends, he clings hard.