Me:*goes shopping* I need new gel pens, and crayons, and OH THAT STUFFIE IS CUTE I NEEED - and this floral dress, and some cute jammies, and I should get myself a coloring book *-*
Also me:*goes shopping* Okay, all black and maroon clothes, a new lipstick, black eyeliner, new nose rings, Oh - I should call and schedule my tattoo appointment....and buy those concert tickets. Should I dye my hair? I should dye my hair.
“What did you expect? I was all alone in the world. I decided that if I was to live in grief, I might as well be surrounded by…beautiful things. Even if it was with a man for whom I felt nothing. I was drawn to the darkness I felt within him. I ached to be consumed by it.”