I made my own tarot spread! After talking to someone about what I would say to myself 20 years ago when I was a 16 year old. That had me thinking, I wonder what myself in 20 years would tell me now. My friend said, “You should do a tarot spread about that.” So this is it!
1. What should I be doing right now?
2. What am I doing right now that is good, and I should keep doing?
3. Relationship advice.
4. Career/Job advice.
5. Spiritual advice.
6. Health advice.
7. If you could go back to my age, what would you do?
8. If you could go back to my age, what would you stop doing?
So I’m now going to read my love letter and see what it says. If you try this out and post it please let me know!
You’re gonna get depressed sometimes. You’re gonna have weeks where you don’t feel like eating. Where gravity is working overtime like its afraid of getting laid off, and you can barely lift your fork to your mouth, and you’re going to have a choice. Do you want to see this world as ugly, or beautiful?
you’re going to have to climb through a thorny mess of contradictions, underground rivers, and sometimes what you love the most will cause your biggest problem because you know what’s awesome? world peace. and you know what else is awesome? catapults. and that’s just the goddamn truth this world is so confusing but you’re gonna be fine, you’re gonna be fine
“I’m writing this letter because I don’t want you, my 16-year-old self to carry these regrets with you for the rest of your life. Now, ten years in your future, Kakeru is no longer with us. Don’t lose what’s important to you. Please keep a close eye on Kakeru.”
I’ve decided to do this as a letter to my sixteen year old self who was struggling and needed words of encouragement. I know that others are struggling in the way I used to and I hope they can find some comfort in my words. Also, I am always here for anyone who wants or needs to talk.
A Letter to my 16 Year Old Self,
You’ve just figured out who you are. You’ve just figured out that you aren’t the only one who feels this way. You are relieved, happy and absolutely terrified. You are navigating a sea of bullying and invasive questions every day. You feel isolated. You feel guilty. You wonder if it you will ever be happy or feel normal. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that you have to go through this. I’m sorry that you have to struggle with this and advocate for yourself. I’m sorry that you had to wait for it to get better but it did and it is better. .You will graduate high school, you will go to university, you get engaged to an amazing woman, you will finally be able to medically transition, you will eventually get to a point in your life where you don’t feel constant dysphoria, where you can walk down the street without fear, you will get to be happy . You will get to thrive.
It’s not fair that you have to go through this and wait for tings to get better. It’s not fair that you have to wait and I am so sorry that you do. But, it does get better. Life goes on. Circumstances change. This will not always be your reality.
ok so watsky unlisted a bunch of videos and one of them is letter to my 16 year old self and i just rewatched it and i literally teared up at the end omg its been five years but it still really hits home every time